THE FORCE OF HATRED (2019 with MLP Version)
Chapter 10: Act 10: Realizing Mistakes
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Cyborg took Twilight, Celestia, Discord, and Spike in the T-Car, just to give them all their first tastes of automotive travel. Robin followed on his cycle while the others just flew freely.
“So this is a… “Car?” asked Celestia “It seems most interesting.”
“This ain’t just any car,” said Cyborg “This is my car, and watch what else she can do!”
He revved the engine and did a wheelie.
“Whoa!” cried Spike, and he quivered in Twilight’s arms.
“Hey, watch it!” groaned Discord.
Twilight and Celestia only chuckled and enjoyed it.
“Sharp turn!” shouted Cyborg and he swerved round a corner. The ladies felt like they were on a roller-coaster, but the other two guys were feeling a bit green round the guts.
Cyborg then stopped. “I don’t get how you folks exist in your Equestria without cars.”
“It’s more than that.” said Twilight “We have movies on projectors, but no television. We have airships, but no airplanes or spaceships.”
“We do at least have video arcades, but they’re rarely used.” added Spike.
Discord looked out the window on the route, “Seems like this town could use some of it as well. Everywhere I look it’s-- how can I put this lightly-- Boring!”
“Discord!” snapped Twilight.
“He’s right.” said Spike “So far all I’ve seen are office complexes, construction zones, agencies, but hardly anything of fun and enjoyment.”
For the first time ever, since Twilight had arrived, Cyborg finally began to notice this.
The other Titans noticed this as well, but Beast Boy was not the least bit surprised having walked and flown among the “Disgraces” the past week.
Then, there was more as Cyborg turned up the road and would be able to see his favorite outdoor restaurant, only to find, “…It’s gone!”
The entire building had been demolished and was being cleared away by construction machines to convert it into a parking lot for the construction of a simple motel of condos.
All the other Titans stopped and touched down on the road just ahead.
“How can they do this?” cried Starfire.
“More change I guess.” said Robin.
As the gang looked around, the changes were finally starting to sink in and take their toll on them.
“Well, look who’s finally starting to get the message.” Beast Boy grumbled, but to himself.
Starfire flew up higher to see over the miles, and she could hardly see any places of fun, enjoyment, or any of the usual things; just more businesses, work establishments, and more places that were just boring or not of much use.
She did however see another outdoor restaurant just a mile down the road. “Perhaps we shall adjourn there?”
“We might as well.” said Robin.
Upon their arrival, the greeter looked a little sad, but she gladly allowed the gang three tables huddled together on the patio, and Spike was allowed to stay as long as they didn’t let him roam around.
Spike would have voiced his intentions to behave, but Twilight had warned him previously not to speak so as not to arouse suspicion about Equestria in a town full of rather unscrupulous people.
“We’ll feed you some of our table scraps.” Twilight promised.
Spike smiled.
When the waitress came out to take orders, she too looked rather sad and downhearted.
“Is everything okay?” asked Celestia.
“Oh, we’re just going out of business.” the lady replied and revealed that the joint had been purchased by a rich company that wished to demolish the place to setup an auto-dealers headquarters.
Everyone was shocked, except Beast Boy who wasn’t the least bit surprised.
“Okay, I’m all for cars and parts,” said Cyborg “But this is starting to get way out of hand. The city’s changing too much.”
The waitress sighed, “That’s the way things are. This whole city is becoming one big land of business. Pretty soon there won’t be a fun place left in the entire town.”
The others, except Beast Boy all gawked with their mouths wide-open.
“But that’s insane!” snapped Robin “They can’t just do this to the people-- take away all their joy and hangout places.”
“Changes are part of life,” Beast Boy said to him “And we have to accept them whether we approve of them or not.
…Isn’t that what you said?”
Robin looked crossed, but he couldn’t seem to protest. For the first time, he was finally starting to see some of the downsides to changes.
The Equestrians were also shocked.
“If I had my powers I’d be able liven this place up like that.” said Discord
“Excuse me?” asked the waitress.
Discord was about to spill the beans, when Twilight gave him a small kick to his ankle.
“Ow!” he groaned “Oh! Right… um, never mind.”
Orders were taken, and when it came to Beast Boy, “I’ll have the pulled pork on a kaiser.”
The Titans all gasped in shock.
“Uh… you’re a vegetarian.” Raven reminded him.
Beast Boy just shook his head not even looking at her, “Not anymore. Changes are part of life.”
The others all rolled their eyes back and forth with concern, and Robin was starting to get annoyed with Beast Boy saying that.
Still everyone ordered their lunch, while the evil inside Beast Boy snickered.
Twilight and Celestia both shivered slightly, even Spike felt his stomach give a little turn. Discord felt nothing, but asked “What’s got you three all quivering?”
Celestia knew the feeling “Something doesn’t feel right somewhere.”
“That’s what I’ve been feeling too.” said Twilight “My alicorn senses are picking up some kind of danger; something evil.”
The Titans all looked around, but everything seemed plain and simple, but they were growing concerned, because that killer was still on the loose.
“Just keep your eyes peeled for anything suspicious.” said Robin.
Meanwhile, as it had struck afternoon, Terra took up Miss Caroline’s offer and came to her apartment.
She looked pretty distraught.
“Come in, dear.” she said.
Her home office was setup in her study, and even had a couch for Terra to lie down on.
At first Terra didn’t say anything, and the sounds of the big wall clock ticking were loud enough to annoy anyone.
“Well…?” asked Caroline “You told me you were having guy problems.”
“Guy problems? I’m not having guy problems. Who ever said I had guy problems? I’m fine, you hear? Fine, fine, fine…!”
Caroline could see this was more serious than she thought. “Terra, you may as well confide in me. It’s not healthy to keep your feelings all bottled up like this. It can have more than just a negative impact on your school studies; it can affect your life as well.”
Terra looked very nervous, which told her that her life was already badly affected.
“I’ve been having bad dreams, and hallucinations.” And she explained about her vision as best she could, without revealing Beast Boy or Slade, trying to keep her secrets secret.
Caroline noted this, “Sounds to me like it’s your inner-conscience is feeling guilty over something that happened, and I must assume it’s a breakup, because it’s guy-trouble.”
Terra knew she was licked and had to confess, but she still chose her words carefully.
“I… I broke up with a guy who I really liked once. I told him to stop following me, and just leave me alone because I changed.”
Caroline looked up, “You broke up with someone because you changed? That doesn’t seem like a very valid reason to end a relationship.”
“There was more. I…” Terra paused trying to find courage to say what she wanted “I wanted to move on, because I had a hard life before, and I kept causing pain and suffering, especially to him. I didn’t want to hurt him anymore.”
Caroline pondered and thought, “I think I know where this is going.”
She almost hated herself for what she was about to do, but she knew this would help Terra come to grips with herself and confide in her better.
“Terra, there’s something you need to know on my own part as well.”
She reached into a drawer in the table next to her and pulled out a newspaper clipped from a year ago, when the Teen Titans had busted some crooks holding up the first national bank.
Terra recognized one of the Titans in the picture-- herself when she was a Titan-- and she cringed deeply.
“Th… that… that isn’t me in there.” she lied, and Caroline wasn’t fooled.
“I was there!” she stated “I remember that day well, that’s why I keep these clippings.”
She even pointed at a civilian who was standing behind, inside the bank. She had been held up in the robbery but the Titans had saved her, Terra in particular.
“You don’t ever forget the one who saves you.”
Terra tried to fake her way out of it, “I-I-I… really don’t remember any of that. I know people say I should, but I just don’t.”
Caroline shook her head at her and pulled out another clipping, the story showing a certain criminal attacking the Titans-- once again, Terra herself as Slade’s apprentice.
Terra was finding it harder and harder to keep herself in the dark.
“I know who you really are, dear,” said Caroline. “…And now I know what this is all about.”
Terra looked at her with a strange and yet frightful expression, and Caroline admitted, she had seen Terra and Beast boy interacting the day the Teen Titans had returned from their globe-trotting adventures against the Brotherhood of Evil.
She heard how Terra had claimed she didn’t remember, and then the very next day, while she though she and Beast Boy were alone in the empty school hallway, Caroline could hear them talking from her office door, only a few doors down.
She heard Terra dismiss Beast Boy with her “Things Change” speech, and saw Beast Boy run, broken-hearted, out of the building.
Terra felt in disgrace, which further confirmed Caroline’s theory, and Terra, now fully-exposed, was forced to admit the truth. “I didn’t want to live that kind of life. It was so painful. I did so many bad things. I just wanted to be normal and forget all the things I did.”
Caroline scribbled in her notes.
“…And?”
Terra turned and looked at her, and sighed miserably, “But I can’t get these thoughts out of my head, no matter what I try. I can’t sleep, I can’t concentrate. What’s wrong with me? Why can’t I just forget about it?”
Caroline looked at her pitifully, “Well for one thing, dear, memories don’t ever go away just because you want them to.
I should know this especially when my first boyfriend dumped me because he wanted to go out with other girls.”
Terra felt shocked at such a thing, “Really? That happened to you?”
Caroline nodded. “It was the most painful event that ever happened to me and, try as I may, I can never forget it, and even if I could that doesn’t make it a good thing either.
And that’s the second thing: It’s our pasts that make up who we are and that shapes our lives. We can’t ignore where we came from, or how we get where we are in life.
You may think what you did was a good thing, but it looks to me as if it only caused both you and Beast Boy more pain.”
Terra remembered Beast Boy balking at her and scorning her for hurting him the way she did.
Caroline continued, “Let’s look at this from another point-of-view. While I may not know Beast Boy personally, I think I can tell that from what I heard, you two were very close once, and it sounded like he believed in you, and really cared for you.
While I can’t approve of stalking, I can understand why he did what he did.”
Terra clenched her fists trying to hide her ever-growing pain inside. “I did what I had to, for both of us. I was trying to make the future a better thing if we both just let go and move on.”
“Mm-hmm, who are trying to convince with that, me or yourself?”
Terra tried to come up with an excuse as best she could, but in the end she finally began to realize there was no way around it. Her actions were cold, cruel, and selfish for her own gains.
Caroline motioned for Terra to look at her, and she looked at her deeply like a mother to a child. “I’m very disappointed in you. You did exactly what my ex-boyfriend did-- you sacrificed your moral principles for something material. You lost far more than you gained, and to top it all off you hurt someone who really cared for you.
It may be understandable why you did what you did, but your behaviour and how you went about it was completely inexcusable.
Do you understand?”
Terra nodded tearfully. She had brought all this guilt and shame upon herself.
“What should I do?” she asked sadly, “I can’t take this pressure anymore. No matter where I go or what I do, I’ll never be able to shake these feelings off.”
Caroline was not one to force people to change, but she did have a suggestion to help Terra come to grips with things. “I think you need to take a moment, look deep inside, and you’ll find what’s really hurting you most.”
Terra relaxed on the sofa, closed her eyes, and looked deep inside.
All once her most pleasant memories of Beast Boy were shown as a lovely song played. “To Be in Love”
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QmaliM84qOw
So many memories, since the first day they met they were smitten with one another, and he taught her to believe in herself and promised to keep her unstable powers a secret.
Their first date at the theme park, where they almost had their first kiss…
And how he helped her break Slade’s control to just before she sacrificed herself to turn to stone to save the town.
“You were the best friend I ever had!”
This time, he Things Change memories didn’t occur, and they didn’t have to.
She woke up with her hands clasped to her eyes as she sobbed softly but painfully! “What have I done?!”
Caroline handed her a box of tissues, but she was proud that at least Terra finally admitted to her problem and mistake-- a good first step.
She gave Terra a few moments to get a hold of herself and dry up, but Terra was really upset with herself.
“I want him back in my life.” Terra confessed out loud “…But I don’t know how.”
“You don’t?” asked Caroline.
Terra shook her head and confessed that she wasn’t sure which way to go from here, or how to go about it.
She still wasn’t so sure if she wanted to give up her school life. Then again she wasn’t even so sure how to tell Beast Boy about this. “He seemed pretty mad at me the last time we talked. Personally I can’t blame him now.”
Caroline softy patted her shoulder and told her, “It sounds like you have a lot more thinking to do, and a lot to consider. I can’t really help you in this field, but I’m proud of you. You made a real breakthrough today.”
Terra dabbed her eyes one last time, and gave a very weak smile-- First time she had smiled in days.
“Thank you, Miss Caroline.”
Caroline smiled at her, “Why don’t you drop by my office first thing at school tomorrow, we can talk a little more if you need to.”
Terra agreed and then excused herself. She had a lot of thinking to do.
Caroline felt very content with herself.
Meanwhile, the Titans and the Equestrians were enjoying their meal, and slipping Spike some scraps as promised.
Beast Boy was eating his pork sandwich without much complaint, much to the Titans’ surprise.
“I can’t believe he’s eating meat, willing!” Cyborg whispered to Robin.
“…And he seems to be enjoying it.” added Robin
Beast Boy took another bite, and he protested in his mind.
“Dude, stop…! I don’t… eat… MEAT!!”
“Silence!” sneered the evil “I’ll eat whatever I like and however I like. Understand?!”
Poor Beast Boy couldn’t stop the evil from abusing his body.
The others all noticed Beast Boy had been rather quiet and hesitant all through the meal, but he did overhear Twilight explain to Celestia the terrible condition of the city, or that of the world they were in.
“I see…” said Celestia “You wish to help the people of this world establish more friendship into their lives?”
Twilight nodded, “I can’t just leave this place as it is. I’m worried the people could be devoured up by all the chaos and misery.”
“Chaos and misery, he?” muttered Discord, but everyone else, except for Beast Boy, heard him and gave him an angry glare.
“Oh, I mean… Ohhh, this world could use some tuning up.”
Celestia ignored him, but from what she had seen so far, with all the changes, as well as grumpy people in the streets, she agreed that the world could use improvement.
“Uh, don’t you realize what a big job that would be?” Raven asked.
“Big jobs are what we’re all about in Equestria.” said Spike.
“Spike,” said Robin “I’m not trying to discourage you but Equestria is just a giant country in your own world. We’re looking at an entire planet here, and many other worlds beyond.”
Beast Boy then spoke up, “…Which is why it’s pointless to even try.”
All was silent as everyone gawked at him.
“Care to prove me wrong?” Beast Boy asked. “You guys can do what you want, but I’m not for it.”
Starfire spoke calmly towards him, “Beast Boy, surely you do not mean that. You are not willing to try and embrace the potential to really make a difference.”
“…Nope.”
Celestia was shocked to hear him talk down to and give up hopes of friendship like this, not that she hadn’t really expected it from what Twilight had warned her. Now she could see the situation was more serious than she thought.
“Beast Boy, I have been told about your troubles, and I also am now fully aware of your feelings towards it.”
Beast Boy only chuckled softly. “You think you are, but I know for a fact you aren’t.”
Celestia felt a bit offended.
“Beast Boy,” Robin said “Please try to show a little respect. These beings are our guests.”
Beast Boy felt his rage boiling inside, much to the evil’s delight.
Twilight gave Robin a look telling him to take it easy so as not to worsen things, and then she decided to ask Beast Boy.
“Beast Boy, I’m asking you nicely. Will you please tell us why you hate friendship so much, and why you’re going to incredible lengths to stray from it and discourage it?”
Discord leaned closer to Beast Boy and whispered, “She can get really stubborn, so you might as well come clean.”
The other Titans all looked very eager to hear what he had to say, but once again, Beast Boy refused to confide in them.
“Yo’ man, we want to help you.” protested Cyborg “But how can we if you don’t spill?”
“Because you can’t help me, no one can. Got it?!” Beast Boy snapped.
Everyone winced softly, and features began to harden.
“What do you mean “We would not understand?” asked Starfire, but Beast Boy had had enough. He didn’t have to sit here and take all this interrogation.
So he got up to leave, and Raven was about to use her powers to sit him back down again, but Robin gave her a look telling her cease, and he spoke deeply but calmly to Beast Boy.
“Beast Boy, we’re just trying to help you. If you don’t want to tell us, fine, but don’t get expect to get anywhere if you don’t want to help yourself.”
Beast Boy clenched his quivering fists and glared furiously at him, but he just turned his back, leaving behind some money for his share of the meal, and he changed into a bird and took off again.
Discord was pretty livid. “Well, I must say, I’ve met my share of creatures with attitude, but this is an entirely new level.”
“That makes two of us.” said Raven “I keep telling you all, he’s a hopeless case, and there’s no point in helping someone who doesn’t want to be helped.”
“Finally, something we can agree one.” agreed Discord.
“I’m not so sure of that,” said Celestia “While I don’t approve of his attitude myself, I think it can well established that he truly feels insecure about himself. He seems to be convinced that any attempts to bond with him, help him, or improve his life will be pointless.”
“Yeah, but why is he like this?” asked Cyborg “We get something bad happened to him, and not just getting dumped by Terra, but what is it?”
“He will not share with us as you have seen.” added Starfire.
“She’s got a point there.” agreed Spike.
Twilight cleared her throat, “Princess, can I tell you an idea I have?”
Celestia leaned over as Twilight whispered into her ear.
Celestia agreed almost at once, “It just may help a little, if the Titans approve.”
She then turned to Robin and told the suggestion, and the Titans were ever surprised!
“You want to take Beast Boy with you, back to Equestria?” Robin asked.
“Whoa-hoa! Timeout here.” called Discord.
“Just for a visit.” said Twilight “We talked about this, and it is possible for us to travel back and forth between worlds, thanks to Raven’s jewel.”
Raven looked at her brooch, and then she asked, “But why bring Beast Boy to your world?”
Twilight explained, “Beast Boy needs help like you all said, and what better kind of help than for me and all of my friends back home to show him the things he’s abandoned, and realize how wondrous they can be again.”
“And this will help him go back to his old cheerful ways?” asked Starfire.
“Think of it as a therapeutic vacation.” said Cyborg.
“What have we got to lose?” agreed Raven.
Robin thought about it deeply, and answered “Okay, we’ll do it, but I suggest we not tell him this. He’ll refuse the first chance he hears.”
It was then agreed, the best choice would be to wait until the next full moon, which would be tomorrow night, and then knock Beast Boy unconscious so the Equestrians could take him without trouble.
“How long do you think the treatment will last?” Robin asked.
Celestia was not sure, “I’ve never seen a case this severe before. It could take a while.”
Nobody said anything after that, right now Robin was more concerned with other things, like all the changes in the city, which he finally saw were becoming a bit overbearing, not to mention that mysterious killer was still on the loose!
As Beast Boy continued to fly towards the tower, the evil inside him snickered sinisterly.
Author's Notes:
*Even during the holidays, I don't stop for pretty much ANYTHING!!*
Unfortunately, Terra, like the rest of the characters are in my world, where redeeming qualities or realizing your errors and all that jazz... will get you NOWHERE!!
Then again, even outside of my world, people don't care about redeeming qualities anyway.
To many people you have to ACT and DO THINGS a certain way to be acceptable. So in other words, it's all about PERSONAL SATISFACTION
"You wanna write, write it good!" (ie: You write it the way I want it to be)
"He/She has no redeeming qualities. He/She a jerk, and he did wrong in the first place." (ie: I/you refuse to see any good in them)
Well, if that's the way people want it... so be it. Redeeming Qualities (IF ANY) now may as well mean next to nothing in fiction for any character... canon or not.