Don't Look Inside
Chapter 61: Chapter 60: Bond
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As the lesson started, Anastasia immediately managed to lift up a whole notebook much to her surprise. She didn't know how she did it but it seemed like an invisible barrier was broken between her and the magic. It flowed into her like living energy, fueling her with something she couldn't describe. It was a sensation unlike any others, an euphoric feeling of having power and the means to control it. She felt empowered and immediately followed what others were doing.
Sirius was training on teleporting a small pebble. He's been developing teleportation skills but he needed much more practice before he would be able to teleport himself anywhere at all. Even a pebble was hard to control, he couldn't imagine how hard it would be to be able to instantaneously transport himself to other locations. He wanted to learn it for everyday and combat purposes. He could imagine the possibilities teleportation would give him in fights.
Unfortunately, his concentration wasn't finely tuned as his thoughts turned to Sweetwater, a new colt he had just recently met. Sirius didn't like how he treated his brother especially since Wave Rider was a rather small and shy colt. Sirius would never tolerate any sort of bullying and he could notice that Wave wasn't exactly too comfortable around his big brother. The former human didn't know much about either of them but suspected that the brothers didn't have a truly brotherly relationship. He didn't want to assume anything but it seemed like Sweetwater was likely to order his little brother around and make him do things he otherwise wouldn't.
Sirius frowned. Would he need to fight another bully? Would Wave Rider need him or ask for help at all? Family relationships were what Sirius didn't understand much. A lot of people were ready to protect their parents no matter how bad those parents were. Alcoholics, neglecters, drug abusers, just abusers, but somehow they still received love. Since the former human had no bad experience with his parents, he couldn't understand how one can love someone who hurts them and doesn't show any love in return. It was a concept Sirius would never understand or accept. He disliked or hated those that hurt him no matter who they used to be to him.
He decided to be watchful and observe Wave Rider and Sweetwater. Sirius suspected that abuse was taking place outside the school and he wanted to prevent it. Wave was no one to him but he knew how it was to be broken by others and he wished no such fate for anyone who didn't deserve it.
He knew that monsters were made, not born. He wanted to make sure no monsters would be made.
There were two classes of Magic total with History following them. Anastasia could do nothing but depend on Sirius to translate what the teacher was talking about. There was still a long way for her to learn the language. That lesson was about culture that existed before Luna's banishment and how said culture was affected by the disappearance of one of the royals. Sirius didn't find it particularly interesting.
As the lessons ended, Sirius, Anastasia, and Iclyn went to the cafeteria to grab a bite. All of them got a big tray of food each and sat down at one of the tables.
"So, how do you like the school so far?" Sirius asked Anastasia.
"A lot, actually." the girl replied as she put a spoonful of mashed potatoes inside her mouth. After swallowing it, she said: "There's not as much stuff to mandatorily learn and the breaks are pretty long." she ate another spoonful of potatoes. "The food's good, too! The classmates seem nice but I'll have to learn the language first before making friends. All in all, going back to school isn't that bad." she levitated a piece of carrot into her mouth. "Mhh... Magic's great! It feels weird but I think I can get used to it."
"You'll need to properly enter the school, then." Sirius said. "It shouldn't be a big issue. I'll help you as much as I can."
"Thanks, Sirius." Nastya smiled slightly. "You know, I begin to feel more comfortable here as time goes on. I will maybe visit this place once in a while if I'm able to do it after I return home."
"Does Princess Luna help you find the way to get back?" the former human asked, frowning slightly. He didn't know if he could trust Luna to help his friend. But still, he knew he couldn't control Nastya's every decision.
"Yes, she's working on it." the girl replied. "I can't wait to tell my friends what I've experienced!"
"Better not spread too much information, Nastya." Sirius advised. "A lot of people wouldn't accept aliens as warmly as you did."
"...I think you're right." Anastasia nodded, agreeing. "However, I'm sure my friends are trustworthy. Who wouldn't like to meet an alien and befriend them? These ponies are friendly and even cute."
Sirius was silent. In truth, ponies did look well. Lack of obesity among the population did well for them. There were many different ponies but the former human couldn't find any of them that he would call ugly. Even the old ponies looked well and certainly not overweight. He didn't know if it was genetics or culture but he was pleased with it.
As the three went back to the mansion, Sirius thought about his relationship with Iclyn. Frankly, he didn't really know what to do for her to show his appreciation for all that she did for him. He wanted to show his love and care but he didn't know how. He didn't feel like giving her expensive gifts would do anything even remotely significant or meaningful. She was with him certainly not because of his possessions. It could be said that Sirius would share anything he had. He wasn't attached to any of his belongings, he just needed some of them; nothing more and nothing less. He valued his relationships way more than anything else.
One can work hard and gain money. Money is to be spent sooner or later. Friendship and love can't be bought or sold. It was always like that for Sirius. He felt much more satisfaction when he knew someone liked him in one way or another. He felt he belonged when he was loved. It had been like that since he was born. At first, his parents showed him care and love. They taught him how to receive and give such feelings. It wasn't enough but it was good for that time. Sirius befriended other kids and showed his care for them. They had been in a number of dangerous situations, and Sirius never abandoned his friends no matter how hard the situation looked. The only time he had to leave them was when he had to move to another town.
It was the town where he met Anastasia. At first, it was her who showed care. He returned it and gave love. He wasn't good enough at it and could only remain friends, however. It still saddened him but he moved on. Anastasia was a great friend, after all.
Ever since he grew apart from her, he gave less and less care or even simple affection to anyone, his depression consuming him as time went on. After his mother died, he locked his feelings inside his mind, afraid to show them.
Everything changed when he met Iclyn. He was glad it happened indeed.
Soon, Sirius, Anastasia, and Iclyn reached the mansion. All of them went inside to relax from school and do something for reliefs. As for Sirius, he didn't know if he wanted to do anything at all. So, he went upstairs and into the bedroom. Once inside, he lay on the bed and relaxed. His damaged leg felt alright but he still felt some tiredness and fatigue in it. He definitely needed more exercises to make his leg better.
Iclyn joined him soon enough. She walked up to him and kissed him on the lips. It greatly surprised him and almost made him flinch. Reluctantly, he returned the kiss. It was rather awkward for him since he wasn't used to it at all.
"Sirius... How do you feel right now?" Iclyn asked him.
"I... Well, I thought about something." he replied nervously. "I, um, thought about our relationship, and... I just don't know what nice things I can do for you." he confessed. "I just don't know what to do in a relationship."
"You don't need to do anything other than show love in a way you can and want, Sirius." the filly replied, putting a hoof on his shoulder.
"But I want to do at least... something." he sighed.
"If you do, we can make love." Iclyn said.
It was plain and simple. However, Sirius was unsure about it. Even after all those words she had said to him a few days ago, his doubts still controlled him. They were rooted deeply inside him, hurting him, eating him alive. He needed to do something but he didn't know what.
"I... I don't know. You're twelve and I'm almost nineteen. Um, eighteen is my, uh, real age." Sirius replied, stuttering from nervousness.
"Do you think I'm a virgin goddess that shouldn't be touched until she's just the right age?" the pegasus filly raised a brow and looked Sirius in the eyes and then stated firmly: "I. Want. You. You're not committing any crime, Sirius. Heck, sometimes fillies younger than me have sex more often. Maybe your... people grow up differently, I don't know, but I'm perfectly fine with you doing sexy stuff with me."
Sirius could do nothing but nod. He couldn't deny her words. He could feel the desire to form a closer, much more intimate bond with the one he loved. A part of him begged him to finally let the love flow. In one act of bonding, he would gain something he always wished for — love and care. If only it wasn't that hard to let the past go and embrace the better and brighter future.
"Sirius," Iclyn called to him. "We can start and do whatever we're comfortable with and then move forward. I've not had sex before but I'm sure both of us will love every second of it no matter how awkward it might end up being. Sirius, please, trust me."
"I..." he still hesitated. Her words resonated inside his head and he indeed wanted to trust her. Iclyn saw how close he was to opening up to her, and so she leaned in and kissed him on the lips one more time.
"I love you, Sirius." she said, encouraging him. Then she lay close to him and kissed him again while wrapping her forelegs around him and putting him closer. She intended to show him a good time and share her emotions and love for him. The desire inside her burned and she wanted Sirius to know and embrace it.
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Reluctantly, Sirius responded to it by putting his own forelegs around Iclyn. He did it softly and carefully, making sure she felt good. A blush appeared on his face as the filly didn't hesitate to pull him closer.
She opened her mouth and prodded Sirius' with her broad tongue. He shuddered in response to the strange action but opened his mouth. He forced his teeth to unclench and let Iclyn's tongue in. Immediately after it was done, she started exploring his mouth. Meanwhile, he rubbed his tongue against hers. This saliva exchange was certainly a weird experience for Sirius. He felt as his lover passed over his teeth including his fangs. She moaned into his mouth as Sirius started responding by extending his tongue and exploring her own mouth.
The two parted soon after and opened their eyes. Sirius averted his gaze from hers as he blushed madly. He didn't know if he was good enough, and the whole experience was very strange for him. It wasn't unpleasant, far from it, but it was simply unusual.
"How do you feel?" Iclyn asked him.
"...Good." he said. Then, he nervously fidgeted in place. He felt warmth in his crotch as he was getting erect. "Um... uh... what do we do, uh, now?"
"Just lie on your back and relax." the filly replied. She noticed how tense Sirius was and she felt she should take the lead and show him a good time. She hadn't had sex before but she was much less shy or insecure about it than he was.
The two changed their position and soon Iclyn was sitting on him as he lay on his back. He felt her body against him, he could even feel her pulse because of the closeness of their bodies. He felt the warmth against his skin as their bodies pressed together.
Sirius looked into Iclyn's eyes and saw love, care, and affection. She was smiling slightly, and it made him smile as well.
She leaned in and kissed him, and then ground her lower part of the body against his erection. The stimulation made Sirius moan in pleasure. Iclyn was already pretty aroused and relaxed, she just wished Sirius would be like that as well. He had been through a lot of stress and relaxation would work well for him.
Slowly, the tension in Sirius' body went away. He felt the pleasure, Iclyn was kissing him, and everything was going right. However, he was unsure about how well he would be able to deliver pleasure to his lover. He hadn't even seen his genitalia fully erect. What if it was too small or too big?
His thoughts were cut off as he felt something warm and wet press against his erection. He moaned and exhaled shakily as he felt pleasure down his body. He looked down and saw that he was fully erect, his penis sandwiched between his and Iclyn's bodies. Filly's love juices dropped onto his erect member and were rubbed as Iclyn moved her body against his.
"Sirius, are you ready?" she asked him as she brought herself up.
"I... I am." Sirius nodded and then used his magic to align his rod with Iclyn's wet opening. For a second, he stopped. "Uh, we don't have protection."
"You can get me pregnant only if I'm in heat, silly." Iclyn giggled. "Don't worry about anything, Sirius."
Without any warning, she brought herself down on him and the head of his penis disappeared inside her. Both of them moaned loudly in responce to the stimulation. Sirius felt the warm and wet tightness that encompassed the head of his rod. He didn't know what to do next. Should he push her down or should he wait?
Slowly, Iclyn continued lowering herself until Sirius' penis bumped against something that made her yelp in surprise.
"Is everything alright?" Sirius asked with worry.
"This is the worst part..." Iclyn said. "I'm alright. We'll just go right..." she brought her body down in one motion, and Sirius tore her hymen. "Ah!" Iclyn exclaimed as she felt what she had never felt before. Sirius was worried about it and prepared to pull out but she stopped him. "I'm alright... Just give me a moment to adjust. Gosh, you're rather thick!"
Sirius gulped and nodded. Everything around his shaft was tight. It was physically pleasing but he wanted Iclyn to feel good as well. He even used his magic to support her body to make it easier for her to be in her position.
"Alright, let's do it." Iclyn said and then slowly slid down Sirius' rod.
Both of them moaned as they felt immense pleasure from both psychological and physical sides of sex. Sirius felt free as if his shackles were finally broken. He was desired and loved, and there was a girl who was willing to be so vulnerably close to him.
Soon, Sirius bottomed out in Iclyn. The two kissed lovingly and passionately as they felt their bond strengthening on the spiritual level. Neither of them had ever felt anything even remotely as good as their lovemaking was before their final act in the bedroom. It was much more than simple affection for body, it was something much deeper and more meaningful than simple pleasure or lust.
Iclyn started establishing the rhythm by lifting herself up and then sliding down. Sirius tried to make it easier for her by supporting her with the magic and using his own body to thrust and pull. Their mouthes connected again and the two closed their eyes, enjoying each-other's presence and comfort. They didn't break their connection and continued kissing as they made love to each-other. It was the moment of passion both were longing for.
Sirius felt his edge growing closer with each passing second. Finally, he was able to feel it, to feel the ability to give pleasure to the one he so desperately loved. He was whom Iclyn desired. She wanted him and no one else.
"I'm... I'm..." he tried to tell Iclyn about his incoming orgasm but she silenced him by kissing him yet again. He didn't protest and instead focused his mind on delivering pleasure to his lover.
He thrusted inside her and felt the pressure in his testicles growing higher and higher. He held it as much as possible for Iclyn since he wanted to bring her to orgasm first. The pressure grew and became uncomfortable when finally Iclyn clenched around his shaft and cried out in pleasure as her orgasm finally came. Unable to hold himself any longer, Sirius released his seed inside her with a loud grunt. He hilted inside her and sent spurts after spurts of liquid love into her.
As they rode out their orgasms, Iclyn collapsed on top of Sirius. Both breathed heavily as they recovered from the first sex in their lives.
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It was the best moment in Sirius' entire life. He created a long-lasting bond with the one he loved. It didn't matter that she was different, it didn't even matter that she was an alien. She greatly helped him cope with his inner problems by being supportive and caring for him. The bond they created was strong, stronger than any other Sirius had ever had.
He knew it wasn't the end or solution to all his problems but he realized it was a big step in that direction. He had been lost and alone so many times but he finally found someone to love and care for, and that significant other returned his feelings and made him feel accepted.
Finally, he felt like he belonged.
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Finally, Sirius embraced love completely and let himself enjoy it. Isn't it one of the greatest accomplishments?