Us pegasi, we don't fall, we descend. What's the difference might I add? Falling is against our own will, something that just happens to a pony when we trip and bruise our leg.....I've taken a few falls, but this? This was the worst. I've fallen into a state of unease, an emotional breakdown which had clouded my thoughts.

Emotion? There were no tears and no Grace at this point. Temper? Neither was there a Kill and nothing to be mad at but myself. Self control? There was no Joy, as I've had lost everything and most importantly, myself. Nothing was any longer right in my mind.

Descent is a choice, it's what us pegasi do everyday of our lives. We dive to the sea of earth below us called Equestria, we open our wings and rise to greater heights than before. This was not my mindset, I do not plan to rise again for I have fallen.

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The night's cool breeze flowed through my mane as I stood on a single drifting cloud over watching the school. Frigid temperatures were no enemy of mine as my clothes had supplied me with the necessary warmth. Something I did not deserve. I was a colt with everything and simply nothing.

With consciences blocked and silent, my mind was allowed to venture into dangerous places, my memories. Without guidance and support, I was slowly losing it, I didn't know what to do or how to feel.

" Muffin.....Hey you gonna be alright?" Wait, was she talking to me? ....No, I remember this, it was our first encounter being the start of it all. But, what was I feeling?

"Happiness? No, no, that can't be right! I still feel depressed!" I admitted," Wait...Was this depression?! Argh! NO! I AM NOT SAD DAMMIT!" My mind continued to race with confused emotion until I had hit recognition,"YES, THIS IS RAGE! But why? Why am I vex at Ditzy? No, I am not vex at Ditzy! I am mad at myself, why? I thought I was only helping! I only tried to help!"

And without a rest, my mind had raced to the next memory unable to solve the mystery of the first. I was in tears at this one though, no time for confusion, only one direct response. Tears.

Reminiscing on the past and hearing her voice, I had said the poem along with her, as if she was right here with me on that very day.

Blueberries are red.

Raspberries are blue,

That's pretty messed up

And my eyes are too.

Blueberry is my flavor

The most which I favor

But if you were a muffin

Every bite I would savor

Life is so short

We must enjoy it all the way through

I would like to be your date for the Mix-up

What about you?

I was now streaming a river of tears, why? Because at that day, she had came to me after I had searched all over the school for her. Where was my moment? Oh yes, the answer was simple, I threw it away....How foolish of me. But why? Why was it so hard to remember my response?! Of course I wanted this memory to leave but....wait a second....

"Of course...." I muttered as the memory came back to me. Whether I liked it or not, it came back and with a stoic expression, I said to myself the response:

Of course life is short,

And soon will come to an end,

But to make sure I enjoy every passing moment,

Will you be my mare-friend?

And that's how it all had started. With a simple and foalish request.

"Every passing moment huh?" I began to talk to myself," Yeah right, look at where I am, on a drifting cloud alone at night.'' I harrumphed at the thought ," Hmph, isn't life fucking gra-AAAGGGGHHHHH!! GET OUT OF MY HEAD!! AGGGHHHH!" I immediately shouted in pain using my hooves to hold onto my head. What was happening?! Everything seemed so rushed!

Wait a second....This was my life! Every single moment had sped forward to today's earlier events as it soon slowed down on a particular time. It was this morning, such a simple and joyous moment, an image of true love.

It was a random moment if anything for the least, but that's when you know love is true. You aren't supposed to plan with something such as delicate as this, you just let it happen and take control of you.

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~Riinnngggg~

And their faiths have been sealed. " Time for physics!" I quickly placed Ditzy upon my back,"We must go!" I shouted playfully galloping out of the cafe." What class do you have?!"

"Hahahaha, Art! Slow down Graze!" She laughed from the random treatment of playfulness.

"NEVER!" I shouted happily making an exit.

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A faint smile drew upon my face as I imagined how everything that morning was so hilarious and wonderful, only to quickly die as I remembered those harsh words.

'--if it's the only thing that I can do to stop you, it's over.' She was right, it was over. I've lost everything with my entire life being gone with her, why bother with anything else?

With my mind making a final decision, what I was now about to do had represented my entire experience, may it be now or my life.

From my cloud, I ascended to the highest point of the night sky where everything had seemed quiet and peaceful. A slight moment of joy overcame me as it allowed my mind to finally rest in ease. This had represented the tipping point of my happiness, but if I was so happy, why make this decision?

At the highest point, I began the routine of the NecroFlare, diving with my hooves stretched out as I struggled to form that same thick cone I broke through so many times. This had been my struggle, the everyday  struggle to try and maintain the relationship alive and well thinking I was doing the correct thing by being rash and violent only to protect her.

And finally, there it was, I broke through the sound barrier entering my mac-4 speeds, the wrong choice. How foalish was I not able to see this? Only now did I realise the truth behind this move, it had represented my life as it had taken an immediate plummet forcing something that had not been wanted. Not alone did it represent that, as well as my little venture into my memories as it fast forwarded to that same spot where I felt like dying.The heartbreak.

I closed my eyes and tucked in my wings allowing the speed to overtake me as I was now in a free fall, waiting ever so patiently for that thud to end my life as this was the final step. Only a simple routine was it ever, only was this a move to harm others, yet, even behind the most violent of actions speak a harsh truth whether we want to listen to it or not.

"--IF YOU WANT TO GET YOURSELF KILLED, THEN FINE! DO IT FOR THE SCHOOL! DO IT FOR THE PONIES! DO IT FOR THE WHOLE BUCKING EQUESTRIA FOR ALL I CARE!'' I remembered Ditzy yelling at me," Just don't let me be the reason for getting yourself killed, that's too much to handle...."

Mere inches from the floor, I quickly opened my eyes and whipped out with my wings taking control once again. 'NO! I AM GOING TO PROVE DITZY AND MYSELF WRONG! NEITHER WILL I NOR HER BE THE REASON I GET KILLED!' I thought to myself making an immediate U-turn and back upon my fluffy cloud.' I am going to live and I am going to finally take down Shadow,' I said encouraged by the words which had once made me weak,' I promise Ditzy, after this, no more fighting....Just please....please forgive me...I need to do this.'

[ And who the fuck says you gotta do this alone?] Wait...Kill?[ You're damn fucking right it's me!]

< Don't forget me out Graze!>

~Or me...You're not going to do this alone~

{ How are you guys--}

< You proved yourself wrong and overcame the breakdown>

~If you can't think, we can't either~

[Simple as that, now bucking rest up for tomorrow! For it all ends there] Kill said pointing at the field.

And he was actually right, with my mind finally at ease, I allowed myself to rest upon the fluffy clouds drifting into a well deserved and peaceful rest.

There will be no more falling, as ponies, pegasi, unicorn and earth alike, we can only better ourselves. We can only ascend.

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