A/N : I suck at Archaic 'English' English, but I know that if I use a far past for Celestia it'd be more authentic. If y'all see any errors, let me know so I can fix them. If I get enough request to just go to modernized English than I can do that instead.
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Celestia saw that behind her only Luna was behind herself. While ahead of her were the rest. She was certain that more were behind her, but she couldn’t be sure in this place. Time seemed maleable like it was in a dream. She sat and thought to herself before continuing. Everything from here on out was a mystery and she was so unbelievably tired. Her mane and tail by now were slightly grayed from the trials she had passed through. Having been forced to live memories that she had spent centuries building a wall against, all the time she spent recovering from the horrors she had lived through had been broken through. She felt more broken, and hurt than ever before. Not to mention the burn marks on her body while gone still hurt something fierce.

All that she could do now was go forward, but first she needed time to collect her thoughts and think of what she’d say to everypony when she met them. I truly have gone to far with them, not to mention that there are still plenty horrors that I have never asked forgiveness for. Like when during the Changeling invasion, Twilight knew something was wrong but everypony, myself included turned our back on her. We know her flaws, but she has never lied to us before. Or made us think that she is untrustworthy. Other than that one time her sanity temporarily snapped and I had to undo the Want Me Need Me spell.

But I should have listened to her fears rather than dismiss them, and what of all the diety level threats that they went up against? What was I thinking, mere mortals, young mares straddling the fence between filly and mare at the time on both occasions. Tartarus, I never even gave them any indication of what they’d be going up against. That nightmare version of what could have happened when they faced Nightmare Moon was logically a more likely scenario rather than them simply waltzing in and getting them. They were so lucky, and all I could think about was getting my sister back rather than the lives that could have been so easily lost.

My sister, my dear, kind, loving, baby sister. Looking back on it, it was my fault all this happened to her. When she turned into her, what was it ... moon form. I should have seen that it was still Lulu, but I hit her! I hit my baby sister and called her a monster. When we first started to share our rule. I had so much to take care of, that I ignored her. When she needed my help I was simply to busy and to inexperienced to know what to do. Then we had that fight ... I should have never told her to stop acting like a foal if she wanted to be taken seriously. I should have noticed sooner that she was suffering.

Why do I have to have these old wounds reopened? This had better turn out to be worth it. But regardless of what happens now. I need to make amends for what I did, and what I put everypony through. When this is all said and done I’m taking a vacation. Ha!!! I haven’t had one of those before, I just hear about it from those around me. It’ll be fun. Well I better get moving.

Looking up she started to walk forward with a sense of apprehension. This room had a golden mist that surrounded her filling her senses as it passed she was standing on a sun light, grassy hill. Beside her was her Sun form, she looked at it expectantly but was surprised at the emotional warmth that came off of it. “Weren’t you my dark side?”

“Ha! Yes I was, but you purified me when you let yourself love that side of you when you accepted me. I’m here as your guide from here on out. As a part of you that will offer you help and assistance as needed, right now we are in an intermittent room. This here is where you can see the good with in you. The things you’ve done in life that defined you as you are, but are a flip side of facing your fears. It is similar to the demi-plane you use to view the lives of others in Equestria. It is what you could call the source of that planes power.”

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Around Celestia shifted into a memory she had long ago forgotten. She was a filly, only eight years of age laying beside her mother, as her mother had a wing gently wrapped around her. Celestia was resting her head on her mothers belly listening to her baby sister, although she didn’t know that at the time.

“So what dost thou think Tia?” Her mother asked her.

“We love thee idea of having a baby brother or sister! We shalt be the best of friends we just know it!” She said, wiggling her body against her mothers side feeling the loving wing embrace of her mother wrap around her.

She would tell the baby growing in her mother’s womb everything about her day. She had since she had first know she was getting a sibling. She was so excited when she discovered her special talent a few months before Luna was born. By this time they knew it was going to be a filly, and were going to call her Luna.

“Lulu, guess what! We got our Cutie Mark today! We have alway known that thee sun was our greatest friend, and have always loved it’s warmth. But today we let my love of the sun touch it, and then it happened! We moved it across the sky and it felt so wonderful that we felt that we shalt burst with merriment! Then our father hast pointed to thy flank, where what hast thou seen but thy very own Cutie Mark! Oh we can’t wait for thou to get thoust own Cutie Mark, we shalt have the greatest of celebrations with mother and father.” Celestia explained mostly at a giddy yell as she bounced around the room in excitement. Positively glowing with the joy she felt this day.

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“Oh my Faust! I can’t believe I forgot about those days.” Celestia said, her coat slowly returning to white, and her mane and tail starting to flutter slightly.

“I know you were so happy to have that baby sister. You promised that you would always love her, and even though your parents left you did your best to give her a good child hood. To foster her talents and be there for her. You did your parents proud, even with the debacle that was your reign you tried, ” Her Sun form said with a wistful smile. “Here are a few more happier childhood memories of yours.”

“Wait, may I ask why I’m seeing these now?”

“Simple, just like a memory spell with Twilight Sparkle’s Friendship Reports helped dispel the darkness cast by Discord’s manipulations. So too does this help dispel the darkness you were forced to face. A way to show you that there is light and goodness within you and your life. No matter how bad things may have seen.”

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Luna the ever artistic filly sat hidden behind a curtain and rod system she had ingeniously set up. She told Celestia not to peak. So Celestia had spent the day working on trying to think of a way to work on her sunset. She was never the artist that her sister was, but she thought that she might make something special for Luna since it was her birthday tomorrow. She spent the time magically altering how light would enter the atmosphere when the sun set, and the unicorns lifted the moon. And how the atmosphere would gather the light of the suns rays and give a small gift for as long as she could hold it up.

This was something that she had to do, Luna had been such a source of love and happiness for their family that she wanted to do something special for her. As the sun was about to set Luna had finished what she had spent all day working on. “Celly! We hast finished, thou mayst see thine masterpiece!”

In it their mother and father back hooves were touching and their bodies bent to form a giant heart. In between them was a smaller heart between them formed by Celestia and herself. Under it was the words, “My Family”. Celestia was speechless at what her sister had accomplished, she was always so good with artistic endeavors that she was surprised that she didn’t have a Cutie Mark in art.

Celestia cleared her throat, “Lulu, that is beautiful! We ... we hast a gift for your birthday. Look to the sky.”

As the sun set it was awash in colors the sky had never had before. Pinks, purples, and oranges flared across the sky and the blues were for a short while made extremely bright. As the sun fell across the sky it gave way to a beautiful aurora as the sun’s rays got caught in the earth’s magnetic field. She twisted the sun’s radiation to form the words “Happy 5th Birthday Lulu” in the sky. As this finished her horn had started to over heat and her body was dripping with sweat. As she let it fade away, she looked at her sister who had tears of joy flowing down her face.

“It wasn’t as good as your painting, but I hope it was pretty enough for you Lulu, I love you.” She said trotting over to her sister giving her an affectionate nuzzle.

Luna looked at her sister with a look of pure joy, squealing she glomped her and with her head buried in her mane said, “We love it Celly, it was the bestest gift ever!”

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Celestia was crying at the memory, she had forgotten that she introduced new colors to sunsets that day, and that picture. It was somewhere in her families old home, deep inside modern Stalliongrad. She didn’t know if that picture still existed, but she’d have to find out. Her coat was now full white with it’s pink undertone.

I forgot just how much love we had till our parents left us. She remembered more things now without having to visit them about that time. The laughter and joy. How she had never knew anything other than love and safety under their parents wings.

“You are almost ready to leave here there are a few more memories I will show you before you’re ready to pass on to the next area.”

“What is the next area?”

“That is a secret, but one I think you’ll find enlightening.”

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This was a sad memory at the start, from what Celestia remembered. She had been depressed for the first two hundred years after Luna’s banishment in her room. She had lost the will to live, but lacked the will to end it. So she wasted away in her room, only getting up to raise and lower the moon. She had already passed the making of rainbows to the Pegasi, knowing that what ever they did, their weather manipulation magics could deal with it. After all the magics needed to make it were simple, they couldn’t mess it up too horribly. And they didn’t, she didn’t ask how they managed, and she didn’t care.

She left the running of the nation to the ponies themselves to figure out how things would work. She didn’t care. She lived through several coups’, multiple dictators, tyrants, and failed attempts at democracy. Still she didn’t care. It was near the end of the second century. When a young pegasi named Steel Wind, rank of Lieutenant. He had a pure white coat, a blue mane and tail with teal eyes. The body that would eventually be the template for the enchantment placed on every male Pegasi. He had came to her room every day to bring her tea. She hated tea, but didn’t have the energy to tell him. As he sat the tea down he’d talk to her, nothing serious. Just about his family, both parents, a younger sister, and a baby brother.

This lasted for three years when she one day looked at him and asked him, “ Why dost thou come here and talk to is? We must be horrible company, and we haven’t been a part of the world for almost two hundred years, so why?”

He looked at her and blushed, “I don’t think it would be appropriate for a pony like me to say.”

“Well either say it, or there’s the door.” She said softly, even though it was an ultimatum there was no threat in her voice. She had grown to like his company and was curious to know why.

“Do you know the reason I wanted to become a Royal Guard, and asked to be stationed at your room?”

“Mmmm”

“When I was a young Pegasi, my father Captain Commander Broken Arrow, showed me the castle grounds hoping that I would follow in his hoofsteps. I was actually planning on being a performer. I like making ponies happy and I thought that would be the best bet.

But as we passed the gardens by your room, I saw you looking out the window. You looked so sad, so empty that I knew that not even a thousand happy ponies would be the price to see you smile. I bet if you were to smile the world would smile with you. It was hard getting here since I’m a Blank Flank, but even with that I have backed my self up with raw skill. Which is how I got here. But now that you know this, I would understand if you don’t want me here anymore. I’ll go ask for a reassignment, or I’ll resign if that’s what you’d prefer.” He said, the beginning of the story was with a wistful smile that slowly turned into a downcast gaze and a nervous shuffle.

“No we wouldn’t ask thou too leave. We were just curious that’s all.”

After that she started talking to him more and more. She learned about the world around her, the life that had passed her by. And she learned about how the ponies of Equestria after she let them deal with their own problems had started to oppress one another. How each group had started to fall back into separatist groups and racism that had caused all the problems for their races thousands of years ago. It was the two hundred year mark of her depression, when she had for once in a long time felt happy. Sipping the cup of tea Steel Wind brought her, she had started to get a taste for it, and decided to ask him why he always brought her tea.

“Well you see my mother always said that their was no problem that good tea, good company, and a good conversation couldn’t fix. So I thought if I was going to help you I might as well take her advice to heart.” He said chuckling nervously.

For the first time in two hundred years she cracked a smile and a soft chuckle. “Well it worked, we have to say Steel Wind, that thee have brightened our day for all these years. Even though we have been rather poor company. Thank you, and we don’t think others will be calling thou 'Blank Flank’ any longer.” She said pointing at his flank. When she smiled at him, a stylized sun with a smiley face on it appeared.

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“I remember when he passed.” Celestia said with her eyes starting to tear up.

“Yes, he told us that he wanted us to keep smiling, that if we could promise him that he would have no regrets.”

“And for the most part we have, I never told anyone the reason behind the Royal Gaurds enchantments. But the Pegasi were the first ones to get a tone up, I guess it was my way of keeping him near so I wouldn’t forget what he showed me.”

“And the Unicorns and Earth Ponies would blush if they knew the stories behind their enchanted form when they were their armor.”

“So true, so what is this last memory?”

“It should be know that this place connects all of you. It is used to feed ones fears and the darkest reaches of ones mind when you start the journey. So you know what part of Luna and Twilight resonated with, and yes, those were partial truths. It’s why it hurts so much. But just as the dark side you faced was only a small part of you. You need to see how Twilight feels about you. I think it will be the perfect ending to this part of your journey.”

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Celestia remembered back to when Twilight was just a filly. It was after a rather strenuous exercise involving levitating boulders and other pieces of landscaping to teach her how to manipulate her surroundings to her advantage. She lay beside her and snuggled against her side as Celestia wrapped a wing around her holding her close. Celestia wondered why her parents never wrote to her, or talked to her after she was taken in. But she knew that Twilight was happy and she was happy.

Twilight had a dream that sent her little legs twitching against Celestia causing her to chuckle softly. Twilight wiggled Celestia’s wing up and looked up at her with puppy eyes and in a serious tone ask, “Princess?”

“Yes my little pony?”

“Do you love me?”

“Of course I love you, i wouldn’t have taken you in if you weren’t a special pony.” Celestia said referring to her potential, and her placing her hopes in her being the Element of Magic.

“Will you be with me forever?”

Celestia gave a kind laugh, “Why so serious little one? What’s the matter?”

“I don’t want to loose you Princess! I had a nightmare that you left me, and no matter how fast I ran I couldn’t catch you. It made me sad. I don’t want to loose you.” Twilight said in tears from the remains of her nightmare.

“I promise I’ll always be there for you Twilight. You don’t have to worry about loosing me.”

“I love you Princess.” She said as she fell back to Celestia’s side as she drifted back to sleep, her worries alleviated.

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“I remember that day. She really is a special pony, but I never thought she’d be my special somepony when I made that promise. Listen I need to know, does she still love me? After all that I’ve put her through? After all I’ve done?”

“Yes, she will always love you. It’s actually you hating her and loosing you forever that is one of her greatest fears. So you don’t need to worry about that.”

By this time her psyche had healed from her ordeal, and she was ready to proceed to the next room. Her body back to it’s original state. She had one last thing she needed to do before she was ready to continue. “Listen I want you to teach me how to access this form. I want to make up to Luna for what I did to her when she achieved her Moon form.”

“Sorry, but that is something Luna wants to teach you when she is sure that you won’t make a repeat of last time. So just talk to her, let her show you what it is you want.” Her sun form said as she showed a door that had appeared beside them. “Now it is time to go on to the next path.”

Author's Notes:

This ends Celestia's current journey. The rest of the characters will go through a similar journey where they'll end up together after a little something something. Next up is Dashie.

The next update will more or less be in a few weeks, or sometime mid May. Where I'll have the full journey of Rainbow Dash. As with Celestia, if y'all want a specific character to come next post it in the Comments. If not, then it'll be Apple Jack after Rainbow Dash.