Dear D(illegible)

I’m sorry, but I don’t know how much of this I can get out now… Something terrible has happe(illegible)

I was on my way home from the club after my solo concert and I decided to stop outside Sweet Apple Acres. I remember thinking about the last time Master had taken me and it was starting to get me worked up. Then he(illegible)

(illegible)alled himself Thunderlane. He said he was with the gang that took me in when I first came to Los Pegasus. He told me to get back on the fence and I obeyed before I could even stop to think about what was happening.

My heart ached, and confusing thoughts assaulted my mind(illegible) I couldn’t help myself, my body reacted on its own and (illegible) Despite myself I came hard. Twice…

After that, I started to sink into that… dark place. I thought I had left all that behind when I threw off my collar(illegible) I was again, desperately begging to be taken. When he finally entered me, I pulled him down as deep as he could get, so(illegible) to get off…

Then, it finally all hit me at once, the reason for my hesitation and confusion. I couldn’t let this happen, not while I already had Master. I tried to tel(illegible) but he wouldn’t stop. I couldn’t (illegible) pain and confusion breaking my will even furt(illegible) dragged my head back by my mane and demanded I submit (illegible)

I… I gave up. I surrendered my(illegible)him…Master, I’m so sorry, I’ve betrayed you; I can’t (the rest of this page is illegible due to blurring from heavy water marks)

Author's Notes:

I'm aware this page is a bit of a mess... So was Starshadow when she was writing it... Actually, so was I when I was trying to channel her writing it... Anyway, I may, if there's demand for it, upload a complete, non tear-stained version of what she was actually trying to say here at some later date.