Mise slowly pacing around his room, deep in thought about what brought him to this point.

‘How did I manage to come this far? Oh…right, that’s how…’ Mise thought as he started to realize what brought him to this point.

His head was a buzz now, now realizing what his life had come to in comparison to his past

‘I can’t believe I did all that stuff just to get where I am, how was I allowed to get away with so much evil.’ Mise though as he sat down his bed

Mise then reached over to his night stand and pulled out a small journal and began reading the passages

“Day 5: we finally reached our destination; we’ve come face to face with our target. I still can’t believe these people are going to be dead in a matter of hours. Some of them are no older than 17. But it’s what we have to do…” Mise read in his head as he began to get shaky.

Mise closed the book and put it back, the memories of his crimes were flashing back the more he read and it was too much.

“I still remember the screams of terror we caused that day. Men’s heads blown of their body’s. I can’t believe I thought that was how progress was made.” Mise thought out loud

Mise pulled out his phone and dialed a number

“Eclipse, its Mise. Listen, I come over here right away. There’s something I need to talk to you about…no you’re not in trouble just get over here.” Mise as he hung up

Mise waited a few minutes before he heard the doorbell and went down to answer it.

“Hey Mise, what did you need to talk about?” eclipse asked as Mise opened the door

“Come upstairs to my room and I’ll tell you.” Mise said as he let eclipse in the house

The two went up to Mise’s room and walked in as Mise closed the door behind them

“the reason I want to talk to you, is that I need you to do me a favor.” Mise said

“what kind of favor?” eclipse asked wonder why Mise couldn’t tell him that earlier

Mise simply sighed and looked eclipse

“I need you to look after Octavia. I'm going away, and while I'm gone I want you to cater to her needs.” Mise putting a hand on eclipse’s shoulder

“Where are you going, and does Octavia know about this?” eclipse asked

“that’s information is classified, but I can promise you guys I’ll be back in time. But things are just too much, I need to go before it gets worse. Now, when you are looking after Octy, anything she says goes. There is to be no defiance, if she wants you to run up and down the block in high heels, you do it, do I make myself clear?” Mise said sternly

“I hope you know what you’re doing and yes I understand.” Eclipse said

“good, now if you’ll excuse me I have some things to do, so go ahead and let yourself out.” Mise said

“alright, I’ll see you later.” Eclipse said as he left

Mise said nothing and instead went to his desk and sat down. He pulled out a sheet of paper, a pen, and began to write a letter.

A few minutes later, Mise finished writing as he wiped the tears out of his eyes and folded the paper and left it on his bed.

Mise walked out the door and set off on his way, not bothering to look back; he couldn’t, even if he wanted to.

Timeskip: the next day

School was just getting out and the gang was standing around the statue, all of them thinking the same thing

“Does anybody where Mise is? I haven’t heard from him in a couple days.” Fang asked

“Neither have I. Octavia, vinyl, have you guys heard anything?” Artemis asked

“No, this isn’t like him. Something is definitely wrong. Let’s go check his house.” Octavia said as she walked to vinyl’s car

“she’s right, come on” vinyl said as she went after her

Everybody followed suit and drove to Mise’s house

“Hey eclipse, you’ve been awfully quite, everything ok?” Midnight asked as they drove down the road

“yeah, everything’s fine. Just worried about Mise is all.” Eclipse said

‘Mise I hope you get your shit together soon...” eclipse though in the back of his mind

“yeah, I hope everything’s ok. The last thing we need is to lose him to some stupid stunt or something.” Midnight said

“yeah, that would be bad.” Eclipse said as they arrived at the house

The gang parked and got out and went inside

“well I say we check his room, maybe there’s something in there that’ll tell us what’s going on.” Vinyl said

“good thinking, let’s go.” Swift said as everyone made their way to Mise’s room

They reached the top of the stairs and found his room and went inside

“ok now look for anything that could lead to where Mise went or what going with him” Octavia said

Not even 30 seconds after the search began...

“SUSPICIOUS!” Pinkie shouted scaring everyone in the room

“Dang it pinkie, don’t be shoutin’ like that, and what did ya find anyway?” applejack said

“I found this letter on his bed.” Pinkie said holding a folded letter

“let me see that” sunset said as she took the letter out of pinkie’s hand

“My friends, if you are reading this, it means I am already gone. I will come back, but not for a while. I am not happy about doing this, but I need to be done.

I hereby appoint eclipse to look after Octavia; again this is not something I’m proud of. But I refuse to continue everyday as a liar, I have failed you Octavia, I have let you down, and for that, I am sorry. It breaks my heart waking up every day, knowing that I’m masquerading as someone I’m not, some you thought I was.

I have failed at so much, I am not someone to be looked up to and I’m not something to be worshiped. I am not worthy of having you as my friends, for this I must go away until I redeem myself.

I am a terrible person and have done unforgivable things that will haunt me forever. If you wish to know more of what I’m referring to, read the passages in the book that is resting in my nightstand.” Sunset read out loud

There wasn’t a single dry eye in the room as the gang turned their attention to the nightstand the letter was referring to.

Octavia opened the drawer, pulled out the journal and began reading some of the passages

“Day 5: we finally reached our destination; we’ve come face to face with our target. I still can’t believe these people are going to be dead in a matter of hours. Some of them are no older than 17. But it’s what we have to do.

Day 8: the air is filled with cries of the wounded and dying, the smell of death is all around, I can still remember how they begged for mercy as we slaughtered them like animals. If I survive this campaign, I hope I never succeed in life, for someone like me after doing something like this, doesn’t deserve that kind of life.

Day 11: we laid to rest our fallen comrades, one of them was my only friend I had made since joining the IRA, I-I-I can still hear the gun fire as he begged me to put him down. I’ll never forget how I was forced to murder my best friend…” Octavia read as she put her hands over her mouth and dropped the book and broke down in tears

“I can’t believe he went through all that. No wonder he didn’t want to go back. How did go from a murder machine to a personal chef?” midnight asked

“I don’t know, but this doesn’t explain where he went.” Clyde said

“I guess what they say is true, ‘those with the biggest smiles are usually the one hurting the most…’.” Zero said