I'm not completely sure what I'm supposed to write in here. Dad says that it'll help my stress levels, but I don't see how writing down what happens to me is going to help with that. I love dad, he's the greatest father ever and always does what's best for me. He sometimes even sneaks me out of town at night and we both go to the old army training ground and he shows me how to fight. I keep trying to tell him that he'll be in big trouble if anyone finds out because, in Equestria, mares aren't allowed to become soldiers or anything like that. Mom always say that we have to learn to act like proper ladies, get a husband, have foals and look pretty (I never know if she's being sarcastic or not.)

Derpy tutted "What a male-dominated culture!"

Leon is the only other pony who knows anything about what dad secretly teaches me at night, and he obviously isn't happy about it. He says that it's useless to show a girl how to fight because she'll never have to use those skills and dad should be taking time to teach him those things instead of me. The problem with that is the fact that Leon already goes to army training camp so he already knows everything about senseless violence.

School ended for the summer yesterday, but it doesn't feel like a holiday. Equestria's still recovering from the war and there are campaigns and posters urging everypony to chip in and help restore the land to its former glory. So for the next few weeks almost every single resident of this goddamn town is going to be slaving away at repairing buildings, growing a ton of food and just generally working ourselves into a stupor. I don't really mind though, I'll do anything just to get away from that hellhole of a school I'm forced to go to. Girls and boys got to separate schools these days. I go to a school which is basically one big home economics class with a bunch of other mares whilst Leon attends this weird army place where he's taught maths, how to defend himself and fight, subjects that are important.

I hate the every single mare in my class. They've been brainwashed by the anti-feminist traditions that were formed after the war and all they care about is their looks and nabbing a rich husband, I sometimes feel like the only one who has any brainpower left (aside from dad.) They won't even let mares help out with any form of physical work, we're kept at home all day to wash, clean and cook, it's a fucking nightmare.

Nobody here gives a buck about me. It's not because I'm female, it's because of my mental disability. Dad loves me no matter what, Leon's okay but he can be a bit nasty at times, mom tries to act like she cares, but she treats me like a filly and I can tell that she's disappointed in me. I'm segregated from the rest of the class... kind of. I'm not properly rejected, but whenever there's a group project or something like that I'm left on my own, even the teacher doesn't seem to like me.

Dad says that we're going to Ponyville next week to see the grand unveiling of his statue to celebrate his victory in the Great War, so at least I'll get a chance to escape for a while. There's only one problem; I'll probably have to spend the entire time we're there meeting important ponies, not saying anything, looking cute and being treated like an incompetent foal. It's kind of a mixed bag.

So... I guess that's everything for today, so... bye I guess. The last thing I have to say is that I'm crap at endings.

"You're definitely enjoying your book I see!"

Derpy nearly hit the ceiling when the long period of silence that she had been engulfed in was suddenly loudly interrupted by a grinning Twilight.

"What?.... Oh yeah, I'm really enjoying it!"

"Great! So many ponies these days take the fact that they're mentally disabled as an excuse never to read."

"Yeah, that's terrible. Hey, can I borrow this?" she asked gesturing to the notebook.

"Sure! Usually I don't let anypony borrow something if it isn't a real book, but as long as it's for research I'm perfectly fine with it."

"Thanks Twilight! Do you know what time it is?"

"Uhhh... I think it's around 7am, why do you want to know?"

"I'm gonna go ask Dash if I can rehearse my history day presentation to her."

"Good luck with that, you know she hates anything educational."

"Doesn't she like Daring Do?"

"Yeah well books about a fictional Pegasus fighting fictional monsters in fictional locations aren't exactly educational."

"I guess so, but I'm still going to try. I'd better be going, bye Twilight."

"Bye Derpy!"

Navigating her way through Spike, a large group of teenage mares who were giggling over a dirty romance novel and Twilight's legendary 'Leaning Tower of Learning' (which was just the name she had given to a large pile of almost impossibly boring books that nopony wanted to read) and left, with Danica's diary clenched firmly in her mouth.

Derpy wasn't sure why she was so obsessed with the diary. Maybe it was because she was fascinated with learning about a time that was completely different to her own, maybe she just liked Danica, but either way, she was only concerned about reading the notebook once again.

"Wait," she thought "is it a bit weird that I'm a full grown mare with not much of a social life who's become enthralled with the diary of a young, mentally disabled filly?... nah."
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Author's note: At first I was only planning for this to be a few chapters long, but I've come up with a completely different plotline, so this is going to get a lot longer. Enjoy!

Warning: There's going to be quite a lot of violence in the later chapters, so if you don't like violent situations I suggest that you stop reading.