A Broken Record

"AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!" I start screaming and clutching my head, Images of red flash across my memory as a searing pain washes over my head. I bash my head against the wall to find some for of relief, It doesn't work. I stumble outside still clutching my head into a group of Bandits, 5 renegade pegasi. They spot me and draw their weapons stained with blood... blood... so much blood...

'Blood, murder, death, madness, cruel, violent, alone'

I slowly regain a rigid stature... a blood vessel breaks in my left eye and blood streams down my face.

'Just die... leave me alone... LEAVE ME ALONE!!!'

One pegasi lunges for me, I grab his arm and twist it around to his backside, continuing the motion and stabbing him int the spine. He loosens the grip of the blade. I throw the blade at the other one just behind me, going straight through the skull, grabbing the blade again and with one solid motion split the skull of the second bandit and cleaving the third in half, then taking the third bandit's blade I slit the throat of the 4th and then throw both swords at the last bandits neck, cleanly severing the head from the torso. The ground runs red with blood, as I remember Who I am and what happened...

I collapse on my knees, crying in the resulting downpour, a notion of thought that the sky mourns for those who used to dwell in it, no matter what they did,  my hands are stained with blood. Crying hurts, I try to wipe it away to have it only hurt even more.  Discord appears and sees me...

"A Memory wall, huh... those things never end well... Depending on what you kept back, your brain could be permanently scrambled... You told me before you off and poofed out of the hospital that you'd explain later. Later is now, and this is basically the only treatment for you right now." He had a solid point. I place my hand over my eye and tell him the story. Neither of us was going to like it.

Aoi, 4 years old

"Hi mommy, Hi daddy!" I loved it when they were home.

"Have you been a good little boy?" Mom and dad both had to work to support us.

"Uh-huh! So whatcha making?" I was alway's curious of how mom always cooked.

"I'm making your favorite, Apple Pie," Mom's apple pies were the greatest.

Then later that night, I couldn't sleep, so I went to sleep with mom and dad. Through the crack of the door I saw a man, long trenchcoat, a mad hungry look in his eyes. He stabbed dad 4 times before he let him die, then slit mom's throat. Blood drenched everything, the carpets, the bed, the rug, and that man's coat. I hated him, I hated him for it, I cried, but no wimpers, just tears, trickling down from the ducts of eyes wide open from horror. I ran at him. He tried to slash at me with the knife, I grabbed it, and drove it deep into his heart, all saying the same thing,

"Leave me alone, Just leave me alone........ just die and leave me alone........"

The cops found me later in a fetal position, eyes with ruptured blood vessels, knife clutched in my hand...

a week after I gained consiousness, I remembered nothing, I started life anew in the hospital. I never felt sad since then, nor anger, nor fear, just happiness and a placid enjoyment of life, no matter how strange things got.

"So that's why you've always had the utmost respect for life, you only took life to protect, and even then it made you hate the concept of death."

"Now you know, I enacted all manners of chaos and freedom, to chide myself away from the true evils of the world. So let me ask you this, what happens now?"

"This you cannot be let loose on the world, this you of unstable rage, a you completely based on violence and hatred, it doesn't make anything but instead becomes a virus that feeds off of you, now it's too strong to just forget. What I'm going to do, consider this an act of," he sighed at what he was about to say,"friendship." Discord rebuilt the memory wall inside my subconscious, only a small crack to allow a steady flow, not so much as I forget, but to remember only the parts that matter and that make me... me. before the last 'brick' was sealed into place, I simply said one thing more,

"Your the first friend I ever had..."

It's funny what he was doing, fixing a chaotic mind to better me, It goes against his very nature...

...But that's why he can do it.

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Dear Princess Celestia

I made a new friend, I believe you've met him before...

Your favorite wolf,

Aoi

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This is my first Gaiden Chapter. It's not meant to be part of the streamline story, but it reveals more about the character if chosen to be read and connects with the other gaiden chapter. The Gaiden chapters will be edited to reveal more and more of the story. So don't ever think that it stops there.