Twilight sighed as she threw the black veil off of her face. Feeling empty, she decided to get a sandwich and just laze around.

As she fixed her sandwich, she couldn't help but run into the syringe. She had bought it a couple months ago for Spike as a way to easily ingest liquid gems.

It had proved to be highly addicting, causing Spike to have fits and spasm after the initial high. She drew all the shudders and drapes closed so only a little bit of light got into the library. She sighed again as she took a seat on the couch and pulled out a picture of Spike, in the picture he was laughing as he sat on the immense pile of jewels found after the Diamond Dog excursion.

She still remembered the intervention

"Don't worry dear, everything will be fine." Reassured Rarity as she put a hoof to the fretting Twilight Sparkle. Twilight smiled a bit as all her friends gathered close to give her a hug, bracing themselves for the upcoming confrontation.

"We're all here for ya sugarcube." Comforted Applejack as they heard the door click as it opened.

Step one, you say we need to talk. He walks, you say sit down it's just a talk. He smiles politely back at you, you stare politely back right on through.

"What's this about?" Asked a pale red-eyed Spike.

".......Spike, look I know what you've been doing." Started Twilight after a short pause, her eyes closed as she waited for a  response. Spike just stared at her with his sunken eyes.

Some sort of window to your right. As he goes left and you stay right between the lines, of fear and blame, you begin to wonder why you came.

"Oh? And tell me Twilight, what am I doing?" He snapped back with a smug grin on his face.

"Now don't you dare talk ta Twilight like that! She raised you from an egg by herself!" Shouted Applejack as Twilight silently began to cry.

"This means she instantly has all control over my life?" He snapped back, his response as cold as ever.

"No darling! It just means she's looking out for what's best for you." Interjected Rarity. Pinkie and Fluttershy couldn't come because they were too busy taking care of Gummy after Spike had lashed out at him claiming that 'that lizard was looking at him funny'.

Twilight began to silently cry, her hooves covering her eyes.

Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend.

Spike looked over at Twilight and snorted while crossing his arms. "I don't think a mare who can't even get herself together can be called a 'guardian'." He said making air quotes. Rarity had to magically restrain Applejack from making his way over and kicking Spike's flank.

Rainbow couldn't come because Spike had burned her wings badly a couple weeks back after she reprimanded him for his constant high and drug abuse. In a fit of rage he lit the cerulean mare on fire, 3 degree burns now covered most of her body. She was still in a medical induced comma recovering from her injuries.

Somewhere along in the bitterness. And I would have stayed up, with you all night had I known how to save a life!

"What happened to you Spike? You used to be such a nice young dragon, what happened to you?" Asked Rarity trying to get through to the baby dragon.

"I grew up Rare." He snarled back barely hiding his anger.

"It's all that thing's fault!" Shouted Applejack, her hooves still cupped to the floor by Rarity's magic.

Twilight finally stopped sniffing and looked up at Spike who was sitting across the table. "Spike why? How? I don't...I don't know what to do anymore." She sniffed, her voice barely above a whisper. "Spike if something's bothering you, you know you can come talk to us! Please don't turn to that thing! It's only making you worse don't you see?" She asked pleadingly, her voice picking up volume.

"It's tearing you apart from the inside! It's tearing all of us apart!" She nearly shouted. He just shrugged.

"Spike ever since day on that thing you've been nothing but irritable and disrespectable!" She screamed.

Let him know that you know best because after all you do know best.

Twilight never yelled as loudly as she did now, it even caught Spike off guard as he slunk back in his seat. "Spike! Your having constant fits and spasms because of that drug! It's destroying your nerves system as well as your brain cells! Don't you see it's killing you from the inside out!" She screamed, all the sadness and frustration pouring out.

Lay down a list of what is wrong. Things you've told him all along and I pray to god he hears you! I pray to god he hears you!

"So what!?!" He roared back smacking his claw on the table silencing the lavender mare.

Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend somewhere along in the bitterness. And I would have stayed up with you all night, had I known how to save a life.

"Don't you think that I could do what I want with my own damn body!?!" She screamed as the mares retreated away from the dragon.

"Spike please listen to us, we know what we're doing. Please just let us help you." Said Twilight, her eyes closed as she struggled to contain her emotions.

As he begins to raise his voice, you lower yours, grant him one last choice.

Drive until you lose the road, a break with the ones you've followed.

"Spike please listen to me." Said Twilight reaching a hoof out to the now calmed dragon.

He will do one of two things; he will admit to everything. Or he'll say he's just not the same.

"You know what Twilight? I looked up to you once." He said sneering a bit, his voice as cold as ice as he shrugged away her hoof.

"I used to be your little 'spikey-wikey'." He said putting particular emphasize on those two words as he looked at Rarity. "Yeah I used to be all nice and froo-froo, but then you all took advantage of me. Rarity you only used me when you needed help and Applejack? You only saw what was on the outside! You only saw what I put up!" He shouted getting up.

Twilight returned her head to her hooves and sobbed quietly as Rarity, Applejack, and Spike flew into a shouting match. The voices mixing together into one as she felt the hot tears sliding down her face.

And you'll begin to wonder why you came! Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend, somewhere along in the bitterness and I would have stayed up, with you all night, had I known how to save a life.

Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend, somewhere along in the bitterness and I would have stayed up with you all night, had I known how to save a life.

Their words were lost on Twilight as she remembered Spike when he was younger. The world seemed to slow down as she smiled a bit, the here and now faded until she was looking at a newborn Spike still asleep.

How to save a life

She remembered how he toddled around in the playroom and seemed to stare at everything with wonder.

How to save a life.

She felt new tears as she rembered how he always clung to her.

She remebered when he called her mommy.

That did it for her, the last dam holding her tears. She sobbed and wept openly for everypony to see as she charged out of the house. She could hear them screaming and yelling as she ran into the night, it was too much for her.

IWhere did I go wrong? I lost a friend. Somewhere along in the bitterness and I would have stayed up with you all night. Had I known, how to save a life.

(A/N: Don't worry, less depressing chapters later, now excuse me while I take my anti-depressent pills)

She ran on and on in a full gallop, all she wanted was to be away, away from everything in her life.

Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend, somewhere along in the bitterness and I would have stayed up with you all night. Had I known, how to save a life.

Images of Spike as a tiny, baby crawling around. Images of his wide sparkling eyes. Memories assaulted her as she ran on, her head down and tears freely streaking.

How to save a life.

"Where did my Spike go?" She whispered into the night as she leaned against from exhaustion. She closed her eyes for a moment as she rested, eventually falling asleep.

They found him a week later OD'd in an alley behind Sugarcube corner. The funeral had been long and drawn out as each of the mane 6 and his friends wrote speeches on his life before the drugs.

Twilight sighed again as dust motes floated through the air, illuminated by the thin rays of sunlight coming through the closed library.

Twilight put a hoof against the picture of Spike and sighed, all of her tears had been shed before, now there was just emptiness. "Where did I go wrong Spike?" She asked the picture as she traced her hoof over Spike's two-dimentional figure.

"You'll always be my little froo-froo spikey-wikey." She said as she put the picture in a cupboard, all she wanted was sleep now.

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