The Journal of the Cupcake Killer, Part 1
A My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic Fanfiction
by milesprower06 and Ace2401

MAY 4TH
TWO DAYS AFTER MY PINKIE BIRTHDAY

Hey there Pinkie Pie, you crazy party pony. This is your wild partying brain! You see, there's been a lot of weird thoughts floating up around in here lately, so I thought it'd be a good idea to start keeping a journal of how I feel. Things...haven't been so happy-go-lucky lately.

Just the other day my friends threw me a surprise birthday party, but to do that, they had to avoid me all day! It made me all kinds of paranoid. I'm talking whoopdy-doopdy paranoid! I thought they didn't want to be my friends anymore! And I don't know what I'd do without my friends. They mean so much to me, I could just die! If only there was a way I could keep my friends with me forever and ever!

Pinkie, great news! You know the other day when Dashie came to see you? She thought something may have been wrong! Well SHE was wrong! There's something RIGHT! Guess who came to see me today? That's right! Rocky, Mr. Turnip, Sir Lintsalot, and Madame LaFlour! They wanted me to throw another party, so that's just what I did. After all, who needs a reason to throw a party???

Well, the party lasted several hours, and Rocky and the others gave me a great idea of how to improve my parties so my friends would never leave!

First they asked me: "What is the essence of every party?" Why the guests, of course! The happy party ponies! So they told me to figure out a way to make the ponies part of EVERY bit of the party! This is a hard one! I've got some thinking to do! How can I make a pony part of the ENTIRE party???

Okay, well, first off, what parts of the party can a pony become a part of? There's the decorations, oh! And the sweets! Those would be the best tasting party sweets ever!

This would be the most fun parties I've ever done! I...I simply can't invite everypony at once! But how would I know who to invite to such a fun party? I know! I'll draw numbers! Yeah! I'll give everypony a number, then randomly draw one out every time I throw a party! That way it'll be fair and nopony will feel left out!

NO!!!!! NO NO NO NO NO! GET OUT OF MY HEAD! I WOULD NEVER HURT ANYPONY LIKE THAT! I'M A GOOD PONY! WITH WONDERFUL FRIENDS WHO I WOULD NEVER HURT BY DOING SUCH TERRIBLE THINGS!

What is wrong with you Pinkie?

MAY 7TH

My Pinkie head hasn't felt good or happy at all the past few days. I've been too busy at Sugarcube Corner to spend time with my friends the whole week, and I keep hearing this crazy voice in my head. Crazy? What could be crazy about wanting to throw the most fantastically fantasterific parties ever? Nothing's crazy about that! I know, but some of your party ideas aren't really very fun for everypony. Maybe Dashie was right... Maybe I do need some help. Oh, silly filly, you don't need help, you just need to be happy like me! But you're why I need help! I'm just too afraid to go get it...

MAY 10TH

I finally got a day off! I was able to spend today with my bestest best friend Rainbow Dash, and we went around pulling pranks and having all sorts of silly fun! I wish the day didn't have to end so soon. I'm feeling so much better after today though, and that scary voice in my Pinkie head has been gone all day! I'm so glad I didn't have that voice giving me bad thoughts while I was hanging out with Rainbow Dash, that would have ruined my fun. I don't like the things that voice says about my friends, and what that voice wants to do with the ponies here in little old Ponyville. I hope that that bad voice just leaves me alone, then I don't have to worry about getting help and my friends hating me for all the bad things that voice in my head tells me.

MAY 11TH

The voice! It's back! Oh no no no! And when it came back, I decided to go find my element necklace, because I thought my Element of Laughter would make that horrible voice go away. When I got out the necklace, it started to glow for a minute and I thought it was going to help me, but then all the color faded from the necklace until I set it back down. It only looked normal when I wasn't touching it. That can't be any good at all.

I'm so scared, and I just want this scary voice to leave me alone, but it feels like it's trying to take my whole body over, like it wants me to be the voice in my head. I had figured out how to keep it from messing up my writing in my journal, but now it's getting too strong. What if I can't stop it? What will it do?

I think I need to go for a walk tonight, maybe that will help me clear my head.

MAY 11TH, AFTER MY WALK

I... I just... WHY DID THIS HAVE TO HAPPEN? IT'S NOT FAIR! It's not fair... especially to her. She was a little filly named Noi... I was out on my walk, when that voice, that evil presence in my head, tried to take over. I ran to hide behind a bush in the park, and I just began crying. I was terrified, and nothing I could do would make that feeling go away, make the the voice in my head disappear. I guess this is the one ghostie I can't giggle away... When I heard somepony coming up behind me, I struck out in pure terror. I heard a crunching noise, and turned around to see the body of this sweet little filly. I kicked her so hard that I must have snapped her neck. She probably just saw me crying and wanted to come comfort me, since she's helped me in at Sugarcube Corner before. But I killed her...

I hide her in the bush. I needed to move the body, to hide what had happened. I waited until later this night and moved her body back here with me. She's up here with me right now, still in the bag...

I know I should just tell everyone what I've done and face the consequences, but I'm too afraid... I can't bear the thought of my friends hating me, and there's no way they wouldn't after what I've done. I'm too weak to face that. What do I do?

I know what you can do Sadie Pie! You can t- no GET OU- Don't interrupt, that's rude Sadie Pie! I'm just trying to help! You don't want your friends to hate you, right? No... Well then OBVIOUSLY you need to get rid of the body! And I know just how to do it! It even matches little Noi's cutie mark! OH NO NO NO NO NO- ujngfty What did I tell you about interrupting? As I was saying, her cuite mark is a cupcake! And I LOVE cupcakes! Wouldn't it be so perfect if we made her into cupcakes? You don't have to worry about ponies finding her body, and I get to make some special decorations and party treats! Everpony wins!

MAY 11TH OR SHOULD I SAY 12TH? OH SILLY PINKIE DOES IT MATTER?

I brought that little filly down into the basement of Sugarcube Corner. I think it would be the perfect place to have my special parties with the ponies of Ponyville! The Cakes let me keep track of all the inventory, so they never even come down here! I thought I would use my journal to talk about all my special parties as well, starting with this one, even if it's not really a very good party since my party guest is dead. Oh well! Let's see, do I have everything I need? Knives? Check! Vegetable mincer? Check! Pliers? Check! Oh goody, let's get started then!

'This is it,' thought Rainbow Dash, 'This is how it all started.' Where that entry resumed, there was what could have only been that filly's blood staining the page. Rainbow Dash fought the urge to vomit and continued reading, for it was the only thing she could do at this point.

After My First Special Party!
Oh, I had so much fun playing with Noi's body! It's like seeing all the things that make a pony tick! I removed all her guts, and I think I'll decorate the room with them! Maybe I could also use her skeleton as decorations too! In fact, I think I'll go set her skull on that shelf.

Okie dokie lokie, now I think I'll use her guts as streamers, and her bones to decorate the walls! They'll be the best party decorations ever! Now I have enough meat that I've minced to make so super special cupcakes to sell to everypony in Ponyville for at least a week! As for little Noi's cutie mark, I saved it to remind me how fun these parties are and how delicious these special treats will be! Oh, I know! I should save the cutie mark of everypony I have a special party with! That way I'll be sure to remember each and every one for forever! Now to give everypony a number...

MAY 12TH

I lost the fight with that voice, that other self. She took over for all of last night, and there was nothing I could do to stop it, I could only watch, trapped inside my own mind, as poor little Noi was butchered, and made into cupcakes. That monster even sold them in the shop this morning. I couldn't get out then either. Now I really can't tell anypony about what's happening... I only hope I can stop it from hurting anypony else, but Noi's blood is still on my hooves.

MAY 18TH

Everypony has been wondering why I've seemed so not Pinkie lately. I told them I'm not just feeling good, and so I got the next few days off work. That should at least stop that monster in my head from selling anymore of those cupcakes for a few days. I can't stop it otherwise, because every morning I wake up at the shop counter with a fresh batch of those disgusting cupcakes already ready for sale. The worst part is that somehow nopony has even noticed!

I even told Rainbow Dash I was feeling too sick to go pranking with her. I feel so terrible that I can't go spend time with my friends, but what's the point if I'm not the happy go lucky Pinkie Pie they want to be around? Who am I even now? I don't know anymore...

MAY 20TH

I go back to work tomorrow, but at least my plan seemed to work. That voice in my head sure has been mad about it, but I think it knows not to act suspicious. I don't know if I should think that that's a good thing or a bad thing. I feel so weak and afraid. I've lost my laughter, and I feel like I'm nothing without it.

But you're laughter's here in your head with me silly, you just won't let it out! I think you need to let me out so you can feel laughter again! No, you don't cause laughter, only pain! Haven't you seen what Noi's parents are going through? They don't even know what happened to their little girl! I wasn't in control when she died remember? That was you! Oh Celestia, you're right! I... if... if you promise you won't hurt anypony...

I don't hurt ponies, I party with ponies!

MAY 25TH

OH CELESTIA THE NUMBERS I FORGOT ABOUT THE NUMBERS!

Calm down Saddie Pie! It's not like it's anypony you know! Oh wait, it is somepony you know because you know everypony! Isn't that funny? I ran out of my special ingredient for my party treats and I need some more, so I had to draw a number to see who was going to come to my next special party! And the lucky pony was Cotton Cloudy! I have to let her know she's invited, so let's go!

MAY 25TH PARTY TIME!

Hi there Journal! Are you ready for my first special party with a live party guest? I have little Cotton all strapped up and ready to PAR-TAY! It was a little hard getting her ready when she started to fight after I brought her down here, but that's okay. She's being so silly, I keep telling her this is a party but she keeps saying that she must be having a nightmare. Oh well, that's okay! It can be a NIGHTMARE PARTY! It's going to be so funtastic! Why am I still here writing about it? it's time to start!

AFTER MY FIRST REAL SPECIAL PARTY!

Wow, that was so much fun, I don't even think I can call last time a real party! Cotton didn't last as long as I would have liked, but she sure was a joy while she was here! My favorite part of the party was when I took my vegetable mincer and put her little wings inside of it, then they came out all stringy like cotton candy! It was so funny, because Cotton Cloudy sounds like cotton candy! Hmm, I wonder if I can make cotton candy out of her! That would be so yummy! Anyway, after that, I tried to harvest her guts while she was still alive, but I think she bled out. I'll have to find a way to fix that problem for my future parties, because it's no fun when your guests have to leave before the party's over. Oh, and I also saved her cutie mark! That was the first thing I did! I think I might sew her cutie mark together with Noi's so I can keep them together. You know what? I should do that for everypony's cutie marks!

MAY 26TH

Why? Why did this happen to me? What did I ever do to deserve this monster invading my head and making me a cruel killer? I must be in shock or something, because I cannot feel anything at all. I watched as my hooves tortured and killed a little filly, and I could do nothing to stop it. Is this what Princess Luna felt like when she was taken over by Nightmare Moon? Trapped in her own mind, being forced to watch her body being corrupted and used to commit horrible deeds?

I was able to claim one small victory against this monster though. I destroyed the part of it's numbering system that kept track of all the foals. I can't bear to see that happen to a child again, through some cruel stroke of fate I've already killed two children. I would have destroyed the whole thing, but the voice wouldn't let me. It told me that it was very rude (like it has room to talk!) to destroy other's property, and if I destroyed the whole thing it would just remake it. It was a miracle that I managed to keep her from just remaking what I destroyed anyway, so I didn't want to stretch my luck.

Ha! I'm so pathetic, letting myself be told what to do by a voice in my head. My closest friends are in the numbering system too, and I can't save them. I can only hope that this madness is somehow stopped before one of them gets hurt.

I took another look at my element necklace, and just holding it made me want to vomit. I felt some some strange magic coming from the necklace. Maybe if I could ask Twilight about this, she could do something about it, since magic is her special talent, but I'm afraid what she might find out.

No... it doesn't matter. I need to stop this before anypony else gets hurt. I'm heading to Twilight's right now. If anyone can understand what's wrong with me, it will be her.

JUNE 3RD

I have not been in control of my body for the entire past week! I guess the shock from... well, I don't want mention it, but I guess I lost the will to fight back for a while after that. I don't even remember anything from the past week, I only noticed the date a few minutes ago! And it's already nighttime.

Wait... I remember trying to visit Twilight. I even wrote down that I was going to visit her immediately in my last journal entry. ARRGH! If that monster can keep me from controlling my own body at will, then what am I supposed to do? It must have taken over all week, and I was stuffed so far down into my own head that I wasn't even aware that I wasn't living my own life.

I bet no pony could even tell something was wrong with me. All I have is my journal, and even then I only have part of it. At least I didn't find any new entries detailing the slaughter of another innocent pony. It seems that's the only thing it uses my journal for anymore. If things don't change soon, I may have to kill myself just to stop this. Yes, me, the Pink Premier Party Pony of Ponyville, committing suicide. Crazy, right? But after killing two fillies, it doesn't seem so crazy after all.

JUNE 8TH

And now there's another crime to add to my growing list. I'm still fading in and out of reality, but today I've been able to keep control of my body for the first time in I'm not even sure how long. It's hard to tell time when you don't even know time is passing by When I was checking Sugarcube Corner's inventory, I found stolen medical supplies in the basement. I don't even know when or how that monster managed to get my hooves on those... are they even my hooves anymore? Do I even want them to be?

I fear for whatever poor pony is next if I can't stop it from happening again...

JUNE 10TH

Oh no. I think it's time for it to draw another number! I have to do something! I-

Not so fast Saddie Pie! I won't let you be a party pooper when I have a one of my Super Special Pinkie Parties to throw! You've already been enough of a party pooper, especially after getting rid of so many ponies' numbers. But I guess you were right, maybe foals wouldn't appreciate my Super Special Pinkie Parties. But enough about that, let's see who tonight's special party guest is! Time to draw a number!

I drew Carrot Top's number! This is gonna be so fun with all my new party toys I got from the hospital! It'll be just like I'm a surgeon! Oh, and I found an old furnace and old tools down in the basement! There's these really big nails that are SO HUGE! I bet they'll be all sorts of fun during my special parties!

Well, it's time to send out the invite! It should be so much easier than last time with these drugs I borrowed from the hospital, since I can use those to make her a pre-party favor that puts her to sleep until the real party starts!

JUNE 10TH, A LULL IN THE PARTY

Wow, all that fun stuff from the hospital is really helping me keep the party going! Carrot Top is unconscious right now, but I can still keep her here at the party! I just thought that while I wait for her to wake up, I'd tell my journal about my party! So remember that furnace and giant old nails I mentioned? I had a thought telling me that if I put those nails in the furnace, they'll turn orange like carrots. It was like planting carrots in Carrot Top! Though wasn't able to plant as many as I would have liked because I was afraid of planting them through something important inside of Carrot Top and ending the party too soon. Still, I found good places for five of them! One through each of her knees, and one between her hind legs, tee hee hee! It's been a rather loud party since I started planting those, though. That's not normally a bad thing, but Carrot Top is just a little TOO loud. Oh, I think I hear her waking back up! I'll let you know how the rest of the party goes Mr. Journal!

AFTER THE PARTY!

That was a super funtastically fun party!When Carrot Top woke back up, she got so excited she trashed around enough to rip one of her front legs totally apart! It made a bit of a mess, but part of what's so fun about these parties is that I don't have clean them up, and then the next pony I party with will get to see what all my previous parties have been like! I also had so much fun having Carrot Top stay with me while I was gutting her! She cried and cried the whole time and kept calling me a monster, which was a little rude. Almost as rude as Saddie Pie, actually now that I think about it. Saddie Pie always calls me a monster too when she's not just calling me 'it'. That's really not very nice at all. But why am I talking about that mean-mcmeanie pants when I should be talking about my party?

Since all that medicine was able to keep Carrot Top alive for s much longerr, I was able to watch what happened to Carrot Top as I harvested her guts for my special party decorations. One of the things that was funny was when I pulled out her stomach, she was throwing up, so I got to see what her vomit did when it spilled inside of her chest! It sure made Carrot Top scream! It was also really cooltastic when I took out her intestines and saw that carrot-spike I planted from the other side! Pinkie, you've out done yourself. I think I'll remember this as one of the best parties ever! It was just to bad that Carrot Top eventually had to leave, but that's just the way things have to be. Oh well, but now I can remember her by making her into new party treats! I think I'll make a new carrot cake recipe in honor of our party!

JUNE 11TH

Ha! I always seem to have control of my body for the day after it uses my body to cruelly butcher another pony. I woke up at four this morning and spent the next 3 hours just throwing up, though I guess I ran out of stuff to throw up after the first hour. I couldn't do anything to stop the monster yesterday. I can't believe I let myself forget what was going to happen. It's my fault Carrot Top died for not stopping this monster.

I know what I have to do now, what I should have already done. I've spent today making the preparations. All in all I've had a good day really, after I recovered from this morning. I was able to spend time with all of my friends today, like I haven't been able to experience myself for almost a month now. I even was able to have fun and feel like I was my normal Pinkie self for one last time. I've made sure Gummy has plenty of food, I got some extra work done for the Cakes, and I wrote letters telling all of my family how much I love them. There's only one thing left to do...

Ha, would you look at that, I just got some of my own blood on the page! Yes, I'm committing suicide. I just stabbed myself, and with any luck I'll be dead within the hour.

My friends, I'm so sorry that I have to do this to you. Leaving you five is the worst part of all of this... But if you've found this journal you know why I had to do this. I can't let my body be taken over by the monster within me., it's already hurt so many. It's more than just those three ponies, it's all of there friends and family that have to suffer from this as well. I can't let that happen to anypony else. I hope you can forgive me for what I've done, both for the ponies' who's blood is on my hooves, and for leaving you all with seemingly no explanation. Though with any luck this will seem like a horrible freak accident., if only so you don't have to deal with knowing I committed suicide on top of coping with my death. I just hope you know that I love you all, and I am so glad I was able to spend the time with you that I did. I can die happy knowing that I am protecting you all with my last act.

I feel my strength slipping away... I don't think I can stay conscious for much longer. If you find where I will place my journal before I'm gone, then do me one last favor. Tell the families of the ponies I've killed that I'm so sorry... That I wish they could come back to them just as much as they do.

I'm starting to feel myself slip away...

Goodbye my friends... I love you all.