Author's Notes:

So, this story doesn't 'neatly' fit into this series. But. I'm going to consider an interesting interpretation.

If Pony Fluttershy = Wacky and Silly... then EQG Fluttershy is...

Well, I hope you enjoy

"It was a normal day at Canterlot High. I was quiet and in the back as usual. I wanted you to notice me. Maybe it would have been my shyness. Maybe you would have liked my green skirt or long pink hair. Or maybe you would have noticed my light blue eyes, peering at you from the back of the classroom. But I wanted to know what it was like to look deep into your eyes. Even if it was just once.

"I quietly followed you around the halls as you went from class to class, scurrying like a squirrel out of sight. I wanted to know so much about you. I wanted to hear your voice. But I was too scared to approach you. I kept fighting myself over and over. Go talk to him. No, don't do it. Fight your shyness, Fluttershy. I debated with myself over and over...

"In the end... I thought I would give up.

"I walked through the halls teary eyed... knowing you wouldn't notice me. I wasn't anything special to you. But, then I tripped in the halls and spilled my books all over the floor. That was the last straw for me...

"After beating myself up all day for not mustering up the courage to confront you, I just cried. I cried like a baby in the crowded high school halls. I didn't care who saw me. They still laugh at me for it. But none of it matters. Because, you stopped and helped me. You put your hand on my shoulders and smiled. Then... I got to look into your beautiful eyes. My chest felt tight, my stomach was filled with butterflies and my mind went blank. My stutter acted up and I didn't know what to say. But that's when you told me your name... Anon.

"Such a handsome name for a handsome young man. You helped me gather my books and that’s when you remembered we were in the same math class. All I could do was smile, because you actually did notice me. I giggled and nodded. Or maybe I squeaked. I'm fuzzy on that detail. I get so shy around people sometimes...

"But after you left, and I got to see deep into your eyes, I had a new question. I wanted to know what it would have felt like for you to hold my hand. Even if it was just once.

"After the first day, I noticed nobody sat by you at lunch, so I sat by you instead of the girls. Rainbow teased me for having a boyfriend after a few days, and I denied it through blushed cheeks. Although. I knew what I wanted most. I wanted to be closer to you so badly. Nobody seemed to want to be your friend. I knew I could be there for you. I sat down by you and you smiled. I got to see deep into your eyes and feel that same rush again. All I could do is dorkily smile back. We talked and I probably giggled way too much. I was putty in your hands. Or... at least... I wanted to be in your hands.

"I... may have lied and said I was doing bad at math. But you offered to help tutor me after school. At your house! I blushed so hard... but I interrupted you to say yes. That is... if you wanted to.

"And you did.

"So I met you outside the front of school. We walked to your house and you talked about the music you liked and I talked about animals. I talked about animals a lot. Probably a little too much. But you just smiled... and said it was cute.

"You called me cute.

"So I bumped my hand against yours... And you grabbed it. The rush filled me again when you grabbed it. I blushed and looked away, but squeezed your hand. But... then I had a new question. I wanted to know what it was like to be held in your arms. Even if it was just once.

"When we got to your house, your parents weren't home. We went up to your room, and we sat on the floor. I had never been in a boy's room before. It was so... Normal. There were band posters on the wall... A laptop computer... It was exactly what Rainbow's would look like. But less blue. And rainbows. You grabbed your bag and sat on the floor. I sat on the floor too, but sat on my side, so my skirt wasn't open. I was just so nervous to be in your room.

"You got out your book and opened to today's homework and began teaching me the lesson I already knew. I asked you to repeat certain parts just because I liked the way you said it. Your parents got home... and your Dad came up to say hi. When he got to the door, he was just quiet. You nervously introduced me to him and I could barely look him in the eye. I was so embarrassed and nervous... I shouldn't have been though... Your Dad just smiled and gave you a thumbs up.

"He mentioned he would tell your Mother to make dinner for an extra. My voice went dry. I wanted to say no... but it was already done. I was staying for dinner. We began to work on the problems together. I already had them solved in my head. Having a friend like Twilight help you through classes pays off over time. But after I messed it up enough, you sat directly next to me and help me walk through the problem step by step. Feeling you so close to me gave me goosebumps. I smiled so wide, feeling your hand on mine. Once I did one of the harder problems, I faked some pride and whispered 'Yay! I did it!'

"You looked at me with such pride. And I looked deep into your eyes and felt that rush. I felt your hand on top of mine and my body went completely numb. I slowly leaned into you. You slowly leaned into me. Then your parents called for dinner. The moment was shattered. I cursed under my breath. Rarity would have been appalled. At least, you didn't hear me. We went downstairs and we had dinner with your parents.

"Your family told me all about where you used to live, which made me feel much more comfortable. If I had to say too much about myself... I probably would have died in the chair I sat in. I hate being the center of attention. But... they asked if I was your girlfriend. You blushed and looked away, muttering a few words.

"I answered yes.

"You looked up at me in shock and I simply smiled back at you. But your parents were very, very nice... and let us go back to your room after dinner. You asked if I meant what I said. And I said yes. That's when it happened. You wrapped your arms around me. It was like someone injected me with some sort of high-intensity drug. The room felt like it was spinning. Time felt like it stopped. Nothing else mattered. I felt your soft heartbeat from your chest. I breathed in your delicate scent. I feel your gaze upon me. I leaned in closer to you... You leaned in closer to me. Then I tasted your lips.

"Your morphine lips.

"I tasted your kiss... and there was one thing that I knew. This wasn't something I could live with just once. In that moment, I never thought anything could happen to ruin what we had. Everything was special. Everything was amazing. I had you all to myself.

"Then she ruined everything.

"That she-devil, Sunset, came and stole you away from me. It's HER fault. I cried for days when you told me you didn't want to be a couple anymore. Days. Anon. Then, the Fall Formal was announced. I just... I just knew you would be going with... -her-. My friends told me I shouldn't go. That it would just hurt me more. But I couldn't. I had to go. There was one more question. One last thing I needed to know. Even if it was just once.

"So here we are Anon... You may be asleep right now... but the pill will wear off in a little bit. I wonder what you're dreaming about. Are you dreaming of me? I hope so... Because you are in every single one of mine... Except, this time, you won't run away. And I won't wake up.

"I hope these ropes are strong enough to hold you.

"This janitor's closet is on the far end of the school, so nobody will bother us... Not even .her. So tonight... I get my answer to my final question. I want to know what it's like to feel you inside of me. Even if it's just once."