Dear Diary,

I'm in Tartarus, I'm sure of(illegible)ave no idea where I am now, but I am most certainly in the worst(illegible)

I'm sorry, please give me a moment to try to compose myself...

So after Polaris and Stratus left me, I kind of broke down. The very idea of being forced to marry that disgusting cock, let alone becoming his pet again, was too much in that moment. There was no point in trying to escape; I know Polaris has layer upon layer of magical security systems set up around the estate, most of which he probably created himself. I doubt even the princesses could break through the magic barriers in place around this estate from inside them...

Eventually I ran out of tears... I had one last sliver of hope left to me; Starsong is here at the estate and she and mom have always been on my side. With any luck the three of us could come up with some way to escape Polaris's clutches. I still can't believe what lengths that foal-fucker is going to just to get back at me for spurning the family... I stayed up as late as I could, hoping that eventually one or both of them would come, but they never did...

When I finally came to again, it was clear that I was no longer in my bed in the estate. Sometime in the night, somepony must have drugged me... again... I'm not even sure how much time has passed.

It quickly became apparent that I wasn't alone in the room. I heard breathing behind me which was quickly joined by a hoof slowly brushing up and down my back under my wings. The hoof began making its way towards my flank and I could hear the pony's breathing becoming heavy and labored (I didn't know at the time that my molester was actually an old friend...).

Not ready to simply surrender to this violation, I pretended to still be asleep while I formulated a plan. When I felt the hoof slide under my tail and begin teasing my tailhole though, I knew I couldn't wait any longer. In one motion I snapped my wings open and whipped my head up and back, catching the offender under the chin and sending her reeling to the ground. As quickly as I could manage, despite the dizziness from the blow I leapt atop my molester with the intent of striking her down at least long enough to subdue her while I figured out some means of escaping the nearly pitch black room I now found myself in. In the dim light around us I was able to make out a familiar fiery red and yellow mane, unmistakable for anypony else.

I can't express in mere words my shock and excitement in that moment to be reunited with my long lost friend Sunset Flash. In all the years since I escaped the underground myself, I always wondered what had become of my old friend. Seeing her again was like a dream come true... That excitement wouldn't last long though as reality hit me again. Hard...

Once we had recovered from the shock of our earlier skirmish, Sunset surprised me again by running forward and kissing me! So in shock was I that I nearly lost myself in it... But then everything that I was trying to get back to flashed through my mind... Big Mac, Applejack, all of my friends... I finally managed to find the strength to push Sunset off of me, quickly voicing my consternation, but things would only get worse from there...

Sunset cheerfully proclaimed how glad she was that I was the pony that was to marry her master (I can only assume she's referring to Stratus), and how she looked forward to sharing him with me, like we once had with North Pole and South Pole. She even seemed jealous of my getting so close to her master... Naturally, I recoiled from the very idea doing anything for that scumbag.

A moment later I stood in shocked silence as I slowly registered that my once best friend had just slapped me... That shock and malaise deepened when she just as suddenly began groveling at my hooves begging my forgiveness, that as her future Mistress, she had had no right to strike me.

It wasn't until she said it that the full weight of what was happening hit me... As that piece of shit's wife, I would become Sunset's mistress... Sunset Flash, the pony that had helped me survive what was then the hardest time in my life, my one true friend through that nightmare, would become my slave. I swear I nearly lost it right there, the fact that I hadn't eaten anything in Celestia knows how long being my only saving grace then...

I couldn't stand any more of that. The two of us had to escape this together. We would get out of this place, wherever it was, and make our way back to Ponyville. I was going to help Sunset find her will and be her own pony again, just as she helped me all those years ago...

I had my mission then; I had hope... But that hope was quickly dashed when Sunset responded. She asked me why she would ever want to leave her master, looking at me as though the very idea were completely illogical.

... It's too much to bear. Looking into her eyes now, all I can see is the torment and cruelty that I left her to suffer through alone. She's spent her whole life at the hoof of somepony, her body only being useful for somepony else's pleasure, until that horrific reality became the only one she was able to accept. She told me about how North Pole had released her when she too old for him and about how she was unable to function without somepony to serve under until Stratus had come along and "rescued" her..

I had Starsong to pull me away from that trap; Sunset had nopony... I should have been there for her! I should have saved her from this nightmare... instead I ran off to have my own life and my only friend was crushed under the weight of another pony's desires until her spirit was completely shattered... Sunset, I'm so sorry...

I can hardly stand to look upon her now, knowing all of this. Her eyes and her smile are just as happy and radiant as I remember, but there's nothing left of herself behind them. The pony I knew and had so relied upon, who had always been able to somehow maintain some sense of self-worth throughout everything she went through, is gone. Nothing of that pony now remains but her memories of how happy we used to be together... Worst of all though, I fear she's going to try to help her master break me, so that we can be together again...

... I don't know how much of this I can take. Meeting Sunset again was a brief ray of hope, but seeing her like this... completely broken, subservient, and so sickeningly happy to be so... I don't know how long I can hold out if she's working against me as well... I don't want this life again! I can't go back... Please Big Mac, Applejack, Starsong, mom... somepony... please find us soon... please save us both.

~ Stars(illegible)