When we arrived at my house we flew in through my window. "Sit down over there." I said, pointing to my bed next to the drawers.

"Um, okay." she said quietly. She took a seat and I rummaged through the my things.

I pulled out a journal and walked over to Fluttershy. "Do you know what this is?" I asked, kneeling in front of her.

"A journal?" she asked.

"Yes, but do you know who's?"

She looked at me confused. "Wouldn't it be yours?"

I shook my head. "Open it and look at the writing." I said, placing the journal in her lap.

She picked it up and flipped through the first few pages. "Why, it's mine. But I don't remember this." she said.

"Read some of the entries. Maybe it'll help jog your memory." I said, hoping this would work.

"Today was my birthday. My parents did something amazing today. They only hit me once! I was happy when they said I could go to my room. It meant I could fly the next morning." she read. She kept reading as I lowered my head and closed my eyes. I tried to fight back memories of her mom shouting in my face after that night.

"Rainbow?" she asked. "Why would I write this?" she asked.

"Because your parents did that. At least your dad did. You told me your mom only shouted at you." I said, looking back to her. She rubbed her head.

She flipped through a large portion of the journal. "Well, tomorrow's the dance. I really want to ask Rainbow to the dance, but I'm afraid how she'll react. I guess I could play it off as us going as friends, but I want to be more than that. I may just be a love struck filly, but I hope that someday we can go places together as more than friends."

She looked at me scared. "Rainbow." she stated.

"You wrote that. You wanted to be with me. I wanted to be with you. Remember when we were fillies? You and me went on our first Nightmare Night. We went to that concert and I spent the night at your cottage. Your parents were throwing pictures and hitting them with sticks." I said. I was trying to make her remember.

"We went to a dance and I blew you off because of that jerk Long Horn. I came home early and found you crying. We slept on the same bed that night. It was the first time I had decided that I knew for a fact that I loved you. I didn't say anything because I was afraid. You found out about my parents and where they've been because of the Doctor. Do you remember the Doctor?" I asked. She shook her head with a scared look on her face. She was rubbing her head more with a pained expression.

"After Hearts Warming, you and I kissed. We began dating, we went to the Wonderbolts air show, which you got us both tickets to, so we could see it together." I said. "But then your mom showed up and caused a storm of some sort. You left with Applejack and ended up with her in the forest. You sided with her and she was about to kill me, but you stopped her. You tackled her and saved my life."

She looked at me with tears down her face. "My head..." she cried.

"Please remember. Fluttershy, please remember everything!" I pleaded. "I need you! I need you with me, I need you to love me!" I exclaimed.

She was crying uncontrollably. "Rainbow, help! My head...it feels like..." she started but was interrupted when a giant golden wave slammed into me. I stood up and looked at her. She was on her back, unmoving.

"Fluttershy!" I exclaimed. I shook her and put my head down on her chest. I felt it rise and fall and gave a sigh of relief. "Felix!" I shouted. I had no idea if he was home since his work hours were all screwy. "Felix, I need your help!" I yelled through the house. There was no reply, no sound but my echoes.

I put my head on the bed. Damn you Doctor. I thought. "Why did you have to take that memory? Why that memory!?" I shouted to no one in particular. I heard that familiar humming coming from downstairs. I shot up and ran down the stairs. I saw the blue box with the Doctor standing out of it. I ran up to him and began to hit him.

"Why!? Why not take the memory of her dad? Why not the memory of her mom? Why not the memory of that jerk Long Horn? Why in Celestia's name did you take the memory of me?!" I shouted. I kept hitting him and he just stood there, taking it. I stopped and collapsed on the ground. I'm normally able to keep everything contained. I've never broken down like this.

He knelt down to me. "It was the strongest memory. The one she held onto the closest. It was so powerful that I didn't need to take your's away." he said calmly, despite the bloody nose I gave him. "She loved you more than herself, Rainbow. She didn't care about anything else." he said.

I didn't look at him. "There was a gold wave. It slammed into me, sending me back and knocking Fluttershy unconscious." I said.

"A defense I put in place. I put it there just in case her father somehow escaped. That way, it would kill him if he made her remember that. But it wouldn't harm her or you. Since the memory is about you directly, you were safe from it." he said.

"Will she be alright?" I asked.

"Yes. But that memory of you is now lost forever. That wave was the memory itself leaving the brain. No matter what, she will not remember how she originally felt for you." he said. He put a hoof under my chin and raised my head. "But you can still get her. You just have to make sure that you don't lose sight of why you're doing it." he said.

"And what's that?" I asked, wiping my eyes. "Am I doing it for me?"

"No. You're doing it because she had no one, but then she had you. Forgetting you is going to be devastating. She won't remember your mom, your dad, or her parents now. But you are her one bright light. The one thing that kept her going when she did know her parents. Show her that light again, and maybe, just maybe, you'll have her back." He let go of my chin and stood up.

"Wait." I said. I flew back up to my room and grabbed the picture of my mom. I flew downstairs and handed it to him. "You'll need this. Now that you don't have a companion."

"No." he said sternly. "I'm not taking that back."

"Yes, you are." I said back just as stern. "You said that I was Fluttershy's one bright light. Well you know what I think?" I said, shoving the picture into his hooves. "That she was yours." I said pointing to the photo. "I still have a chance. You don't."

He looked at the picture for a long time. He looked to me and smiled. "Maybe. Maybe we'll see her again." he said. "If you think hard enough and remember long enough, maybe, just maybe, we'll see her again."

He walked back into the TARDIS and closed the door behind him. I stood back as it began to hum and disappear. When he finally had left, I walked slowly up the stairs. Fluttershy was still out cold so I sat next to her on the bed. "You know, I never thought I'd be like this." I said to her. "Living a life of danger. I dreamt of having adventures and exploring places. But after what I've seen recently, I'm not so sure I do. But you can't tell anyone. I've got a reputation to uphold." I said with a light chuckle.

"Remember back when we were out in the market? It was right before Hearts Warming. I had asked you to go out and find Felix a finance game or something. That way I could sneak over to a different place and pick up your present. A little song bird. You almost caught me with it, but I was able to get you to believe it was something else."

"When Hearts Warming came around, you were so excited to see what I had gotten you. When I showed you the cage and you found the bird, you were so happy. I had never seen you like that. It was one of the most amazing things I had seen. It's one of my favorite memories of you." I said as I recalled that day. One of my favorite days of my life. I never let myself just talk my feelings out. Even though she was unconscious, it felt nice to tell her about it.

"I never told you this, but one day when you were out getting sewing supplies for your dresses, I had to stop Angel from getting ahold of the birds food. He kicked me in the face and I had half a mind to throw him out the window. But I knew you'd hate me for it. You love that little guy almost as much as you loved me." I said. I looked over to where she would always be sitting when she had a magazine or was playing with Angel. I had forgotten how empty it looked.

"What about that time Felix brought his marefriend over? Fleur de something or other. You knew she was only after his money. He's marrying her though. A few months from now." I said.

I walked over to the window, leaned my forelegs on top of it, and looked out to the dark sky. "I know you don't remember Fluttershy, but I would do anything for you." I felt a tear coming up, but I didn't stop it. "The Doctor says that maybe if I think hard enough and remember long enough, that maybe, just maybe, I'll see my mom again. I don't know about that, since she's been lost in time, whatever that means. But maybe it'll work with you." I looked back to her.

"You may not remember how you felt, Fluttershy. But I remember everything." I closed my eyes and thought all the way back to our childhood. Us playing on the grass, me helping her fly in front of the bullies, and even us at the concert. I even remembered her parents and how they treated her. I remembered their cottage, her room, and her favorite toy, a stuffed rabbit.

I recalled her smile, her laugh, her tears. I pictured that little thing her mane would do as it covered that one eye. I remembered her cuddling next to me, hugging me, and sleeping next to me. Tears were flowing down my face. All these memories that I had finally let come up were too much. But I kept them coming. For her sake. I remembered us flying to Canterlot to see about the interrogation, I remembered my fractured wing and how she tackled her mother to save me. I let all of our past rush through me.

The air suddenly became warm and I felt a tingling sensation surround me. I opened my eyes and saw a gold line surrounding my vision. "What the-" I said. Another gold wave flew towards Fluttershy. I fell to the floor, suddenly exhausted for some reason. I looked over to her and saw a gold mist start circling around her. I began to lose focus and slowly blacked out.

Author's Notes:

I would like to thank CountDerpy for editing these chapters. He is one of the reasons I'm able to get these out so fast. Check him out! He's a great writer!