Before we begin I just want you to know, that the mind you are now entering is an unstable one. I have warned you so when you start feeling like your heart has been hit by a train don't blame me. I am not the pony you think I am. I never was that pony. That pony was created by me to keep the real me from expressing how I truly feel. So now that you are ready to join me in my ramblings I must tell you that once you start... you can't finish till the end. Got it?

As you know this world knows me as Rainbow 'Danger' Dash, I live life dangerously. Because sometimes I hope I die. Whoa deep right? Not really think about it. I am the fastest and most reliable pony in the air and I constantly crash. I don't crash for sympathy sometimes I just turn off my head and let my body do the rest.

I bet you think "wow how pathetic" and honestly you are right. I am pathetic. You see I have these friends and they are all slow... they live in the slow lane and I am too fast for them. I have to constantly slow down. With that in mind I also have to turn my awesome off. Yeah that thing that people make fun of me about. See I am just a silly pony to them,

Funny thing is I am a silly pony to a group of ponies who all had their lives saved by me. I am still just "good ole RD" right Applejack? That mare I swear. I could write a book about how little bucks I give about what she can do. She wastes her whole life kicking down apple from trees. That is about as interesting as making Pinkie Pie watch paint dry. She thinks of herself in high regard and the town does too.

Check this the day she does something awesome the whole town literally bends over for her and literally just push their muzzles into her flank. I mean I never seen such brown nosing since the time of the mud storm... but that is another story. See I was going to do the best young flier's competition the only send off I got was from my long time friend Fluttershy.

Applejack does some rodeo thing and everyone is sniffing her flank like it was a bouquet of roses. Seriously? I get it the Apple Family founded this great town but does that mean we just throw her the key to the city everytime she does something that any other pony can do? I already proved I was better than her but still I am no one to this town.

I am just their weather pony and the mare who dreams of being a Wonderbolt. Oh yeah did I tell you I surpassed my heroes ages ago and they won't accept me. Why? Because I bet they would be unable to keep up with me. I broke all the records of their academy and saved their lives before.

Still Applejack... such a beautiful mare, she has a nice strong body and a cute accent. Honestly I feel bad for her. She would make the perfect mother and she is sure gentle when she needs to be. Unfortunately stallions don't like her. She is too ... much of a mare I guess. If I was a stallion I would totally ride that mare from here to Canterlot. Bare back.

Oh yeah so something some ponies know about me. I am a lesbimare and I give zero bucks about those who dislike it. See I learned long ago any time someone picks on you for something it's just because they are a bit insecure about there own selves. Which is ironic because I am supremely insecure. I bet you didn't know that did you?

The way I carry on and the way I let myself display a facade of this uber confident and ultra self centered radical pony? You believe that? It's a mask I wear to hide the pain of being a failure. I know I can fly faster than any other pony but yet no matter how fast I can fly... my dreams elude me. I have yet to reach the horizon and I constantly fly forward. I fly faster than sound and still can't keep up with the world around me. It moves and I don't.

My friend twilight in two or less years... I don't know how much time has passed and honestly I don't really care. She some how went from some cute egg head to a princess... of friendship. That title is as meaningless as being the overlord of feelings. I know I sound like a bitch. I honestly have the right to be. Because the princess of friendship sure has a funny way of showing it.

So I was being awesome, not like I was standing around and ponies were wanting to rut me awesome just I was saving lives and getting fame. It felt good. I felt one step closer to my dream of being loved by everyone since I wasn't loved when I was younger. I will get to that later right now I want you all to know how my 'friends' even my longest one betrayed me.

I was saving lives and ponies were recognizing my accomplishments and I did let it get to my head sure. I just never thought that my bragging would be something that the entire town would use against me. I know you think I am exaggerating right? Nope. I was literally turned away from as soon as a new hero came along. I was on top of the world one minute then my 'friends' had to show me up and play the role of gravity. You know the saying .. what comes up must come down?

So my friends decided it would be 'fun' to teach me a 'lesson' I still don't know what that lesson was. I think it had something to do with being humble? Sure I can be humble so humble that I cried for a week at how my friends turned on me. I kept being friends with them because supposedly the world depended on it. That is why I keep myself alive. I am always finding some dangerous stunt to do hoping I just allow myself to slip ... something in me keeps fighting when all I want is to let go.

Imagine knowing you can't enjoy your success because your own friends would take it away. I know it sounds like I am making a huge deal of nothing but when I have nothing at all and I got something... some kind of recognition it was stripped away. Because I was enjoying it too much.

Rarity... She is the luckiest and one of the prettiest mares in all Equestria. She has the ability to find diamonds and for some reason she uses those expensive minerals to make stupid outfits for ponies who don't give a damn about her. I feel bad for her but unlike me she is slowly going places. Out of all my loser friends she has the most potential. I know she secretly is into me otherwise why does she keep putting herself in harms way just for me to rescue her? How many times was it? Three times from falling. You would think she would stay on the ground. She never has these falling episodes when I am not around. Then again I am always around aren't I?

Fluttershy now what I have to say about her might sound like a love confession. It might as well be. I have known her since I was a filly. She has been the only pony to get to know the real me. Sometimes I wonder if we complete each other. Not only in a romantic sense but in a metaphorical sense. I hear the word soul mates and me and her fit that. She is shy and caring while I am brash and reckless. Hell even our pets have some kind of symbolic meaning. She has a bunny (Hare) and I have a tortoise (Tortoise) those characters from that racing story.. funny enough that is how I got my pet Tank. Fluttershy suggested him to me. I sometimes think she knows whats better for me.

Even if I love her I can't tell her. She is so shy and demure and petite... I could go on all day but it's a waste of time. She is also a loser. Because her dreams are so short sighted. She lives happily taking care of filthy and diseased animals. I sometimes wonder if she was meant to be an Earth Pony. She isn't a good pegasus. Hell I sometimes just wonder if I would ever find myself a pony to settle down with.

See I like to go fast and by fast I mean I treat the sky as my own personal swimming hole. I can move past the barriers that try and hold me back. I can soar faster than anything but find myself trapped by limitations. Celestia is a waste of a princess. That just came to me and I have no idea why. I mean she just moves the sun and that's it. Big bucking deal. I can create Sonic Rainbooms... maybe I should be the princess of that.

See this is my mind and this is what goes on every day. I am a lesbimare who wants to be in the Wonderbolts. I have five hot friends and I am too afraid to approach any of them. I know they suspect something and honestly one day I might tell them. Did I say five friends? That means oh yeah..... Pinkie PIe...

Now Pinkie Pie isn't just a friend she is a stalker... I turn a corner and she is there. I try to sleep and she is there. I know she is into me... problem is I would be killed if I dumped her. See Pinkie Pie has this other self that was revealed to me when I went to her house to bring her to her surprise party. She had this insane look in her eyes and was deep into this crazy world where food items talked. I don't want to die by Pinkie Pie... I rather die flying. I told Twilight that.

"If I am going down, I am doing down flying" I meant that... It's the way I want to go. I want to die flying. I feel as if I was born in the sky.... and I feel I should die in the sky. Which reminds me I think I am going to go flying right now...

So fake smiles aside you now get what I am about? Did you see me hurt inside? Do you see the little mare who wants to be loved? No... because you only see me for my amazing flying style and speed. This is why I don't let anyone inside my mind. Because to the world I will always be Rainbow 'Danger' Dash. Which is why I have decided to leave this world. So I am going flying... but I have no destination in mind, I am going to keep flying until I can't fly anymore... so I think I am going to write my friends a little letter.... nah I already written enough to a Princess I am sure by now she has read enough of them to know I am planning this... If she actually reads them... but if you do see Fluttershy tell her... tell her I think she is a loser... and that I wish I could stay by her side protecting her as she was the only one of them that was able to see me.

Oh one last thing before I go... That kid Scootaloo... She will go far but not if she is mentored by a failure like myself. Well I think I hear my wind calling... you know me gotta ride the wind and see where it takes me. only this time I am not going to touch ground again I am going to fly into the heavens. Signing out for the very last time Rainbow Dash.