The dilapidated castle that my subconscious had decided to represent my mental state loomed above. It looked different then I last remembered. It looked a little bit cleaner, but several walls had fallen over.

"Come on out..." I cooed sweetly to the abandoned courtyard. "I promise to maim you only a little."

"Don't threaten a lady with a good time." came the silky voice from behind.

I didn't even look, I grabbed the chain around the black alicorn's neck with my magic and yanked, slamming her into the ground.

"You're getting far too comfortable being sarcastic for my tastes." I growled angrily.

"What was that Luna? I thought you, and I quote; 'Didn't want to do that kind of thing anymore.'" the black alicorn grinned.

"You are the exception." I stated grimly, stepping over the fallen alicorn and grinding a hoof into her back.

"Harder mommy." she moaned.

"Ugh." I growled in disgust, stepping off the black pony.

"No wait! I meant- Oh nooo! Don't hurt me please!" she dramatized as I began to walk away.

"Fuck off." I called behind me.

"No you're not doing it right. It's 'fuck m-'"

I slammed the double doors leading into the main hall shut, cutting off the Other's tirade. I leaned against the door and slide down into a sitting position.

"One day I will be rid of you..." I sighed.

At that moment the imaginary spear in my side made itself known and twisted.

"... Ow." I grunted, putting a hoof over where the pain seemed to be coming from. The only thing I felt was dry fur. "I suppose if this place is a representation of me, then I could theoretically find the symbolic manifestation of what's hurting me." Nothing but the muffled laughter of the Other behind the door responded. Likely because she was still on the high of tormenting me.

I took a moment to breathe out.

"Ok..." I grunted as I stood back up. Sighing again, I turned down a nearby hallway that I felt was the correct option. The corridor was in a similar state as the rest of the castle. Moldy displaced bricks were piled haphazardly up to my knees, great holes in the wall revealed their proper places, letting dingy light into the corridor. A change in the texture of the floor gave me pause as I looked down. A dingy navy blue fabric squished underneath my hoof. I curled a levitation spell around the fabric and lifted.

A grimy crescent moon that may have at one point been silver revealed itself in the folds.

Sighing again, I tossed the ruined tapestry to the side and continued.

My trek took me through multiple halls and rooms, each in equally terrible condition. But I found my goal in a particularly bad area. A whole wall had been knocked over, rubble lay strewn everywhere, but a fallen pillar formed the largest pile. It was in that fallen pillar that I found it.

"Daybreak." I muttered as I climbed up to where it had somehow embedded itself into the stonework. Celestia's golden double headed spear gleamed with a haughty, holy arrogance, a stark contrast to the gloom, muck, and ruin of its surroundings.

"I don't need to be a psychologist to know the symbolism behind this..." I muttered to myself as I grabbed it in both hooves and started yanking. I didn't expect it to budge. No that would've been too easy. And the universe had decreed long ago that things were never to be easy for me.

"Whew..." I panted as I sat down, a few minutes of pulling as hard as I could behind me.

"You're never going to get it out like that." came the familiar silk of the Other.

"No." I agreed without meeting her gaze, instead choosing to look at the spear. "But it doesn't hurt to try."

"Your exhaustion says otherwise."

I didn't really have a response for that, so I just continued to stare at the weapon.

"Do you think she knows?" I asked suddenly.

"You're going to have to elaborate."

"Do you think she knows how much pain she's caused me?"

"Well, for one, I'm the exact opposite thing to ask." the black alicorn stated as she sat next to me. "I don't really have a high opinion of you normal folk. So my guess would be; No. She doesn't. How could she? It's very hard for you people to have empathy for something you can't relate to."

Again, I didn't really have anything to say about that. So we fell silent, staring at the spear.

"Fucking look at it." I snarled after a few minutes. "So proper, so sure and full of itself, like it can do no wrong. So... Perfect."

"Just like Her."

"Just. Like. Her." I agreed with a scowl.

"And she stabbed you with it."

And she stabbed me with-" I stopped.

"Metaphorically."

"Why are you here?" I asked suddenly.

"Pardon?"

"Why are you here?" I asked again, now turning my stare to the black alicorn at my side.

"I'm not sure I understand your question."

"You torment me. You push and push and push all of my buttons until you can't push anymore, and then you keep pushing." I stated. "But now, you're here acting like my friend as if you've done nothing wrong."

"Well Luna." she calmly said as she stood back up. "Believe it or not I do want you to succeed. And, like it or not, I'm the only thing that's never betrayed you." her eyes seemed to light up as she met my gaze.

"Yeah? And why would that be?" I asked pointedly. "You do everything in your power to push me towards doing something I'll regret, only stopping to rile me up when I do get mad at something. So tell me, what are you?" I jabbed a hoof into the other's chest. "I don't have D.I.D. so you're not an alternate personality. You're not a hallucination. You're certainly not a part of me. So I ask again." I suddenly pushed the Other backwards, sending her tumbling down the rubble pile.

"What." I jumped down, pinning her to the ground. "Are." I let power flow into my horn, more power then I had used since regaining my memories. "You."

The Other screamed in legitimate pain as the whole room was filled with silver light.

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