Dear Diary,

I made a fool of myself last night. Too much salt and thinking with my loins. Why in Celestia’s name did I think kissing Alex in front of RD would be a good idea? Alex is not the kind of man to drop his marefriend for a pretty face, I darn well know that. Why did I try that? The truth is, I wanted him to know if he had any doubts about RD, that he could come to me. I think that’ll be very clear.

But, I don't think it will ever happen. I saw the way they danced, the way they talked afterwards, and the way Alex ran out to stop us.

So, now I have a choice to make, pine away for a man I can never have, or try to find the stallion for me. If nothing else this whole situation made me realize how lonely I am.

Signed
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