Day 15, November 1

Today had to be the most tragic day Dash and I have ever spent together, and I regret EVER bringing the subject up. I was just curious, and I needed answers. I couldn't go to school today because I found out I got a flu that was spreading throughout Equestria, and I guess could only be caught in its source. Ponyville.

Twilight came through the portal, and told me so. She said it was her fault I caught it. I said it's no big deal, and that I've caught a flu A LOT worse than the one I have now. At that time, I was sore, nauseous, tired, got headaches, and kept waking up in the middle of the night. With the amount of moaning I was producing, my mom thought my appendix was about to burst, I wasn't even sure if it WAS going to or not.

I was only sick for two days. ( ironically ) The first day I found out, I was playing minecraft (I was playing minecraft when I met Dahsie). The second day, I was feeling better, although time did pass by slowly, mom came home. We watched Ted by Seth MacFarlane. Seth rocks, by the way. I went back in my room, and felt a lot better after I watch Tobuscus play Happy Wheels, and went back to school the next day. (That entire thing about my flu was not a lie, that shit HURT!)
The flu I have right now isn't painful or making me sore. Twilight told my mom about this, she called the school, and just said I was REALLY sick, and that we weren't sure how long I was going to be sick for.

Surprisingly, the district office fell for it. That's good, and bad for me. Good overall, because I get to stay home with my girlfriend, Dashie. Bad slightly, because if I'm gone for too long, people might CROWD me with questions about the sickness. I don't care if I get showered in questions. I'm used to it because I’m used to getting tackled (metaphorically speaking) when someone sees my Beats Studio headphones anyway. It’s just, if I answer wrong, then they might get suspicious, and if they find out about Dash, I will have to exile to Ponyville with Dash.

Anyway, Twilight also told me that she is not sure how bad the flu is, and that Rarity, Applejack, Fluttershy, and Pinkie are also sick. My mom said she could stay home from work, and take care of us while Twilight studies it. She did, and the 4 ponies looked a little sick, but it didn't look too bad.

Fluttershy said hi to me as she walked in, but she was more quiet than usual, because she was having the same symptoms as I was. She couldn't get too overwhelmed, or talk too loud or she would instantly get nauseous, and vomit. Just like I did last night.

I don't know much about her, but I know she is pretty quiet as it is. So when she said hi, I couldn't really hear her even SPEAK at first, but I understood soon after. I said hi in a quiet voice too. She then slowly flew to the living room. I began to get up, but Dash didn't let me do so. She gently grabbed my arm, and said I needed to rest.

Okay, I'm sorry, but I looked up a montage of Rainbow Dash moments from season 1, and just by seeing THAT, I am worried that I may have changed her personality ENTIRELY.
Just saying.

Okay back to sickness. When Applejack stepped in, she had been moaning a bit, she wasn't nauseous like Fluttershy, and I. When I asked Twilight what was wrong with Applejack, she said she asked AJ, but the only response she got was, "Mah stomach hurts." So I assume she is having stomachaches. I said hi softly to Applejack, and she said in a whisper "Howdy."

She walked off, moaning a bit as she got out. When Pinkie walked in, she wasn't in a cheery mood like she usually always was, but she still was smiling. I’m glad the pink pony wasn’t frowning, or in pain. She was nauseous like Fluttershy, and I, though.

I said hi quietly, and she came over and gave me a gentle, and subtle hug. She said hi, but it was quiet. She was gonna start to skip off, but she soon remembered she was sick. She then walked off slowly. When Rarity stepped in, I think she may have been sore, and had stomach aches, because, when I looked over, she was limping slightly, and was softly moaning.

She probably had it the worst. She said hello to me, and I said hi back softly. Then she slowly walked off. Twilight followed, and said that she wasn't sure, but she said she thinks Dashie had it too. Dash was told to hold out her arm, she did, and Twilight quickly took a blood sample.

Dash jumped a bit, and quickly recovered. I would jump too if I saw something sharp enter my arm unexpectedly.
Twilight went through the portal, and came back ten minutes later. She came through with words I hoped she would say. "Rainbow Dash, you weren't sick, but Fluttershy, Pinkie, Rarity, and AJ's weak pre-sicknesses together caused you to faint like that, and the only reason nopony else did was because they weren’t together enough for them to catch it. They also had to be in the source together for a good amount of time for it to happen. That is why you fainted. You aren't sick, and you can't catch it, because no matter what you do here, it's not strong enough to spread."

Dashie got happy, and said she would take care of me, Fluttershy, and Pinkie, while Mom said she would take care of Applejack, and Rarity. So I was carried by Dash out to the living room. I told her thanks, but I can move just fine, but she said I needed to rest. Mom said, "I hope you all feel better, and thank you, Rainbow, for taking care of Riley."

I know Dash has been living with us for only a half a month now, but I consider her part of our family. Dash said your welcome, and immediately knew what to do. I noticed that Fluttershy was sitting alone on the island couch, while pinkie and I were sitting together on the V-couch, so I said, "Sorry, Dashie”, as I got up when Dash was gone. I moved the island couch over by where Pinkie and I were supposed to be, to where none of us were isolated.

Dashie got mad at me for trying to work when I was sick. I was going to say that the couch wasn't even heavy, but the last time I talked back, that resulted in a small argument with my ex-girlfriend when we were still dating. We broke up after the fight, I was sad, and so was she, but we both recovered quickly. I regret it, and don’t regret it at the same time. Although I’m with somepony else, and I don’t talk to her anymore, I’m still sorry I snapped.

Being with Dash, I love her too much to lose her...ever. So I shut my mouth, but said sorry. She then smiled at me, leaned over the couch, then hugged me gently.

I returned it. And she went to cook something. I heard her grab something out of the cupboard, and I knew she saw the Top Ramen, which she saw me cook for her a lot.

I know I make us sound like we’re seven years-old, but I have no IDEA what they use to cook with in Equestria, and I don’t want her to be the one who will NOT survive, if that thing were to explode. If she did ANYTHING wrong, and the stove exploded, she would die on impact!

She knew she had to use the stove, so I immediately got out of bed to help her. I saw the looks on Fluttershy's and Pinkie's faces, and they were NOT usually faces they made, Fluttershy was getting a bit worried, and so was Pinkie. Fluttershy and Pinkie were giving me looks that said, "You do it, you die."

I've known my girlfriend for a half a month now, and I have NO idea what she does when she tells someone to do something , and they don’t do it, but I hope that my defiance doesn’t end our relationship.

I simply walked over into the door frame of the kitchen, and saw Dashie sitting there looking at the instructions looking confused. I don't care if she gets mad, I am going to help her use the stove. If she uses it wrong, it could explode, and I don't want her to get hurt. I tell her I'm gonna help her.

She at first says she has got it under control, but I say, "I don't care if the time of my illness extends, but I would never forgive myself if you accidentally made a mistake, and hurt yourself. I love you too much for you to get hurt trying to help me." I felt a wetness in my eyes, I was tearing up a bit. The thought of losing her is not imaginable. I needed to make her feel good, and comfortable, because that wetness told me that she was deciding amongst herself if she wanted to risk her life cooking for us, or let me do it, and let me get even more ill than I originally am.

So I simply just comforted her, kissed her, then said I can teach her how to do it. She said okay, but once I was done, she wanted me back on the couch. I said okay, and taught her how to do it completely, and after I lied back down, I crossed my fingers, and prayed to god that she wouldn't hurt herself doing it.

After she was done, she individually brought us to the kitchen table. Everything was nicely prepared. We were seated, I thanked her for doing this, she then sat down on the recliner. When I listened to Mic the Microphone read "My Little Dashie", he said that she couldn't cook at ALL , but then again, that was just a fan-fic.

So I took a spoonful of the stuff. I felt...amazing, this was the best thing I've ever tasted. I almost wanted to go over there and compliment her, but she was too busy trying to make sure we don't get more sick then we already are.

So I just kept eating, and I know this is weird but, it almost want to just stand up and jump for joy, just like Pinkie did before she got sick! I was too sick, so I continued to eat up, and I finished really quickly. Fluttershy, and Pinkie were only half-way done, when I swear I saw the reflection of myself in my bowl.

I walked over to Dash, who was sitting there, smiling as I came over. She was prepared for anything I had to say, but I simply said, "That was the most delicious meal I have ever eaten." She thanked me, hugged me, and I lied down on the couch. Pinkie, and Fluttershy thanked Dash, and they lied down with me.

Soon, I was starting to remember Applejack, and Rarity were in my room, and mom only came out a couple of times. She brought back some soup for them, and she came out with empty bowls. I was wondering how they were doing in there, when I asked Dashie, "Hey, how's Rarity, and AJ doing in there?"

She shrugged, and said she would go see. Dash went back there to check on them after that. One thing I want to know about Dash is...well, I took a quick peek at the show MLP, and the episode I watched showed Twilight, trying to go to a magic school. The only thing that confused me was the fact that Twilight had parents. I wonder who Dash's parents are. She has not even TALKED about her mom or dad, so I might want to ask the others first, before I bring that up. I'm not sure if it is a good idea, though. What if they're somewhere horrible...or worse. I won't talk about it...

I leaned over to Fluttershy, who was bored out of her mind, and asked, "Sorry to ask, Fluttershy, but in back in Equestria, do you ponies have parents?" She laughed a bit at this. How the hell would they even be BORN? She said, "Oh, yes, we do have moms and dads. Most of us ponies know their parents." I got a bit tense when I heard the word "Most". I wanted to ask, but I feel like she was gonna say something bad happened to Dashie's parents. "What do you mean...most?" I asked her in an emotionless quiet way. She was getting nervous at this thought. She was starting to tear up, but I told her to calm down. She understood, and settled down.

"I said most, because there are a group of ponies in Ponyville don't know what happened to their parents. I don't know if you want to know who 3 of the ponies I know are, but-" I feel bad for budding in like this, but I was getting worried, and I don't want to vomit. So, without thinking, "I...do want to know who they are...please tell me."

-I got really upset with Riley when he had moved the couch, I didn't want him to get hurt. Then I got more upset when he asked to help me cook, I know I had no idea what I was doing, but I didn't want to let Riley work when he was sick, but when he told me that he was willing to cook for us, even if it meant getting REALLY ill, I knew then, that he loved me. I am very happy that he would make that sacrifice for me. Even if it is a small deed, I still love him. Although I was upset when he moved the couch, and although I was even MORE upset when he was trying to risk getting better so that I don't get hurt, as I stood against the wall, I teared up a bit as Fluttershy listed names...

-As Fluttershy said that I wasn't sure if I wanted to hear the names of the ponies that didn't know their parents, I still wanted to know about Dash's. So Fluttershy said, "Okay, I'm going to do this, but I’m not comfortable telling you... Derpy Hooves, she is a pony who likes to be funny for the town, but sometimes isn't respected all the time." I sighed a bit, but she hasn't completed her list, so I was still worried. She continues…,”...Spitfire, she is the captain of the wonderbolts." I could see she was starting to stay calm, but she was losing it quickly.

"I don't want you to know who the last pony is." I didn't get mad, instead I simply gave her a friendly smile, and said, "I'm prepared for anything." That was the truth, I was ready for the words "Rainbow Dash" leave her mouth, which I KNOW she wouldn't say, it HAD to be Fluttershy who would say her own name. She was simply just too shy to tell me. She then said okay...then she said the last pony's name. She started to cry "Rainbow Dash..." She said, as I felt a chill go down my spine, it shot back out, and I could feel a tear run down my face. She told me she didn't want to tell me, and I didn't listen...and that's my fault.

-I'm not mad at Riley, or Fluttershy for saying my name, because it is true. I remember only being in an orphanage, and then a really nice colt took me home. It was funny, because he DID look like me, but he wasn’t my dad. I grew up with him, but they disappeared without notice.

I tried to keep myself from sobbing, and I won it over, at least for the most part. I never heard the walking coming toward me, until I saw Riley's feet in front of me. I slowly looked up, and he had been crying a bit, too.

He knew I was in pain, but he didn't want to make a scene. So, he took me into the bathroom, and he locked the door. We sat down against the cabinet under the sink, trying hard to hold back tears. It was REALLY hard.

-As soon as Fluttershy told me Dash was raised about a quarter of her life in an orphanage, I was about to start crying hard but only tears ran out. As I used all of my effort to hold them back, I went to go into the bathroom to calm down before Dash came into the living room. I guess she had heard our entire conversation, because she was sitting against the bathroom door. Her body was facing my way. When I found her, she had her face in her hooves, she was leaning on her left against the wall next to the bathroom door, and I could hear her crying a little. She was silent, and still, until she saw my feet.

She slowly looked up. Her face was wet with tears, and she saw me in the same condition. I'm just saying that I'm glad Pinkie was asleep, or she probably would have went and told mom, who was asleep. Thank god.
I didn't want to wake anyone or anypony up, so I brought Dash in the bathroom to talk about this, and as I did, we sat down against the cupboard under the sink.

We didn't say anything. I was ready to cry, but I held it in. We were both able to hold it in, until five seconds after we looked at each other. Trying to break the silence. We collapsed into each other's arms and cried, softly sobbing to ourselves. We probably did this for a good half hour, about 5 minutes in, I apologized for not knowing earlier, and she said that she was sorry she didn't tell me earlier. I know I don't usually cry, but Fluttershy was telling me that it was a bad idea to let her tell me, but I didn't listen.

And now because of my stubbornness, we're both in pain. She isn't to blame for this. I am to blame. She was probably really mad at me for even bringing it up. I know that Fluttershy, Dash, and I are the only ones awake, but I just really hope Twilight doesn't come now, and see us like this. I don't want her to walk by the bathroom, and hear our crying, because we were in there for a long time.

When we were done crying, I knew what she needed, so I put her closer to me, then, held her in my arms. I wanted her to know she has my love, and support though her darkest days. We then cried a bit after I held her, but then, "Hello? Rainbow Dash? Riley? You okay in there? I hear sobbing."

It was Twilight. We didn't hear her, for we were too focused on each other to give a care about who came to the door. The only bad thing was I thought I locked the door, but I soon realized that it wasn't when Twilight stepped into my view, but not Dashie's. Twilight heard Dash crying, but I stopped and told her what happened, she started to tear-up a bit. But soon left again. And we continued to sit and cry for another good half-hour. We soon stopped again, and washed our faces off, took deep breaths, then, went outside.

We went outside, there sat Twilight. She looked a bit damp on her face, too, but she calmed down three hundred times faster than Dash and I were able to. She told us the results, and we sighed with relief.
-I sat next to Riley in the bathroom, remaining quiet. We stayed quiet, while I held back tears, which I'm sure he was doing too. This silence was broken because we both wanted to say something, but when we looked at each other after five seconds, we couldn't hold it anymore.

We both fell into each others arms, and cried. We sat, and softly sobbed to ourselves. Everypony and his mom, but Fluttershy were asleep. I'm glad she was the only one who knew.
He told me he was sorry he didn't know. I told him I am sorry I didn't tell him earlier. I was going to in the future, but I was scared that he would be mad at me for not telling him. But the fact that he took time to do this, shows he loves me. And I love him.

After a half-hour we stopped crying for a few minutes, when he grabbed me, then pulled me closer to him. He held me in his arms. It felt good that I was here. Shortly after this, we cried again. We probably cried for another half-hour.
Sometime in, I heard noises at the door. I was paying too much attention to him to try and guess what the noises were. We continued to cry for about 20 minutes, then we stopped, dried our tears, took deep breaths, then went into the living room. Twilight told us about the flu Riley caught. We were relieved to hear the results.

-I stood by Dashie as we were told the name of the flu, the symptoms, and how long it took until I would get better. The flu was called, "Attenuate Flu", the symptoms were in certain cases nausea, weakness, cramp, soreness, aches, and insomnia. It would last for two weeks. We both knew this would mean better bonding time between Dashie and I.
So I gotta get to bed, so I can recover from both my sickness… and Dash’s horrible past. I know she won’t read these, but if you are reading this, Dash… I’m sorry I can’t always be the perfect boyfriend, and I’m not always there for you. When I can’t be there, I’m always doing something that you’re not possibly able to do without getting discovered by anybody else. When I am there, I might be stubborn, or mean half of the time.

I still love you, and I hope you can accept who I am. I don’t care if anyone or anypony else says, “We can’t date, because we are different.” No, fuck them! They don’t know left from right. Their cup will always be half empty with us. In my eyes, my cup will always be not half empty, or half full. It will always be full, but not without you.
Thank you, for bringing me the joy that I’ve needed for years now. I love you so dearly.