Fluttershy flew as fast as she could she wanted to escape the horrifying memories as tears streamed from her cheeks, but no matter how hard she tried, images of her actions kept on flashing before her eyes. It was as if she was tied down with her eyes tapped open and forced to watch some kind of gruesome horror movie in her head, but the yellow Pegasus knew these images were all too real and this very thought tortured her even more so. “Make it stop!” Fluttershy shrieked at the top of her lungs as if she was talking to some unknown force that was putting those images in front of her eyes as she continued to fly not bother to look where she was going. Not that she cared, any place was better than the place she came from.

As if it was blocking her vision somehow the images continued to assault her and just as she was about to cry out for them to stop again, they vanished revealing her less then three seconds from hitting a tree head on. Upon seeing this she gave a startled cry and banked left, clipping a branch with her right wing, and cried out as pain shot through it. This new injury made it nearly impossible to fly and she knew she would have to land soon in order to examine the damage to it or risk the pain becoming so unbearable she fall out of the sky and to her death. Reluctantly the yellow Pegasus began to descend into a all too familiar town. She knew this town, it was Rosetown. The town she had come to for supplies.

With this realization in mind she headed over to the one place she knew in town and opened the door to the pie and design shoppe.

“Why hello-oh dear! What happened to you?!” Coconut pie exclaimed in shock as she saw the yellow Pegasus's wing which had several feathers along it stained in her blood from the branch she hit earlier.

“I-I hit a tree branch. Can you fix my wing?” Fluttershy replied in a soft tone.

“Of course, just let me get some medical supplies from the back.” Coconut replied in a worried tone and rushed to the back of her store, through a door, and emerged a few moments later with a first aid kit. “This looks worse then it really is, your lucky Fluttershy. It seems you only sprained it along with a few cuts which aren't very deep.” Coconut said with a smile as she began to use a small cotton swab to treat the cuts with some disinfectant.

“Can I fly on it?” Fluttershy asked curiously. She wanted to get out of her as soon as possible she wanted to be somewhere, anywhere, that wasn't the two places that reminded her of home.

“Well, yes I suppose you could, but the pain would make it impossible to fly for too long dear. You're better off resting here for a day and going back to Leafside village in the morning.” Coconut pie said with a warm smile.

“I can't go back...” Fluttershy said in a low tone as she looked away now.

“What happened? Why can't you go back?” Coconut Pie asked in a concerned tone with an expression to match it now.

“I-I don't want to talk about it. Do you have any pain killers I can take for the pain?” Fluttershy asked attempting to change the subject from her hometown as quickly as possible.

“Well, yes...You aren't planning to leave with your wing in that condition are you?” Coconut asked in disbelief.

“I just want to get as far away as possible from here. I'll even pay you the bits if you want.” Fluttershy replied in a soft tone.

“Oh, no dear. It's no charge, but while I think it's not such a good idea, I won't stop you. After all, I’m not your mother.” Coconut replied still wearing her worried expression, walked over to the counter to her right, grabbed a small bottle with her hooves, yanked the lid off with her teeth, poured two pills onto her hoof, and gave them to Fluttershy who downed them without thinking twice.

“Thanks, I should be going now. Thank you for tending to my wing.” Fluttershy replied in a soft tone, turned around, left the store before Coconut pie could object, and took off from the ground to the north.

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Several hours had past now and the pain killers were wearing off now at an alarming rate as the yellow Pegasus few over a small town. “The pain....uhh...it-it's t-too much....ahh!” Fluttershy exclaimed and gave a pained cry as her right wing seized up along with a overwhelming surge of pain and throbbing at which point she fell out of the sky and hit the ground a few moments later startling a small white unicorn filly.

I say, I think she's coming to!

Fluttershy's eyes flickered open weakly as she took in her surroundings. The first thing she noticed is that she was laying in a large bed with velvet blue sheets over her. The second thing she noticed was a stallion and mare whom were standing next to the bed now.

“Gave us quite the scare you did young mare.” The stallion said with a warm smile as she looked at him.

“Wh-where am I?” Fluttershy said in a weak tone.

“Ah yes, I believe introductions are in order. My name is Richard unicorn and this is my lovely wife Olivia unicorn. Our daughter Diamond saw you fall out of the sky into our pavilion as she was playing there at the present time. We thought for a brief time that you were...well, no longer with us. Image our delight when we noticed you were still breathing!” Richard replied enthusiastically with a wide smile.

“I-I'm sorry for the trouble I caused you.” Fluttershy replied and attempted to sit up only to become light headed.

“Now, now. Let's not get ahead of ourselves shall we? You need your rest. I'll be sure to send in our butler in with a hot meal for you.” Richard replied with a warm smile as he gently pushed the yellow Pegasus back down and tucked the covers over her.

“I-I don't want to be a bother...” Fluttershy replied in a soft tone.

“No bother at all darling! You just sit tight and rest.” Richard said with a warm smile and quickly left the room along with Olivia. Diamond however remained in the room with the yellow Pegasus.

“What happened to make you fall out of the sky like that? I've never seen a Pegasus do that before.” Diamond said in a excited tone.

“I-I injured my right wing.” Fluttershy replied stuttering slightly as she spoke.

“A Pegasus pony's wings can get hurt? I thought they were made of steel!” Diamond exclaimed enthusiastically which earned the first giggle from the yellow Pegasus that she had since the horrifying events that happened not to long ago.

“You're a strange little filly.” Fluttershy replied with a weak smile.

“Am I? My big sister Rarity always said I was nothing but an annoying little sister. She doesn't mean it though! She's the best big sister I ever had! She even promised me that if I was ever in trouble she'd come to my rescue! She had to go off to Canterlot to help the princess for some reason. I wanted to go with, but she wouldn't let me.” Diamond replied energetically in a fast speaking tone.

“The Princess? You mean Princess Celestia?” Fluttershy asked in a shocked tone. She didn't think anypony could be able to speak with the princess directly in these dark times so this was a first.

“Yeah. My mommy is related to the princess. She is like her cousin fifty gazillion times removed or something like that. I don't know exactly what the number was, but I know that we are related to her so our family has always had close ties with the princess.” Diamond replied in the same energetic tone.

“That explains why this unicorn family is so wealthy.” Fluttershy thought to herself as she looked around the room.

“So what about you? Where is your mommy and daddy?” Diamond asked curiously at which point Fluttershy's expression went saddened much to the filly's confusion.

“They are...away on vacation.” Fluttershy lied. She knew they were dead, but she didn't want to scare the poor filly either.

“Oh? How long till they come back?” Diamond asked curiously.

“A very, very long time...” Fluttershy replied followed by a depressed sigh.

“Oh, that must make you sad being away from them for so long.” Diamond replied with a frown.

“Yes, it does make me very sad sometimes...” Fluttershy replied feeling herself become more depressed by the minuet. She didn't have the courage to ask the filly to leave, but she didn't want to continue this conversation either.

As if acting as a saving grace the butler began to walk in with a tray full of food. “Master Diamond, would you please allow the mare some time alone to eat? I'm sure she is very hungry.” The butler said in a prim and proper tone.

“Okay!” Diamond replied with a smile and quickly left the room leaving the two alone.

“I'm very sorry Miss Fluttershy, Master Diamond can be quite the chatter box if I may be as bold to say so.” The Butler said with a warm smile as he levitated the plates of food onto the bed gently and carefully.

“It's alright.” Fluttershy replied and began to eat the food from the plate.

“I didn't mean to ease drop, but I couldn't help but overhear that your parents are on a extended vacation?” The Butler said in a curious tone.

“Actually, my parents are dead. They were murdered before my eyes as a young filly.” Fluttershy replied without thinking just before she took another bite from her food.

“Good gracious! Madam, I am so very sorry. That was too bold of a question for a stallion such as myself to ask. You have my condolences.” The Butler replied with a bow.

“It's alright.” Fluttershy replied as she looked at the Butler now who was still bowing and reminded of Master Ace which brought tears to her eyes.

“Madam? Are you alright?” The Butler asked in a concerned tone as he looked up and noticed the tears streaming from her cheeks now.

“I-I'm fine. You just reminded me of someone is all.” Fluttershy replied her voice cracking slightly as she spoke now.

“I see, is there anything else I can get for you?” The Butler asked with a smile.

“N-No. I'll be fine.” Fluttershy replied with a sniffle at which point the Butler gave a short bow and left the room.

No matter where she went, she couldn't escape it. The memories, the pain, the guilt, she was reminded of these feelings everywhere she went and it was slowly eating at her...

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“Nooooooooooooo!” Fluttershy screamed at the top of her lungs as Ace's body flew back lifelessly and hit the ground...

One of the solider ponies lunged at her only for her to jump up and roundhouse kick the solider pony a crossed the head denting the helmet into his skull moments before he flew several feet away and to the ground...

Ahhh!

Please don't kill me! AHHH!

Wait, stop don't! Please! I have a family! No,no,no, AHHHH-silence-.....

Fluttershy, stop! This isn't you! Please! Noooooo.....!


Fluttershy sat up with a start sweating heavily along with labored breaths as she looked about her surroundings. The last voice she heard in her nightmare was her mother's voice trying to call out to her, she never heard it though when she killed all those dark armored ponies though.

Fluttershy then gave a glance at her right wing and flapped it several times and determined it was fully healed. “Good. Now I can stop being a bother to this kind family. No pony would help me if they knew of the monster I have become...” Fluttershy thought to herself as she got out of bed and walked down the stairs quietly. Just when she reached the door however she noticed Richard and Olivia walked through the foyer now.

“Leaving so soon are we?” Richard asked with a smile.

“Yes, my wing is fully healed now. Thank you for your hospitality, but I do not want to be a bother any longer so I should be on my way.” Fluttershy replied in a quiet tone.

“Darling, you are not a bother at all. In fact, I was talking with our Butler yesterday and I was wondering if you would like to stay with us. You strike me as a mare who does not like to get things for free and offer nothing in return so I offer this, You would have a job as a maid here, but you would have free room and board and three meals a day at no charge. And of course when you are free to do as you like throughout the day. The only thing would require is minor chores to be done around the house. I would of course offer this free anyways, but as I said before you strike me as the mare who prefers to work for things rather than have them given to you.” Richard said with a warm smile.

“Thank you for the offer sir, but I can't stay. Could you by chance point me in the direction of a town where I could find a home of my own and work though?” Fluttershy asked in the same soft tone.

“If you insist on leaving then I suppose I could suggest Fillydephia. That town is always in need of a hoof.” Richard replied with a slight frown.

“Fillydephia...” Fluttershy remarked thoughtfully. She knew where that town was. Before her parents untimely death they would often go on vacation there during the summer time. “Thank you very much.” Fluttershy replied with a weak smile, left the mansion and quickly took off for the skies...

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THREE MONTHS LATER...

It took her three months to get there, but since she knew where the town was it was as simple as stopping for supplies at random along the way. Perhaps here, in this town she could find peace of mind...the only down fall to all this was that she was now flat broke by the time she got there. So she had to find work fast.

What the buck is “Martial arts?” get the buck outta my store ya con artist!

Oh wow! We got a real joker here! Martial whatchamacallits....haha! That's a good one!

You honestly expect me to believe a bucking horseapple tail like that? Get the buck out of here ya crazy!

These responses and more the yellow Pegasus got each and every time she offered her services to get a job in town. “No one knows of that combat style? But how can that be? Master Ace always said it was well known...did he lie to me?” Fluttershy asked herself in disbelief.

Days past and Fluttershy was now desperate to find a roof over her head. She was tired of flying everywhere and her parents always managed to find small time jobs in this town when they visited. Not to mention this was the first time she had come to since she had run away that didn't remind her of home. That however didn't stop the nightmares she endured each night.

A week later and Fluttershy was now starving. She had no idea how to make money and if she didn't get something to eat soon she'd be dead on the street in another week.

“Can I have some food? Please?” Fluttershy asked in a weak tone to a store clerk in town.

“Get a job and come back with some bits ya begger!” The store clerk exclaimed in a rude tone.

“That's it. I give up. I'll never find a job here.” Fluttershy said with a sigh. She was far too weak to fly now so she couldn’t leave.

“Hey there missy, I hear your looking for some food.” A stallion in a trench coat said with a grin.

“Yes, can I please have some?” Fluttershy replied in a weak tone.

“It'll cost ya.” The stallion replied with a smirk.

“I don't have any bits.” Fluttershy replied with a sigh.

“I ain't talking about bits here missy.” The stallion in the trench coat replied with a grin.

“What do you mean?” Fluttershy asked curiously. She honestly had no idea what this stallion was talking about.

“You see missy, there are two types of currency in this here town. There's bits, and then there's what ya got under that pink tail of yours.” The stallion replied with a grin.

Upon hearing this Fluttershy's eyes widened in shock as she recalled Gilda's words...

“Buck no! I didn't arrange this colt for you just for you to turn him down! I'm getting paid fifty bits for this!” Gilda exclaimed then went wide eyed as if she said something she shouldn't have.

“She was getting paid for whoring out Rainbow...” Fluttershy thought to herself with a thoughtful expression now.

“So do we have a deal?” The stallion in the trench coat asked with a smug grin.

“Can I do it? Will I really give up my virginity for food?” Fluttershy thought to herself in a shocked tone.

“Oh buck, well this colt I’m planning on showing to Dash might be a bit much for a virgin like yourself to take, but if you want to take along I can tell him to be gentle with ya. Heck, I’m sure he'd love to break ya in. What colt doesn't love to deflower a virgin, right Dash? Haha!” Gilda replied with a laugh.

“Come on missy! I ain't got all day!” The stallion in the trench coat exclaimed in a heated tone.

“O-Okay, but I want fifty bits on top of the food.” Fluttershy replied trying her best to strike a deal even though the very notion of this was unnerving to the mare.

“Why the buck would I do that?” The stallion in the trench coat asked in a annoyed tone.

“B-B-Becuase, I'm a V-Virgin.” Fluttershy replied stuttering greatly now as she felt her nerves tense up.

“Whoa, really? You ain't pullin my tail?” The stallion in the trench coat replied in a shocked tone.

“S-See for yourself.” Fluttershy replied with yet another stutter, turned around, and lifted her tail which showed off her virgin pussy to the stallion.

The stallion in the trench coat walked up to her and put a hoof to her lips earning a startled cry from the yellow Pegasus as she fought every urge in her body to buck the stallion away as he parted her lips and seemed to be examining her to determine if she was telling the truth.

“Well buck me sideways, ya ain't pullin my tail. I expected ya to buck me when I went to check ya out. Alright we gots ourselves a deal.” The stallion in the trench coat said with a smirk as she motioned for her to follow him.

“Wh-Where are we going?” Fluttershy asked in a timid tone as they went into one of the back alleys.

“I got a few pals who would love to have ya beside me. Course you'll get paid for them as well.” The stallion in the trench coat replied with a smirk.

“I-I will?” Fluttershy asked in a shocked tone.

“Of course! You're knew to the whore gig ain't ya?” The stallion in the trench coat replied with a chuckle.

“Y-Yes...” Fluttershy replied in a soft tone.

“Heh, ya must be really down on your luck to be sellin your body like this. Tell ya what, I’ll throw in a few apple beers to help ya calm the nerves since ya is a first timer and all.” The stallion in the trench coat replied with a smirk.

“B-Beer? Oh, I don't know.” Fluttershy replied in a not so sure tone. Giving up her virginity was hard enough, but was she really going to get drunk on top of it as well? She had never drunk in her life so she had no idea what the effects would be.

“Trust me Missy. It helps ya loads.” The stallion in the trench coat replied as he made a turn and into a small building.

“Guess what boys. We scored a virgin!” The stallion in the trench coat exclaimed which was met with hoots and cheers.

“Sweet! I can't wait to sink my cock into that yellow cunt!” One of the other stallions in the room exclaimed only to get kicked in the balls just before he was able to tackle Fluttershy.

“Ya either pay up now or ya get nothin. That's her rules. And you all know the rules with whores in this here town.” The stallion in the trench coat said looking about them now as if expecting a response.

“Whatever the mare says goes.” One of the stallions replied in with a grin.

“Exactly. She also has another rule. Never blow inside unless your prepared to fork out a buck load of bits.” The stallion in the trench coat said as he walked back next to her and leaned in next to her.

“I suggest ya take notes missy, I’m given ya some guidelines to follow here. If ya wanna make it in this town as a whore ya gotta have rules or the stallions will walk all over ya. Ya also need a street name, never use ya real name when ya is on the job.” The stallion in the trench coat said in a whisper so only Fluttershy could hear.

“So what's the mare's name?” One of the stallions asked at which point the stallion in the trench coat turned to look at her.

“Umm...Flutterslut...” Fluttershy replied and blushed. “I can't believe I just called myself a slut...” Fluttershy thought to herself with a sigh.

“Flutterslut huh? Never knew a mare as bold as to call themselves that outright in this town.” The stallion replied with a smirk.

“Y-Yes...well I could use a B-Beer. That's one of my other rules.” Fluttershy replied with a stutter.

“Nice one.” The stallion in the trench coat whispered to her with a chuckle. “Ya heard her. Everypony get this mare a beer or ya don't get any of her virgin cunt!” The stallion in the trench coat exclaimed at which point the other four stallions in the room quickly grabbed bottles of apple beer from the cooler and placed it at her feet.

“So can we buck her now or what?” One of the stallions asked impatiently.

“L-Let me have a beer first.” Fluttershy replied in a nervious tone.

“Don't push it missy. These guys ain't as nice as me.” The stallion in the trench coat whispered to her which told Fluttershy she couldn't hold off much longer. She was going to have to offer herself to them sooner or later. Either that or risk getting raped unwillingly. So without a second thought she pulled the lid off of the bottle of apple beer and downed it.

“O-Okay. The stallion in the trench coat gets me first...” Fluttershy said with a stutter. The way she saw it, if the stallion was kind enough to help her this much he would go easy on her or at least she hopped.

“If ya is hopin I would go easy on ya cause ya is a virgin, I wouldn't get my hopes up. I have a image to uphold. But I’ll walk ya through it since it's your first time and all, get on ya knees and brace yourself missy, cause this is gonna really hurt.” The stallion in the trench coat whispered to her to which she did so without question.

The stallion in the trench coat then tossed fifty bits next to her, positioned his now erect cock in front of her virgin entrance and moments later slammed into her causing the yellow Pegasus to cry out as a sharp pain jetted through her body as she felt her virginity being taken by the stallion. She managed to not cry out though much to even her own shock. Though by this time, the beer had begun to take effect and dulled her senses as well. However even though her senses were dulled the pleasure that now coursed through her body caused the yellow Pegasus to moan out.

“How ya like your first time?” The stallion whispered into her ear as she picked up a rhythm with a grin as she slammed himself into her now soaking wet yellow cunt.

“F-Faster...” Was all Fluttershy could moan out. She had no idea why she even said that, but she did know one thing, the faster he went, the more waves of pleasure that coursed throughout her body.

“Your the mare in charge.” The stallion replied with a smirk and began to pick up speed now earning more moans from the yellow Pegasus. Between the effects of the apple beer and the pleasure now coursing through her body. For the first time ever, her mind never drifted back to those horrifying events, images didn't appear before her eyes, the only thing that mattered to her, the only thing she could think about, was how long until her body climaxed. This realization was mind blowing to the yellow Pegasus. She finally found a way to escape the pain, the memories, and the horrors of her past.

“Give me another bucking apple beer!” Fluttershy exclaimed between moans as the second stallion began to plow her after the stallion in the trench coat pulled out and blew his load all over her back and wings. Once handed to her she gulped it down without a care as the stallion slammed his ten inches of stallion meat into her. “Buck me harder! Make me cum!” Fluttershy exclaimed between moans having already climaxed twice with the previous stallion, but she didn't care. She wanted to feel her body seize up and burn with sheer pleasure as her orgasm rocked her body.

Fluttershy was now on the last stallion drunk beyond belief now. Not that she cared as her climax rocked her body once again which caused her yellow cunt to spasm the flood all over the stallion's cock inside her and dribble down her hind legs and onto the floor. “Yo! Toss my whole lot of bits next to this mare, I'm gonna give her some milk!” The stallion exclaimed with a smirk as he continued to slam his cock into her up to the hilt feeling his climax closing in.

“Holy horseapples! Ya is gonna give her two hundred bits just to blow in her cunt?” One stallion remarked in a shocked tone.

“Buck ya! The chance to blow inside a virgin don't come very often!” The stallion replied between grunts and moans.

Fluttershy glanced at the bag of bits next to her now and gasped. “Two hundred bits plus two hundred and fifty bits? I can't believe I didn't think of this before!” Fluttershy thought to herself in a drunken tone.

“Oh buck ya, blow that stallion milk in me!” Fluttershy exclaimed in a drunken tone as she moaned out with each wave of pleasure that coursed through her body.

“Whatever ya say Flutterslut!” The stallion replied and gave one last might thrust into her now dripping cunt and blew his load into her virgin cunt. Feeling the stallions spunk splash against her inner walls sent the yellow Pegasus over the edge as she cried out in ecstasy as her tenth climax came crashing down on her and moments later her lower half fell to the floor limply causing the stallion's cock to slip out of her and squirt all over her back and rump.

The stallions then filed out of the house one at a time leaving Fluttershy alone now covered in male pony cum from head to hoof practically. By now the effects of the apple beer began to wear off and the warm sensations she was feeling were quickly beginning to be replaced with guilt as she lay there now and began to sob loudly. “At least I’m not a monster anymore.” Fluttershy remarked aloud after several minuets with a sniffle and went to check the home for a shower to clean her body out with so she could go and get a morning after pill with her new found bits...

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THREE YEARS LATER...

Three years had now passed and Fluttershy had become fully accustomed to her new lifestyle. She was now a professional whore for hire and a damn good one at that. Over the years her reputation increased dramatically to the point now she was allowed to freely enter and leave a local club due to having cut a deal with the owner. In exchange for her cunt once a month she was allowed in anytime. Suffice it to say, there was rarely a time when she wasn't drunk now at days.

Despite her drinking habits though she did manage to land an apartment which she paid for with her body as well which left her with all her bits for food and beer...mostly beer.

F-F-Fluttershy?!

Fluttershy was now in the middle of the tenth stallion this night when an all too familiar voice rang out which caused her to snap her eyes open and look.

“Oh wow, I’m so bucking drunk I’m seeing dead ponies now, haha! Maybe I should lay off the apple beer!” Fluttershy exclaimed followed by a drunken laugh.

“Fluttershy, I’m not dead! I'm alive and I’m right here! What happened to you?!” Rainbow Dash asked in a horrified tone.

“Yeah, yeah. Go away ghost. Can't you see I’m getting plowed right now? You're gonna ruin my mood!” Fluttershy replied then looked at the stallion who was plowing her. “Hey, you best not blow your load in me! You pull out and blow on my chest, not in my cunt, got it? I don't want to have to waste bits on a morning after pill just because some colt couldn't hold his spunk in long enough to pull out!” Fluttershy exclaimed in a drunken heated tone.

“How about I pay ya extra then?” The stallion replied as she continued to plow her.

“Buck no! If your gonna blow, then you blow on my chest!” Fluttershy exclaimed as she flashed a glare at the stallion.

Fluttershy moaned out now as each wave of pleasure coursed throughout her body. Crying out in ecstasy as her climax rocked her body. As she rode her Climax out however, she suddenly felt a familiar warmth jet inside her cunt in short bursts she knew this could mean only one thing and in her state of mind she was not going to let this slide. “Hey! I said not inside you horseappling mule!” Fluttershy exclaimed in a pissed off town and bucked the stallion off mid-squirt, jumped on her hind hooves, and scissor kicked the stallion into a crowd of ponies.

“This is just bucking great! You coated my cunt in your bucking spunk! Now I gotta get a morning after pill! I'm gonna beat the horseapples out of you for this!” Fluttershy exclaimed in a outraged tone, lunged at the stallion only for Rainbow Dash to grab a hold of her and stop the yellow Pegasus.

“Fluttershy, stop! He's not worth it!” Rainbow Dash exclaimed in a panicked tone as she struggled to hold her back.

“Wait a bucking second, ghosts can't hold onto me!” Fluttershy exclaimed in a shocked tone, stopped fighting against the cyan blue Pegasus and whirled herself around to look at Rainbow Dash, went wide-eyed and gasped. “R-Rainbow? Your alive?” Fluttershy asked in a shocked tone as her eyes began to fill with tears as she looked at the cyan blue Pegasus.

She couldn't believe it. Up till now she thought everypony in Leafside village to be dead, yet here before her eyes stood her long lost friend. And she nonchalantly brushed her off as a hallucination!

“Yeah, good to see you again Fluttershy.” Rainbow Dash replied with a smile.

It was then that it occurred to her. She was drunk off her gourd and was getting bucked right before the cyan blue Pegasus's eyes moments before. This very thought made the yellow Pegasus sick to her stomach with guilt.

“I think I’m gonna be sick...” Fluttershy replied in a weak tone at which point she yanked away and vomited onto the floor loudly.

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“I thought you were dead. Imagine my luck to have you find me when I’m betting bucked.” Fluttershy replied followed by a sigh as she opened the door to the store and walked in to which Rainbow Dash followed.

“Yeah, about that...what happened to you to make you do that to yourself? I mean, selling you body for bits? Why in Equestria would you do that to yourself Fluttershy?” Rainbow Dash asked in a worried tone as Fluttershy took a small box labeled”Foal begone! The pill to make sure the best night of your life doesn't turn into the worst night of your life six months later!” and paid for it at the counter and left the store a few moments later followed by Rainbow Dash.

“Life happened Rainbow. I have no real skills in the world, so I made use of the one thing I had that I knew could land me some bits. Gotta make a living somehow.” Fluttershy replied nonchalantly.

“No real skills? Fluttershy, your a master of martial arts!” Rainbow Dash exclaimed in disbelief.

“Martial arts, yeah I’m a master of it alright. Master of a skill that no pony in Equestria believes exists! Wake up and smell the coffee burning Rainbow! You don't think I didn't try to find a job that could put those skills to use?! When that failed I turned to the one other thing I knew of that could get me some bucking money!” Fluttershy exclaimed in a heated tone with a glare at the cyan blue Pegasus.

“But selling your body for bits? Where in Equestria did you get an idea to do that?!” Rainbow Dash asked incredulously.

“Remember when Gilda beat the snot out of you four years ago?” Fluttershy asked as they walked down the street and to an apartment complex.

“Of course! Gilda spoke of whoring me out for bits!” Rainbow Dash exclaimed in realization of how Fluttershy learned of this.

“Yeah, I should thank her one day. I'd be dead on the street right now if she hadn't given me the idea.” Fluttershy replied then sighed as she opened the door to her apartment and walked in.

“Thank her? Why in the buck would you thank her for giving you the idea to be a whore?!” Rainbow Dash exclaimed in a pissed off tone.

“You wouldn't understand if I told you...you don't know of the monster I was...” Fluttershy thought to herself with a sigh.

“How can you do this to yourself Fluttershy?! What would Ace think of you if he saw you now?!” Rainbow Dash exclaimed in an outraged tone.

Upon hearing this an image of her master's disapproving look flashed before her eyes and she suddenly found herself filled with both anger and guilt. It was true. If Ace saw her now she could only image the disappointment he would feel towards her. The shame he will feel about her. These very thoughts were enough to cause Fluttershy's temper to flare as she whirled around and glared at the cyan blue Pegasus.

“Master Ace is dead! They're all dead! Don't you dare walk into my life after three years and tell me how I should live it! You think I enjoy this kind of life?! You think I like getting my cunt pounded raw night after night?! Well reality check Rainbow! Life isn't fair! You take what you can get and buck the world!” Fluttershy roared at the cyan blue Pegasus, turned to her fridge, kicked it open, took a bottle of apple beer out, and began to chug it.

“You sound like Gilda...” Rainbow Dash remarked sourly upon hearing this.

“Well maybe she had the right idea then!” Fluttershy retorted after she finished downing the bottle of apple beer and tossed it into the trash can. In truth however, she knew otherwise, but she couldn't admit it and she knew it.

“No she didn't! Listen to me Fluttershy! I'm going to join Celestia's royal army so we can fight and end this war! Come with me Fluttershy! Your so much better than this!” Rainbow Dash exclaimed as she put a hoof on each of Fluttershy's shoulders and looked at her.

“F-Fight?” Fluttershy thought to herself in a horrified tone as memories of the events of three years ago flashed before her eyes...

Please don't kill me! AHHH!

Wait, stop don't! Please! I have a family! No,no,no, AHHHH-silence-.....

“I-I don't want to fight though Rainbow....I'd rather just live out the rest of my life alone...” Fluttershy remarked in a shy tone as her expression softened greatly now looking away from her as she tried to shove the memories from her mind now.

“Fluttershy, I know you better than that!” Rainbow Dash exclaimed as the yellow Pegasus gently moved her hooves away and opened the fridge again to take another bottle of apple beer out.

“What is wrong with you?! I know our home town got destroyed, yeah it was hard on both of us, but we need to put what we learned from Ace to use and help end this war!” Rainbow Dash exclaimed hoping she was talking some sense into her best friend.

“You don't know of the monster I had become Rainbow...if you did, you would never forgive me....I can never fight again, I can never become angry again, or the monster will come out...” Fluttershy thought to herself with a sigh as she opened the bottle of apple beer. “I-I don't want to talk about it...” Fluttershy replied turning away from the cyan blue Pegasus and quickly began drink the bottle of apple beer until Rainbow Dash swatted it out of her hoof and onto the floor where the contents spilled out of the bottle creating a small puddle next them now.

“Don't beat yourself up Fluttershy! There was nothing you could have done!” Rainbow Dash exclaimed grabbing Fluttershy's hooves with her own and staring at her.

“Yes there was! I could have easily kicked all their flanks! But I sat there like a coward! I am a coward...a shy, spineless coward...” Fluttershy began to say.

“Fluttershy, You need to stop beating yourself up! You're stronger than that!” Rainbow Dash exclaimed looking into her friend's tear filled eyes whom was holding her cheek in shock now.

“But-But I’m not...” Fluttershy replied lowering her head at which point Rainbow Dash gave a heavy sigh. “You don't understand, you can't understand...” Fluttershy thought to herself in a depressed tone a few moments after she said this.

“Yes you are. I know you. Your the strongest pony I’ve ever known. That's the reason I want you to fight at my side. So you can protect what you hold dear.” Rainbow Dash replied and lifted her head so she was staring into the cyan blue Pegasus's eyes now. “Now tell me, what do you hold dear?” Rainbow Dash asked her in a soft and comforting tone.

Fluttershy paused as she looked into her friend's eyes. She soon found herself getting lost in them as she did over four years ago along with the same feelings she had for her that were now resurfacing as she looked at her. “I-I can't tell her how I feel...she would never understand...” Fluttershy thought to herself with a sigh before she spoke up finally.

“Life,I hold life dear. I don't want to see anypony or any animal get hurt.” Fluttershy replied after a few moments.

“Then maybe it's time to protect that. I know you can do it Fluttershy. Please, come with me.” Rainbow Dash replied in a soft tone looking in her eyes now.

“I can't. I'm too nice of a pony to hurt others. I can't hurt other ponies. It's just not in me.” Fluttershy replied with a sigh.

“You sure didn't have any trouble wanting to kick that stallion's flank in the club.” Rainbow Dash replied in s skeptic tone.

“I was drunk beyond all bucking reasoning Rainbow. It's the only way I can let stallions do that to me. It's the only time I can let go of my kindness.” Fluttershy replied and sighed as she hung her head low in shame.

“Use that then Fluttershy! Use that to let go Fluttershy, let go of your kindness, if only for a little while so you can protect what you hold dear!” Rainbow Dash exclaimed looking at her fiercely now.

“You want me to get drunk so I can hurt ponies?” Fluttershy asked incredulously. She wasn't sure if it was the fact that the bottle of apple beer she had just chugged down was beginning to dull her senses again or if she was being serious.

“Buck no, I want you to use that feeling you get when your drunk, the feeling that allows you to let go of that kindness. I'm sure you know what it is. Please Fluttershy, I don't want to go into this with you.” Rainbow Dash replied in a soft tone as she looked at her.

“L-Let go of my kindness?” Fluttershy thought to herself in a horrified tone as more memories flashed before her eyes...

“I just stood by and let you both be killed before my eyes...I-I can feel it slipping...M-My kindness...I-I can't hold onto it...and I WON'T STAND BY AND WATCH ANYMORE!!!” Fluttershy thought to herself as she felt her kindness be slashed in half before her eyes like a bird suddenly being slashed in half in the sky by a bullet.

Fluttershy's mane and tail then began to flail wildly now which caused the solider ponies to halt and stare in confusion until she abruptly shot up to her hind hooves with her front hooves in front of her face and moments later flung them to her sides.

Fluttershy screamed at the top of her lungs as her mane and tail continued to flail wildly in the air until she abruptly stopped screaming, snapped her eyes open, and stared at the solider ponies who were taken back by her sudden outburst as well as the magical energy that seemed to be streaking a crossed the mare's body now at random intervals.

She was shot back into reality from her memories however as Rainbow Dash placed a hoof on her shoulder causing to to gasp in surprise for a moment until she realized she was still in her apartment.

“I don't know if I can.” Fluttershy replied in a low tone followed by a depressed sigh.

“You won't know till you try.” Rainbow Dash replied with a warm smile as she lifted her face up so it was eye level with her own.

Once again she found herself getting lost in the cyan blue Pegasus's eyes. How could she say no to her best friend? Not that she could even if she wanted to. What she felt towards Rainbow Dash now was far more than a friendship, but she could never tell her. She was terrified of what she would think of her.

“Okay, I'll try, but not till tomorrow. I'm not about to walk into a recruitment office unless I’m sober.” Fluttershy replied, walked over to her bed and lay down.

“Alright. First thing tomorrow we head out. Okay?” Rainbow Dash replied as she lay down next to the bed.

“Get the buck in the bed Rainbow. You're not going to sleep on this floor.” Fluttershy said in a stern tone earning a chuckle from the cyan blue Pegasus.

“Why? Afraid I’ll get eaten by rats?” Rainbow Dash asked in a joking tone.

“No, but I’m afraid you'll get rabies from one of then though.” Fluttershy replied in a soft tone which caused the cyan blue Pegasus to give a small gulp as she climbed in bed next to Fluttershy.

“Good night Fluttershy.” Rainbow Dash said with a yawn.

“Night Dashy...” Fluttershy replied with a blush as she felt the cyan blue Pegasus's body run against her back. Then looked out her window as a single tear streaked down her cheek.
you master Ace for bringing her back into my life...

I was so lost...

Maybe one day I’ll be brave enough to tell her how I really feel...