Those who have talked to Twilight weren't sure if they felt guilty or so sorry to asked her past and secret. They all were trying to sleep at their tents but they can't for many minutes straight due to Twilight's constant screaming indicating that she was in rage. They know she was kept wrecking everything that was in the cafeteria for the sake of venting her emotion in the night. After awhile, they all managed to fell asleep whilst hearing her screams of rage. They all slept in sorrow for that.

Sunset however, who has seen everything from her memory, it has gave her a nightmare for now. Seeing who is the Twilight she didn't know instead the Twilight she knew. It was much more the horror to see what she through on the rest of the day of the previous vacation, working as a soldier. What was much more horrifying to Sunset, is to know what all Twilight did on her quest of revenge. Sunset only fear if Twilight would done much more disaster then there's nothing she can do about it.

The term revenge on Sunset when the first time she turned herself into a Demon Shimmer and brainwashed people was a revenge for power. Jealous that Princess Celestia has replaced her by Princess Twilight. Angry because making Princess Twilight as Princess Celestia's best student instead of her. Though that was already long time ago, now, this is about the real Twilight. Sunset really didn't like with the fact that Twilight killed a lot of people for revenge, even though all of them are bad guys.

Even that, Sunset knows that Twilight does still not a heartless girl. Which Sunset was pretty glad for that. Sunset had prayed that Twilight will be doing fine after the past days. Hoping everything will be much better after she slept until the next morning. What was she didn't expect was, she will have a nightmare about Twilight as a soldier.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XoQvbDROucQ

(Maybe add a little atmosphere?)

"Where am I?"

Sunset was looking around on her surroundings, it was dark as night with the bright moon appeared on the sky and where she was on was a building. A building that she recognized from Twilight's memory, a building where once her prey was in for revenge. She was standing on the rooftop, where the building Mohud was taking shelter from Twilight. She ignored the sound of the gunfire as she looked around until her eyes darting down to the field. Then there she saw Twilight, down there in the middle of the field. Twilight was dying, she kneel down to the ground after taking fatal wounds from machine gunner's weapon.

Sunset was also felt unbelievable to see Twilight survived the machine gun attacks along with the talibans down in the field with their tank, even though Sunset already heard her truth about how she died. And it was that time she hate to see the part she's going to watch.

"چمتو دی !" the officer shouted as he raised his arm up in the air.

Sunset then noticed that Twilight had already stopped holding her wounds and glowed her magic in her hands. That aura..... She can feel it. It's an aura that none herself, her friends, nor the Dazzlings ever felt in their entire life. The true aura of a monster. Twilight was a monster in here than a soldier.

"اور !" the officer shouted as he quickly move his arm from the air and pointed to Twilight, ordering them to fire.

After they took their shots, including their tank, she didn't expect to see this. She was amazed and aghast to see that Twilight have telekinetically stopped all hundreds of bullets that're going to kill her, right in front of her. The moment Sunset saw the bullets are shaking and the militias are scared off, she knew something going to happen. She heard what Twilight said.

"You're dead, YOU'RE SO FUCKING DEAD!"

Twilight forced her magic to force the bullets fly back to its sender. Hundreds of bullets flying back at them in fierce until a lot of militias killed by their bullets and a tank got destroyed by its own tank bullet, only the officer and a few survived the rainbullets. Sunset was terrified to see the sight, seeing nearly all of them slaughtered. They then looked at Twilight, she is already enrage while she's bleeding badly. Sunset can't believe she made it this far alive.

Sunset then saw Twilight used her magic and flew all the weapons that were laying on the ground into the air, aiming at the bastards. Sunset was really scared to see this part but she cannot do anything but to froze on her own for heavy shock as she watched it. The Talibans were really frightened by the sight. Until, it was the part Sunset hated so much.

*TTTTRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAATTTTTTTT* *BAM* *BAM* *BAM*

The mixed sounds of a lot of assault rifles and RPGs on her hands were truly a nightmare for anyone. Not really made someone deaf, but the scary sound when you're going to get gunned down a lot by those weapons in one direction right at ya' is a nightmare. Twilight advanced with shooting her G36 while the magic does the work for the telekinetically controlled weapon, plus with the assistance of her Dragonfire drone. The massive firepower that Twilight had gotten had of course damaging the building around the base and made Sunset had to jump down from the roof into the balcony where Mohud took a peek on the field.

Such sight, those bastards were slaughtered like a pack of sheep for wolf's prey and some of the buildings were devastated. Sunset nearly puked at this sight, she still can't stand to face this kind of sight but this is what Twilight went through after all. Not only that she sees her as a rogue soldier, she sees her as a deadly killing machine. That is something that you wouldn't see everyday.

After Twilight entered this building, the command center building, Sunset can see the man named Mohud ran inside to ordering his henchmen. The panic in his face, was too exposed for Sunset, that was the true fear. After awhile, Mohud then ran out to the balcony she's in with one of his soldier, deadly gunfire occurred inside only for 10 seconds. And there she was, Twilight stepped out from that room along with her drone. Twilight then looked to her right and saw there was Mohud, along with his bodyguard.

Sunset saw his soldier was about to shoot her, only to get killed by her drone's bullets. Mohud himself drew his weapon at her but then got disarmed by her drone and fell from the second floor. Sunset was very nervous to see Twilight pulled out her M9 pistol and aimed it at him. Sunset had enough of this shit. Sunset stepped in front of Mohud, blocking her aim as she put her both palms in front of herself to signaled her to stop.

"Twilight! Stop!" Sunset shouted at her who is still aiming at Mohud (currently blocked by Sunset). "You don't have to do this! This is not who you are!"

Twilight was still silent and didn't lower her gun. Sunset knew she wasn't listening. But all she get was something unexpected.

*BANG*

And everything went white.

"HAAGH!!"

Sunset quickly woke up from her bed in panic after a nightmare with holding her blanket in front of her with two hands and quickly looked over to Twilight's bed. Twilight wasn't there, so she though that Twilight spends her rest of her night in that cafeteria. Sunset controls her breathing to calm down and lowers her blanket. Sunset then got off from her bed and started to change clothes. After that, she went out from the tent with Spike to find Twilight.

After a halfway to the cafeteria, her 5 friends of Rainbooms plus Juniper escorted her to the cafeteria to find Twilight. As they walked, they were got stopped by some students asking what's Twilight hiding. Instead of telling them her secret, they shook their heads to them. Not because they wanted to keep Twilight's secret, but they just can't, either it's too personal or afraid what to say. As they reached the cafeteria, Applejack who is a strong farmer girl pushed the door that was blocked by a fallen cabinet and entered.

Everything inside was a bloody mess, Twilight clearly wrecked everything inside from plates and glasses to cabinets and furnitures. Everything she wrecked was either dropped to the floor, thrown outside the window, thrown to the walls or still left on top of the tables and counters in broken state. The walls, more than got dirtied by objects in the cafeteria, there was a dried blood on the wall and it looks bent a little. She was hitting her fists here, until it bled. Soon, the principals, Timber, and Daisy entered the cafeteria and felt disgusted by the sight inside the cafeteria, but they also felt sad that Twilight had gone rage again and had to break anything she can find to vented her feelings.

"I never knew she would do such damage like this," Dash commented as she looked around, received a 'yep' from the principals and Pinkie.

"I agree," Rarity said as she looked towards Dash. "She's been through a lot of horrible day for sure."

"And we're going to have a lot of repairs for this," Daisy and Timber said in the same time, clearly disbelieve for the property damage.

"But we need to find Twilight first," Sunset said as she shook to the sight.

"Yeah," Spike said in agreement.

"Agreed, let's look around," AJ said before they search the cafeteria.

When they tried to look for Twilight in there, she was already long gone from there. They can't even find a single trace for where she was heading. For Sunset, she still can felt there was a little spark of Twilight's aura left in there, which for sure gave her a headache after the nightmare she got. After awhile of pointless search, they walked out from the cafeteria and asked around all the students if they saw where did she gone. Unfortunately for them, they didn't see or hear where she was gone.

How did she gone, is something that Sunset knew. Twilight is a natural ghost, not because she can teleport but she can do stealth. From what Celestia and Luna concluded, Twilight has gone out from there during midnight to dawn and headed to somewhere but they don't know what is that. For Twilight's mysterious disappearance, it sorta upset them for not having Twilight on their side. They did think she must be go home on her own but that would be impossible because Spike is still here, she wouldn't dare to leave him like that. After awhile of silence as they stood near the pavilion, Baton, Adagio, Flash and Tennis come over to them.

"What's wrong?" Baton asked them.

"Did you see Twilight around here?" Pinkie asked to them three.

"No, we didn't see her," Flash replied. "Isn't she supposed to be still in the cafeteria?"

"No, she's gone," Timber said to him as he shrugged after he folded his arms. "She didn't leave any trace."

"She's not going back to the forest, right?" Tennis asked worriedly as she leaned forward at them.

"No, that would be impossible," Fluttershy answered, then Juniper replied to Tennis. "She's already hurt pretty bad like that. How can she dare to go back there, after she got mauled by a bear and died?"

"So?" Spike asked. "How can we find her?"

"We don't know," VP Luna replied. "Any suggestions?"

"Wait," Sunset had an idea. "What would Twilight do if we were her?"

"W-wait," Applejack said in stammered. "How the hay are we gonna do that?"

"Think," Sunset answered as she seriously pointed her finger to hear own head. "What would Twilight do right now if she's disappeared?"

Everyone thinks about it, but for sure they were clueless to think of something. "How? She is very enigmatic to us," Juniper said to Sunset in doubt.

Sunset didn't reply immediately after that question, she only shrugged to her question. Everyone then tried to think harder what will they do if they were Twilight. But then something dawned at Luna, and it made herself dumbfounded. Luna clapped her hands to gained their attention to her.

"I think I know where she is," Luna said firmly.

"You know?!" Adagio asked, a little surprised that Luna knows where she is.

"But you not gonna like it." Luna added, made them puzzled.

"What do you mean we're not gonna like it?" Dash asked in curious.

"Yeah, why do you mean by that, sister?" Celestia asked to her sister.

But then Luna moved her head and whispered through Principal celestia's ear. After she's done whispering, Celestia suddenly widen her eyes in shock. Celestia quickly stood her back up and looked towards the students in worried as she sheepishly smiled.

"Is anything okay, Principal Celestia?" Daisy asked as she suspects the looks on her face.

"We'll....... tell you later about that," Celestia said awkwardly. "Now, you have any transportation, Timber?"

"We have a pick up truck here," Timber said as he points his thumb to behind him. "So, who wants to go find Twilight?"

Sunset, Adagio, Juniper, Tennis, Baton, and AJ raised their hands to join them to find Twilight. The rest didn't raised their hand because they won't fit in the truck, including Timber's sister.

"Good, alright where's your truck?"

Timber take the driver seat with Sunset next to him. Celestia and Luna both sat down in the passenger seat with Juniper in between them. While Dagi, Tennis, AJ, and Baton took their seat in back of the truck, might as well enjoyed the breeze of the wind. Timber hit the gas and drove the truck out from the camp and into the road. Timber followed the direction that Celestia said and only drive forward.

It was already nearly 5 minutes long they drove. Suddenly Luna spot the dirt road she recognized.

"Take that dirt road!"

Timber then turned the steer to the left following the VP's direction. However the truck was bouncing due to a bumpy road and Baton nearly fell from the truck if not for Applejack grabbed her arm and pull it back in. It was such a boredom when they took the bumpy dirt path only to see a lot of trees on their left and right. But when they saw a building from a distant up ahead, they were relieved to see it. But much closer they drove, much to the shock to them (Except the principals).

"WHAT?!" Shouted everyone except the Principals, Juniper was the loudest and the least was Tennis. "A GUN SHOP?!?!"

"Canterlot Pawnee Firearms," Celestia said calmly. "Yes, this is a gun shop."

"What would make you think she would be here?!" Juniper asked furiosly, then Timber asked her. "You must be crazy to know that she's here, you know, is there no else place than this?!"

"Twilight ever bring us here to tell us about her secrets," VP Luna said aloud, earning everyone glares, including those who were sitting in the back. "More than that, she bought a rifle here before. And also she had some friends here, including the former marine that runs this shop."

Timber turned his head back forward and tried to park the truck whilst Sunset commented. "Well, that was unexpected."

After the truck got parked, they all get off the truck and took a glance at the gun shop. Had the feeling that Twilight was really prepared for anything with the fact she knows this gun shop. Ironically for Timber and Daisy who were working in the camp in the forest, didn't know about this place. They were showing their concern expression, but Applejack only smirked at the sight of the gun shop.

"Looks like ah' should tell Big Mac and Granny Smith about this shop," AJ then got everyone's dumbfounded glare at her, must be surprised if they heard that. "What? Pays to be prepared, right?"

"Whatever, Jack," Adagio said as she shook her head for the disbelieve of AJ's comment. "Let's head inside."

"Let's go," Luna said as they started to walk to the shop.

"Have you considered to buy a gun for the camp, Timber?" Tennis asked him.

"Not sure," Timber replied in upset. "After what happened 4 days ago."

"I'm sure Twilight didn't really meant to do that," Sunset comforts him. "She only hate on what she had been through, that's all."

"I hope you're right about that," Timber replied as he puts his hands in his pockets.

"Don't worry, we make sure that won't happen again," Celestia said to him in sure.

"Yeah!" Juniper and Baton both said in the same time, before Baton continued to talk. "We're her friends, alright. I'm sure we can helped her on something."

"But for sure, I don't think we can helped her change," Juniper assured them, only made them all frowned.

Upon entering, for sure they were very amazed by the sight inside the gun shop instead the outside. It's the first time they a lot of real kind of weapons in there. Applejack for sure was pretty impressed to this, she might have to gave a compliment to the boss that runs the gun shop. They were got distracted for awhile by the weapons in the racks, on the walls, and on the tables.

Applejack did hold a shotgun for awhile, while Timber who was next to her only touch the shotguns laid on the table. Adagio and Juniper both looked over to the display window on the wall which showing some different pistols, Juniper commented to Dagi that this was something like in the action movie (Which Adagio found was pretty scary if that happens in real life). Baton and Tennis looked over to the rifles that were stood up hanging on the wall and gave whistle of impression. The principals only folded their arms as they looked around the shop to find Twilight (also silently took the sight of weapons that are in the store). Sunset only shook her head after looked at the weapons, which Twilight may would buy it. It was in a moment before one of the employee of the gun shop came over to them, with the fact that they were much impressed to the weapons that were arranged properly.

"Excuse me," the employee said to them, they stopped on what are they doing and looked over to him. "May I help you to find... something?"

"Um, actually we're here to find someone," Sunset said to him.

"Yeah, we want to find someone," Timber said to him. "Do you see a girl around, purple skin, wears a glasses, kind of a nerd, and-"

"You mean Twilight?" the employee asked them, which they were very surprised to hear that.

"Yeah," Baton said awkwardly. "How did you know her?"

"Well, she told me she was a fellow soldier," the employee said. "I'm a former soldier actually, so we got along really fine. Also she is a friend for fellow and former soldiers and hunters around here."

"That was unexpected," Celestia commented. "You know where she is?"

"She's in the firing range on the end right corner there," he said as he pointed towards the door at the right corner up ahead. "Checking out a new shotgun."

"Oh..." Tennis tone was trailing off after hearing that, in awkward.

"Right," Luna said, cutting this awkwardness. "We'll heading there, thanks."

The employee only nodded and left them, Celestia then looked over themselves. "Right, shall we meet her?"

The group went on to the door and head out to the firing range. There were some peoples trying to check their weapons by firing the targets from a distant, take apart and assemble weapons, and cleaning the parts of the weapons. It was quiet a good sight, except the sound of the gunfire from the people who were trying out their weapons. Not really deafening but really made someone can get a heart attack.

They all then looked over to their right, and in shock there was Twilight talking with a man called Mr. Browning. Twilight was holding an M4 Benelli shotgun on her hands, currently loading some bullets into it. Mr. Browning was standing next to her observing how is she doing with her shotgun. He and them also took notice that Twilight's hands were bandaged, he doesn't know why but for them it's due to her punching the wall non-stop. However, Applejack noticed that the shotgun that Twilight have has been modified. And they can heard Mr. Browning was explaining the modifications.

"Semi-automatic shotgun, custom bolt carrier release and charging handle to load the shells much more comfortable, extended tube magazine which can fill around 10 shotgun shells, red dot scope for precise manual targeting, light and longer barrel for steady aim and fast aiming," when Twilight turned the shotgun on her arm and took a look the under side of the shotgun whilst gripping the stock and checking the bolt handler, he added. "Textured grips, in case if your hands get wet."

Twilight and those who were behind them both glared at him after the last kind of modification. "Right...." Twilight said awkwardly.

"So, how about shooting practice a bit?" Mr. Browning asked her as he pointed his open palms at the 10 targets in front of them.

"Sure," Twilight then looked over to her targets in front of her whilst readied her shotgun that's still pointing the ground.

3 seconds later, Twilight quickly aimed the shotgun as fast as lightning and pulled the trigger. *DUAR* *DUAR* *DUAR*

From what they can tell, she clearly had a superior skill with the shotguns. She shot 4 targets with ease, she quickly titled the shotgun to the left and able to shot 5, and then with one hand on the shotgun aiming towards the target, took the shot and it was a hit. Her aim was bloody accurate like an eagle. After the mag is empty, she turned over the shotgun over her right shoulder and hold the barrel of the shotgun while she is reloading the shotgun quickly with her right hand with quad load then double load. She then flipped the shotgun again onto her hands and cocked it.

"Very nice, Corporal," Mr. Browning complemented. "Even for a girl."

"I'm a good shooter, sir," Twilight replied at him with a smile. "So no sweat about it."

"That's so cool," Timber said quietly as he looked at her badass girlfriend in impression, then Baton added quietly. "Wow."

Suddenly Twilight's face got frowned, Mr. Browning did noticed this but don't know why. They can't see her face because they were behind them. Twilight was looking to her right out the corner of her eyes and not moving her body around. Twilight heard something from behind her, which what was Timber and Baton said.

"They're here, aren't they?" Twilight asked to Mr. Browning, he then turned around and surprised that her friends, and the principals he recognized were here.

"Yep, they're here," he said awkwardly, Twilight then turned around at them and held her shotgun in front of her, pointing the firing end towards the ground on her side.

"I didn't expect you were here," Twilight said to them in cold.

"We were looking for you, Twilight," VP Luna said to her in worried. "But I didn't expect you'll be here to get a new gun."

"Don't worry she told me everything," Mr. Browning said to them. "About she got mauled by a bear and nearly shot her friend before she died. She's been through a rough day, and I'm okay with that."

"Oh?" Tennis and Applejack gasped in surprise, didn't expect to heard him say that.

"I'm guessing that your colonel will gave you lecture about you died three times, right?" Mr. Browning asked her with a smirk.

"Perhaps," Twilight replied sullenly.

"Where did you get the money for buying such weapon, Twilight?" Sunset asked her, which soon she realized that was a stupid question she's asking.

"Isn't it obvious?" Twilight asked back, Sunset only facepalmed for her stupid question.

"So, you're preparing for something worse?" Adagio asked as she observed the shotgun Twilight's holding.

"Yeah," Twilight replied with a shrug. "Pays to be prepared."

"Hmm, for sure you'll be fit in a action movie," Juniper commented, which annoys Twilight.

"Please don't bring that up, alright?" Twilight said to her. "I just don't want to do that. Not now."

"Oh, alright," Juniper said as she frowned. "By the way, you're going back to the camp right?"

"Yeah, give me a moment," Twilight replied. "I and Mr. Browning had some business to finish first. Wait for me at the parking lot."

"Please be soon," Celestia said to her. "Your friends back in the camp are worried because you're gone like that."

"Don't worry," Twilight said in sure. "I'll be quick."

"Ok," Applejack said as they about to left. "See ya later, Sugarcube."

Twilight nodded to AJ and they have left to wait at the parking lot. Twilight then looked over to Mr. Browning, before they both walked over to a table where she put her bear-damaged backpack. Her backpack was pretty lucky after the bear attack, it only made some damage on the layers of the bag instead cutting through into inside the bag. She putted her shotgun in the bag and only the stock part of the shotgun was coming out from it. Twilight then looked over to him after putting everything she brought inside the bag, including ammo.

"So, where were we?"

It's already 5 minutes pass after they were already waiting at the truck. Then Twilight came out from the gun shop with her backpack on her back and with her torn-up black jacket. They briefly took a look at her and ask if they return now. She nodded and they get in the truck. Everyone was sitting at their previous seats, plus Twilight is taking a seat on the back of the truck with the 4 girls.

Upon returning, of course it was another boredom for them. What made the 4 girls in the back surprised was Twilight suddenly just slept along the road as she sits down with her back leaning back against the back window. Even the bumpy road didn't even bother her to get awoke from her sleep. Baton did though that Twilight must've been didn't took any sleep last night. And even on the road she didn't wake up, only enjoying the breezy wind as she sleeps.

They all made it back to the camp after the ride. Everyone get off from the truck, after Adagio woke Twilight up from her sudden sleep. Twilight did startled by that, but then she gets off from the truck. The rest of the Rainbooms and the Dazzlings, along with the other students and Daisy, come over to them in worried. But what made them much worried was what was something that is sticking out from her backpack.

"Is that, a weapon?" Bulk asked as he pointed at the stock of the shotgun in worried.

"Yes, it's a shotgun," Celestia said, did suddenly frightened them but then calmed down after she added. "Don't worry, we'll keep an eye on her."

"Besides..." Twilight said, they all hoping that she didn't say something bad. "I wanted to put my stuffs back in the chests, if you don't mind."

They all only nodded at her in agreement before she left to the tent. After she left, they only looked at each other in doubt. Not sure if Twilight would be doing fine or not. Though they will keep on eye on her if something wrong.

"So where did you found her?" Mystery asked at VP Luna.

"Somewhere," Luna said, making them puzzled.

"What do you mean?" Derpy asked.

"It's..... well, complicated," Celestia said, then Sunset added. "Give us a moment to think what we should say to you. Besides, this is very complex than it seems."

Those who listened only nodded in consent, then Adagio , Tennis, and Baton looked over to Applejack. "You should check on Twilight," Dagi said.

"Because we think she's been feel bad after yesterday," Tennis added, then Baton. "We.... I don't like if there's something happened to her.

Applejack only silent for a moment before answering. "Alright, ah' take a look on her."

When Applejack about to left, Timber stopped her for awhile to ask. "Where are you going?"

"Ah' want to check how Twilight's doing," AJ replied, before she took her leave.

Twilight was sitting down on a chair at the night table between the beds. She was only sad, very sad. Been lost in though for a long time after what she went through the war and she had done in here. Twilight was staring to the floor, and slowly turned her head towards the table, where was her loaded M9 pistol was laid. The reason why the pistol was still on the night table is only one.
she was still suicidal

With hesitation, she slowly took the gun with her index finger on the trigger. She took a look on it by it side and the sight, then slowly putting it next to her head. She closed her eyes and her hand was shaking. She had a doubt if doing this would change everything, but what other way? She felt so miserable after that war and it scarred her and haunted her much worst.

Her finger then felt shaking. She can't decide either two parts, one was to end her life from this miserable life, or two, stay alive because her friends need her so as she needs them. She still felt very hesitant to do it or not, it made her tears dropped from her closed eyes. She gasped and sniffed as her finger felt starting to tremble upon the trigger, hate, angry and sad on what she doing. Been through hell and back and everything is still the same.

Until, someone quickly grabbed her hand-armed pistol by the barrel of the pistol to the grip. Twilight didn't even startled or surprised by that, instead she slowly opened her eyes as she can felt her shaking armed-hand was suppressed by someone's hand. She slowly turned her head to the right and saw Applejack was standing next to her. She can see the fear in AJ's eyes, fear of losing someone she knew, she know this because Applejack told her how she felt on the road after Twilight survived the bear attack. Applejack still holding both her gun and her hand in fear, while not moving it away from her side of the head.

"Twilight, don't...." Applejack said worriedly and her tone was trailing off as she shook. "Just don't, Ah' beg ya', please......"

For some reason Applejack let her pistol-armed hand go. Don't know why, she just let it go. Twilight sees that and looked away from her, her hand was gripping harder and was shaking a little. She then closed her eyes and stuffed her lips into her mouth. As she decides to pull the trigger or not, her hand was shaking much more hard and she gripped the pistol harder than before. After an intense moment of silence as she decides, she made a decision.

Not to pull the trigger

Twilight then lower the pistol from her right side of the head and slowly put it on the night table. She then down her right hand on her knee while left arm was on the night table next to the pistol. Her feelings were mixed up, sad, angry, hate, doubt, impatient or patient, pity, and cold at the same time. She took a couple of deep breath, until she vented herself by hitting the table with a loud thud by her left arm and nearly made Applejack surprised. When silence filled the tent again, Twilight still on her chair with the mixed up feeling, deciding not to linger around her Applejack decided to leave. Before Applejack able to walked out from the entrance, Twilight called her.

"Applejack?"

AJ turned around slowly after she heard her call. "Yeah, Sugarcube?"

"May I asked you something?"

After a moment of though, Applejack came over to her and took a seat on Twilight's bed near the night table in front of Twilight. Applejack then leaned her upper body forward, elbows on knees and hands clenched against each other. She then looked to Twilight's purple eyes of after-frustration. Twilight though a question as Applejack waited for her question for a moment.

"What is it?"

Twilight then looked at Applejack's calm face after she had only one question in mind. "Why God forbid me to die?"

Applejack was only shocked to her question, she was silenced for awhile after that for thinking of an answer. She had to looked up right out the corner of the eye. and then she answered Twilight's question with a serious face.

"To be honest, ah' don't know why," Applejack then grabbed and held her right shoulder as she stares deeply into her eyes. "More than dat, ah' don't know how the hay ya're still alive despite you died three times. Ah'.... don't know why ah'm saying this, but, ah' think you were lucky for having God by your side."

Twilight only silent for a moment after hearing her answer, though of her answer. "You think?"

"Yeah, ah' think," Applejack replied with a little doubt. "Ah' can say nothing more that dat. Why you're asking that?"

"You know if I'm a monster, right?" Twilight asked in sad. "Why don't I just die? After all I did?"

"Hey, look!" Applejack said as she leans closer to her. "Maybe ya're a monster, but ya' still have a heart inside of you and ah' knew it, alright? What ya' wanted to do is only protect the ones ya' love and ah' believe ya' can do that. We're ya'r friends and we need you, really. Because ya' still need us and we still need ya'. . You're not a monster like what you think, Sugarcube. Even if ya' had to do something horrible to get the job done, ya' still a good girl and still a friend for us."

"I see," Twilight sniffed with a nod and a blink as her tears poured out a little. "Thanks for answering my question."

"Is there something else ya' need?"

"Nothing else for now, thanks, Applejack."

"Don't mention it," Applejack then stood up and walked towards the entrance of the tent. "Ah'll give ya' some privacy, Ah' be at the boathouse if ya' need me."

Twilight only nodded slowly at Applejack as she left. Here it is again, loneliness, that surrounds her. At least it only gave some bearings for herself, and though of Applejack's answer. She does believe in God, but doesn't believe if His will is to let her live. She is only a monster who've been through hell and somehow came back alive by a bullshitting miracle.

If it's of course that was God who let her back alive, the question is why, apart from AJ's answer? She's a soldier who had to kill a lot as a monster and had to spare the enemy commander for that. Just why? Why would God let a monster like her live? It's just doesn't make any sense.

Nevertheless, she only let those thoughs disappear and took what is looked like a canned bourbon whiskey from her chest in front of the bed. Twilight then sat back down on her seat, drinking it then put it on the night table. She does know if alcoholic drink is not allowed to bring but she needed it. What else she can do than that? There's nothing else she need to do except for that to calm down the stress she had.

After a while, she drank the canned bourbon whiskey with 6 gulp and didn't yet drunk. Though she ever had the first time she had to drink an alcohol along with her fellow soldiers, yes she drunk but she was lucky if better to get back to her room before anything worst would happen while she drunk. Twilight now is getting fond with alcohols, ever had to drink a bottle of vodka with Briggs and she didn't get drunk. So yeah, nothing go wrong with that.

A moment later, Flash and Timber with Spike her dog along side them entered the tent and surprised that Twilight was drinking an alcohol. And what make them much more surprised that she wasn't drunk. Spike hopped onto her bed and laid down next to the night table as Flash and Timber walked over to her. She only looked over to them, in sad and doubt. Timber and Flash did took notice on the pistol that she left on the night table.

"You're okay, Twilight?" Timber asked to her in worry, but all he get only silence from her.

"You tried to shot yourself?" Flash asked her as his left eyebrow raised.

After took a gulp, she sighed before looking at them with a little tears. "Nearly."

"How you're doing now, Twilight?" Spike asked as he wiggled his tail.

"I feel bad," she took another gulp and the alcoholic can was empty. "I just..... felt lost."

Then only silence that filled the tent. Twilight only slowly stood up from her chair and looked down towards the floor. Flash and Spike can describe her expression that she was felt contempt and grief. Twilight then looked over to Timber and Flash slowly. Before, with surprise, Twilight quickly hugged them both in tears.

Such surprise and tears from her, they both can only hugged her and felt pity for her for what she's been through. Timber let it slide this time for hence she hugged Flash at the same time as well. Twilight was crying on all the things she had through and she needed someone to accompany her. She was also stressed as well as she cried.

"Shhh, it's alright," Timber said to her softly as he tighten his arms around her.

"There's nothing to worried about," Flash added softly as he rubbed her back. "Everything is fine, believe me."

"You're gonna be alright, Twilight," Spike said as he watch them hugged. "I know it will."

Twilight only can do nothing but to hugged them, cried and sniffed for now.

14:55 PM

Soon they will leave the camp and return to the school via school bus. They all packed everything they got and put them all in the trunk of the bus. Twilight however, put her big bag in the trunk and let her backpack (Which didn't contain shotgun since it's already in the trunk inside the big bag, except bullets, mags and M9 Pistol) still on her back to get it inside the bus. Before they leave, they all sing a goodbye song cheerily (Except Twilight) before they get on the bus. Twilight and her dog were the last passenger to get on the bus, after she put a foot on the steps of the bus, Timber and Daisy stopped her.

"Twilight," Timber called her.

"Yeah?" Twilight responded as she slowly turned around at them with her dog wrapped on her both arms.

"Just want to say that..." Daisy said, then continued by her brother. "We're sorry to hear everything that happened to you.."

Twilight was silent for a moment before she replied. "Thanks."

"And please," Timber begged. "Be safe, I don't want to lose after all that happened to you."

Twilight was silent again for a moment as she looked into his boyfriend's eyes before replying. "I'll try."

Twilight then turned around towards the bus and entered. Twilight and Spike then sat down next to Flash who is much more an open talker to her. She then put Spike down between them both and put her backpack on the ground as the bus starts its embark back to the school. And here we go again, long trip long boredom.

It was around 5 minutes later after the bus embarked, Twilight, Flash and Spike were still silent as the other students and the principals were chatting to each other. Then Twilight suddenly remembered something, she zipped open the bag beneath her and took what is looked like a pistol magazine. Twilight then took a bunch of bullets from another slot of her backpack and starting to fill the magazine. Even if that didn't scared Flash and Spike, the ones who were scared was the two students sat across on the left, Starlight and Photo Finish. Twilight did looked over to them and only gave an emotionless glare.

"It's alright," Flash said to them. "She means no harm."

"You sure?" Starlight asked him, Twilight looked away from them and sighed and continued to fill her magazine.

"I'm sure," Flash replied with a smile. "I trust her."

Only hearing that, they both can only felt glad about it and they both go back on what they're doing. Flash and Spike then looked over to Twilight again and surprised to found out that she just filled two pistol magazines now and put them back in her bag. She leaned back against the seat and sighed. Then she looked out the window next to her whilst Spike hop over her thighs and Flash just rubbed her shoulder for comfort.

They still spend the rest of the trip either by talking, gossips, selfies, playing games on their phone and took photos, none of them were sleeping. Twilight, Spike and Flash were the only one who were pretty silent along the trip. As Twilight somehow felt her sense guilt back, she slowly took out her phone and her earphone from the bag. Putting the earphones on the ears, she searched for a song, a song that fits for herself. A song, that would express how is she feeling. After she found it, she leaned her head back and closed her eyes whilst facing to the window next to her, and start to sing.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vt1Pwfnh5pc

I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real

Everyone in the bus attracted by that and gone silence to hear her sing a song.

The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything

What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end

They could feel the expression she had now.

And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

They can only felt very sad to hear her sing and remembered all of her actions.

I wear this crown of thorns
Upon my liars chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair

Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here

What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end

And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

If I could start again
A million miles away
I will keep myself
I would find a way

Upon reaching the school, the weather was still as good as evening and the bus parked in the parking lot. All the passengers got off one by one and heading to the trunk to get their bags. Twilight and Spike was the last to get off the bus again. Before she walked out the bus door, the driver stopped her by grabbing her arm. Twilight then turned her head at him as Spike hopped over Twilight's shoulder to look at the driver. The driver was the person she able to rescue before he died from stab wound by the pipe under the bus.

"Girl, thank you for saving my life," the driver said as he release her arm. "I though I was a goner."

Twilight only smiled and chuckled at that. "Don't worry, it's my job to make sure everyone alright."

"Also, I'm really sorry to hear that you died after you were attacked by a bear," he said. "I'm just very glad to see you came back alive again."

"That's alright," Twilight said to him politely. "I've been through worst."

"Alright," the driver nodded at her. "Be safe out there, ok?"

"I will," Twilight replied to him before she got off the bus and headed straight to the trunk of the bus.

Spike the dog was laying on the ground, currently doing silly roll to entertain her as she checked everything in the bag to make sure everything is in order. After a moment, the weather of the evening suddenly turned cloudy and wanted to rain. Everyone quickly got up and picked up their bags and get inside the school because it's going to rain soon, can be heard by the gurgling sound of the weather. Twilight however was very calm to packed her things up and did it. Then Rarity, Juniper and Sonata came over to her.

"Hey," Sonata said. "Let us help you with the bags."

After Sonata and Juniper picked up her big bag and backpack and bring them to inside the school, Twilight only looked up and watched the cloudy weather in amaze and calm. With an odd feeling, Rarity only looked at her in confusion and dumbfounded on why she wasn't worried about the rain. Rarity only nudged her to make her look at Rarity. After that she asked her.

"We should get inside, dear. It's going to get rain soon."

"I don't need to," Twilight responded to her, earning Rarity's surprising glare. "I just want to enjoy this."

"But you will get wet and dirty!" Rarity exclaimed, since she's a fashionista. "Don't you worry about your-?"

"No," Twilight replied quickly. "Don't worry about it, I'll be fine."

Rarity did wanted to say that she will get sick if she did that, but none came. Instead, she only leave her there whilst rubbing her left arm for cold. Twilight then looked up again towards the dark cloudy skies. And closed her eyes, the rain fells upon her and the environment. She was fully wet by rain, but she enjoying it.

"Is she enjoying the rain?" Celestia asked in dumbfounded.

"Yes, she is," Rarity answered. "You know? This is actually such rare sight."

"I agree," Sunset said as she looked at rarity. "It's been a long time seeing her doing that."

"Is she going to be fine?" Photo asked in concern.

Sunset then took a deep glance at Twilight from inside the school. Her head was facing up, both arms on her sides, and eyes closed. Not even a single twitch from that caused by the rain. Sunset only shook at Twilight and said something in her heart.

I hope you're okay, Twilight