I have been writing on this website for a while now, having a secret life that I could be happy about in all the bad things in life. I normally use my mother's laptop since I didn't have my own, but tonight I did something that I will regret in the morning. I left my Facebook account on and when I woke up I found my mother reading through my messages. I didn't feel happy with her reading it at all since what was in it. I began to try and ignore it, but somehow life has a way of being a pain. She soon found out about my Story "The hunt for love" and she did not approve. After I was lectured about what I had done with all those words and actions in that story, I had lost most of my trust from her. I felt devastated at what had happened after be reminded that I was a Christian and how Christians don't do this. I felt anger rising in myself along with sadness.

'Life how could this be any worse?'

After that thought had finished out I found myself with my mothers eye's staring at me with anger. "WHAT GAVE YOU THE IDEA OF THIS BEING OK? REALLY I WANT TO KNOW?" I couldn't take anymore yelling so I did what I thought would never happen in my life. I went to my room ignoring my mother's protests of what I've done. I grabbed all the things I could carry that would be useful along with a pocket knife, matches, and a Texans hat and put them in a bag. As I was walking to the front door I looked at the laptop.

'She probably didn't want to see it anymore anyhow.' I grabbed the laptop along with the Charger and put it in the bag and walked out of the house. I planned on just being by myself out in the wild for a couple of days but the next few words stopped me.

"Are you leaving? Ha Good Riddance I was planning on throwing you out anyhow." I felt my heart break from my mothers harsh words. I began to run as fast as I could to the nearest Forest with tears falling from my face.

I got to the forest in twenty minutes only stopping to catch my breath once. I walked to the edge of the forest and looked inside and only saw darkness and felt my heart beginning to heal. I loved the darkness no matter where I was as long as there was darkness I would be calm and walked into the forest, picking up loose branches and twigs along the way to make a fire with. As I got the center of the dense forest I cleared the area, dug a hole in the middle to contain the fire, and went hunting with my knife. After finding a chicken and slitting its throat, I began to walk back to my makeshift camp. I put the sticks in the hole and lit it on fire and watched as it burned. I grabbed the chicken, gutted it, plucked all the feathers off and put it on a stick and soon put it over the fire and watched as it cooked. I felt memories going through my mind, mostly of what happened this morning, but then going back to all the things that had gone wrong around me. I felt like it was my fault for every injury my brother got even though I knew well that it wasn't, along with seeing kids getting beat up in front of me but I did nothing. I felt like I didn't belong in this world, like I should never be here in the first place. All I do is cause harm to others. I looked at the chicken to find that it was fully cooked and began to eat it with carelessness of what could happen next.

After finishing the chicken I grabbed the laptop and began to check for new things on my account to read about.

'How did I begin this part of my life in the first place' But that thought escaped my head as I thought about all the bad things that go on around in this world. I took a look around the camp before I made a bed with grass and laid down on it. My dreams were filled with sadness and pain of all of my memories. I was suddenly woken by a sudden shake. I found myself tied to a tree and saw a person standing in front of me. I looked at the fire. It was still lit but was dimming. I only saw what could only be as shocking, I saw that the person had a strange smile on its face, like it had caught something and was planning on harming it and was about to talk to only find my mouth duck tapped shut. I looked at the stranger only to find it had a knife in its hand and watched as it approached me. I looked at it to find its smile widening.

'So this is how I die. hmmmm always thought it would be by the fire.' I looked at the fire only to find it about to go out. I looked back at the stranger, it was right in front of me and the light went out. I began to feel pain in my left arm. He was cutting through my skin all the way up to my shoulder. After that had been done, he did the same thing to my legs and other arm. I felt my blood spilling out of my body. I knew I was going to die soon from blood lose. I felt the knife go through my stomach and watched as my guts fell out of it. I began to cry, but not from the pain, I was crying for what I had done in the past and how I had dealt with them. I began to feel my vision fade, but yet I felt like nothing was actually happening to me. I took one last look at the stranger before my vision completely faded into darkness.