I spent the rest of the day in my room reading, deep in thought or crying. I just couldn't see anypony right now. I didn't want them to know what was going on with me. Alone, with barely any sleep (not to mention, nightmares occurred) and always felt like someone or something was watching me. I knew very well it wasn't helping to keep it all inside but I knew it would be worse if I told Celestia. It had happened two times before. No way I was going to make that mistake a third time. Of course, that meant I had to hide from everypony. But at that moment, I didn't care. I wouldn't want anypony to see me like this. And like the day before and the day before that, I didn't eat or raise the moon. It went on like that for days. I let Celestia do everything, again and again. I didn't feel well enough to do anything. I kept getting headaches and pains in my stomach followed by bouts of nausea.

I wanted to get some fresh air, but I didn't want anypony to see me and there was no way I was going back to my bathroom. I just stayed on my bed, hoping that the pills would work. I loved how the doctors called them ‘painkillers’ when I felt no relief from them. I tried to get some sleep, but the pain on my wing made it impossible for me. Also, I could not sleep because every time I closed my eyes, I heard the disturbing whispers of unfamiliar voices. But I couldn’t tell if that was real or if was all in my head. I did not know whose they were or what they were saying, but it was just loud enough to drive me crazy. Whenever the hour of midnight struck, it is when I started to reach my boiling point.

"Why is this happening to me?!" I screamed, not caring if anypony heard me. "Just go to sleep already." I grabbed a pillow and slammed it against my face and let out a loud scream. I needed to let something out and I didn't care how either. I removed the pillow from my face and stared at it for a moment. "Why? WHY?!" I throw it hard across the room. At this point, I was breathing very heavily. I would not have been surprised if my face was red. But I knew I should calm down a bit.

"Control it. Control it," I said to myself." Control it. Don't get mad....CONTROL IT!" I kept hitting myself on the head over and over. "WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?! Just CONTROL IT!" I started crying again. Nothing was working. I couldn't just be calm. I knew what I needed to do. I hated taking it, but I had no choice. I trotted to my dresser and opened the top drawer. I used my magic to pull out a small bottle of pills. I unscrewed the top and with my magic, I took two of them out and put them in my mouth. I chewed them while trying to forget the nasty taste and swallowed.

"This is stupid," I said. "Just go to sleep and forget about this fucked up day."

It was a little past one before that happened. But of course, even then, I still had to suffer. I found myself running from the creature in the mist.

"Please, just leave me alone!" I yelled to it.

"You are too fun to play with," It responded to me as it lifted me in the air. "And this time I will kill you. Slowly and painfully."

I struggled with everything I had to try to get away, but the creature was too strong for me. And just like before I was met by teeth. I screamed.

"Please don't kill me!"

"But isn't this what you always wanted?" It asked me, a playful tone evident in its voice.

"Not like this. Please...not like this." I screamed as the creature stabbed its claws into my stomach. It pulled out its claws and stabbed again and again and again. The creature dropped me to the ground and to make sure I wouldn't run, it stomped its foot on top of my head. Not that I could have run anyway. I was shaking uncontrollably and quietly sobbing. It then used its other foot to stomp on my back leg really hard. I could feel my bones breaking with every impact that was forced on my leg.

"Stop...please! Stop!" I cried. But I knew better. It had no reason to. It grabbed my by my broken leg and slammed me into the ground over and over again. I felt my bones break with every slam. I woke up screaming. It took me a minute to realize it was a nightmare. I covered my face and cried for what seemed like hours but was only a few minutes.

"Why me? Why?" I asked. I looked at my clock on my nightstand. It was only 5:33 in the morning. It was still dark outside. Nopony would be up this early. Only me.

"Luna?" I heard a soft but concerning voice. I uncovered my face and looked at my door. Celestia was standing in the doorway. "I heard you screaming. Are you okay?"

"Fine, sister. Just a bad dream that's all."I tried to sound okay but I wasn't fooling my sister.

"Luna, what's wrong?" She asked as she entered my room without my permission. I turned on my lamp to get some light in my room.

"Nothing, I'm fine," I snapped.

"You don't look fine. Have you been crying?"

"No," I lied.

"Luna, if there's something wrong, you can tell me," she said. But I couldn't tell her. Not this.

"Tia, I'm just tired. There's nothing wrong."

"But there is."

"And what would make you say that?" I asked.

"For starters, you're not having the best tone with me right now. Secondly, you barely come out of your room. I barely have seen you in the last couple of days. And finally, you look like you barely eaten anything if anything at all. You don't look well. It’s starting to concern me."

"I'm sorry, but I am fine, really I am," I lied.

She signed sadly."Why can't you tell me?"

"Cause there's nothing to tell? Okay?" I just wanted her to leave.

"No, it's not okay. I don't like seeing you like this."

"Like what?"

"So down, broken...depress-” she spoke before I cut her off abruptly. .

"I'm not depressed. Don't even go there," I said a sharpness to my voice.

"I'm not, Luna. I just want to know what's going on."

"Nothing is going on," I said.

"Then why are you getting mad?"

"Cause you won't leave me alone!" I shouted.

"I'm just trying to help you. You think I'm just going to let you suffer like this?"

"What do you mean by that?"

"It's very clear to me that something has been bothering you," she answered.

"Nothing is bothering me,"I said.

"I know that's not true."

"I'm fine. Okay? There's nothing to worry about."

"Nothing to worry about, really?" Celestia trotted up to me, grabbed me by the hair and dragged me to my bathroom. She turned on the light and stepped back away from me." Look at yourself, Luna. Tell me that I have no reason to worry," She said as she pointed to my bathroom mirror. I turned and looked at my reflection. I was stunned by what I saw. My mane was messy and was no longer flowing. My face was also pale. I was tattered, bruised, and even was really thin for it looked like I had lost some weight. When was the last time I look at myself in the mirror? Oh...Right. That night that I heard somepony calling my name. It wasn't that long ago...wasn't it? How did I not notice this? Celestia was right. She had every reason to be concern about me. I didn't know what to say. I didn't mean to make myself like this.

"I'm...I'm sorry. I didn't realize it was this bad."

"Well, it is, Luna," she said."Now, will you please tell me what's going on?" She really wanted to know. I had managed to delay her this long. But even then, I still didn't know what to say.

"I just...It has been hard for me the last couple of days. I haven't been really sleeping well," I pause before speaking once more, "It's just...I have been stressed out. I didn't say anything because I didn't want you or anypony else to worry about me. You have been doing a lot lately. I didn't want to add more for you. You don't deserve that." It was the most truth I have said to anypony in a while.

"Luna, it's okay. I know it must be hard for you. But you don't need to worry. No matter what, I will always have time for you." She came up to me and gave me a hug. "I don't need to know everything. Just don't lie to me."

"Okay," I whispered to her. I tried my best to not cry.

"Will you be okay?" Celestia asked me as she broke the hug.

"Yes, I'll be okay. You should get some rest now, sister."

"I'll be fine. Just take care of yourself. Okay?"

Sighing, I rolled my eyes." Yes, I will."

"Good. Now if you need me, don't be scared to ask for help." I nodded to her. I trotted out of the bathroom with Celestia. A part of me wanted to tell her. To just let it out all. But another part of me said not to. I knew where this would lead. Maybe it would be different this time. Maybe she would understand. Maybe she would listen to me. But could I take the risk?

"Celestia."

"Yes?" No, I couldn't. Not this time.

"Nothing. It's not important."

"Okay." She nodded as she stepped out into the hallway. "By the way, do you hear that Discord is missing?"

"Yes, Fluttershy told me," I answered.

"You haven't seen him?"

"No, why?" I asked.

"Just wondering? That's all. Where do you think he is at?"

"I don't know. Maybe he doesn't want to answer anypony’s questions. I heard he’s been getting a lot of them," I said. It was true. Since I wasn't saying anything, many have tried to get answers from him. I kind of felt bad for him. Of course, it was from what I heard. I could only guess what others thought what happened that night. A part of me was regretting me saying that I didn't remember. I should have said something simple like it was a flying crash. "Plus, he is still mad for carrying me back to Canterlot."

"Yes, he told me. It was an unpleasant talk. He told me everything he knew. He just hears you screaming then found you like...that," She explained. But that didn't sound right to me.

"Wait, what? He found me?" I questioned.

"Yes. Why?"

"Just want to know." But that wasn't true. He found me when I was still screaming. I wasn't knock out then. He got me out of my Hell. He slapped me. It hurt. But it woke me up. Why would he lie to her like that? That would mean he didn't tell her some of the things I said to him. But why? Why not say anything? Why lie? He had no reason to. Maybe I did need to have a talk with him.

"It's just weird to me that he would go missing all of a sudden," Celestia said.

"Why would that be?" I asked

"You follow him, then get a broken wing with no memory how and now...nopony knows where he is. Very odd to me."

She nodded as she left my room. I closed my door behind her and it was just me alone once more. I decided to try to go back to sleep.

"Later in the morning, I'll try to find him. He can't be that far, right? Let's hope not." I said to the inky abyss that fills the room being the only one who heard.

It was 5:46 in the morning.

Author's Notes:

I just needed to get that out of the way. Next chapter will be better. Hope you liked it. Leave a comment and a like.

Thanks to Sly Moon and BronJabz for editing this chapter.

Till next time!