What's in a Name?

by IcarusFics

Chapter 4: Chapter Four

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A million thoughts flew through my head at the same time, making it completely impossible to focus on one thought.

“Y-yeah. Pregnant.” Lily pursed her lips nervously, trying to read my face for emotions.

I did nothing but sit there and think, my eyes trembling as I tried to process this information.

This couldn't be happening. I was a man. Not a girl. I couldn't get pregnant! Even if I was a girl, I was a virgin! No sex, no baby. Simple as that.

What was this, some sort of immaculate conception? No. It wasn't possible. Stuff like that didn't happen. Then again, turning into a pony mare didn't usually happen either.

“Th-this can't be real.”

“Rose, I…” Lily quietly said. “I've thought about all the options, and nothing else seems likely. I got… I got a pregnancy test, just in case, but I have no idea if it'll work, what with you being a pony and all… I got like, ten just to make sure. I'll try it out a few times as well to make sure that they work properly as a pony.”

“I'm not pregnant.” I said blankly.

“I'm hope you're right, Rose. This is what the tests are for.”

“I'm not.”

Lily said nothing but pulled me into a hug, holding me tightly as I began to cry. I didn't want her to let go, her holding me was just so amazing and calming. She stroked my mane with a hoof, which also helped me calm myself down.

“Y-you won't l-leave me, r-right?” I stuttered out.

“Of course not.” She said warmly and nuzzled against my cheek with hers. “You're my… best friend, Rose. I'll never leave you.”

I gave her a weak smile behind my tears and hugged her again. I eventually forced myself to pull away and pushed myself off the couch.

“OK.” I said, mustering as my confidence as I could. “Let's get this over with.”


I sat quietly as I waited for Lily to come out of the bathroom. I could hear the sound of the toilet seat going up, a slight hissing sound and then the toilet flush. I watched as a bright red faced Lily walked out of the bathroom, holding onto the pregnancy tests.

“Gosh, that was weird.” She cringed and sat next to me. “I mean, I'd been to the toilet before like this, I just… never looked at myself down there.”

My mind was suddenly filled with images of what Lily's private area might look like, which I quickly forced out of my mind.

“It should only take a few minutes to show the results, and I did three, so that should help us know whether they show proper results for ponies or not.”

I nodded and we both sat silently, watching for the tests to show their results.

Three negative tests.

“Whew, I was almost worried it would turn up positive for me too.” Lily laughed nervously. “So, you think you're ready for yours?”

“No. But I know I have to do it.”

“I know, honey.” Lily said and began to stroke my mane again. “I know you can do it.”

I closed my eyes and enjoyed the relaxing feeling of her hoof brushing my hair over and over. I felt this strange sensation of warmth when Lily called me “Honey” as well. It's entirely possible that she was just trying to calm me down, but… I wished it meant more.

I slowly pulled myself off of the couch and away from Lily's comforting strokes. I hesitantly made my way over to the bathroom and shut the door behind me, seeing Lily's comforting smile just before the door shut. I stood there for a while, breathing in and out slowly.

I could do this. I could do this. I could do this.

I crawled up onto the toilet and sat precariously over it. I picked up one of the pregnancy tests and stared at it. This stick… was going to control what the next eleven months of my life would be like. Heck, it would control my entire life. If the results were positive, everything would change.

I wouldn’t be Alex, the unemployed, uneducated idiot, but I would be… Rose. The mother.

That scared the fuck out of me.

I took a deep breath and held the stick between my legs. I felt my bladder release and I cringed as I heard the stream of urine hit the stick and the water below. I pulled the stick away and threw it to the side before grabbing another. Then another, then another, until both my bowels were empty and the sticks were all used. I slid off of the toilet and collected the pregnancy tests, carrying them with me to the door.

As it opened, I saw Lily, sitting with a worried look on her face, but also an encouraging one. I could tell she was trying to be strong for me, even if I couldn’t. I tried to smile back, but my lips just quivered as my eyes began to fill to the brim with tears. I walked Briskly toward Lily and let her embrace me, crying into her shoulder.

“I-I’m s-so s-s-s-scared, Lily!” I sobbed out, struggling to form a cohesive sentence.

“I know you are, Rose. I’m here for you.” She nuzzled my neck and stroked my mane.

I pulled away from her and took in a deep breath before placing the tests on the couch in front of us. I closed my eyes and held them shut. After a few minutes had passed, and I was still holding my eyes shut, I heard Lily speak.



“Are… are you looking?”


“...Me neither.”

I felt a hoof hit the pillow next to me softly and reached out towards it, taking a hold of it and feeling the comfort and love that it gave me.

“How about…” I started nervously. “How about we both look at the same time.”


“Ready? On one.”

“Three.” She began to count, her voice wavering from fear.

“Two.” My heart was racing now and the thoughts of what could happen flew through my head. A kid. A foal.

I saw myself, sitting with Lily and taking care of our child. I was smiling softly at the little baby that I was holding calmly in my hooves, and Lily was stroking its little mane as it slept peacefully.

“She’s beautiful, isn’t she?” The dream version of Lily said.

“She is. Our little Brisk Breeze.” Dream me whispered, nuzzling up to Lily and planting a kiss on her cheek.



Positive. All seven of them.

I looked up to Lily and saw that tears were already pouring down her cheeks. I threw myself forward and hugged her tightly, letting my tears flow and my sobs free. I cried so loud that even the neighbours beneath me must have been able to hear.

Lily tried to stroke my mane, but I was hugging her so tightly and crying so loudly that she had no choice but to cry as well and hug me back.

My life was over. I was dead. My old life was nothing, and I knew that from now on, I was Rose.

The biggest question was “Am I okay with this?”

If you would have asked me a week ago, I would have said no. If you asked me a day ago, I would have said no.

If you asked me today?


I can’t answer that.

Lily began to nuzzle my neck and held me even tighter than before as her sobs grew almost as loud as mine.

“I-I-I’m sorry, R-Rose! I’m so s-s-sorry!” She cried, almost screaming into my shoulder as I felt her tears leak through my fur and onto the skin below.

“I’m s-sorry too!” I held onto her and returned the nuzzle as best as I could in this situation.

We sobbed together for a short while before eventually, the sobs became less frequent and we quietened down substantially. Not entirely because we were calming down a little, but also from the fact that our throats were so sore from before.

I sniffed, trying to get my nose unblocked as I stared, teary eyed, at the seven positive pregnancy tests. I was pregnant. As I stared down at my stomach, I imagined the little foal growing inside of me. I felt a strange sensation as I thought of it, something that I was only recently familiar with.

Pride. I was proud of this child. It was my child and I would love it for my whole life.

That thought process brought me even more confusion. My child... But how? I knew now that there was a child growing inside of me, but how? Who was the father? When did it happen? HOW did it happen? Was it magic?

I didn’t have any idea what it could be, and I didn’t care. I still felt an immense amount of love for the little bundle of joy that had only just begun its journey toward life. That love that I felt now would carry on throughout the entirety of my life and the life of my child.

“L-Lily.” I said, looking up towards Lily with tears in my eyes.


“I…” I squinted, letting the tears that had built up pour down. “I’m… happy.”

She sat, staring at me blankly for a while, unblinking and unmoving.

“You’re… happy? Really?”

I nodded, trying my hardest not to smile, only for it to break through my tears and show despite all of this.


She moved closer to me.

“I love you.”


I was on the edge of the cliff. The Breeze was blowing quietly and calmly and I felt it pass through my mane. I let out a relaxed sigh and smiled contently at the view before me. The sun was almost at the end of its journey through the sky and stars had already begun to pop up. I shifted my gaze up and saw the moon slowly drift upwards, its progression bringing more and more stars into the wonderful vista.

“I always liked watching the sunset with my sister. Family is definitely an important and amazing thing.” A familiar voice spoke out from behind me.

I spun around and saw Princess Luna, who had visited my dreams a few days ago. Just before my transformation.

“It was quite difficult, but I’m glad to have found you. How are you, my little pony?”

“I’m…” I tried to formulate an answer, but only one response came to mind. “I’m pregnant.”

She smiled at me calmly.

“I know, little one.”


“Why?” She walked closer to me and sat down, looking out over the horizon. “Because you fell in love. You wanted a child, and so you decided with your partner that you would have one.”

“No I didn’t. I don’t… I didn’t love anyone when I became like this.”

She nodded silently, the calm smile disappearing from her face.

“No, you didn’t. Let me rephrase that. Rose fell in love and decided that Lily and her would have a child.”

“Wh-what? What are you talking about.”

“I… I don’t know how to tell you this, and I myself do not know how, but… It seems that, in my world, Equestria… Lily and Rose have passed away. When they did, Rose was with foal.”


I flew upwards, throwing my arms forward and pulling in a deep gasp. My heart was beating at an insane speed and my breathing was almost as fast.

“Rose!” Lily shouted from beside me, causing my head to swing towards her.


“R-Rose, are you okay? You passed out again, I was so worried!”

“I’m… I’m fine.” I said, not even thinking. All I could do was focus on what I had learned during my dream. What did this mean?

“Rose, do you remember…?”

I broke from my stupor and looked at her again.



“I love you.”


I stared at her, my eyes wide with shock. I stared deep into her brilliant golden eyes and felt as she put a hoof on mine.

“Yes. I remember.” I muttered quietly.

“Your… Your eyes are really pretty.” Lily said, staring back.

“Yours are too…”

We were silent for a while as we did nothing but look into each others eyes and get lost in them.

“Rose…” Lily broke the silence, moving her head closer to mine.

“Yes?” I responded and moved mine closer to hers.

“What is wrong with us?” Lily's eyes began to relax.

“I think…” I put a hoof on her cheek.

“What do you think?”

“I think we’re in love.”

Lily closed the gap between us and her lips met mine. I melted immediately as I felt the softest lips in the world press up against me. I let out an involuntary moan as Lily put her hooves around my body and pulled me in closer to hers. There was almost nothing else left in the world to worry about as she moved her hooves up and down my body, brushing my fur tenderly and increasing the energy she was putting into the kiss.

I could do nothing but return the favor and put my hooves around her. Even with my relatively numb hooves, I could feel just how soft both her fur and her body felt. After a short while, I pushed my tongue against her lips and they immediately parted, letting me explore her mouth with my tongue.

Lily pulled away and I reluctantly let her as she breathed in heavily.

“S-sorry. My nose is all blocked and I couldn’t breath.” Lily laughed nervously.

“I love you.” I said.

Lily stared at me, her eyes lighting up and a smile forming on her lips. She threw herself at me, this time laughing happily as we rolled around on the couch together. I couldn’t help but laugh along as we fell to the floor and continued to hug each other. I peppered her face with kisses and hugged her tightly as we lay on the floor together, eventually stopping when she locked lips with me again.

I had to stop the kiss this time and looked at her, my eyes half lidded and full of love.

“This is real.” I muttered, my smile growing wider.

“It is.” Lily smiled back and kissed me on the nose, eliciting a laugh from me. I rolled onto my side and lay next to Lily, resting my head on her chest.

“I…” I breathed in, catching my breath from our intense makeout. “I can’t believe this. It’s so unreal, but… I know it is real.”

“I know what you mean.” Lily said with a breathless laugh.

“Lily…” I said, my mind returning to my dream. “We need to talk about something.”

“I-is something wrong? You just got all serious all of a sudden.”

“I… I had a dream a few days ago. It was… weird. It was the same recurring dream I’d been having for the past week or so, but this time, I saw… another pony.”

“Another pony?” Lily gasped. “What, like us?”

“Not exactly. She was tall, and had wings and a horn. She said her name was Princess Luna and the dreams I was having were naming dreams.”

“Naming dreams?”

“Apparently, all… all pregnant mares get them, it helps them name their foal.”

“Oh. But wait, you weren’t pregnant before you changed, and you said that you were having these dreams for like, a week.”

“I don’t get it either. When I turned into a pony the next day, I thought it was just my mind playing tricks on me, but when I was out cold before… I saw her again.”

“Her? You mean the other pony?”

“Yeah. She said that… that we… well, the version of us in her world, were in love and Rose was pregnant. She also said that… we were dead.”

Lily's face went pale and her pupils shrunk down to pinpricks.

“D-dead?” She stuttered out.

I nodded.

“I don’t understand either, and as soon she told me, I woke up.”

“So you’re saying that… We’re just copies!?”

“No!” I held Lily's hoof with mine. “We’re not them. You are Lily. I am Rose. While we might… look like them, and be in love like them, we are not them.”

Lily nodded nervously, tears still appearing and rolling down her cheeks. I wiped them away and kissed her on the forehead.

“We aren’t copies. I don’t understand what’s happening, but… this kid is mine.”

Lily placed a hoof on my belly and looked me in the eyes.


I nodded back, smiling and nuzzling up to her neck.

“Our little Brisk Breeze.”

Author's Notes:

Another chapter. I am really enjoying this story, so I hope you guys are too.

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