August 17th

Alright, lemme just start off by stating that I really didn't want to write in this stupid journal, because writing is a thing for eggheads, y'know? I could say that I was kind of forced by Twi to write this, as she said something about me being able to get my thoughts down in it. But whatever, I guess it will work as I'm already pouring my thoughts in this journal... She also said something about me not being afraid to write down all my thoughts.

Yeah, I'll get to that later on. You see, she wanted me to get writing because they say I've been acting up for a while now, I don't know what they mean by that though... I mean, I am just being kinda protective of myself when I'm around... Him. Well, I guess it's a a dude because of what I've heard, Rarity refers to him as being a gentlecolt. Heck, I don't care about that. I just don't want to be around him.

I guess I should explain what I don't like about him. Well, I should start off by mentioning that he's... Different from the rest. He's not a pony, but he still kinda acts like one though... Don't get me wrong, Gilda was also different, but she was my friend way back to when I was still a filly so that's different from this guy. He's tall, and I mean, really tall. Almost as tall as Princess Celestia, and that says something... He looks kinda like a monkey, but bigger and the only hair he has is on his head. The girls say that there's nothing wrong with him, but there's nothing wrong about being a little careful, right?

Oh, who am I kidding... What I am about to write will never, and I mean never get out as then my image will be destroyed. I am scared of him... Horseapples... Why am I the one to be scared? That's 'Shy's job! But nooo, she was one of the first ponies to talk to him... She and her stupid instinct of helping animals and stuff...

Then the rest of my friends got to know him. But me? I... I just couldn't find it in me to get closer to him than what I was... I honestly can't believe that me, Rainbow Dash of all ponies, pulled a Fluttershy right then and there. I just backed away from him and flew away as fast as I could. Twilight and Fluttershy came along and found me later on, I didn't tell them everything, I just told them that I wasn't feeling that good and had to go and chill for a bit. Fluttershy accepted it, but Twilight raised an eyebrow but went with it after a while.

The point for all of this is only one thing, and that thing is that I have... Oh, what the hay did Twilight call it... Oh yeah, now I remember! That Twilight with her fancy books and all other science...y stuff. She honestly have to get out more, as Pinkie always tell her. But whatever, here it is;

The name's Rainbow Dash, and I have Xenophobia.

Twilight said that I should write in this as often I can with every experience I have with this... Xeno...whatever I wrote before. So, I'll get on with writing that whenever I feel like it. I don't know if this manure will help me solve this thing, but yeah, let's hope for the best, eh? But I have to finish this thing up now, as I have work tomorrow. Clearin' clouds and being all-around awesome is a tiring task, y'know. That's why I nap from time to time during the day. I'm not gonna keep on writing this, as it's starting to get kind of boring. So... Yeah... Bye, I guess.

August 19th

I... I am kinda freaking out right now, so I hope my writing will still be... Somewhat readable. So, I had finished work for the day and decided to head out to AJ's farm to hang out with her for a while. When I got there, Big Mac told me that she was still out bucking trees in the north-eastern part of the orchard. I said my thanks, being polite and all that jazz. I flew out to that part of the orchard and got there within a minute. I'm not the fastest flier in Equestria for nothing, heh.

But when I got out to where Applejack was, I noticed that... He was there and working with her... My breathing hitched and I honestly think I even felt a little jealous. I flew away from there and decided to fly around until he had finished working and had left the farm. I think he lives with Fluttershy, I'm not that sure though.

I flew around for a bit, training some tricks just to kill the necessary time until he had left. After about five minutes of constant flying, I landed on the branch of a tree to rest for a while. I yawned and closed my eyes. Hay, I had woken up early that morning to work so I deserved to take a quick nap! I think I slept for like, ten minutes or so before a kick rustled the tree I was lying on. I didn't have the time to react, so I just fell to the ground.

When I opened my eyes again, I was first blinded by the sun. The next thing I saw was Applejack shouting something to me. I think it was something about me not being supposed to sleep on her trees. Same 'ol thing as always. The reason why I'm freaking out is because... Well, he was standing there next to AJ... He looked down at me with a concerned frown. I jumped to my hooves and backed away from him, didn't take long until my flank pushed to the tree I had been lying on. AJ asked me if I was okay, but I didn't answer her, I just flew away. I just got home when I started writing this entry. I... I don't know what I should do... I need help with this, I can't do this alone...

This time I got a look at his face, his jaw was chiseled, and his chin looked almost pointy. His hair was almost like a dark, brownish color and it was about shoulder-length? Whatever, his eyes were a hazel color. That was the closest to what I've ever been to him... I don't think I want to be closer than that, no I am pretty sure that I'm at a comfortable distance away from him right now... Yep, living in a cloud house is pretty sweet!

When I think about it, I actually feel a little calmer now after writing this entry. Heh, looks like that egghead know what she's rambling about... I got to thank her for that tip someday...when he's not there, thankyouverymuch. I'm getting pretty tired and hungry, and I'm not usually in a good mood when I'm one of those things, so I'll go and grab something to eat then nap. Next entry will be... Whenever. Until then, remember; AJ gets pissy when you sleep on her trees. Don't do that in the future...

Oh, who am I kidding? I'll do that anyway...

August 23rd

What the hay should I do about this? I have been thinking about that thing and his face even since the incident on the Acres. Not many of them were pleasant, though... I had some bad dreams after that, nightmares. After one of those nightmares I could barely fall back asleep again. Those dreams are something like I have never experienced before when it comes to dreams. I usually dream about flying with the Wonderbolts in the Cloudsdale Arena. But these dreams...

They often start with me walking around in Ponyville at night, minding my own business. After a while I can start hearing weird sounds, only to see the human walk out of the shadows with a creepy grin. After that, I run. I run as fast as my legs can carry me. But somehow, he still manages to keep up with me, no matter how fast I run. If I attempt to fly away, my wings won't flap or they just disappear. But when he does catch me, he throws me onto my back, still with the same creepy grin. I know that his eyes are hazel, but in my dreams they are a hellish glowing red. I usually wake up after the chase when he starts gloating.

The dreams are starting to affect my life, as I get barely any sleep at all. Probably just about 2, maybe 3 hours of sleep a night. That doesn't really help my mood very much, as I become easily annoyed and distracted... I still work, but it's not exactly an easy task when I am so tired. I try though, and refuse to let it distract me from my work. My boss asked me what's up, but I just said that I had a rough nights' sleep. I can't say that forever, and I'm pretty sure my friends are starting to worry about me.

I have told Twilight about them, so we talked about them for an hour or two. She told me to take a break from working as long as I still have the nightmares, but heck no, I need the bits from my work to keep everything rolling! I told her that, but she still seemed to be pretty unamused about it. She told me that I risked my well-being if I worked with so little sleep, but I think that was a little hypocritical... She stays up pretty much all night studying and still work during the day, after all... whatever. Her problem.

I guess I should do what she suggested and take the day off tomorrow, in order for me to try and relax and relieve my mind of the stuff that's going on. No point in not trying, right? Twilight has been pretty spot-on with everything about this so far, so the best thing I can do is to continue and listen to her and try to do what she tells me.

Yeah, this should be just fine... I just have to stop thinking about the human for now. I'll just ignore what he does, and with whom he does stuff. Maybe if I don't care, I won't be as afraid? Well, here's to hoping, I guess...

Oh Celestia, I'm gonna need more help than this... Maybe I should go and visit a real psychiatrist? Sure, Twilight knows what she's doing and I trust her, but... Maybe I could talk to somepony who's a professional? I'll look into that later, but I have to try and get some sleep again.

Nightmares, here I come...