Having worked a little later, though not by much, it was evening when Rainbow came home. She sighed with relief as she walked in the door, closing and locking it behind her. Taking off her jacket, she hung it up and looked about for signs of Fluttershy. But the downstairs was clean, with no lights on.

“Did she go out?” She said to herself, going into the kitchen and looking around for a note.

Finding nothing, she shrugged and headed upstairs. All the rooms were empty, but her bedroom door was closed. Curiously, she opened the door, coming to find Fluttershy on her bed. The woman in question was curled up in the fetal position, sniffling, and wearing one of her shirts, for whatever reason.

Upon hearing the door open, Fluttershy looked up, her teary, bloodshot eyes focusing on her.

“...Rainbow?” She managed, her voice cracking.

“Fluttershy!” Rainbow managed to say, rushing over to her and sitting down next to her, “What happened?!”

Taking a couple of deep breaths, Fluttershy barely looked at her, “I don’t know… I think I had a nervous breakdown…”

“About what?” Rainbow asked, pulling her into a hug.

Fluttershy trembled, unable to answer for a few moments. She wasn’t even sure how to put this into words. Despite the horrid voice from earlier, there was a softer voice that spoke within. This voice told her to calm down and tell her what was going on. The reality remained that they were still lovers and were now sharing a home together. With the problems surfacing, Fluttershy knew that this could not go on.

“Rainbow…” Fluttershy mumbled, her voice breaking, “I can’t…. I can’t live like this. Neither can you… I… I can’t help you… Not like I want to… This is far beyond what I can do for you. Please… please get professional help…”

Rainbow shrank down a little, clearly afraid, “You mean… see a.. psychiatrist? But what if… what if they… put me into care, or drug me up?”

“No… no. No, that’s not what they’ll do. You just need to speak to a professional… someone who can help you find answers. I want to help you… but I can’t. I just can’t. I-I’m not qualified… all I can do is be here…” Fluttershy wiped her eyes, shaking her head, “Please, this is not going to just stop. You need to do something about it… before something happens… Please, if not for me… do it for yourself. For the girls… For Scootaloo. You want her here with us, don’t you? We can’t constantly live in fear that something will happen… we have to do something…”

Rainbow looked away from her, “Shy… I can’t…”

“...Why?” Fluttershy asked with a sniffle.

“It’s just… not that simple, Shy,” Rainbow said shakily, “W-what good is a doctor going to do? They can’t just… turn my brain around.”

“Rainbow, stop that. You don’t know that. You’re not crazy. You’re not about to be put into a straitjacket and hauled to the mental institution. It’s not like that,” Fluttershy stood up then, regarding her with pleading eyes, “You just need to talk to someone. Someone who’s a professional and an unbiased party. They don’t judge you. That’s not their job. Their job is to let you find the answers you need. So, why? Why won’t you do this? ...Are you afraid of hurting someone…. or are you just afraid of getting caught?”

Rainbow’s eyes shot up to meet her’s, “W-what?”

Recoiling for a second, Fluttershy bit her lip. No, she couldn’t back down now. She took a deep breath, facing her again.

“I’m not trying to accuse you… I just want to know why you’re resistant of this. Tell me the truth, Rainbow… I can handle it. I just need to know,” Fluttershy sniffled, wiping her eyes again, “Please… no secrets. No lies. I love you, I want to help you… and I can’t help you if you don’t talk to me.”

“I…” Rainbow was shaking as she felt tears brimming in her eyes and lowered her head, “It’s true.”

‘You see? I was right. I knew it, I knew that-’

Fluttershy shut the voice off, refusing to listen to further. She approached her lover, kneeling down on the floor and placing a hand on her leg.

“Rainbow…. get help. It’s not too late…” She whispered.

Rainbow wiped her eyes and refused to look at her, “Of course it is, Fluttershy. Didn’t you just hear me? You were right. I don’t care about hurting anyone, I just don’t wanna go to jail. Listen to me, I’m fucking horrible!”

“It doesn’t matter,” Fluttershy whispered loudly, “You’re not in jail now. If you want to stop yourself from going to jail, you need help! I don’t want you to go to jail, either…. I know Scootaloo won’t… Neither does any of our friends. If you keep doing this to yourself, you might just end up in jail. You don’t want that, so do something! It doesn’t matter why! What matters is you’re stopping it from happening!”

Rainbow took a deep breath, and sighed, “Alright, Fluttershy. If you think it’ll help… I’ll do it.”

Managing a smile, Fluttershy stood and hugged her, “Thank you, Rainbow… All I ask is that you try.”

“Can… can you make the appointment for me?” Rainbow asked, “I don’t think I can tell some receptionist why I want to see a doctor… they gossip.”

“Of course. I’ll make it for you on your behalf,” Fluttershy promised.

“Thanks, Fluttershy,” Rainbow smiled, “I love you.”

Meeting her gaze, Fluttershy felt herself smile more. While the voice from earlier had gotten to her badly, it was then she knew more and more that it was playing with her. The look in Rainbow’s eyes said everything. It was all she needed.

“I love you too,” Fluttershy kissed her forehead, “so much…”

Rainbow flopped back onto her bed, sighing as she curled up on top of the blankets, “Thanks for sticking with me.”

Crawling over, Fluttershy lay behind her, spooning her, “I can’t do much, but I will do what I can…”

Rainbow reached back and stroked Fluttershy’s soft hair, “Hey… I know this is probably the worst time to ask, but…”

“What is it?” Fluttershy asked, nuzzling her hair.

“You know,” Rainbow said, stroking her hair, “I mean… if you’re not still mad at me…”

“I wasn’t mad. I was just concerned about you,” Fluttershy corrected, “What is it that you want?”

“You,” Rainbow said, turning over to kiss her cheek, “But I’d understand if, all things considered, you’re not in the mood.”

‘Look at that. How convenient. She wants a little fuck to be relieved of her-’

Fluttershy forced out the voice again, taking a breath.

‘No. She just needs a little relief and comfort from me.’

“Of course I can,” Fluttershy rolled on top of her, kissing her neck, “I’d be happy to.”

Rainbow blushed and smiled as she kissed Fluttershy’s face in return, “I love you.”

‘Wow… I must have the best girlfriend ever. After all this, she still wants me. Rainbow Dash, never let her go.’

“And I love you, always,” Fluttershy cooed in a soft whisper.

‘She loves me, I love her… And I will not abandon her in her time of need.’

'Oh shut up, Fluttershy. You're going to make me gag.'

“All right, then… Okay, thank you, goodbye,” Fluttershy hung up the phone. She turned to Rainbow with a soft smile, “Well, I looked in the phonebook and I found a highly recommended psychologist. He’s Doctor Firebrand and he holds his practice in Canterlot. I know it’s a bit of a ways off, but it should work.”

“Thanks, Fluttershy,” Rainbow said, looking into her coffee, “...Are you sure you’re okay?”

“I’m all right, why do you ask?” Fluttershy sat back down, drinking some tea.

“It’s just… you were in the fetal position when I came home,” Rainbow said, still not looking at her, “Did this really get to you that much?”

Looking down at her tea, Fluttershy sighed, “I was… I was having my own fears, my own inner demons. It was getting to me badly. I didn’t want to believe them, I didn’t want to give in. I was scared… scared that they would and I’d end up making everything so much worse.”

“What were you afraid of?” Rainbow asked, laying a hand on hers.

“I… I had been afraid you… thought I was too old for you, that you didn’t love me… That you just wanted me as a convenient fuck buddy…” Fluttershy admitted shamefully, wiping her eyes, “That you wanted Scootaloo, Apple Bloom and Sweetie Belle more than you ever wanted me… I tried so hard to tell myself it wasn’t true, I knew it wasn’t. But the voices in my head kept persisting. I became scared and unsure of anything… And I realized I couldn’t let this go on… I was so scared I’d leave… And I knew I couldn’t… I wouldn’t…”

Rainbow took a deep breath, “I can understand why you’d feel that way. Fluttershy. We’ve only actually been a couple for a few days, and before that we were just fuckbuddies. To be completely honest, Shy, that’s how I feel about the Crusaders. I… I don’t want anything like this with them, I just want to do them. I know, that sounds horrible, but I want to have something special with you, not them.”

Sniffling a bit, Fluttershy managed to look up, “I see what you’re saying… That makes sense, it really is more just about the sex with your ephebophilia. I figured as such… I-I suppose I let what we originally had get to me and like it was the norm, but…” She met her eyes, “When I looked into your eyes… You looked at me the same way I see my parents look at each other. I knew it was silly to doubt it…”

Rainbow leaned over and kissed her, entwining their fingers together, “That being said, Shy, I hope you don’t want to drop the whole fuckbuddy thing. It’s fun just taking you for a ride once in a while,” she smiled, trying to lighten the mood.

It worked, since Fluttershy began to laugh, “Of course we won’t stop. We love each other and have something far more than just being fuckbuddies. But of course we’ll definitely have a fun ride!”

Rainbow laughed along with her and sipped her coffee, “So when’s my appointment?”

“Tomorrow afternoon at three,” Fluttershy sipped her tea.

“Will you come with me?” Rainbow asked.

Fluttershy smiled brightly, “Of course. I’d be happy to.”

Rainbow shifted over and hugged her, “Thanks. So what do you wanna do today?”

“That’s up to you, sweetheart,” Fluttershy hugged her back, kissing her cheek.

“Well, you know me,” Rainbow smiled, “Rampaging sex drive and all. I was just wondering if you wanted to so something other than bang for once.”

Laughing a bit, Fluttershy nuzzled her, “Let’s go out together.”

“Where?” Rainbow asked, nuzzling her back.

“Oh, I don’t know….” Fluttershy smiled coyly, reaching for something in her back pocket, “Maybe a little something like… a race?”

Rainbow smiled, “Sure, who’s racing?”

With a grin, Fluttershy flourished two tickets from her pocket, “Only your favourite team ever! Rarity came by earlier today, and she had these tickets. A client of hers worked for the Wonderbolts, so when she gave him some clothes from her new line, he gave her free tickets. She wasn’t sure what to do with them, so she gave them to me for us to use. It’s later this afternoon, actually. A little last minute, but it’ll give us something fun to do together.”

“Oh my god… Fluttershy, I could kiss you right now!” Rainbow squealed in delight before doing just that.

With a laugh, Fluttershy returned it and hugged her, “So, what do you say we revive an old childhood tradition as our first real date?”

“Absolutely,” Rainbow grinned.

Sitting in the waiting room of Canterlot’s mental health clinic was nerve wracking. A few other patients were sitting about, reading magazines or chatting amongst themselves. It was very quiet, aside from soft music playing on one of the speakers mounted on the wall.

Fluttershy looked to Rainbow, who was shivering a bit with nervousness. Smiling, she reached over and held her hand, squeezing gently.

“Don’t worry, Rainbow. It’ll be okay. I’ll be waiting right here when you’re done,” she promised.

“Miss Rainbow Dash?” the receptionist called, “The doctor will see you now.”

“Here goes…” Rainbow stood up, not letting go of Fluttershy’s hand. She pulled and pulled, practically trying to bring in her in with her. But eventually she felt Fluttershy’s hand leave hers, which already filled her being with dread.

‘Great. I can’t even have my snuggler with me during this...’

Exhaling, she made her way to the doctor’s office. The door was partly open, so she pushed it open and went in. Rainbow looked about nervously, trying to hide it, especially when she faced the doctor himself.

Closing the door, she stepped forward, unease stabbing at her gut.

“Doc, I’m not crazy!” She announced, not even trying to filter her brain for the moment.

“Then why did you come here today?” Doctor Firebrand asked as she motioned for Rainbow to lay down on the couch.

“My girlfriend wants me to get help,” Rainbow muttered, obliging as she lay on the couch. She couldn’t help but muse at how strangely comfortable it was, like she’d seen in cartoons.

“Do you want help, Rainbow Dash?” Firebrand asked.

Sighing a bit, Rainbow stared at the ceiling, “Yeah, but… thing is, I just don’t want to get caught and go to jail.”

Firebrand cocked an eyebrow, “Well perhaps we should start with what’s troubling you. Why are you here today, Ms Dash?”

Skirting around the issue was never Rainbow’s style, but at the moment, she felt on the spot. It always came to this when upon expressing her deeper emotions, something she never felt confident in doing. Moments like this made her understand more and more why Fluttershy had trouble with this sort of thing.

She sighed, shaking her head, “I’m an ephebophile... hope I said that right.”

“You didn’t say anything,” Firebrand said, looking down at his pad, “Ephebophile isn’t actually a word, it’s a euphemism.”

“Look, I don’t care, doc. You know what I’m talking about,” Rainbow groaned.

Firebrand nodded, “Yes, I do. Go on.”

“I’ve had this for… I don’t know how long. Long enough, I guess. I find myself staring at teenage girls, especially if I find them hot. I know three of them personally, they’re like little sisters to me. And I… urgh, I can’t believe I’m saying this. I want to do them, I find myself tempted a lot when I’m near them,” Rainbow admitted, still not looking at him.

“It’s alright, Ms Dash. You can be as honest as you like,” Firebrand said reassuringly, “These walls are soundproof, and I’m here to help you. Not judge you. So you have sexual desires toward these three girls? How old are they?”

“They’re all fourteen,” Rainbow replied, “And yeah, I do. It’s creepy since I’ve known them when they were younger, like about seven or eight.”

“And when did you start thinking about them this way?” Firebrand asked, writing on his pad.

“I don’t even know myself. Not even last year I don’t think,” she shrugged a bit.

“I see,” he said, “You said you were close to them, yes?”

“Yeah. Two of them are the younger sisters of two of my best friends. The other’s not related to me, but she’s like my little sister, in a way. I took her under my wing a few years ago,” Rainbow recalled with a little smile at the memory.

“I see. So you’ve told me why you are here, now what is your problem? This is clearly troubling you, but for what particular reason, Ms Dash?”

Sighing heavily, Rainbow’s smile faded, “I’m scared, Doc. Scared that I’m…. I’m gonna snap, end up doing those girls….and then go to jail or something. I’m scared I’ll get caught. I’m scared of the fact that if I could get away with it…. I would.”

Firebrand wrote onto his notepad, “Alright. Ms Dash… may I call you Rainbow?”

Rainbow nodded.

“Rainbow, why do you think you’re attracted to these three? And feel free to tell me both the emotional and physical reasons. It all helps me help you.”

“I don’t know! I just know they’re pretty, have great bodies I like, and... well, like I said, I’ve known them for years.”

“And how would you say they’re pretty?” Firebrand asked, writing onto his pad.

Rainbow nodded, “Yeah, they are. They’re attractive and so freaking adorable.”

“How so?” Firebrand asked.

“They’re cute. Sweet faces, adorable voices, they’re all nice and fun, it’s just that they’re so cute and innocent. Everytime I’m with them, I’m always laughing and smiling. They’re very sunshine-y in that way. So young and innocent, with really cute but hot bodies…” Rainbow murmured, drifting a bit.

“It’s okay, Rainbow,” Firebrand said softly, “Everything you say to me is confidential. So you’ve described their behavior and their attitude. You keep saying you’re attracted to their bodies as well. How?”

“I’m a lesbian, in case you didn’t guess,” Rainbow muttered, “I like women’s bodies. They developed in the past couple of years and have more womanly bodies, now.”

“And what is it about that you find so attractive to warrant taking a trip to see me?” Firebrand asked, “I’m asking for the sake of knowing how to help you, but also to get you to open up to yourself. You’re not the first that I’ve counselled about this sort of thing, and I know that opening up completely to yourself will help you far more than just any treatment I could give you.”

‘It’s like Fluttershy said…  he’s not judging and he’s seen this kind of thing before… Oh come on Dash, do it! Talk about it! Do something!’

“It’s hard to say. I just…. I imagine doing them, a lot. I even told one of them about it, how I felt about teenage girls. She gave me a pair of her panties because I helped her out, and I…. I jerked off to ‘em. I keep them in my drawer. Sometimes I dream about it, sometimes I just plain jerk off while thinking of them. Either one of them, two, or all three of them at the same time,” Rainbow confessed, beginning to shake a little.

“Ah, so you’re an Intersex as well,” Firebrand noted, writing on his pad, “That explains a lot. So you fantasize about them. Tell me about your fantasies.”

“I just… I imagine taking them to my room…. Undressing them, touching them all over, pounding them into next week…” Rainbow shuddered at thoughts that once gave her pleasure, “Listening to them squealing and screaming while I did it…”

“Screaming in pain, or pleasure?” Firebrand asked.

“Pleasure… but if it were pain, I’d see why, especially since I never quite tried it up the ass,” Rainbow admitted, looking away again.

“And have you ever fantasized about that?” Firebrand asked, writing onto his notepad.

“Yeah, I do. Like I said, I never did it. My girlfriend doesn’t like the idea of doing it up the ass so I don’t exactly pressure her about it. And I’ve never had it up my own ass either. So sometimes I even think of doing the girls up the ass… And sometimes I jerk off thinking of it,” Rainbow held herself a bit, shivering, “Just doing that to them and hearing them yell in pain…”

“And how does that make you feel?” he asked, writing more notes.

“Awful, doc. My body likes it, then my stupid… inner voice is trying to tell me I like it and want it. And I do, but I feel like a monster thinking of that. Sometimes I…. feel like… like I’ll become that monster. Like I’ll shut myself from the world, drive away all my friends and then hole the girls up in my room and fuck them senseless… Like my mind wants it to happen…” Rainbow began to shake a little more, fighting back tears, “I have a girlfriend and I love her… I don’t deserve her. She left her boyfriend to be with me, she took me on a date yesterday to a race, and she knows about all this. She’s been supportive and… and just… I feel like it’s gonna be too much for her and I’m terrified of losing her.”

“You’re not a monster, Rainbow. You’re here and that’s a good first step,” Firebrand said reassuringly, “I have a few clients with troubles like yours, and many of them feel that simply talking about their fantasies helps them significantly, and gets many of their worries off of their chest. It allows them to go home feeling better that they’ve stopped bottling everything up. That’s why I’ve been getting you to open up to me. We have a full hour, would you like to keep doing that for your first session?”

“...Okay, doc, you’re the expert…” Rainbow exhaled, “I guess I may as well. At least it’s not like writing them down where people could find them.”

Firebrand set his notepad down and sat back, “So, which of the three do you find yourself fantasizing about the most?”

“Usually it’s… I’m not gonna give names, doc. I’m just gonna use initials. AB, S, and SB. Normally it was usually S, but lately I get quite a bit with SB. SB’s the one I told my secret to and who gave me her panties,” Rainbow said, staring up at the ceiling again.

“And how do you feel about her?” Firebrand asked.

“I think she’s really sweet and nice, pretty much the cutest of the three. Not that I try to play favourites or anything, though. She comes by a lot for some help and she leans on me a little.”

“So she’s affectionate, and you enjoy that?” Firebrand asked.

“Yeah, definitely,” Rainbow shrugged a bit, wringing her fingers nervously, “I guess you can say I got a thing for cute girls when they’re all affectionate. My girlfriend’s like that…”

“I see. So how would you normally imagine becoming intimate with her? Walk me through your imagination,” Firebrand asked, lifting his pad to jot a few things down, “Don’t feel ashamed, this will help you in the long run.”

Rainbow placed an arm over her eyes, trying to formulate her fantasies without forcibly pushing them aside, “Yeah, I do. She sits in my lap and cuddles against me a lot, so it kinda… triggers things. And since she knows about it, that kinda adds to it. She’s even said, in some way, she’d go through with it. I know she doesn’t mean it, since it’s all that fantasy stuff we know we’d never actually do in real life. Still, I imagine what it’d be like to just screw her silly…”

“Tell me,” Firebrand said calmly, “How does the fantasy play out in your head?”

“Oh boy… She’d be sitting there on my lap, saying cute things. I’d hold her and stroke her body, then I’d touch her more… Eventually she looks at me and says we shouldn’t. But I say screw everyone and everything, there was only us. Then I’d kiss her, she’d kiss me back. She’d give in to what she wanted. Then I’d take her upstairs, put her on my bed, and take off her clothes. I take in how cute and pretty she is, what a perfect body… I start all gentle because that’s what she’d want, then she’d beg me to fuck her senseless. So, I do… I hear her squealing and screaming in pleasure while she rides my dick… And I look at her, seeing this beautiful, cute girl acting like a dirty, hungry slut and enjoying it. Then-then it’s over, that’s all that happens. Sometimes I...” Rainbow looked down at her pants, sighing upon seeing a bulge, “Urgh… Sometimes I imagine my girlfriend walking in. Then one of two things happens. She either gets mad and leaves me… or she joins us.”

“And what do you imagine happening when she leaves,” Firebrand asked, writing something quick on his notepad.

The very visions filled her mind, making her heart sink to her stomach, “I’d be… miserable. I’d hate myself, I’d drive everyone away. I’d only have the girls and other teens to relieve my raging hormones and sex drive. I’d tell myself I’m fine with that. I’d tell myself I got what I wanted. But then I’d think about her and how much I’d miss her. How much I deserve being left by her. After all she did for me, I drive her away…” She began to sniffle, tears in her eyes, “And I realize that if I go through with these fantasies, I’ll lose everything. Maybe go to jail… My body would have a good time, but I’d be a fuckup monster… What kind of life is that…”

“Mmmhmm,” he said, writing something else, “And if she decided to join you?”

Rainbow sniffled, wiping her eyes a little, “It’d be awesome and adorable. I’d let them get all sweet with each other, while I sit back and jerk off to it, telling them to do this and that, like they’re a couple of sluts.”

“And does anything else happen, or is that it?” Firebrand asked, taking a sip of coffee.

“Nothing specific, just that,” Rainbow sighed a bit, “As nice as that is… I know my girlfriend’s not into that. In fact, she doesn’t even want to share me. Before we got together, we were Friends with Benefits. I got into a little fun with a couple of our married friends, which was pretty awesome. Then I got a call from her, where she said that she didn’t want me getting involved with anyone else like that. It wasn’t an ultimatum or anything, she just didn’t want to share me.”

“So you said that SB was the one who gave you her undergarments,” Firebrand said, reading off his notepad, “Why do you suppose she did that?”

“Like I said, she wanted to thank me for helping her and her girlfriend, who’s actually AB. I let them have my room so they could… ya know. After I told her my secret, she gave me her panties, saying she did it in thanks with a note. I had a feeling it was that and because she knew I could jerk off to ‘em as like a little outlet or something,” Rainbow shrugged a bit.

“And how did you feel about masturbating to her undergarments?” Firebrand asked, filling a cup with water and offering it to her.

“Thanks doc,” Rainbow sat up and took the water, drinking a bit of it down, “I don’t know. At the time, I felt… weird. Like, I wasn’t feeling dirty, but I wasn’t feeling satisfied, either. I was touched by her gesture, but that’s it.”

“Now, here is a question I must ask. If this girl were your age, would you still feel this way about her?” Firebrand asked.

Rainbow paused, thinking of that, and shrugged, “Well… technically, yes. I like women my age that I find attractive. But then I wouldn’t feel guilty because she’d be closer to my age. I’m also not saying I want more with her, I just want to do her. I do love these girls, but all I want is to do them and still be their friend, not like girlfriends.”

“So you have never felt like you’ve been in love with any youths you’ve felt desires toward?” Firebrand asked.

“No. The only people I ever had crushes on were my own age or older. Plus, I just got with my girlfriend and asked her to move in with me. No, doc, I don’t have feelings for the teen girls I lust after. I just want to do them, that’s it,” Rainbow shook her head.

“I see. And the other two? What about them, what do you feel makes you fantasize about them?”

“AB is freaking adorable and I love her accent. She’s just so wide-eyed and innocent, it gives you diabetes. Kinda like SB, but with a little more of a flavour. Plus I always found her sister to be hot and thought it’d be awesome to get a double… or something, whatever,” Rainbow drank down some more water, “Then there’s S. She’s like a little sister to me and lot like me. She even idolizes me a lot.. So you can say there’s a bit of feeding my ego with that one.”

“Okay. You described your fantasies about SB, how would your fantasies about S play out?” Firebrand asked, jotting down more notes.

“I see her laying on my bed, begging me to do her… Telling me how awesome I am and how much she’s wanted this… Then I just give in and give her everything. I pound her hard and listen to her yell and scream with all that ecstasy. She’d say my name over and over and I know how much she’d love being fucked by her own idol…” Rainbow trembled a bit, shaking her head.

“I see,” Firebrand said, writing on his pad again, “So you see it as a reverse of the celebrity fantasy. You’re deriving joy out of fulfilling the desires of what is in a sense your biggest fan?”

“Pretty much. I had and still have fantasies of orgies with the Wonderbolts, which I’m a huge fan of… So I guess it kinda comes from that too,” Rainbow admitted, looking down.

“I see. So it would seem that you fantasize about this one quite a bit,” Firebrand suggested, “Would you mind describing another fantasy you’ve had about her, if there are any besides what you’ve already told me. I’m starting to get a handle on your situation.”

“Most of ‘em kinda are like that,” Rainbow shrugged, finishing her water and laying back down, “Sometimes I fantasize myself sneaking into their clubhouse, finding her there alone, and… seducing her. Giving her what she wants and all that.”

“Explain,” Firebrand said, offering her another cup.

“I walk in, she’s all by herself… She looks up at me and is all thrilled to see me. I ask where the others are, she says they’re off somewhere. Who cares, it’s just us. So I advance, I tell her I see how she’s been looking at me… how I figure she wants me to do her. She gets all flustered and tries to deny it, but I see it in her eyes. I get closer and start kissing her, she kisses back and lets it all out. She wants me, I know she does. I pull off my pants and she stares, eager to take my cock somehow. I make her suck on it, on her knees, like a good little fan would do to please her idol. Then I spill my load in her mouth, finding it so hot with the way her head bobs between my legs. Then I turn her around and take her from behind, fucking her senseless… She’s in heaven from being fucked by her idol and there I am screwing a hot cute teenage girl I like,” Rainbow recounted, shaking a bit, getting uncomfortable with how aroused she was at the thought.

Firebrand had a focused look on his face as he ran through his previous notes, “Hmm… I think I might have something… but just in case I’m wrong, tell me about AB. How have you thought about her?”

Rainbow bit her lip a bit, “I don’t know, I mean, I usually tend to include her. I guess… I imagined myself getting to her family’s farm, finding her there all by herself. So we talk, maybe get snuggly… Then I say we go to the barn and roll in the hay. So she brings me there, undresses me, and pins me onto the hay. She attacks me vigorously and I do it all right back, before we’re both naked. Then I start fucking her senseless, she begs for more, begs for it up the ass and rough.”

Firebrand crossed something out and flipped a few pages down, “You mentioned including her, so you’ve had fantasies about all three of them at once?”

“Yeah… I often do have fantasies of all three of them. They kinda range from me doing them in their clubhouse, in my room, in AB’s family barn… We just all get all over each other in whatever way. Daisy chains, watching, all that awesome stuff,” Rainbow nodded.

“Alright, so again run me through one of these fantasies,” Firebrand replied, crossing something else out.

Staring up at the ceiling, she fidgeted a little, wondering what this was all going to mean. She wasn’t sure she’d like the result, or what it would mean for her life. But this was to help things out and she couldn’t turn back, now.

“I guess for one, I’d bring them to my room, let them get all over each other. They’d kiss, touch, undress, while I stand there and watch… I’d jerk off to it, spray them with my seed, and tell them to do stuff. It’d be a huge turn-on to see all three of them doing each other, sometimes AB and SB start making love, S and I would watch. Sometimes I’d do S while we watch them. Sometimes I do one of them while the other two screw and all that. It’d be a huge little orgy…” She confessed.

“Mmmhmm,” Firebrand nodded, “Well Ms Dash, I know this may sound impossible, but there isn’t anything wrong with you.”

“Wait… what?” Rainbow sat up and looked at him with surprise, “What the hell is that supposed to mean?! I have all these fantasies, get tempted when I’m around them, and you’re saying there’s nothing wrong?!”

Firebrand nodded, “Rainbow, would you say that, aside from all of this, you have an overactive sex drive?”

“Well, yeah… That’s been a fact since I hit puberty. My hormones are all out of wack because I’m three quarters female and have a perfectly functioning male dick,” Rainbow frowned a bit, “So yeah, I want a lot of sex.”

“Well Rainbow, it is actually not uncommon for men to notice teenage girls and find them attractive,” Firebrand explained, “And because of your unique hormone combination, your sex drive is magnified as a result. You see, genuine pedophiles often insist that what they desire is comparable to love. That what they feel is a genuine sexual orientation. You do not appear to have any of that. You fixate on three young women because they are prominent figures in your life. But aside from that, all you are feeling is lust. What you are experiencing is a common teen fetish that’s been affected by your overly high sex drive. You’re about as much of a danger to these girls as Princess Luna, who wouldn’t hurt a fly.”

“But, doc.. I feel like I’m gonna snap! Like one day it’ll just be too much and I’ll end up fucking one of them!” Rainbow protested.

“You’ve been repressing yourself too much, Rainbow,” Firebrand explained, “The sex drive is a childish thought process. When you deny it or try to force it to change, it only fights back harder and more violently. You’ve been vilifying yourself for your fantasies, fantasies that I can assure you a lot of people have that they often give no second thought toward. If I could diagnose everyone with a thought process such as yours as a pedophile, then half of Equestria would be under psychiatric care. Princess Celestia herself admits to ogling people on occasion, that’s hardly grounds to start making hurtful puns out of her name.”

“...I guess that makes sense…” Rainbow sighed, shaking her head and facing him, “Maybe I just need to calm down a little and realize they really are just fantasies. Well, you were right, it does help to talk about ‘em like this.”

“I would recommend that you relax and enjoy your fantasies,” Firebrand said with a smile, “You’ll find that once you do, you’ll be feeling less guilty about yourself, and less likely to think you’ll do something you’ll regret. Think about how you’d feel if one of these girls were over and were making you excited, but you have the security of knowing you can go upstairs and take care of yourself once they’ve left? You’d feel a lot more relaxed, wouldn’t you?”

Rainbow nodded, “I always felt guilt with ‘em. I could try enjoying them, I think that’d be a lot better.”

Firebrand nodded, “Now, I’m going to write you a prescription. It’s for Zirilaid, an inhibitory medication. It’s designed to desensitize dopamine receptors in the brain along with several other effects to calm the sex drive. I’m not suggesting that you take it every day, as such a regular use could be lethal. Take it only if you’re in a position where you cannot control yourself, such as a busy social gathering or anywhere else where manually relieving yourself isn’t an option. Think of it as an inhaler for your brain.”

“Aww, so I can’t use one of those cool inhaler thingies?” Rainbow quipped, managing to lighten her mood a bit. “Well, anyway… I was kinda afraid you’d be giving me tons of drugs, doc. But now that I think about it, if that stuff’s gonna help me when I can’t jerk off, that’d be pretty handy.”

“That is what it is intended for,” Firebrand smiled, handing her the prescription, “I would also recommend, though this is not something you should feel the need to push, sharing with your girlfriend what you shared with me. Sharing your fantasies, now that you are at least somewhat aware that there is nothing seriously wrong with you, can often bring a couple closer. But barring that, it should help her feel more at ease with you.”

Managing more of a smile, Rainbow took it, “That’d be really helpful, doc. My girlfriend… worries a lot. I mean, a lot. She was scared and upset because she felt she couldn’t help me, so it’s part of why I’m here.”

“Well, if you’d like to schedule more sessions then see my receptionist,” Firebrand said, “But otherwise, try to connect with your girlfriend about this. Maybe she can even help you relieve yourself. But other than that, just try to keep yourself relaxed.”

“Believe me doc, I’m gonna come back again,” Rainbow promised, “Otherwise, I’ll do just that too.”

Firebrand looked at his watch, “That’s our time for today, Rainbow. You have a good day.”

“Same to you, doc!” Rainbow practically skipped out of his office, she was feeling so much better.

Returning to the waiting room, she found Fluttershy still in the same place she’d been before entering the doctor’s office. A huge grin overcame her face as she trotted over to her.

Fluttershy looked up, then smiled brightly, “Hey, you. You’re looking very perky. How did it go?”

“It went great,” Rainbow smiled, hugging her around the shoulders, “That doctor’s a genius.”

“Oh, that’s wonderful!” Fluttershy nuzzled her, “I’m so glad it went so well for you. Come on then, you can tell me on the train ride home.”

“I’ll be down later!” Rainbow called downstairs to Fluttershy, before she then went into her room and shut the door.

Crossing over to her drawer, she pulled out Sweetie Belle’s panties, looking them over in the light.

“All right,” she said to herself as she set up on her bed, “Let’s do this the right way…”

Leaning back, she imagined Sweetie Belle snuggled up against her like she always was, her adorable face smiling as she enjoyed being held.

“You’re really huggable, Rainbow.”

“Well thanks, cutie pie. Heh, don’t tell anyone else, but I’m a real cuddle bug. I love a good snuggle,” Rainbow chuckled.

Sweetie Belle giggled, wrapping her arms around Rainbow’s neck as she shifted up onto her lap, “Then I’ll snuggle you all night. Apple Bloom never liked to snuggle.”

Frowning for a moment at that fantasy bit, Rainbow then shrugged and decided to roll with it. “Well, then we’ve got all the time to snuggle. By the way, you’re kinda on my dick right now. Hope ya don’t mind.”

“Nah, I don’t mind,” Sweetie Belle smiled, nuzzling Rainbow’s neck, “Doesn’t bother me.”

“Ever have one inside you?” Rainbow teased in a playful growl.

“No, I haven’t,” Sweetie Belle giggled, “Why?”

“I won’t beat around the bush, Sweetie. I want to do you. Like, right now,” Rainbow purred, rubbing her back sensually.

“Really?” Sweetie Belle pulled back, a blush on her face, “Y-you do?”

“I’ve been realizing a lot of things lately, kiddo. I’m not gonna start lying to you either, so don’t take it too much. But I mean it when I say I want to do you,” Rainbow told her, holding her against her lap in a certain way, “So let’s do it. Right now.”

Sweetie Belle grinned and bit her lip, “I… I… okay! Let’s do it!”

Closing her eyes, Rainbow freed her erection from its confines, stroking it gently.

“Sounds good to me, kiddo,” Rainbow purred, getting up and helping Sweetie Belle do the same, “Let’s take it to my bed. Don’t worry, Flutters won’t mind… We’ve got an understanding, anyway.”

Sweetie Belle giggled and her face reddened, “Oh? What kind of understanding?”

“She knows I need to relieve myself a little. I told her what the doc was telling me, and it turns out I’m no monster. I just have some crazy sex drive and all!” Rainbow chuckled, taking her hand and leading her to the bedroom, “So she doesn’t mind if I come into this big dream world and screw you guys. I realized I’m no pedophile at all!”

Sweetie Belle smiled as Rainbow led her into her bedroom and toward the bed, “That’s nice that you can come here. Me and the other girls have had crushes on you for a long time.”

“I know, right? I’m just that awesome, aren’t I?” Rainbow grinned toothily.

Sweetie Belle giggled and hugged Rainbow around the waist, “Yeah, you are.”

“You know it, kiddo,” Rainbow ruffled her hair, “Now get your adorable self onto my bed and off with the dress.”

Sweetie Belle blushed as she hopped up onto Rainbow’s bed and grabbed her dress by the hem, pulling it up and over her head like a long shirt, sitting there giggling in her underwear.

Grinning widely, Rainbow proceeded to undress as well as she observed Sweetie Belle’s small but very generous form. She approached the bed, donned in her underwear, which she slowly removed.

“What do you think? Pretty awesome, huh?”

Sweetie Belle smiled as she got a full view of Rainbow’s erection, nodding, “I’ve never seen one up close before…”

“Now you can, kiddo,” Rainbow winked, coming closer to her, “I’m pretty big compared to some guys my age, even your age. But I’ve also got enough smallness so it’s not too much. Kinda neat, eh? Go ahead, look, touch, do what you want.”

Sweetie Belle reached a hand out and tentatively brushed her fingertips against Rainbow’s quivering length, her eyes widening as-

“Rainbow?” Fluttershy called from downstairs, “How do you feel about burgers for supper?”

“Fine,” Rainbow called out quickly, letting go of her erection for a minute, “Whatever you want is fine!”

“Alright!” Fluttershy called back.

Rainbow closed her eyes again, returning to her dream world.

Sweetie Belle’s eyes widened as she ran her fingertips along Rainbow’s length, “Oooh, it’s warm…”

“Sure is. Now I know it’s no vaj, which doesn’t compare… But you get my drift. So you do what you want, I’m not about to make any demands, kiddo. It’s your call,” Rainbow ruffled her hair.

Sweetie Belle smiled as she wrapped her hand around the shaft, stroking her slowly, “Like this?”

“Yeah…. that’s it… good girl,” Rainbow shuddered a little, groaning, “Keep it up.”

Sweetie Belle moved her hand faster along Rainbow’s dick, blushing as she felt it grow hot in her hand and watching Rainbow’s face as she stroked her, “You’re getting red, Rainbow.”

“What can I say, it still gives me enough blood to rush to my other head!” Rainbow laughed, grinning.

Sweetie Belle giggled, letting go of her and sitting back, “C’mon Rainbow. I’ve wanted this just as much as you have. Do me!”

“Ooh, want me to go for the gold, eh? All right, kiddo,” Rainbow smirked, leaning over her and removing the younger girl’s under garments. She took in her sweetly naked form, licking her lips, “How do you want it?”

Sweetie Belle lowered her eyelids and spread her legs, “Fuck me senseless, Rainbow Dash!”

Nodding, Rainbow positioned herself at her entrance and inserted her member inside Sweetie Belle slowly. Fantasy or not, she felt better to start a little slower.

“This might hurt a bit kiddo, but it’ll wear off,” Rainbow assured her with a grin.

“I’ll be fine, Rainbow,” Sweetie Belle groaned as she felt Rainbow fill her, a tingle running up her spine as she grabbed Rainbow’s shirt, “Just rut me!”

“All right, here goes!” Rainbow rammed into her a little faster, burying herself inside at the hilt, “Yeah… there you go! Okay, pulling back…” She did so, quickly, “and there I go again! Yeah! How’s that, kiddo? Want more? Faster?”

Sweetie Belle moaned as she gripped her shirt, pulling it as she arched her back, “Yes! More!”

Obliging, Rainbow thrusted in and out of her a lot faster than before, clutching her hips. She groaned loudly, relishing in the overall tightness of Sweetie Belle’s orifice. Faster she went, gazing down at the younger girl’s ecstatic reactions.

“Ooooooh,” Sweetie Belle moaned as she tugged on Rainbow’s short, squirming against the force of her thrusts, “Yes, yes! Fuck me Rainbow! Fuck me like the dirty little slut that I am!”

“Hell yeah… I will, you little slut! You like my cock, don’t ya? Yeah, you do… You may like the vaj and boobs, but you like to be fucked like this! Admit it!” Rainbow yelled jovially, smacking her leg.

“Yes! Yes I do!” Sweetie Belle screamed, wrapping her legs around Rainbow’s waist as she pounded into her, “I love your cock, Rainbow! I want to be your little toy! Fuck me!”

“Yeah, you’re my toy now! My little fuck toy! That’s it! Take it! Take it all!” Rainbow laughed and moaned loudly, “Nggh! You’re so tight! That’s awesome!”

“Mmmmm,” Sweetie Belle moaned and gasped, “Rainbow… can I… can I ride you?”

“Like a horse at the grand derby! Yeah!” Rainbow laughed, rolling onto her back and allowing Sweetie Belle to sit on top of her, while still sheathed inside of her. Grabbing a cowgirl hat out of nowhere, she placed it on the younger girl’s head, “Ride ‘em, cowgirl!”

Sweetie Belle blushed as she rocked her hips against Rainbow’s pelvis, groaning as she felt her cock fill her completely. Bouncing a little, she planted both hands onto Rainbow’s pelvis and rocked herself back and forth against her, biting her lip, “Mmmm, this is soooo goood!”

“Totally awesome…!” Rainbow groaned, clutching her hips as she thrust upward, “Ngh…! I’m gonna cum, kiddo! Inside or out?”

“Outside!” Sweetie Belle moaned, “All over me, Rainbow!”

Nodding, Rainbow withdrew, inching up on the bed a little. She stroked it a couple of times, unleashing a spray of her seed all over the younger girl. Letting out a loud moan as she came, Rainbow marveled at the sight, aiming wherever she could. Her face, chest, and her stomach.

“Mmmmm,” Sweetie Belle moaned as she licked her lips clean, “So good… how do I look?”

“You look silly,” Rainbow snickered, “But don’t let that get you down. Semen’s actually good for your skin!”

Sweetie Belle giggled as she moved in and kissed her, “I’ll keep that in mind, Dashie.”

“Thanks, kiddo, I needed that,” Rainbow ruffled her hair, “I’d better go, now.”

“Come back soon, Dashie!” Sweetie Belle smiled, hugging her.

Giving her a hug back, Rainbow snuggled her for a moment, then opened her eyes.

She was back in her room, by herself, a little stain on the covers, and Sweetie Belle’s panties sitting in front of her. Looking around herself, Rainbow smiled, feeling satisfied. Like she would after taking a few minutes to masturbate if she needed to. Normally she would feel dirty and guilty about the fact she’d pleasured herself to the Crusaders.

But now, she felt a lot better. Like it didn’t even matter.

Sighing with relief, she wiped her hands and then pulled her shorts back up. Taking the panties, she patted them affectionately and then replaced them in her drawer. This time, not hiding them.

“Awesome.”

Going back downstairs, she came upon Fluttershy flipping burgers at the stove. Chuckling, she went behind the pinkette and circled her arms around her waist.

“Ooh,” Fluttershy squeaked, “There you are. You were up there for nearly an hour. You have a nap?”

“Hey beautiful,” Rainbow chuckled, kissing her cheek, “Kinda. But I was...relieving myself, if you want to put it that way.”

Fluttershy smiled, flipping a patty over, “I see. Do you feel better?”

“Much better,” Rainbow smiled, “Better than I’ve felt in weeks. In fact, why don’t you and I have some fun together after supper?”

“Oh? What do you have in mind?” Fluttershy giggled.

“I was thinking about how much you liked being taken over the counter,” Rainbow smiled, nibbling her ear.

Fluttershy laughed from the gesture, “Oooh, well, my little rabbit… You were thinking quite correctly.”

“Your little rabbit?” Rainbow smirked.

“Why of course. I do love rabbits, I named Angel after you because you were always my Angel, and… you have quite a sex drive, considering we like to fuck like rabbits,” Fluttershy cooed, tilting her head around to nuzzle her, “So now you’re my little rabbit.”

“Always knew you were into little critters,” Rainbow joked, nuzzling her nose, “So, speaking of fucking like rabbits, that’s what I intend to do after supper.”

Laughing a bit, Fluttershy flipped the last burger and then turned off the stove, “Well, then let’s eat and we’ll have a lovely dessert.”

Later in the evening, Rainbow was showering herself before bed. She hummed and shampooed her long rainbow hair, glossing her fingers within the strands. Feeling relaxed and calm for a change, without even the urge to relieve herself, Rainbow smiled.

“Yeah… this is gonna be great,” she said to herself.

‘Enjoying yourself, are we?’

Groaning in annoyance, Rainbow rolled her eyes, “Well, duh. Today’s been awesome. I feel better than I’ve had in a while. So screw you, you’re not going to ruin this for me.”

‘I don’t need to ruin anything, Dashie. You’ll do it yourself eventually.’

“Well of course I’m gonna have bad days. Everyone does. But you know what? Fuck off. I’ve made a breakthrough in all of this and I’m not gonna let it drag me down,” Rainbow muttered.

‘So you’re happy about what you just did in there? Imagining little Sweetie bouncing on your dick like a little slut? No regrets whatsoever?’

“Um, hello? Are you forgetting that’s a little something called fantasy? You ought to know, you’re part of me. Or are you so evil that you’re stupid?”

‘Give it time, Rainbow. You can only buy that trite for so long. Soon enough, you’ll just be back to the same old Dash, terrified she’ll become “A Monster.” It happens so often with you it borders on narrative cliche.’

Rainbow groaned again, rinsing the shampoo out of her hair, “I was overreacting, jackass. It’s my hormones, overactive sex drive, and the fact I have a dick. Sometimes guys lust after teenage girls. The Crusaders are close to me in a way, so it kinda adds up. You know what? I’m not crazy or a pedophile. Do you see me trying to claim it’s love? Like it’s some kind of actual orientation? Nope! So fuck you. You’re not taking me down. I’m not a monster and I’m not your little minion!”

‘Yawn. You’re boring tonight. I’ll come back when you’re falling down the elevator shaft again.’

“Oh, I’m sorry. I’m boring, now? Well, fuck you, asshole. I’m not here to entertain you. I’m here to live my life. And you know what? I feel better. I feel like I can make it, now. And if you think you can take me down, you’re mistaken. I have friends, I have an amazing girlfriend, I got a good relationship with the Crusaders, I could finally adopt Scootaloo, and I’m getting my sex drive under control. You don’t like it? That’s too bad. No one’s asking you to stay,” Rainbow said smugly, rinsing her hair thoroughly before turning off the water.

‘Good relationship with the Crusaders? Yeah, you keep telling yourself that, sweet cheeks. I’m out.’

“...Fine, maybe I still gotta patch things with Apple Bloom…” Rainbow sighed, getting out of the stall and wrapping a towel around herself.

Once she dried off herself and her hair, she returned to the bedroom, where Fluttershy was sitting up in bed and reading a book.

Looking up, Fluttershy smiled curiously, “Who were you talking to, Rainbow? Were you on the phone?”

“Uh… no, just thinking out loud, I guess,” Rainbow smiled, dropping the towel and laying down next to her.

“Oh, I hear you. I do that all the time,” Fluttershy giggled, going back to her book, “Are you doing okay?”

“Yeah, just coming off the high from earlier,” Rainbow smiled, nuzzling up to her, “For once… I don’t feel guilty.”

Smiling brightly, Fluttershy reached up to stroke her damp hair, “That’s wonderful. I’m glad you’re managing to be able to take care of it without guilt. It’s quite a breakthrough.”

“Yeah, it really is,” Rainbow smiled, kissing Fluttershy’s cheek, “Hey… you wanna see if we can adopt Scootaloo tomorrow?”

“Oh, I’m glad you asked,” Fluttershy bookmarked her page and set it aside, “While I was waiting for you at the clinic, I started chatting with this woman. She works for Canterlot’s branch of Child Services. I asked her a few questions, implying that you and I were looking to adopt. She said that it sometimes might depend on the area and regions we live in, but if we can get all the documents we need and approvals, we should be able to adopt. However… there’s a little… um, something else.”

“What is it?” Rainbow asked, sitting up.

Fluttershy bit her lip, wringing her fingers, “Well… She said that we need certain credentials, for one thing. They put a lot of couples on probation for a few months, especially if they’re first-time parents. That can sometimes depend on how old the child they’re adopting is going to be. She was also saying that we would need a co-sign from a either a parent for more than five years or a legal guardian. Our own parents don’t count. The second thing, is that in most places, the couple has to be…” She paused for a few moments, “married for at least six months or more.”

“Well, I can adopt her as a single parent,” Rainbow suggested with a smug grin, “I’m sure the Cakes will co-sign for us, and Scootaloo loves me so probation won’t be a problem.”

“I did ask about single parent adopting,” Fluttershy went on, “Probation is about six months instead of three, you would still need a co-signer but that won’t be an issue, and after you do adopt, you’ll be on probation for four months. Along with someone from Child Services visiting and monitoring the child’s home environment once every two weeks.”

“No problem,” Rainbow smiled, “I can do this, Fluttershy. I want to do this.”

Looking relieved, Fluttershy kissed her cheek, “And I’ll be right here to help you every step of the way. First thing tomorrow, we’ll get the documents we need and head over to the Child Services center,” she reached for something on the bedside table, showing it to be a pamphlet, “I have all the information right here about what we’ll need.”

Rainbow smiled and wrapped Fluttershy in her arms, “Wonderful Shy. I love you.”

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