Dear Diary,

There’s no denying it, the last few days since I came to Ponyville have been more exciting than entire months of my life; I’ve found a stallion that I could see myself being with forever, I have a (somewhat) steady gig and a place to stay that I don’t have to pay for (again…), and now I feel like I don’t want to leave this place. If I weren’t so excited, I might actually stop to wonder if maybe things are moving a little too fast…

Anyway, today I decided to go back to my apartment in Cloudsdale and bring the rest of my stuff over. My place there and the room I’m in now were furnished so there isn’t much to get, but it would still take me a couple of trips myself and the cloud city isn’t just down the road from here… Big Mac offered to help of course, but as awesome as the big stallion is, he’s not a pagasus and there’s no spell I’ve ever heard of to allow him to walk on clouds… Instead he got two of his sister’s pagasi friends to help me. I’ll admit I was a little hesitant at first after finding out they were friends of Applejack's. These two seem friendly enough, though I’m not really sure what to make of either one of them just yet.

First there’s Rainbow Dash. She looked vaguely familiar (you’d think I’d remember that, ah, unique mane of hers), I think I may have seen her around the weather factory a few times… Anyway, the young mare is fairly aptly named, even from just meeting her, it’s pretty clear that her whole life is about speed. She says she’s a fan of my music, which it’s nice to hear she has good taste, I guess. Right there is where the similarities end though. Rainbow Dash seems to revel in flying while I prefer to walk. She’s brash and impatient and I suspect a little hyper-competitive too. Still she doesn’t seem like a bad sort. I think I’ll wait until I’ve known her a little longer to decide whether or not I like her.

Then there’s Fluttershy… To say I’m not sure how to feel about her would be a massive understatement. At first it didn’t seem like the mare had any redeeming qualities; then it happened. I don’t even know how to describe it; she just suddenly got this… stare… It was incredible! I’ve never been so completely cowed so instantaneously…! It’s a wonder I didn’t just throw myself at her hooves right there, but I couldn’t bring myself to move from that spot! And then, just as suddenly as it appeared, her incredible dominance just vanished…

We got a chance to talk while we were flying to Cloudsdale. I had planned to take the train to the zeppelin station below Cloudsdale, but Rainbow Dash made a point I couldn’t refute, saying that it would faster and cheaper to fly. Anyway, after spending a little time with her, I found Fluttershy to be unfailingly polite and actually quite sweet and caring and… well, shy. Still I wouldn’t mind spending some more time with the demure mare, maybe see if I can figure out how to bring out that dominant streak hiding in her…

Anyway, once we got to my place, Rainbow Dash, being a weather pony herself, started asking questions about how I could afford the place. I told them I had been a secretary to the CEO of the factory for a while (though I of course didn’t mention the details of my time under Stratus…). Thinking about that time though caused me to lose myself in the memories again… Even after all this time away from him, I’m not sure how I should feel about the things I did… the things he did for me, and to me…

Rainbow Dash eventually shook me from my reverie with news that a mailpony had been by with my mail. It’s kind of a shame; I would have liked to have seen my friend Derpy from remedial flight class a bit. I still don’t quite get how she got that job (heh, maybe she got it the same way I got my job; I hear she has a foal now so maybe…). There were two letters that stood out. The first was from Starsong; I can’t express how good it is to hear from her, it’s been way too long. I haven’t read the letter yet, I want to wait until I’m alone.

The other letter was something I’d hoped I’d never see… There was no name on it, but there’s no question it was from that fucking Luna-damned shit-bag cock-sucking bastard father of mine… I don’t know how he found me in Cloudsdale of all places (I suppose it’s a good thing I’m leaving for good now), but I know I have nothing to say to Polaris or his precious Star Family and I certainly don’t care to hear whatever insipid shit they have to say to me…!

Sorry to burden you with this, but I feel like if I don’t vent to someone, I might lash out at Rainbow Dash or Fluttershy and they have thus far done nothing to deserve my ire. Well, for now I guess I’ll have to live with the slight satisfaction of watching his stupid fucking letter being reduced to dust and cinders… I’ll have to be more careful from now on though; I have things in Ponyville I don’t want to have to leave behind…

~ Starshadow