Help My Lonely Soul (The Nightmare Prologue)
Chapter 3: Deception, Jealousy and Feelings
Previous Chapter Next ChapterNightmare opened her eyes bleakly and smiled at the sleeping form of her Human. Using her wings, she pulled the sleeping Human closer to herself, relishing the feeling on his body on her own. She remembered herself…Luna never being allowed anywhere near other males when she was growing up, let alone being able to share a bed with one…Or the floor.
Even when Nightmare herself had taken over, she had never really sought out the company of a stallion. She never really knew why to be honest, but as she laid there with Jason she knew that no stallion could compare to the Humans uniqueness. He was soft, smooth and yet warm and comforting all in one go.
She smiled to herself and nuzzled Jason's chest, soaking up all the pleasant sensations she got from doing so. As she nuzzled him Jason muttered something incoherent in his slumber. Nightmare looked at him with her small muzzle no more than a few inches from his face, smiling softly as he mumbled. She looked over his features and found herself feeling slightly happier than she already was. One could actually call her giddy at that exact moment.
She shook her head and placed his head on her chest, frowning to herself as her heartbeat sped up rapidly for a few seconds.
"What is this…It's been happening for nearly two weeks now." She thought to herself.
And she was correct in saying it. Four weeks had passed on by since Aaron's *Insane moment* as Jason liked to call it. She had been teaching him the intricate ways of deception ever since then, and he had only gotten better at it. He was still unable to tell when she was lying sometimes, but he could catch her out half of the time.
He had also gotten fluent in the art of dishonesty, easily being able to lie and make up excuses to his teachers and even his own mother. Nightmare couldn't have felt more proud of him when he had called out a teacher for lying about marking his homework.
"Dear Miss Condron was ever so flustered…Hehe."
On top of her deception lessons, she had also been making him exercise more often. And so Jason had been convinced to do sit-ups, push-ups and every other agony inducing type of thing possible for the past four weeks.
Of course when I say he was convinced, what I really mean is that she threatened him with "Do it or no more sleep together on the floor time".
He had complained a little at first obviously, but as the weeks went by the results of his hard work started to become apparent. His skinny form had become more toned and had lost most of the puppy fat that came with only being sixteen.
All in all he looked very pleasing to the eye. Something that Nightmare had started to notice.
Something that on that day would become a brief problem for the two friends.
Anyway as the minutes went by, Nightmare's internal clock told her that it was time for her Human to awaken. And so she gently prodded his cheek with her muzzle to wake him.
"Jay, it's time to learn my friend." She said, becoming amused when he patted her cheek gently.
"I'm up Moony, just give me a few more minutes please." He replied pleadingly.
Nightmare narrowed her eyes mischievously and started tickling him lightly with her wing tips, giggling when Jason instantly sat up to "Try" and stop her.
He grabbed her wings and attempted to throw them off of himself, only for Nightmare to envelop him with them, sit up and drag him into her iron embrace. Jason looked up at her with mock annoyance which was quickly replaced with laughter as she started to quickly prod the sensitive sides of his stomach.
"Ahh no! Moony s-stop! I-I'm up! I'm u-up!"
Nightmare laughed musically with him and wrapped her forehooves around his chest, pulling him even further into her warmth and smiling as he relaxed and merely leaned back on her.
"This is pleasant." Nightmare admitted quietly.
"I know." Jason agreed just as quietly.
They both sat there for a few more minutes, enjoying the others company in a way that most friends wouldn't. But with she being an interdimentional Alicorn and he a simple Human they weren't exactly like "Most friends".
"You really should go and get ready Jay. You first lesson begins in roughly fifteen minutes."
Jason groaned and reluctantly left her embrace, something that pleased the Alicorn for some reason.
He grabbed a few clothes from a wardrobe he had received recently from his mother. At first he was ecstatic that she had actually gotten him something, but when he noticed the bags under her eyes as well as the way her eyes darted around, he quickly figured out that his hooved friend must have had something to do with it.
He opened the attic door and climbed down the ladder, Nightmare right behind him. Jason walked into the bathroom and watched as his friend flew through the ceiling and up to her regular spot on his roof. He chuckled randomly at this and closed the door.
Nightmare was sitting on "Her spot" on his roof, watching Jason's students as they walked to school. After around ten minutes or so Jason had walked outside and locked the door behind him. He looked up and smiled to himself as he spotted Nightmare grinning down at him. She flew down and kept herself airborne, flying lazily by his head.
"So who do you think you'll embarrass today Jay?" She asked bemusedly.
"Hopefully no one, I don't go out seeking these things you know." He replied quietly, so as to not draw attention to himself.
Nightmare studied his face for a few seconds before whistling loudly and patting his shoulder.
"Oooh almost Jay, almost."
Jason looked at her with an annoyed expression on his face, but chuckled to himself all the same.
"I nearly had you there though didn't I?" He whispered.
Nightmare nodded enthusiastically at him, happy that he was keeping up with their game despite his slight fatigue from recently waking up.
"What gave me away?"
"Your left eye twitched a few seconds after you lied." She replied bluntly.
Jason put a hand over his left eye instinctively and cursed quietly.
"Do not worry my friend. Apart from that, there was nothing else that gave you away."
Jason smiled at her appreciatively and continued walking to school, reaching the gate within the next few minutes and quickly entering the building. He reached his classroom just a few seconds before the warning bell went off. He quickly made his way inside the room and sat down at the far back.
Nightmare sat down beside him and since no one was watching, took his book out of his bag and put it on his table. Jason smiled at her thankfully before focusing on his teacher that had just walked in. He could practically feel Nightmare grinning as she looked up at his Mathematics teacher, Miss Condron, and had to bite his tongue to stop himself from randomly exploding into a laughing fit.
Part of their game was not only for him to test his newfound deception skills on Nightmare but also on other Humans. He had subtly tested some student and teachers but found them to be terrible at lying and thus Nightmare had deemed them to easy. Miss Condron on the other hand was quite the master at their game, having only been called out once a couple of weeks back.
And having only replaced his previous Maths teacher two weeks ago, Jason had yet to memorize her facial patterns whenever she tried to lie to him.
The lesson droned on pretty much like it usually did, with Jason keeping himself to himself but completing the work and answering the questions easily.
He didn't like to brag, but Maths had always been simple for him. And with the way they started dumbing down the lesson as of late, he barely had to pay attention at all. He actually wouldn't have if it hadn't been for Nightmare nudging him every five minutes and giving him a stern look.
Eventually the bell rang for his next lesson and Jason packed up his bag and made to leave.
"Excuse me."
Jason stopped walking as Miss Condron motioned for him to come over to her. He frowned slightly but did as she asked and merely waited for her to speak.
Just as Nightmare had taught him.
"Never start the conversation if you don't have to Jay. That way you can read their facial movements and be able to conclude if they are deceiving you with greater effect."
"Uhh Jason is it?"
Jason nodded but remained silent as he stared at her with a mock bored expression.
"Yes, well I was wondering if you could help me with something." She continued sweetly.
Jason observed her face as she spoke and concluded that she had both rehearsed what she was saying and was giving off a fake sense of kindness.
"What do you need?" He asked, keeping his expression stuck in a false sense of boredom and catching the smallest twitch of annoyance as she blinked.
"Well I was wondering since you were there, if you could tell me what you know about Aaron Fletcher."
Nightmare narrowed her eyes as she observed this woman.
"There's something…off about this question Jay. Be careful." She warned him seriously.
Jason acknowledged what she said and then proceeded to rub his temple in an attempt to look as though he was concentrating.
"Well…I know that he's a dick who liked to beat me up regularly." He told her conversationally, adding a brief bout of actual anger to his tone as he did so.
"And it didn't take a genius to see that he was on drugs either but apart from that I didn't care to know him." He finished bluntly.
Miss Condron smiled at him sympathetically but shook her head afterwards.
"No no, what I meant was do you know what could have caused him to become ill a few weeks back?" She asked kindly.
Jason wondered why she was asking him this question, seeing as it didn't exactly have anything to do with her. But as he caught Nightmare's questioning expression, he decided to play along and see what he could find out.
"I'm not sure Miss, maybe the drugs he was taking were faulty or something." He replied simply.
Then he saw it. Her expression became extremely annoyed, angry even. It lasted a mere second and if it were anyone else they would have missed it. But neither he nor Nightmare did.
But then she was back to her kind expression.
"Okay then Jason. You should run along to your class now, just tell then I held you up and you'll be fine." She said, false kindness in every word.
Jason nodded and walked out of the room quickly with Nightmare right behind him. Once they were halfway to his next class, Nightmare pulled him to one side and checked with her magic to see if there was anyone nearby. Once she found out there wasn't, she looked at Jason seriously and started to talk.
"I don't know about you but wasn't Miss Condron a bit too inquisitive just then?"
"Yeah she was, I mean did you see her expression when I denied knowing anything?" He replied worriedly.
Nightmare nodded and seemed to seriously think about it for a few moments, before waving her hoof and sighing in annoyance.
"Well we don't know anything else for now, so just stay vigilant whenever she question's you and we'll see what else we can get from her."
"What? Besides the fact that she's a bit too curious for a recent substitute teacher." Jason said sarcastically.
Nightmare just laughed at him and ushered him with her hooves to hurry up.
After his next lesson had finished, Jason had grabbed his bag and made his way into the cafeteria. He then proceeded to quickly buy himself a vegetarian sandwich. He wouldn't usually have eat something like this but seeing that Nightmare had been quite put off from him eating meat as well as her suggestion that he eat a healthier diet to aid his toning up, he had quickly gotten used to it.
Nightmare appreciated this more than she had admitted. It was not just a healthier diet but also a head start for him if she ever went back to Equestria. And when I say she, I mean they. For Nightmare was determined to take him with her if she ever went...even if he didn't necessarily want to.
She had said that she would never leave his side after all…and even then…he was her only friend.
"Hey Jason."
Both Nightmare and Jason looked up to see a girl walking over to them.
"Uhh yes?" Jason replied questioningly.
"Haha you're so serious. Anyway I was wondering if you'd like to come and sit with me and the other girls. A guy like you shouldn't be sitting on his own after all."
Jason was about to reply that he wasn't on his own…but then remembered that only he could see the Alicorn sitting right next to him.
Said Alicorn was glaring at the girl dangerously.
"Who does this girl think she is? Asking Jay to sit with her and her friends, bah!"
Jason actually looked rather nervous at her question.
"Um thanks but I'm alright sitting on my own." He declined gratefully. "Besides my invisible friend is quite the talker you know." He added amusedly, getting a small laugh from Nightmare.
The girl giggled at this and grabbed his arm lightly.
"Oh come on, you can bring your invisible friend with you if you like. Besides I wouldn't mind actually talking to you."
Jason felt quite helpless as he was playfully dragged from his table and over to the girls one. Nightmare followed them moodily, grumbling incoherent words under her breath. The girl got to her table and began pointing to the girls as she named them.
"Right this is Annabel, Scarlet and Lisa. You can call me Violet and no, Scarlet is not related to me in any way, shape or form."
Jason laughed at the little joke and sat down with them. He looked at Nightmare and gave her an apologetic look, which she accepted albeit with a little disdain.
"So Jason tell us a little about yourself." Scarlet asked curiously.
"Well…My full name is Jason Samuel Storm. I'm sixteen years old, live in my mom's attic and for the past few weeks have slept next to my best friend who just happens to be a flying, magical pony."
Nightmare actually smirked at Jason's complete and utter truthfulness to their question. She felt her slight anger abate at his declaration of her as his best friend and even blushed a little.
The girls were stunned into silence for a few moments before they all burst into hysterical laughter. Scarlet lightly punched his chest as she spoke to him, getting a rather murderous glare from Nightmare as a result.
"Haha Good one Jay! Jesus, I could never make something that long up on the spot. You should look for a job in comedy or something."
Nightmare's eyes widened furiously at how casually she had used HER nickname for Jason. Jason caught her expression and laughed half-heartedly with them, feeling very awkward.
"Heh…Well what we all actually want to know is this. Since when have you looked so buff? I mean a month back you were quite…normal."
Jason cocked an eyebrow at their question but after he concluded the reason behind it he went a bit red in the face. Nightmare had also concluded the reason behind it and was currently glaring daggers at all the girls.
"Umm well you know, just regular exercise, eating healthily. Stuff like that." Jason replied awkwardly.
"Really? Well it's obviously worked well hasn't it?" Scarlet said rhetorically. "Hmm do you think you can meet up with us sometime this weekend? My house is parent free and I always meet up with the girls there."
Jason did not have a clue what to do. He had not missed the rather…forward looks he was getting from all of them. And Scarlet's invitation didn't take too long to kick start his hormones either.
Nightmare however was silently fuming at Scarlet's blatant invitation.
"How dare she ask that of Jay! Those females are no more than a group of common whorse! Asking Jay if he wants to visit them. Bah! Jay will not be so easily swayed just because they offer themselves up for emotionless mating…right? Jay wouldn't accept them just for that…right?"
Nightmare looked at her only friend and silently pleaded for him to deny them. When he didn't look at her however her hopes began to plummet faster than a crippled Pegasi.
"Well it sounds like fun…but I'm uhh, going to have to decline." He said nervously.
Nightmare could have flown into the air and punched the ceiling with the amount of joy she got from his reply. She looked at the girls and couldn't help but stick her tongue out at them when Jason wasn't looking.
Scarlet tilted her head slightly and gave off a rather confused expression.
"Are you sure Jay? I mean it's not like we'd being doing make overs or anything for too long…"
Jason repressed a nervous shiver at the sultriness in her voice. Nightmare on the other hand wanted to banish the girl into the sun.
"He said no! That means no you stupid slu-"
"Uhh well as nice as that sounds, I actually have stuff to do this weekend. So maybe another time okay?"
Scarlet just shook her head and giggled at him.
"Aww well alright. But I'll catch you up on that okay?" She warned him playfully.
"Not if I have anything to say about it." Nightmare mused angrily.
Jason nodded and finished his sandwich quickly, before standing up and waving to them as he exited the cafeteria quickly.
The rest of the day went by rather quickly and before Jason knew it the bell had rang and it was time to go home. He looked at Nightmare who had been very quiet for the most part, only talking to him whenever he was struggling with a question or wasn't paying attention.
He arrived at his house a few minutes later and let himself in, sighing again as he noticed his mother's car wasn't in the driveway. Nightmare merely glided in after him and followed him as he climbed the stairs and did the whole process of opening his door and climbing up the ladder into his room. As soon as he had reached the top he quickly took most of his clothing off and threw it on the floor along with his bag.
He then sat down on his bed. Nightmare merely laid down on the floor and seemed to be fixated with her right hoof.
"Moony…what's wrong? You've been quiet for a while now." Jason asked tentatively.
Nightmare merely sighed and sat up, looking at him wearily.
"Nothing's up Jay, I'm just a little tired that's all." She replied quietly.
Jason studied her for a few seconds and frowned worriedly.
"You're lying to me Nightmare."
Nightmare snapped her eyes up at him angrily and was about to shout at him. But when she saw the concern practically radiating off of him…all thoughts of yelling were forgotten.
"I'm sorry Jay…I feel like a foal." She said sadly, looking down at the ground.
She suddenly found her face being lifted gently by Jason's hand and automatically leaned into it, soaking up its warmth without so much as a thought.
"Why?"
Such a simple question, but it tore at her courage as she tried to find the right words to answer it.
"Jason how long have we been friends?" She asked slowly.
Jason blinked at the question but smiled and answered straight away.
"Four weeks and three days."
Nightmare smiled serenely at this. The mere fact that he had remembered it exactly warmed her heart.
"And…well. How close do you think we are?" She continued carefully.
The Human cocked an eyebrow in confusion but tried to answer her all the same.
"Close? Umm well we sleep next to each other so I suppose that makes us closer than most friends. But in all honesty I don't know…I have nothing to compare it to."
Nightmare winced at his response but felt as though she should had seen it coming.
"Umm okay let me rephrase that. How do…How do you see me?"
"See you? I…see you as someone I can depend on. Someone I can trust completely. And someone…"
"Someone…?" Nightmare encouraged.
Jason breathed in deeply before opening his eyes and smiling at her nervously.
"Someone who despite not having known me at all, allowed me to sleep in her embrace the first time she met me. She looked out for me and although I'm still not sure of her methods…protected me and because of that I feel safe by just being near her."
"Jason…"
Nightmare could feel her eyes watering as she heard this. Never before in her existence could she remember anypony making her feel so…special.
"And do you know something?" He asked rhetorically.
Even though she didn't need to answer, Nightmare still shook her head in a negative.
"When those girls asked me to…visit them. A little over a month ago I would have jumped at the chance. But now…I couldn't even find them the slightest bit attractive. I couldn't find their…offer the slightest bit attractive."
He looked at Nightmare before looking down at the floor pitifully.
"After being as intimate with you as I have been…How could anyone else even come close to how much you mean to me…"
Nightmare's breath caught in her throat as he confessed this.
"He…He really sees me like that?"
She swallowed audibly and walked over to her Human, placing her right hoof under his chin and lifting it as he did to hers.
"Do you love me Jason?"
Jason clenched his fists as he struggled to answer her.
"D-Do…Do you?"
Nightmare blinked at his response and closed her eyes as she answered.
"I-I don't know." She whispered.
There was a few seconds silence until Nightmare heard Jason chuckling quietly. She opened her eyes just as he spoke.
"Me neither."
She smiled at him and rested her forehead against his, but was mindful with her horn so that she didn't hurt him.
"I was jealous of those females." She admitted quietly.
"You shouldn't have been. They might be attractive but to me you're beautiful." Jason replied honestly.
Nightmare looked at his eyes and found herself unable to look away as she saw her reflection deep within them.
"You shouldn't say that Jason…I'm not like you. I'm a completely different species."
"I don't care."
"But you should. I'm immortal Jason, you'll age and die but I'll live on. How could I let myself love you knowing that one day you'll be gone forever."
Jason closed his eyes as he tried to think of some alternative.
"Is there no way for me to stay with you?" He asked…almost pleaded.
Nightmare's eyes watered at the sadness in his voice and could not help but answer honestly.
"There is a way…but it's binding Jason. You'll be bound to me forever."
Jason chuckled lightly at this and opened his eyes.
"How is that a bad thing exactly?" He asked.
"Because…because I've done things Jason. Terrible things and if we were bound then you would go down with me."
Nightmare knew that it was time now. Time to tell her best…and only friend of what she had done.
"Jason…Back in Equestria, I am feared so greatly. The Pony folk fear me, my sister hates me and it's all my fault."
Jason looked at her questioningly but remained silent.
"There was a time when I once called Luna. While my sister raised the sun, I raised the moon. The Pony folk loved the sun, they played and lived their lives under it. But everypony ignored the moon, they ignored everything I did to try and impress them, to make them look at the night sky with awe like they did my sister's sun. Eventually all the negativity, the resentment and bitterness caught up to me and changed me from Luna…into what you see before you."
Jason's expression didn't change and he merely waited for her to continue.
"There was a fight between my sister and I. I was consumed by so much hatred and bitterness towards her that I don't even remember if she tried to talk me down. I lost the fight and as a result I was banished inside the moon for a thousand years by a power weapon called The Elements Of Harmony. It was…so lonely. There was nopony there but myself, not even a creature... Eventually the stars aliened into the correct pattern and I was able to return to Equestria. I was in my right mind this time, I was myself. And I was certain that the Pony folk would accept my gift for them…my eternal night. But they didn't accept it. They tried to arrest me, attack me even. I was so angry…but I was stopped by the very thing that banished me in the first place. And as a result I was separated my other half, Luna. And was trapped as a shadow on the wall."
Nightmare took a deep, shuddering breath and looked at Jason sadly.
"Do you see now? Do you see why I could never let us be together? If we somehow ended up back in Equestria and they attack me again, you would attacked too and taken down with me. And that would hurt me more than the sharpest blade."
Jason remained silent as she finished, causing Nightmare's eyes to fill up with tears.
"I should go…"
The immortal Alicorn pulled her head back from Jason and prepared to fly away from him. Just as she spread her wings however, Jason spun her around and pressed his lips to hers. Nightmare's eyes widened in shock at this…but they soon closed and she allowed herself to melt into the kiss.
Her first kiss.
Nightmare found herself relishing the feeling of her heart pounding madly. It had done so for the past couple of weeks and now…now she knew why.
She drew back from Jason and looked at him with tears running down her cheeks, matting her fur slightly.
"Jason please…I…We can't do this."
"Why? Why not? Because I'll go down with you if they attack you again? Good, then I hope that's what happens!"
"Jason what are you saying?" She croaked feebly.
"I'm saying that I'd…I'm saying that if you were to die then there wouldn't be a reason for me to live anymore."
Nightmare's eyes widened as he said this.
"You…You wouldn't kill yourself…You wouldn't…"
Jason looked at her with such a fierce expression on his face that Nightmare was rendered silent.
"Nightmare you're the only being that I've ever felt this close to. You make me feel alive…Wherever you go I'm with you…even if it means death."
The Alicorn couldn't think of any response to that. She couldn't think of anything…
And so she acted instead, pulling Jason down to the ground with her magic and enfolding him with her wings and hooves. She looked at him and found all of her arguments disappearing as she slowly began to accept his refusal.
She unhooked her right hoof and slowly started to stroke his cheek gently.
"I've never felt love before Jason. And I don't know if what I'm feeling matches that word…but… I want to hold you close to me Jason. I want to know I'll always feel your warmth when I wake up. I want to hear from you that you're mine forever…I don't know if that's love Jason, but it's what I feel when I think of you."
Jason reached out with his own hand and started to tentatively caress her cheek, mirroring her physical show of tenderness.
"What you did…doesn't matter to me. What's past is past, and I'm not the type to open up old wounds. But I am yours forever Nightmare. And I'll always be here when you wake up."
Nightmare closed her eyes and shuddered as she finally allowed herself to accept the reality of the situation.
"I don't know if I can say it…"
"Then don't force it. Just let it happen."
The emotional Alicorn pulled Jason as close to her as she possibly could, soaking in the warmth she felt flowing from his body. She looked at him…her Human, her Humana and hers alone.
"Can I kiss you?" She asked nervously.
Jason smiled at the question and rubbed his nose against her muzzle gently.
"You never have to ask me that." He replied quietly.
Nightmare moved her muzzle away from his nose and pressed her lips against his nervously. Jason was just an inexperienced as she was, so it was just as nerve racking for him. After a few more moments of soft kissing, the two lovers drew back and looked at each other, each with a small blush on their cheeks.
"I wasn't very good was I?"
"I don't think either of us were…but practice makes perfect."
Nightmare smiled at him and nuzzled his cheek softly in response.
"I wouldn't mind practicing that a few times a day."
"A few times?"
"Mhmm…maybe a few more than a few."
Jason grinned at her before leaning his head against her chest. Nightmare sighed happily as he did so and pulled him to her tighter still.
"Mine…"
"Yours…"
Next Chapter: Relationships And Dangerous Revelations Estimated time remaining: 1 Hour, 39 MinutesAuthor's Notes:
Now before the hoard of "THAT HAPPENED WAY TO QUICKLY, I DON'T CARE IF IT'S BEEN A MONTH BRRRRRR!" decide to swarm the comments, let me say just one thing.
I don't care. They haven't admitted their love, but have merely chosen to act upon their feelings.
There is no "I fucking love you now let's shag!" in there...is there? XD
Hope you like what you've been reading. If you want more, tell me...no SHOUT IT! Because that's way funner :D