Author's Notes:

Sorry for the lateness of this chapter and lower than normal quality I rushed to get this chapter out. I had just lost my job that had covered my living expenses so I had to find a new job while moving out and into my new dorm. All the while trying to complete my classwork. Hopefully, now things will start to calm down and I can get back on track. This chapter takes care of the internal dialogue beeping and I'll try to tone down the outwardly vocal as much as I can. I do have a pretty dirty mouth. 😅

Also, tell me what you guys feel about these longer chapters. This one was cut in half because of the sheer size (12K+) but let me know what you peeps would like.

A little heads up and trigger warning.

There is a section in here that I didn't really think I would put in here but as I was writing it kind of flowed out. I kept it in as it does play a role in future chapters. Originally I wasn't really going to go into detail just skirt around it just enough where you could draw your own conclusions. I guess my creative mind has other ideas. I don't go too in-depth but I do show what I have to deal with from time to time. To answer any questions and doubts, yes this did happen to me and I guess this is part of the process of healing for me. I would appreciate if you don't ask for details. Perhaps later but not now.

Now back to the story.

The blaring klaxon alarm forced had me to reach over and tap the off button. With a groan, I slowly sat and stretched every bit of my body starting with my arms, then my back, and finally my legs. I made note that for the first time in a while I did not wake up in pain.

I looked over to the wall on my right where I had left the stick from Harmony propped up, and wondered if that was the reason why I didn't feel the bone-deep pain anymore. Granted I did feel some pain but it was more of a sore kind of pain. I'm going to chalk that up to the exercise that I have been doing rather than the spell. Especially since I ramped up my workout since that incident with Gilda, that was like what four, five days ago? I really need to find a better way to keep track of the days of the week. This is getting ridiculous.

Wait, now that I think about it, it has been four days because the day I went to the castle and came back, and the took the next day off before I went back to the castle and pick up my bow and arrows. Yesterday I did more research. So yea four days. Yay me, I'm smart.

Now that is out of the way I can get started on my day.

I stood up only to just sit right back down as the blood began to rush to my head. Taken a few moments for the pressure to normalize, I stood back up I contemplated whether or not I should work out today. I could take today as a cool off day.

Another pulse of pressure made my decision very easy. Yea, I think I'll do that. Just take today and relax, but now what do I do. I have a couple of hours before everyone in the house wakes up. So I guess I could sneak some mediation before I get up, but then what?

I want to make it up to Twilight for the grief that I have caused her in the short time I've been here. The only issue is that there isn't much I can do. Just then my stomach let out growl reminding me that I didn't eat much yesterday. Twilight wrapped up in another Q and A session lasted all afternoon and into the night.

That's it!

It wouldn't be much but I can at least make them breakfast today. It's not much but it is a start. Let's meditate first then we'll go up and see what we can do. With a quick shuffle, I wrapped myself around my blanket and grabbed my phone. Tapping the meditation app I set the timer and pressed start. By the time the chimed ranged I was out.

The sound of the conch blaring blared letting me know that it was time to end the meditation. With a deep breath, I rotated my neck around in both directions letting it popped back into a more comfortable position. Slowly I opened my eyes and reached out to my phone and closed out the app.

Exhaling, I unraveled from my blanket and got out of bed to perform my daily bathroom necessities. With a towel wrapped around my waist, I went towards the basket where I kept the new clothes that Rarity had created for me. Just like I asked there were simple, no flashy gems or fancy stitch work. Only simple colors like blues, greys, and lavenders. True to her word she didn't charge me or asked for any favors in return.

God, I'm such an [beep]-hole. Assuming that Rarity would ask for something in return after making that huge stink about me not paying for these clothes, or that she had an ulterior motive in making them.

I clenched the clothes in my hands before I began to put them on.

Well, that's all in the past now. There is no use trying to change that now or get upset. I can only go forward and try to change.

After I tighten the last lace of my boots I tapped the bottom of them on the ground to make sure that they fully in place. I stood up to put on my fancy new cloak.

Jk, it was a simple brown cloak. I picked it up at the same time I picked up my clothes. Rarity had taken my original cloak somewhere, probably a dumpster.

My hands glide over the thick cloth as I snapped it shut with a pair of buttons that were sewed at the top. Much easier to use, more streamlined. On a side note, they were styled like Celestia's sun and Luna's moon, which is a nice continuity touch. With my human hand, I grasped the side of my cloak and spun around so that I was facing the stairs upwards and walked towards them.

Dude! I feel like a bad-[beep]! I got up to two stairs before I remembered that I forgot my stick. I looked over to where it was and began to wonder if I should take it with me. I mean I know it can contort so that it was easy to store it and out of sight from the others. I've done a good job in hiding it from Twilight and Spike, but how long can I keep it up? I mean they didn't know about the Tree of Harmony until season 4.

I looked down at my pony arm as I raised it. The light from upstairs gleamed off the surface of the band around my forearm.

I need to get this looked at as well, but should I? Wouldn't it be best to get this checked by Twilight or at the very least Celestia? What if this turns out to be something dangerous? Then again would the enshrine it if it was something dangerous?

Maybe not dangerous to ponies.

I lowered my arm and looked back at the stick. My mind going back to the pony in the cloak. The things he said caused me to worry about the dangers of my presence, but are those fears founded? He said that I would lead to the destruction of this world. How? I love this place, I love the show, why would I destroy it? Unless I unconsciously destroy it with my actions and my presence. If that is the case they why is Harmony protecting me? Why gift me with a part of it?

Also, a little cliche much? I mean come the on why would I be some important as that?

Pinching the bridge of my nose I let out a sigh, "I'm getting to the point of not giving a single [beep]," I said to myself, "this [beep] is starting to stress me out bro." Dropping my arm I looked over at the stick again. "I should bring that with me," I cocked my head to the side before I whined, "but is so far way..."

Lazily I reached out to grab the stick with the 'force' only for me to give up and walk down the stairs before going over to the wall to get it.

At least that is what I 100% expected to happen. What I didn't expect to happen was for the stick to actually fly off the wall and smack my hand.

"Holy [beep]-en [beep]!" I cried out as I threw the stick away from me with wide eyes in shock. What the flying space balls was that?! Do I have the force now!

With great fanboy glee, I reached out to my pillow on my messy unkempt bed and pulled it towards me. Only for it remain where it was at. I flung out my arm again and got the same result. Growling, I tried again, and again, and again. No matter how hard I tried the pillow remains from where it was at. Slumping in defeat as my dreams of being a Jedi were shot down by reality. I looked down at the stick on the ground. One last time I raised my hand out to grab the stick only for it to float into it. I held it for a moment as I began to connect the dots.

So it appears that this stick from Harmony has somehow bounded to me. Kinda like...like...fuck it, I forgot what I was going to say. Watch, I'm going to remember tonight when I'm trying to sleep.

I tossed the stick to the ground before I reached out with my hand and watched in glee as the stick smacked my hand, "Oh yea," I hissed with a smile on my face, "I can [beep] with this."

With this new development in mind, I willed the stick to coil around my arm before I made my way upstairs. Halfway up I paused as I remembered something.

Wait...

Fuck.

Fuck, shit, damn, bastard, bitch, cock-sucker, mother fucken shit bag.

My face split in half to form a smile, "[Beep]," I whispered out only for it to be censored. My smile dropped into a frown. So now I'm only partially censored. What changed I wonder?

I looked down at my arms that were bound by the Harmony's stick and the band from the tome. Has one of these items protected me for the spell that censored my words? At a closer look that the stick it all came to me.

"Unfortunately I can't send you back, I can't even touch you with my magic, not while harmony magic is running through your veins, while it protects you."

Perhaps there are more perks to having this piece of Harmony attached to me. Maybe this protection covers more than just that mysterious pony. This calls for more research.

With a chuckle rumbling in my throat, I couldn't help but think...

Oh yea, I can fuck with this.

The kitchen in the library was simple. Wooden floor matched the wood theme as it continued to the counter until it met with white tile. Isn't this cannibalism? There were breaks within the counter where the stove and sink were placed. The stove was a white top and most importantly spotless. This spoke volumes of Twilight's cleanliness. The neat and organization of every little thing spoke about her methodical OCD.

"Let's see what do we got," I said as I opened the tall silver box that was the fridge, that somehow uses magic to keep things cool. Twilight, blessed her heart, tried her best to explain but I didn't get anything she said. I tried to pay attention but once she started to use complex terms that I didn't know or couldn't even pronounce I kinda lost interest. I still paid attention, there were enchantments that was placed on a gem or two that created the cold effect and slowed the degradation of the food placed inside. See I listened!

Meh, magic later, food now.

I say that, but there wasn't much I could really use.

"Looks like Twilight needs to go shopping," I said as I pulled out few things like eggs, half a carrot, and is that a bowl of sapphires? Putting the two items from the fridge on the counter I went back and pulled out the bowl. The gems shined with a dull sheen. Whisp of mist curled and flicked off the stones as I brought it over to the table. I set the bowl down and just shook my head. "Now where is the [beep] salt and pepper?" I muttered as I looked around the kitchen my mind going back to the bowl on the table.

The number of gems in that one bowl could easily supply me with a decent life back home, and the amount Spike consumes in a day could set me up for life. Yet this freaking geko eats them like they're candy.

I need to start contributing financially. It's not fair for Twilight to carry the burden of taken care of me. That means I need to find a job. I don't know what kind of job I could do though. My body slumped in place when I came to the realization that I may have to work at Sweet Apple Acres. I'm not looking forward to that.

Standing straight back up, I walked back over to the counter and began to look through the cabinets and drawers to find a bowl, fork or whisk, and a skillet. Once I had everything I reached into my pocket and pulled out my iPhone and earbuds. As I placed my earbuds in place I pulled the Spotify app and sorted through my music to find a song to cook to only paused long enough to turn on my earbuds.

"Headset connected," the mechanical voice spoke in my ear. I made a mental note that I should probably hide all of the MLP stuff on my phone. Just in case somebody gets a little nosy and gets into my phone. Granted they will either need my fingerprint or password, but its better safe than sorry.

Especially since I have the Mane Six-plus Sunset on my lock screen.

...

SHIT!!

With a heart rate of a speed demon, I quickly went into my settings and change both the wallpaper and lock screen to some random generic cover. Letting a sigh of relief when the changes began to take place I pull back the music app and put on Natural Born Killer by Avenge Sevenfold. Putting my phone in my pocket I began cracking eggs. Once I was done with that I placed the skillet on the stove and turned it on.

Jesus Christ that was close, I completely forgot all about that. That would be one difficult and awkward talk that I'm not looking to do. Common sense says that I should tell them about it at one point or another so that I don't fall into that cliche trope, but I'm not going to be here for very long. So to tell or not to tell, that is the question.

I don't think I will because like I said I'm going to be here for a very long time. There is no need to worry about Twilight and the others about this.

Celestia scowl floated to my mind.

Besides I'm already driving Celestia up the wall with my worry. No need to burden anyone else with unnecessary information.

Ignorance is bliss after all.

With Why Worry by Set It Off playing in my earphones I used a whisked the cracked eggs until the yoke was broken properly mixed.

"This sinking feeling sets, It feels just like a hole inside your chest, I know you're thinking..." I sang along my head bobbing to the beat. While I shuffled my feet, I moved over to the fridge with a butter knife and took a sliver of butter before I danced back over to the skillet and added it. The smell wafting to my nose brought up pleasant memories.

Hmm...perhaps I can make pancakes one day with some kind of fruit or chocolate chips mix in them. Um, oh god I'm getting hungry now.

I took the egg mix and poured it into the skillet as I mumbled the fast rap within the song. With the fork, I mixed the egg juices until they started to clump together. That is when I turned off the stove and with the remaining heat I finished the eggs. Once I was satisfied with the consistency of the eggs I whacked the side of the skillet with the fork to the tune of the song in my head.

With that done I moved to the cabinet where I saw the plates and moved to get them when they flew past me incased in a lavender glow.

Shocked I spun my head around to see Twilight standing there with a smile on her muzzle and Spike waiting at the table. Slowly I reached up and pressed the paused button. "How long have you been standing there?" I asked as the heat began to rush to my face.

God, I'm such a freak. She probably heard me!

"Just now," she said as she went over to the table just as the plates touched down. This was followed by forks and knives. After the table was set Twilight climb on to a chair and with her magic took the skillet of eggs. With a small smile, Twilight took the eggs and evenly distributed them to the plates.

Oh, thank god almighty. I don't think I could handle the embarrassment if she heard me singing and dancing. God, I think I would just end it all instead. With a pinch to my brow I let out a sigh, "Thank you for making breakfast," Twilight said before I went over to the wooden table. I really don't know how I should feel with all of the wooden furniture inside a treehouse that has been converted into a library.

It just seems wrong.

Slowly I eased into the chair that was clearly made for ponies and not 200-pound humans. Every time the chair would creak I would pause to see if it would break.

"You don't have to worry about the chair breaking," Twilight said with an amused smile as she put a fork full of eggs into her mouth. "The chairs have been enchanted to hold the weight of a minotaur."

With my fears elevated I sat down in the chair and dug into the eggs. After the first fork full of eggs went down and I repressed the urge to make blanched. The lack of seasoning was something I didn't like and I hope to fix the next time we go shopping. Speaking of.

"We need to go grocery shopping sometime soon," I told Twilight when she put another slow bite of breakfast. I looked over to see that Spike was enjoying his breakfast before I turned to look at Twilight who also seemed to be enjoying her meal as well.

Well, at least they like it and that is all that matters in the end. So I just swallowed the bitterness and move on.

"Hmm," Twilight hummed with a fork in her mouth. Said fork was left hanging as the unicorn cut off her magic and turned to look at her fridge. With a magenta glow from her horn, the door of the fridge opened and she saw the lack of food. "Your right," she said as she closed the door and returned to her meal. Twilight looked up and saw my smile, "What?"

I had watched the entire scene with amusement as joy began to fill my heart with its gentle warmth. I just shook my head, "Nothing," I said going back to my food.

Nothing at all you adorkable pony.

"Well," Twilight began closing her curiosity eyes and took another bite, "I'm going to practice a bit of magic first then we can go to town. I'll have to change my schedules first though. Spike…?"

The mini dragon popped the last of his gems and looked at Twilight with tired eyes before he let out a sigh, "Fine," he said breathlessly as he jumped out of his seat and went into the main room. Since he was done I grabbed his bowl and combined it with my dirty dishes and took them to the sink. "Thank you again for breakfast," Twilight said as she brought over her own plate.

"Sorry it was so simple," I said as I turned on the water and set it to warm. "I wanted to do more but things were limited," I said softly.

"It's okay," Twilight as she rubbed her head on my waist, "I appreciate the thought."

"Yea I kinda wanted to make up for putting you through my garbage," I said as I grabbed a dirty plate and began to scrub.

"We're past that remember," Twilight said before she trotted out of the kitchen.

True, vocally we made up but I still feel bad for putting you and your friends with my attitude. I should probably let this go and move on, but I still feel as though I need to make up with them and start fresh with all of them. Especially with Rainbow Dash. We haven't had the best of interactions, and then there is Applejack where we haven't actually interacted at all since the first meeting. I should rectify that soon, especially if I need to go to her for a job.

Yay…social interaction and manual labor...fuck me.

What to do though?

Well, first off Twilight is taken care of. Pinkie shouldn't be too hard if things haven't cleared up already. The same for Fluttershy, speaking of which I need to check up on her when I get the chance. The pegasus wasn't in my bed when I came back so I think it is safe to say that she went home. Then again she was at the party so it would make sense that she would go to her home where she is the most comfortable. Rarity, hmm, I guess I could help out somehow in her shop and the same for Applejack.

Rainbow Dash…

…

I'll figure that one out later. For now, I need to finish all of these dishes.

I looked over to see that besides the current breakfast dishes there where other stacks of dishes from other meals that have yet to be washed.

Well, its a start.

Silently I reached over grabbed another plate and began scrubbing it clean.

So, let's take stock on what happened since Gilda's appearance.

From the top.

The Gilda episode happened and I got directly involved by punching her in the face, one punch man style.

I went to the castle of the two sisters and had a mental breakdown. From there Celestia and I had a little talk that helped me a little. When she left I get Pied Piper to the Tree of Harmony after making a quick stop at some tomb where I picked up some bling-bling before I ricked rolled to the Tree of Harmony where I meet mister dark and broody who threaten me to stop taken a piss on the timeline which I don't know how or even if I want to.

Wait….

"Piss off," I muttered with a small frown before it transformed into a smile. "Well, that's nice."

Anyway, where was I…right the pony in the cloak. What to do with him? It would appear that as long as Harmony's magic is flowing through me then he can't touch me. But who is he? Is he the Monitor of this world? If that is the case than he is not as powerful since he can't touch me as long as Harmony is protecting me. But then why is Harmony protecting me?

From what I remember from the show the Tree of Harmony has some sort of awareness of the outside world but can't really intervene unless it is directly involved like when the Mane Six received the chest.

I looked to my arm where the stick was wrapped around and I couldn't help but wonder.

Is that what this is?

Pushing that thought to the side I resumed cleaning the dishes.

There is not much I could do right now, but I'll keep my eye out for this pony. Who knows what he'll do.

Towel in hand I made my way into the main room as I wiped my hands dry. I was there just in time to see Spike twirling his mustache. "Aw yeah," the drake said as he looked at himself in the mirror, "What's that Sweetie Bell?" With my teeth holding my lower lip I withheld my laughter as Spike practiced his swagger. "Oh nothing just my mustache," he said with suave.

Not able to hold myself I snorted and tossed the towel over my shoulder, "Well would look at that," I said with arms crossed and a smirk, "Dude grows some hair on his face and he thinks he is Adonis."

With a small jump, Spike turned around and looked at me, "Who?" he asked as Twilight turned her head to look at me as well. I waved my hand dismissively, "An ancient god from back home," I explained. "Usually connected to male sexuality and whatnot."

Twilight raised an eyebrow before she turned towards Spike, "Sorry Spike but this is just for practice so the mustache has got to go."

"Wait! No!" Spike exclaimed as the held on to the facial hair for dear life. It was a cute but futile attempt as a light lavender glow before it vanished with a slight pop. A frown was formed on his face and it made Twilight giggle at his misfortune.

When the unicorn came down from her laughter high she turned back to me. "Well we are going to town to do some shopping," she told me.

I hummed in acceptance, "Should we make a…" Twilight held up a roll of parchment in her magical grasp, "…shopping list." Right, list, Twilight. Tsh should have seen this coming. This is Twilight we're talking about, of course, she already has a list made up.

"Well let's go everypony," Twilight said as she trotted over to the door.

"Ya'll have fun," I said when I turned around to head into the kitchen.

"You should come with us," Twilight said and that caused me to paused, "it will everypony a chance to get to know you."

I slumped to the side, "I don't we're ready for that yet."

AKA I don't want to be a walking freak show.

The back of my cloak was yanked and I took a few steps back from the force. Once I had righted myself I turned around and glared at the pony who just squeed out a smile, "Come on it'll be fun!"

I grumbled, "You're not going to give me a choice are you."

"Nope," Twilight said as she levitated a scroll towards her. "If you don't, I'll tell Princess Celestia that you are not doing what she says."

With narrowed eyes, I went over to the unicorn until I was over her, "And what makes you think that'll stop me hmm...?" I asked in a low tone and without missing a beat Twilight turned around walked out of the library with a smug smile.

"Becuase you don't want to disappoint Princess Celestia," she said just before she disappeared from the door with a snickering dragon following.

Fuck, that bitch got me nailed to a damn cross.

With a humph, I crouched down and followed the purple unicorn.

She's just like Celestia.

I could feel the wrinkles forming on my face as we walked through town. I put my hood up to lower the chances of being stared at. It was about as effective as a stealthy elephant. You know I use to have this love/hate feeling with being to be able to just disappear within a crowd. Most of the time I was invisible to the world. At times I was grateful that I had that ability, other times I didn't. Especially since it would lead to me learning about what people think about me. Either way, I had a way to disappear and drop from the radar. Here though I don't have that luxury.

"Why do you keep wearing that tapestry?" Twilight asked me.

Turning my head slightly I looked at the unicorn trotting next to me. I raised my eyebrow as I raised my furry appendage.

I mean like really? Isn't it obvious that I don't want people to stare at me or that I don't want to freak out the populace that is already skittish of me? The last thing I want to do is cause a damn panic and god forbid a stamped.

Twilight just continued to look at me expectantly.

Great, I'm going to have to explain. With a sigh, I lowered my arm and said, "I don't want people to stare at me," I cast my glance around to see the ponies being all shifty and shit. God, I can cruse again thank fucking christ. In all honesty, that damn beeping was starting to really grind on my gears. Besides, I already have Harmony chirping in my head I don't need anymore sounds going off.

As if it heard the call, Harmony cooed in my head.

Yea I'm talking about you!

"Ponies," Twilight corrected me.

Pulled out of my mind I looked back to the pony next to me, "Huh?"

"Ponies," Twilight said again, "You don't want ponies staring at you."

Really bitch...? Whatever.

My shoulders rolled forward as my cloak felt off, "Yea that," I said as I readjusted my cloak. "I don't like being the center of attention, it makes me uncomfortable."

"Kinda hard for you to do that," Spike chipped in.

Now, look here you little shit I'm the one that does the snappy comebacks and snarky remarks. With a grunt, I straighten out and said, "Whatever, it may seem pointless but it makes me comfortable. The less everybody looks at me the better. Besides," I waved to a few ponies who kept a worried glance at me, "they're already afraid of me as it is I don't want to give them more reason to be afraid of me."

"Everypony," Twilight corrected again and I think my eye twitched, "and I'm not saying you have to remove the cloak I just wanted to know why your still wearing it. Don't worry everypony will get used to you soon."

Egar to change the subject I asked, "So what were you guys doing in the main room while I was doing the dishes?"

Twilight face perked up, "Oh!" she said as she trotted forward a bit with Spike trailing behind her. "I was practicing my magic," she explained.

"Yea!" Spike screamed exuberantly as he jumped in the air, "Twilight mastered 25 spells already!"

I raised my eyebrow, "And that's supposed to be impressive?" I wasn't sure if that was that a good thing or...oh wait! Unicorns are only good at spells that are related to their cutie marks. That's right, I forgot about that. My eyes traveled to Twilight's mark.

In the case of Twilight, her special talent is magic.

So, in other words, she is op as fuck!

Nerf, please!

After Twilight and Spike related the information that I just remembered I couldn't help but comment, "Well that sucks."

Damn it!

"Why?" Twilight asked while I kicked myself in the ass.

"Well," I started slowly trying to gather my thoughts, "it's just that you ponies, unicorns, in particular, are limited by your cutie marks. You can't excel in anything else just bound by your tramp stamp." Immediately after the words left my mouth I regrated my lack of filter and brain-mouth coordination.

Twilight looked at me quizzically, "Tramp stamp? What's that?"

Fuck fuck fuck FUCK!!! Somebody save me!!!

"Gangway!"

"Coming through!"

THANK YOU MURPHY!!!!

I sidestep with a twirl my cloak fluttering as two small unicorn colts galloped past us. One tall skinny orange fur with teal mane tail while the other was short and pudge sickly blue-green fur with dark orange. While I was able to dodge the charging duo, Spike was not so fortunate.

"Snips! Snails! What's going on?" Spike cried out causing the colts to stop their charging.

"Haven't you heard?" Snails said in a very slow and spacy kind of way. Sort of reminded me of a valley girl only with less OMG!!! "There is a new unicorn in town!"

Is like the presence of a unicorn that big of deal!?! I've seen plenty here during my limited time. Granted this is an Earth Pony town and there are more Earth Ponies than any other kind of ponies but still.

"Yea!" the bouncing Snips said, "They say that she's got more magical powers than any other unicorn ever!"

Yea~ I'm calling bullshit. Twilight cutie mark literally means magic and only one other unicorn comes close to her and she doesn't appear until a few seasons. Trixie is anything but powerful, no matter how many times she claims it.

"Really?" Twilight said as she visibly becomes depressed.

Pony sad, make happy!

I went up to Twilight and patted her head, "Don't worry your pretty little head," I said as I light scratched her ear. The unicorn began to coo and moan as she tried to bury her head into my hand. The sounds of her enjoyment brought a certain giddiness to me. "No one came come close to you in magical talent," I paused as I thought about it, "Well besides Celestia of course, but she has a good thousand years experience going for her."

Much to Twilight's distress, if the sound of the whine was anything to go by, I removed my hand and patted the side of her neck. "You'll outpace her soon enough anyway."

Watch it you dumbass!

My eyebrows raised a bit as I realized what I hinted at. Quickly I lowered my head to cover my face to mask any visible call signs that would give anything way.

"That's right!" Spike said as he unknowingly came to my rescue, "No pony can outdo Twilight in magic."

Except for the pony I just mentioned, but whatever.

"Where is this unicorn," Twilight asked getting us back on topic.

Snails reared up and told us, "She at the town square!" before he galloped with Snips hot on his tail.

I was walking back to the library after witnessing Trixie's magic show. My mind was in a weird place right now. The reason why is because I don't know how I feel about what I had just witnessed. Everything that just happened was the same as the show almost word for word. The girls tried to show up Trixie in order to take her down a peg, and each one failed as expected. I called bullshit on Trixie's story on the Ursa Major but I only got a glare in response promptly ignored after that.
Twilight even misunderstood what her friends were saying and took it that anyone with great talent was something to be hated. She didn't hear my words telling her that she was wrong it wasn't that the talent itself was the issue it was the showboating and ego-stroking that was wrong. She didn't listen to me of course and ran off to get away from Trixie's gaze.

I guess there are somethings that I can't change no matter what I do. Is that what Celestia was trying to teach me? That no matter what I do there are things I can't change from the timeline. Is that why Celestia isn't worried about the timeline. This changes a few things. Perhaps it wouldn't be that bad of an idea to get more involved with everyone. But I should be careful about what I do get involved in. Can't overstep have the girls miss an important lesson.

Something for me to consider for the future...

"Human!" was the last thing I heard before a great forced slammed into my waist.

"[Beep]!" I cried out in pain as my body folded slightly in half before I hit the ground. My back scrapped the dirt and I felt the fabric give way and stretched as if it was about to rip. Soon my vision was covered by lime green with a pair of golden eyes. These eyes were connected to a heaving unicorn that had a smile that simply said...

I'm going to rape you...

"Stranger Danger! Strange Danger!" I cried out as I tried to wiggle away from the fucken psycho pony.

"Lyra!" another pony yelled to my attacker. Both of us turned to look at earth pony with beige fur and tow tone colored mane that swirled around at the tips. The colors were dark blue and pink. On her flack were three wrapped pieces of candy.

Ah, its Bon Bon or Special Agent Sweetie Drops. Then this means, I turned my head to the unicorn on top of me. My breath began to relax. Only for that to be smashed when I saw the crazed look in Lyra.

Mummy...

Lyra began to heave heavy breaths before her wide eyes darted to my human hand.

With her furry hooves, she snatched my arm and began to snuggle with my hand.

Help me, somebody! I'm reminiscing some bad memories here!!

"Lyra!!" Bon Bon screamed as she yanked the minty unicorn off of me. Slowly I sat up and backed up as the earth pony scolded her friend. "Have you lost your mind!" Bon Bon screamed.

"But Bon Bon," Lyra whined as she pouted, "he's a human! Don't you know what this means!" The unicorn then began to bounce around sour face friend. Clearly, she wasn't as excited as Lyra.

"It means that you just assaulted a stallion," Bon Bon said as poked Lyra in a chest, "A stallion who is friends with Princess Celestia!"

Lyra just snorted, "Man, Bonny, human stallions are called man."

Bon Bon deflated as she slumped to the ground. "Celestia have mercy on my soul."

"It's fine," I said as I got to my feet.

No its not!

"Don't worry about it," I said walking towards the duo as they turn to look at me. Lyra with a look of excitement and glee, while her friend was biting her lower lip in worry.

Worry about everything!!!

"Tell me Lyra how do you know about humans," I asked the unicorn. Humans were never talked about during the show the exception, of course, being the mirror world, but that doesn't happen until a long while though. So how does Lyra know about humans? Perhaps humans from the mirror world came cover? It is possible considering how close the worlds are connected.

Lyra let out a squee sound as she smiled, "I've been following traces from ancient stories..."

"And that's why they're called myths," Bon Bon interpreted in a tone that showed that this conversation has happened before.

Lyra's lips became tight as she turned to her counterpart. She then flung a hoof pointed at me, "Um, hello human standing right here!"

With a doubtful raised eyebrow Bon Bon turned to me and asked, "Are you from Equestria?"

"No, different universal all together."

The pony then turned back to Lyra, "You see, just because there's a human here doesn't mean your theory is true."

Lyra stomped her hooves, "But Bon Bon! There's evidence everywhere if you know where to look!"

Bon Bon let out a sigh, "Now you're going to tell me that the crown is hiding evidence that would prove you right."

The unicorn let out a frustrated huff as she reared up, and in my surprise, I took a step back, and slammed into the ground, "You just don't understand!"

Bon Bon put a comforting on Lyra's muzzle, "Perhaps I don't, but what I do know is that you owe somepony an apology."

Lyra turned her head away and walked towards me with it hung low to the ground. Her eyes refusing to meet mine even when she stood right in front of me. "I'm sorry," Lyra said scuffing the ground.

"And I'm sorry for smashing your dreams," I said in return. I kinda felt bad for her, slightly. I am still a bit wary of her. You would be too if you saw her crazed look.

"Hmm...I wonder," Olivander said within my head.

"While I won't be able to tell you about 'Humans'," I air quoted, "from here perhaps I could tell you about humans back home...?" I trailed off as Lyra's frown quickly turned into a smile that could rival Pinkie's.

"Really~"

"It's a trap!" Admiral Ackbar yelled in my ear.

"Yesss...." I said slowly regretted my idea.

With a squeal, she jumped up and glomped me that put my face within a chest of fluff. My nose was bombarded by the smell of mint and winter coolness. There was also another smell that I couldn't place it I want to say...musk...? Before I could decipher it was BonBon shocked scream rang out again.

"LYRA HEARTSTRINGS!!!"

The body of fluff because tense before it disappeared and the world blinded me for a second. When everything came back in focus I saw a shocked Bon Bon and red face Lyra. "I'm sorry!" she spewed out before she vanished in a cloud of dust.

Confused, I turn to look at Bon Bon in hopes that I would get some answers on what just happen. Only to see said earth pony backing away and avoiding all eye contact.

What the Hell? Is there something I'm not getting? I guess I'll have to ask Twilight then.

With a shrug of my shoulders, I continued on with my journey back to the library. I need to check up on Twilight and make sure that she understands what I was trying to tell her.

At least I tried...

Flashes of memories, whispers of someone and...something I didn't want to remember.

"Why don't we play a game of hide and seek?"

No...

I stumbled in between the crack of two houses before I collapse to my knees. My hands gripped my head.

"Come on Sean we'll be the seekers."

NO! GO AWAY!!

My breath came fast and hard to the point where I began to struggle to breathe. Lungs began to tighten, air became harder to access. In my mind, I saw the door closed.

NO! I PUT THIS SHIT BEHIND ME!!! THIS ISN'T ME!!!!! FUCK OFF!!!!

I squeezed my eyes shut to block out the memory.

Please make it stop. I'm stronger than this. I WON'T BE TAKEN DOWN BY YOU!!! YOU HAVE NO POWER OVER ME ANYMORE!!

"Please stop..." a whimper

"There there," a soft soothing voice shattered the darkness and a warm pair furry hooves grasped my hands.

I opened my eyes slowly and saw there was a wall of yellow fur, and I looked up to see the angelic visage of Fluttershy as she hovered in the air. Her sharp aquamarine eyes radiated rejuvenation to my braking body. Without a word and very little strength, the pegasus pulled me to my feet and lead me away. "Let us get you some tea," she softly and with a confidence that I yet to see from her. Wordlessly I let the timid pegasus drag me to who knows where.

I sat on Fluttershy's couch as she busied herself in the kitchen. I think she was making tea, she had something about tea. It didn't matter, my mind wasn't here in the relative.

What the actual living fuck was that?! I've never had an attack like that before. Sure flashes of memories and a tense moment or two but never a full-on panic attack. And why of that? I've put that shit behind me. It shouldn't bother me anymore, and yet here it is again rearing its fucking head at me. In public even! Now, what everyone is going to think of me?!

Who the fuck cares of what others think!

I do!

Why!

I don't know! It doesn't make any fucking sense! Nothing does anymore!

"Here you go," Fluttershy soft voice spoke up, "Please be careful it's still hot."

Slowly I looked up and taken extreme care not to show the internal battle that was going on. This is my cross to bear not anyone else's. Besides what could they do? It's not like they had to deal with something like this. Equestria is too pure for something dark as...that.

Fluttershy gently set down two cups of tea on the small wooden coffee table. "Please drink up," she said timidly, "if you want that is."

I murmured thanks as my feet were pulled up and crossed themselves. Once I was done I reached over and picked up the steaming cup. The burning sensation was a relief to the pain that was going on in my mind. For a time I was able to occupy my thoughts with the pain in my hands.

Fluttershy's quiet voice broke through all of my thoughts. "Do you want to talk about it?" she asked.

"No," was the sharp reply and the yellow pegasus flinched at the harshness.

Immediately I began to curse at myself for being mean to the pony. The pony that was going out of her way to help me.

"It might help though," Fluttershy said.

See! She is trying her best to be kind and helpful. Why won't' you let her help?

"These are my demons to fight," I said both to explain to Fluttershy and answer the internal question. "Not even Celestia knows about this, and I want it to remain that way."

"Okay," Fluttershy whispered timidly as she used her wings to pick up her cup.

No words were exchanged between us as we sat there and enjoyed our tea. Yet, my mind was quiet as well, which that in itself was strange. A stark contrast of what had happened earlier today, but I welcomed this silence in both the environment and mind. It was therapeutic in its own right and I put great value in that.

"Are you okay?" I asked my winged host slightly turning the tables on her.

"Sorry?" Fluttershy said lowering her cup of tea.

"I've been meaning to check up on you," I answered, "You know after that whole thing with Gilda."

Realization dawned on her, "Oh," she murmured, "that...yes...thank you..." she trailed off into a mumble chatter.

With a smile, I whispered, "Your welcome," I brought up my cup and took a sip. The quiet atmosphere returned and we settled in. Time began to lose meaning as we sat there and enjoyed each other's silent company. Eventually, after what felt like a lifetime, I turn towards the window and saw the sun to set and make way for the night.

I put the now empty cup on the coffee table and stood up. Her attention drawn, Fluttershy's head snapped up and locked on to me. "It's getting late," I explained, "I should be getting back to the library before Twilight has an aneurysm or something."

"Oh," Fluttershy gasped before she flew up and hovered over to me, "I'll escort you back its the least I could do."

I chuckled, "Its alright, I'm like the scariest thing in Ponyville right now," I said with a slight upward smile.

"But stallions shouldn't walk alone at night," Fluttershy exclaimed, "It's so dark and scary, what if you get lost."

A snort escaped as I tried, and failed, to hold back my laughter. With my human hand, I reached out and gave the worried pegasus a head rub. "Don't you worry you silly pony," I said mirthlessly, "Thank you...for everything."

With on final pat, I turn towards the door.

Fluttershy's house was getting smaller as I made my way to the Golden Oak Library. Dusk had begun to set and casted a golden orange glow. Luna's moon slowly climbed into the sky, and soon stars began to spark into life.

"Hmm, I wonder if Luna has started to raise the moon," I wondered out loud as I continued my walk back home...

Home.

Do I already consider the library my home?

That is not the question I should be asking or rather it is not the real question

Do I want to go back to my homeworld?

Despite my rough start and a few hiccups, it's surprisingly peaceful. I'm starting to feel...peaceful...

I know its an odd thing to say, especially after what just happen, and the cloaked pony, and Gilda, oh and Nightmare Moon.

...

Whatever, the fact remains Equestra's an alright place okay? Jesus! Even my own mind is giving me shit.