Chapter 2

7 January 1919
I've been here for a week now and I have to say that I'm glad I'm safe and get something to eat every day. In addition, everything is produced much better than the industrial waste I got at the front.
Also, whom I feel foreign here. East Prussia will probably remain my true home forever.

Why am I writing anything like this should I commit suicide anyway, all the same. Nobody is waiting for me at home anyway. You have already found a replacement for me anyway? It also felt strange to be in a society that knows no hatred.
It could also be that only me as a guest is shown that this world is perfect

So much for that.

Today I talked to twilight for the first time about my experiences in the war. I started with that
in August 1914, as every other reported to the weapons. I talk about the catastrophic basic education. That in part the first wave of recruits was sent to the Western Front after only 24 hours. When asked what a western front would be. I explained that Germany was from 1914 to 1917 in the two-front war. Also, I explained other things like the Schlieffen plan and who the neighboring countries are. The whole drew over 2 hours in the end we decided to continue talking tomorrow.

I feel even worse now than before. Since I remembered things I did not want to think about anymore.

January 8 1919

The day was ok. I found work. I have to do last work. Which is ok. Although I have got a college degree from my good job in arms, this one is not worth anything anymore. I'm not well paid. But since the payment happens in the form of gold coins, I can hardly wait who I am in Germany to exchange everything in Reichsmark.
If I ever come back home.

May I say that I like to live here under the monarchy. I could not begin at all when in November 1918 our Kaiser Wilhelm 2 was overthrown. Only to be replaced by a bad government.
Who has no idea about politics.

In addition, spoke today with twilight about my experiences. I talked about the first battle in which I fought the Battle of Tannenberg in August 1914. Whom I think so about it I miss General Hindenburg. Tannenberg was one of the biggest victories I've ever experienced. At least one complete Russian army was completely dissolved. I killed at least 30 Russians. Twilight seemed shocked for a moment when I told her the number. But in the end, I just told her that I had done my duty. But I was also aware of how many families I had destroyed by it.
But mine is also completely dead so that has balanced out, I hope.

It felt good to speak openly with someone about my experiences and thoughts for the first time. Even if I was only on the Eastern Front until 1918, I'm sure that my experiences are just as bad as those of those who fought on the Western Front.

Today I am the first time years have gone with a laugh flaccid.

I'm angry just angry. But at least the factor is dead for it.
I made my boss a little hole in the head. Yes, I killed him. But people were too stupid to think that it was an accident. I do not understand why they let me have my guns anyway. I mean, I can kill any one of them with just one shot.
The new boss is much better.
I'll just acknowledge cases of people standing above me in the military. In general, I was so bad today that I did not smell any more about my experiences during the war.

From now on I will shoot anyone who comes to me stupid! I also know who my next victim will be. Little tip it is blue.

I do not care if someone finds out because I can still commit suicide.
end capter 2