But seriously now, the interest is dropping like hell, I'm sure that a lot of new fans are thrown away by the first chapters. The story itself wasn't even meant to last so long. Old readers went away and only some remained loyal. The whole thing with Starswirl having a human mentor wasn't really thought thru in the first place. My idea for the story changed its course, and the old trail doesn't make sense. A lot of things will remain an mystery.

The whole oracle thing, also doesn't make sense anymore although I wanted it to maybe have some sense with the bad guy. What I'm going for, is too big for my skills in English. I have created so many alternative names and dates, details, backstory... I forgot if I choose for Spike to have wings or not. I'm lost in my own creation.

I really want the story to progress and to finish it even if I know it will turn out badly, and it will be on of the worst crossover there are in the world. I am a lazy person, I don’t defy that but if I choose to do something I will do it. I want to make my story, and one other story, progress with each day. Its summer now and I have time to write, I could go out with friends but I choose to write!

I fear that backtracking could end badly, the first chapters are complete shit. I know my editor isn’t the best, although he works much on his own editing skills. I have no one else, to ask and read the chapters and maybe again edit them if needed. I don’t know what to do, and I’m lost. I don’t want to abandon this story, because I feel like it could still work.

I made myself a day off writing, because I’m turning sad every time I write. I don’t have much strength in me and most of the chapters I make are not good enough to even be released. I just sit and think, and write it down with no plans what then? What should I do after this chapter, how to make more Romance moments etc.

I want to apologize for every grammatical error I made, and I also want to apologize that a good crossover material was wasted because of me. I’ll say, we hit fifty chapter and I will send the story on a one week hiatus, so that I may think everything thru, and also have some me time.

I don’t know how many of you want Sauron to turn good, but I think a lot of you want this, me too. But we have wait, it won’t happen after a day or two although it might bee he is already turning good. We have five thousand views on this fanfic, and only two hundred bothered liking or disliking the story, you feel me? This is ridiculous XD

I hope that if I decide to drop the story, there will be someone who might continue the legacy of it. That it won’t die as an unfinished crossover, and even if one thousand different users will take it. That even then It won’t perish.

What also bothers me in my story is the romance in the beginning. I made Sauron to thirsty, and it doesn’t go along with his character. I also made him more of an fighter then an talker and diplomat, which is also against Tolkiens Lore. I wanted to mix in some movie aspects into the story so that I might get those extra views.

For example, Sauron shouldn’t have talked with Luna the way he did, I also goofed when I spammed with pointless chapters about their adventures in the dream world. To be honest I was an amateur brony and I only got to see season one, two and three. With a lot of holes and episodes that I missed.

It sounds stupid but I based my information about Luna, Twilight, and others from other fanfics I read that even set me on the path of becoming a brony and a member of this community. I’m surprised that I have found a place here, my views are not in line with our tolerant way of accepting others.

Many of you want to ask, if I considered doing a rewrite of the beginning chapters.

Yes I did, but I would cut a lot of text and the chapters would be way more shorter. There is another problem with rewriting, I fear that I might not make it to the end. Now listen, I know this sounds stupid and doesn’t make sense-just like my life-but hear me out. I fear that I might not have the same creativity as back then, and a lot of the information I will delete, is mentioned in the later chapters. For example something from chapter one to seven was mentioned in chapter…uhhh thirty two.

All of this became a huge mess of cables that are tied together and I can’t untie it. Not until I delete this story and write everything from the beginning. Which will hurt me and my feelings. However I really want this LOTR crossover that was meant to be a joke Crossover become something great and powerful…sadly not like Trixie.

As always feel free to comment down below if you even care to respond to my message. I had to tell everything to you guys, I can’t hide the truth forever. I’m not Sauron the great deceiver.

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