Dear Diary,

This has been quite a night… well, I guess morning now; it’s hard to say, I’ve been pretty preoccupied tonight. After Big Mac and I, um… made up out by the pond, we laid together under the stars. I thought I would be content to simply bask in the warmth and safety of Big Mac’s embrace… but soon enough I felt the desire building again. Thankfully, I wasn’t the only one; a quick kiss and we were at it again.

… And again.

At some point, Big Mac decided we should head back to the barn; I honestly lost track of how long we were out at the pond… Anyway, once we got to the barn, we picked up right where we left off. Feeling bold, I pushed Big Mac down onto a haystack and hurriedly took his cock into my throat while it was still flaccid enough for me to take it all the way down. I don’t know if I’ll ever get used to the feeling of him rubbing the bottom of my throat (not that I’m complaining, mind you). I worked him as hard and fast as I could manage, and when I felt him beginning to grow and tense up, I pulled off of him and he came on my muzzle (that stallion’s got amazing stamina, on top of everything else).

Big Mac asked me again to move in with him. Part of me really wants to accept, but there are still so many uncertainties. I’ve only known Big Mac for four days, for pony’s sake! The idea of actually having a special somepony is so new and confusing to me… but also really exciting. I don’t really know what to think about it yet. Before I had time to dwell on it though, one of the barn doors suddenly slammed. Applejack had apparently been watching us for some time before running off. Big Mac went after his sister while I stayed in the barn. With him gone and the tension in the room with it, fatigue from the long night of rutting finally caught up with me and I finally passed out.

I awoke to a very angry Applejack baring down on me… She had locked the doors and the shutters to the barn; there was no getting around her. I tried to talk her down at first but she was set on having her confrontation. Her point was pretty clear; she wanted me gone from her, and more importantly Big Mac’s lives. I of course didn’t want to lose whatever it is that we’re building, but when she made her ultimatum: leave and never return or fight her… There’s no way I could fight Applejack. I’ve seen her working; that mare’s almost as strong as her brother. She would literally destroy me!

I’m not proud of this, but I didn’t see any other choice at the time… I told her I would leave… As I broke down at the idea of never seeing Big Mac again though, Applejack’s grandmother was suddenly in the barn consoling me. I don’t know when or how she got into the barn, but once I calmed down enough to acknowledge her she told me to go find Apple Bloom who would take me to Big Mac’s room.

The relief from getting away from Applejack’s wrath was enough to distract me from the awkward air between Apple Bloom and myself… until she tried to apologize to me. I assured her what had happened was my fault and apologized to her. I really did feel bad about unloading on her and her friends yesterday so I’m glad I got the chance to make amends. Hopefully Sweetie Belle and Scootaloo will be equally accepting…

A while later Big Mac came in and told me that his grandmother, Granny Smith, had explained to him why Applejack was so angry towards me. I wasn’t sure what to expect when he told me that, but I certainly didn’t expect to hear what he told me… Apparently, a few years ago while they were alone, Applejack went into a really intense heat. With no other stallions around (or so he says), Big Mac took it upon himself to sooth his sister’s out-of-control urges, though he insists they never went all the way. Anyway, after that Applejack started stalking her brother, jealously chasing off any mare that got close to him, apparently planning to jump him herself…

I’m not sure I believe Big Mac about the details of that week, but it does explain Applejack’s hostility towards me once she saw that I was getting close to him (and I hate to admit it, but part of me thinks the idea of the two of them together is pretty hot…). It’s good to know that her aggression towards me wasn’t because I wasn’t an earth pony… I’ve got enough of that racist nonsense in my life already.

Big Mac then told me Applejack was going to apologize to me. While it’s good that I can’t say I’m excited about the idea of being around her right now. Big Mac insisted though, and I can’t resist him when he asserts himself… I’ve got a bad feeling in the back of my head about this, but for now, I have to trust that Ma er… Big Mac has my best interests in mind. He hasn’t let me down yet, right…?

~ Starshadow