As I sat there next to the sleeping dashie I thought even deeper about what this meant, if I was a ghost did it mean there was a after life after all?, and if there was was this it, being beside the living forever, or was I in limbo, waiting to be judge by whatever higher being existed?

All this thinking was posing more questions than answers, so I decided not to think about it until I knew for certain which was true, but as I sat there my mind began to wonder, wondering what I could do, could I possibly haunt one of them, show I was still around, or was I completely cut off from interaction? This I decided to test, so walked over to a vase and tried to move it.

At first nothing happened, my hoof passed right through it like air, but slowly the more I concentrated I could see it begin to rock back and forth, and I got excited.

I walked along and tried to move other things, make a tapestry shake, and move dust, but mostly I had little effect on these things, mainly because I wasn't trying hard enough, so I go back to the vase, trying to tip it over, but with no luck, and as I lay back down next to dashie twilight starts to speak.

"We lost a friend, not just a element, I know this is going to be hard, but we have to push through, keep on going strong, tomorrow we'll have his funeral, so prepare today" twilight says to no one in particular, her voice echoing around the silent room several times,  making me think if my wishes of a simple burial will be granted.

I lay next to dashie until she awakens from her drunken sleep, following her into her room as she stares at the wall, eyes glazed over, looking deep in thought, and I get a hair brained idea.

I stand in front of her, waving my hoof in front of her face, trying to get her to see me, with no avail, then remembering that it took concentration to move the vase, I start to focus all my thoughts on being visible.

As I focus my thoughts I feel peace overcome me, followed by a loud scream of terror out of dashie. Within seconds twilight, pinkie, applejack and fluttershy were at the door, asking what was wrong.  Dashie was huddled in the corner, shaking and eyes wide, she managed to studder "Tesla, he's here!" Before she started going into fits, looking like she had seen a ghost, and if my idea had worked she had.

"RaInbow dash, that's absurd, you know he's gone, passed, there's nothing here besides us" twilight says, "he's right there!" Dashie repeats, pointing at my exact spot, "ya mean he's right here?, nonsense, nothin but air here" applejack replies, waving a leg through my ghost body, trying to show dashie it was empty. Slowly they got her calmed down and her believing it was her imagination, but as she left the room she looked back at me, probably wondering if the others were right.

I stayed by dashies side for the rest of the day, following her as she tried to cope with my loss, but every now and again she would look over her shoulder, sometimes right at me, like she sensed my presence.

As she got ready for bed she looked at the empty bed and sighed, lying down and crying softly, I knew I couldn't comfort her well but I tried, lying next to her and covering her with my ghostly wing, almost immediately she stopped crying, said "Tesla if your there I miss you", and fell asleep.

I lay next to her the entire night, and I knew somehow she sensed me, mainly because it was a quite chilly night, and she didn't use any blankets, almost as if my ghostly wing was providing heat and comfort.

When she got up in the morning to go to the restroom and graze for awhile  I followed her, looking away as she did her business, wondering what the day would turn out to be.

As we went back inside I noticed the subdued atmosphere, and to my amazement everyone was wearing clothes, sorta like a dress but more fitting for a equestrian, that's when celestia and Luna came in.

They were wearing similar clothing, besides it was my form fitting and a darker shade of black than the rest, making it even more somber as they grouped up.

" are you all ready for this?" Celestia asks, everyone nodding there head slightly, and with a nod they were off.

I was glad they didn't teleport, I wouldn't have been able to follow them. As we fly through the air I stick close to dashie, part of my wing passing through her body with every stroke, and she tried to keep a straight face, but she wasn't doing to well.

We land at a building I hadn't even seen before, low lying and greyish, we walk one by one through the open doorway, and once we were inside I could see my casket.

It was a simple wooden box, like I had wanted, and on the lid was my symbol, the atomic mushroom cloud that had hovered above me when I became a element, the one that was on my door in the elemental castle. It was a two lanes lid, cut down the middle so they could veiw my upper body while covering my lower, and I could see they had left my body in battle condition, scars, open wounds, and part of a javelin sticking through my chest, the other part snapped off.

As they viewed my body they broke down one by one, dashie breaking out in tears, then twilight, then fluttershy, then rarity, and to finish it off pinkie and applejack, celestia and Luna masking their emotions.

As the viewing progressed they put my elemental necklace on my body, for what reason I don't know, then they shut the lid, and once again it broke out in tears across the room, even celestia and Luna shedding a tear as it closed.

I watched from my place next to dashie, then it hit me: this was my body, how did this happen?

As they began to levitate my casket into the air I hear something, at first it sounded like a thousand whispers, then they merged into one voice, and that voice said: "Tesla, its not your time yet, live".

It stuns me what this voice said, without a sour e I couldn't identify it, but right after the voice spoke I began to feel a pull, pulling me towards my casket like a magnet, at first this pull was small, but it rapidly grew into one I couldn't wistand, pulling me into the casket, and I felt my soul line up with my body, then all I felt was pain.

At first I didn't understand what happened, all I knew was pain, I rocked back and forth without thought, my mind in a mess of sublime distress, so It didn't help when they dropped me.

I hear gasps and screams from across the room, but I didn't comprehend them, the pain was to intense, and it didn't help either that I was claustrophobic, and I was literally In a small casket.

I feel someone open the lid, but I couldn't focus, my mind was jumbled, but I do understand the great rush of questions and shocked responses that flood over the room, but mainly I heard: " he's alive!?!?"

In a daze I see that it was twilight who had opened the casket, and it sounded distant when I heard her say "someone go get me my medical kit, if we don't hurry he could die!", and in my distorted mind I found it funny because I was just dead, and the world goes black.

When I wake up I was back in my room in the elemental castle, wrapped horn to horn in different bandages, some bloody, and by my side dashie.

She was asleep, looking like she had been by my side for some time, and I fell back into sleep knowing I was safe.

The next time I wake up twilight was changing my bandages, I held silent for a second, until while unwrapping a bandage on my leg she bumped me, sending a flower of pain through my mind, causing me to cry out.

" he's awake!" She yells out my door, and within seconds everyone was gathered around me, asking a million questions faster than I could comprehend them, until twilight tells them to slow down and talk more understandably.

"Tesla? How are you alive?" Asks rarity, "I wasn't, for awhile I was dead"  I say, grimacing in pain as pinkie bumps my bed, shooting pain through my entire body, "we know that, but how are you here now?" Twilight asks, continuing to rebandage me, "there was a voice, saying its not my time, live, then I was sucked back into my body at the funeral" I say, remembering what had happened. "Sucked from where?" Fluttershy asks, seeming nervous, "I was a ghost, next to dashie at the funeral" I say, grinning through pain as twilight continues to change my bandages, "and I was right there in dashies room" I say, trying to smile, "I was next to dashie always, watching over her, she did see me".

All eyes turn to dashie, who was next to me, looking like she was in disbelief, " you mean you were there, I thought it was my imagination, it was you that I felt through the day, it was you who comforted me at night?" She asks, eyes wide, "yep, I was there" I say, suddenly tired, and as I feel my eyes shut I hear twilight say to let me sleep, more questions later, and as they left me to peace I drift into deep sleep.

I knew it was a nightmare, but it scared me none the less.

I was in battle, the one that killed me, I watched my self get killed, twilight teleprtng my body away, then the scene changed, I was back at my funeral, only this time I didn't rise from the dead, I watched as they buried me, covering my coffin with dirt, and the scene changed once again, this time I was back at the castle, they had just returned from my funeral, dashie sneeks away so I follow her, watching her slide into my room, she pulled out something I thought I had disposed of, three cyanide pills.

As I watch I try to stop her,but suddenly I couldn't move, I could yell but she couldn't hear me, and to my horror she swallowed the pills, collapsing into a heap. I watched with horror, and as I watched her spirit came into veiw, looking at me and smiling, "Tesla?, is that you?" She asks, "yes its me" I reply, and she takes a step towards me.

As she takes a step towards me the scene changes, suddenly we were surrounded by fire, dashie looks around in horror, seeming to get farther away from your every second, "Tesla, help me!" She yells, but I was froze in place, unable to move.

A figure looms up from behind dashie, one I would know anywhere, pinkamena.

"This ones mine Tesla, your next!" She says, eyes glowing red as she pulls dashie down into a hole of fire. I scream for dashie, but I was unable to help, and suddenly I could move, I rush up to the hole, but I was to late, I watched as pinkamena dragged dashie down to hell, my voice screaming after her, and suddenly i was awake.

"What's wrong?, tesla wake up!" Some one yells at me, shaking me, I open my eyes and right above me was dashie, eyes staring deep into mine.

I look around and in my doorway was celestia, Luna, twilight and applejack, all looking worried.

"Dashie, it was awful, you committed suicide after my funeral and pinkamena dragged you to hell, I was stuck I couldn't help you, I couldn't help you" I say, starting to cry because I realized I couldn't help her,"hush now, its OK, I'm here I'm here" dashie says softly, calming me somewhat. "You were screaming for me, saying " no don't take her" and yelling to stop, it was all a nightmare, I'm here for you, I'm here" dashie croons into my ear, and slowly I fall back to sleep.

I wake up again all alone, I could see it was morning from the light pouring in the window, and I knew I had some business to take care of.

I get up slowly, trying to keep the pain to a minimum, wincing as I told my ming up against my back. I use some magic to levitate the box out from under my bed, the one in my dream, and sure enough all my cyanide pills were there.

" how is this possible?, I got rid of these months ago" I say to myself, picking up one of the bright green pills, and without conscious effort I start to destroy them, burning them up in plasma fire, incinerating them to a dust.

"What were those?" I hear from my door way, shocking me, and as I turn around I see it was twilight, looking at me funny.

"Cyanide pills, the ones in my nightmare rainbow used to kill herself, I through them away months ago but somehow their back." I reply, shutting the now empty box. "OK, but what are you doing up, you shouldn't be standing yet, or walking either, lay back down or you'll tear your stitches." She says, trying to get me to lay back down

"No, I'm getting up" I say, being stubborn, "if you don't lay back down by choice I'll have to drug you, now lat down" twilight replies, Holding up a needle of clear liquid. "No, I'm getting up and getting out of this room!" I say, taking a step towards the doorway, and twilight launches the needle at me with magic.

I was expecting that so I stop it middair with my magic, holding it steady although twilight kept pushing, I knew that if left this say she would win, already the needle was slowly forcing its way  towards me, so I change up my approach.

I quickly use my magic to whip it to the side, something twilight didn't expect, and for a brief moment I had control, and that was all I needed.

While twilight recognized what had happened I was already holding the needle to her throat, the tip grazing her fur. "OK, you can get up, please just remove the needle from my throat, please." Twilight says, eyes wide as I move the needle away, but to make sure she didn't go back on her words I used some magic to temporarily weld the plunger of the needle to the inner walls of the casing, rendering it temporarily useless.

As I walk out of my room everyone looks at me, and the first thing I heard was: "you shouldn't be up yet, go lay back down", twilight had followed me out of my room, " I already tried to get him to lay back down, he doesn't listen worth shit" twilight says, glaring at me. I walk over and look out the window, watching the fields of grass roll in the wind. "How long was I out?, after I came back to life anyway" I say, still staring out at the waves of grass recreation the wind, "can we even say you came back to life?" Celestia said, turning her head away, "what do you mean?" I ask, wondering what she meant, "you don't have any vital signs of any kind, no heartbeat, no digestion, nothing".

As soon as celestia said this I began feeling myself for a heartbeat, and sure enough there was none. " how am I alive?" I ask, mind frantically trying to figure out how I was animated. "That's a good question, we don't know, but if you'll let twilight run some tests we'll find out soon enough".

As soon as celestia said " tests" I didn't want a part in it, I didn't want anymore needles, no more knives, no more medical anything. "No. No more anything medical, no tests, as long as I'm animated I'm OK" I say, stomping my hoof on the ground to set my point, but as I do I hear a RIP.

I look to see what made the ripping noise, and I see that one of my stitches had pulled out, just like twilight warned me.

"HA, told you they'd pull out!" Twilight sneers, making me kinda mad.

Ever since after I had killed discord I had been having anger management issues, and one thing that set me off worse than anything else was being humiliated.

It was a act of unconscious anger, but before even I realized it I had magically levitated the needle of drugs out of my room and made it usable again, holding it against twilights neck.

"Hold it, easy there Tesla, we don't need to go bezerk or anything, calm down please". Twilight says,cowering back, and almost instantly the little white hot flame of rage in my mind put itself out, leaving me ashamed of my actions.

" I'm sorry, I lost control there for a minute, its been happening since I killed discord, I hope it doesn't stop our freindship " I say, trying to apologize for my actions, "its ok" replies twilight, seeming spooked. "You've been losing control since you killed discord?, maybe the magic went to your mind, you'd literally be losing your mind if you weren't a element" celestia asks, examining me slightly.

"I don't even want to know what that means, I'm going back to bed." I say, suddenly tired, "let me sew you back up first, then you can sleep" twilight says, so she stitches back the ones that popped out, and I almost collapse into my bed, falling asleep before my head was even down.

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