My Dearest Pinkamina,

Thank you so much. I received your message, and I will have to be sure to buy a case of muffins for Derpy. She really did deliver my letters, didn't she? How else could you have known. All this time I wished and hoped, but never really believed or knew. I'm not sure if I am writing this for you, or for myself now, but I made a promise and I will write this either way. You may already know what happened, but I need to get it down on paper.

Little Pinkie came by today, and she was serious again. This saddened me, since seeing her happy is one of the few things that have kept me going lately. She told me she had the dream again, and that this time Grammy Pie gave her a message. I thought maybe she had remembered something you told her from before you passed, but she insisted that she had talked to you, and you told her I was in trouble.

She told me, "Grammy Pie says that she forgives you, and that you need to forgive Auntie Luna."

I was floored by this, it made no sense. How did this child know anything about what had been happening? She hadn't even seen Luna in a year herself.

She looked like she was scared out of her wits, but she had more to say. "Grammy Pie also said that the most important thing, is that you forgive yourself."

For what? I hadn't done anything wrong. Well, perhaps I regret attacking Luna, but I was provoked!

The little filly saw my expression, and must have thought she had done something wrong. She started to cry, and it broke my heart. I held her, and told her everything would be fine. I told her I loved her very much, but that Grammy Pie was gone. She had just had a bad dream, and none of it was real. Oh lord, Pinkie, I wanted to believe that so much. I was trying to fool myself, but I knew that something amazing had happened.

After a lifetime spent with you, I had stopped questioning the amazing and bizarre things you could do. I have seen you appear out of thin air, without magic, I have literally seen you be in two places at once. Yes, I never said anything, but I saw it. I remember knowing that I had fallen for a force of nature, and anomaly that was even stranger than myself. And I knew that you had no idea what you were or how you did it.

Pinkie finally stopped crying, and looked at me. She was still very serious. It scared me. Then she finished her message, "Grammy said you would say that. And she told me to remind you of your promise. She said you need to remember to just keep laughing."

I was shocked. I had never told anypony of the promise made that day. It was only between you and I, and nopony else could have possibly found out, especially little Pinkie Surprise. I had no choice but to believe. My denial was shattered, all my arguments fell away. I knew as sure as my love for you that you had found a way to send me a gift through our little Pinkie. You had sent me your forgiveness for what I had done. It was my turn to cry, and for little Pinkie to comfort me. I cried tears of loss, tears of joy, and most of all, I cried tears of forgiveness.

Finally we parted, and I was overjoyed to see our little grandfilly smiling again. She was relieved of her burden, and had returned to her normal happy self. She saw my smile, and returned a wider one in response, bouncing around the room, cheering. Just like you used to do whenever you were trying to cheer me up.

I hugged her again and thanked her for the gift, and she giggled at my being so serious still. As she was about to leave, she turned to me and remembered. "Grammy said one more thing. She wanted me to tell you, the party isn't over, but her dance is." She seemed to think very hard about the next part. "Grammy says you need to find a new dance partner, because this party will last FOREVER!"

I mean really, Honey, how do I react to that? I have our dearest grandfilly telling me you want me to move on? Gah... if it was anyone else. Well, you know what happened to the last pony that wanted me to move on. That is something I still need to address. But I would do anything for you, my love. I'll even do that. I assume you are talking about Princess Luna. Who else could dance with me forever?

I sure as hell hope that I haven't ruined that already. I'm not sure yet if I can forgive her, but I will try. Even then, she will have to forgive me in turn, and lets not even start with what Celestia will do. I still don't know if she will punish me. But I will try, as always, I will try for you. And maybe I can laugh again, just as I promised.

Forever your love,

Your Silly Draxy