"AHHHHHH!" I hear, waking me up to the loudest scream I've ever heard, "what?, huh what's going on?" I say, instantly awake, and just entering the room was pinkie, scared of something.

I look forward and for a second I see pinkamena, scared for a second until I remember that I had froze her, knife inches from my head, and when I looked back all but dashie was gawking at pinkamena.

I see twilight standing there, and I remember I had a bone to pick with her. "Twilight, if I could move right now you'd be sorry for just leaving me here, I'd suggest you fly as far away as possible before I can move" I say, glaring at twilight like laser beams, she looked scared for a minute, before relaxing.

"Tesla, you wouldn't hurt me, you know that, your to gentle to hurt any of us". Twilight grins at me, looking pleased with herself, and it only made me mad, so to get back at her I perform some magic, with the help of discord directing me.

I use my magic to fasten her hooves down to the ground, locking them there, then I lock all her joints in her body using another spell, leaving only her head free to move and talk, now we were both in the same predicament.

" what's going on!?!" Twilight asks as soon as she realizes she couldn't move, " you are in the same problem as me, now tell me how to move or I won't let you go" I say, stern and serious, "I don't have enough power, only celestia and Luna does, I can't help you" she says, looking somewhat scared, "just tell me the spell, I can do it" I say, taking command.

Twilight told me the spell, "just as simple bio spell, I'll help you but its not that hard" discord says from the back of my head,  I begin to perform the spell, my horn glowing like a fire as small cracks begin to form in my skin and the air around it, and suddenly there was  a cracking sound, and suddenly I could move, to bad as soon as I could I lifted my head i impaled the top of my muzzle on pinkamenas knife, I had forgot she was there.

"Ah fucking dammit, fuck!" I swear, pulling the top of my muzzle off the knife, which stung like a bitch.

"First of all watch your language, second how in the fuck did you perform that spell, you don't have enough power?" Twilight says looking me over, "don't be a hypocritical low, and I'm more powerful than you think, I came back from the dead, remember?" I say, stretching my muscles and wings, feeling slightly cramped from all that being still.

"So what if you came back from the dead, it doesn't mean your powerful, you just got lucky, now let me move!" twilight says, seeming pissed. The others had more or less stood around and watched us, besides applejack, who was examining pinkamenas statued body.

"No, I think I'm going to leave you there like you left me here, payback is a bitch"  I say, turning around and walking out to the balcony, dashie following me, twilight screaming obscenities at me as me and dashie took off.

As we flew it was silent, besides the wind over our wings and the rustle of leaves, or it was silent before dashie began speaking.

"You know Tesla, even if it was oin revenge you should let her go, will you do that for me please?" She asks, putting on a pouty face, "fine, I'll let her go when we get back, I just need to go back to my house first" I reply.

I had built a house overtop of the crater I made when I first landed here, Sorta like a Indian pit house but bigger, with a fireplace and separated sleeping area, just so I wasnt exposed during the night when the bigger animals came out.

We landed at my house, which was over run with weeds, the door creaking as we stepped in, I welcoming a return.

I start looking around for my computer, I had accidentally left it there, in a rush to get to the castle. I find it under a pile of my notes from twilights books,  things I copied down to remember them back while i was still learning magic.

I was pleased to watch it boot up on the first try, even more pleased to see its nuclear battery was still operable, and the moment it booted up I got a alert.

System set 14 opened, //location placed//

2, 34, +b[24>]. (End prgm)//.

That's what it read, blinking my coordinates in bright red letters, "well, atleast I know what dimension im in" I say, drawing dashies attention from a partially brewed potin that had been left from when I went to the castle, now growing mold.

"What did you say?" She asks, walking over and looking at the computer. "I know what dimension I'm in now, 2,34+[24>].

" that's way above me, but that's one of the reasons I like you so much, you got a good brain in that head", she says, giving me that "I want you" look, almost dragging me to the bed I'd made from branches and split logs.

She urged me onto my back, my wings already stiff in excitement. She kisses me, I try to drag it out, her lips tasting like honey, "when you died I lost it, I couldn't beleive you were gone, we may be from worlds apart but we were made for eachother" dashie says, her deep blue eyes staring into mine, "I know, I was there, if I hadn't come back I still would've been with you forever, always and forever, to protect you and keep you safe, without you I'm nothing" I say, glad I had come back, until dashie brushed the inside of my wing.

I saw stars, a blossoming pleasure from my deepest core exploding inside of me, "oh you need this" dashie says, rubbing the base of my wing, it was almost a pleasurable torture, I wanted it to stop so I could take a breath, but at the same time I wanted it to continue, so it left me feeling empty when dashie stopped, slowly sliding down to take my striffened member in her mouth, deepthroating tll I was all the way in, down deep in her throat, and while she sucked I rubbed the base of her wings with my back hooves, making her moan in pleasure.

Right before I came dashie stopped sucking, mounting my throbbing member with her wet pussy, moaning as I penetrated, bucking up and down, finishing the job, leaving both of us seeing stars as we fell asleep next to eachother, me still inside her.

I had that nightmare once again about after my funeral dashie committing suicide and pinkamena dragging her to hell, but this time I was even better prepared, my mind incorporating a 30-06 caliber rifle to my disposal, quickly killing pinkamena and saving dashie.

I Woke next to dashie, she was willing in her dreams, seeming peaceful, and she seemed to be waking, so I let her pull herself out of dreamland, opening her eyes, staring into mine, then seconds later she jumped up and screamed.

"WHATS WRONG?!?" I ask, frightened by her reaction, to what I didn't know, until I reached over to help myself get off my back and saw I was black.

I had somehow reverted to my elemental form, how I didn't know how, I wasn't wearing my elemental necklace, nor was I in any way using magic. "What in the fuck?!?, your elemental!" Dashie says, calming down slowly from her scare, "normally right now I'd make a statement about irony about what you said and what we did earlier, but I have no idea what's going on here, no idea at all" I say, double checking I didnt have my element on, but sure enough I didn't have it on.

We quickly left, making sure I had my computer with me, headed back to the castle, flying so fast we both made several sonic booms, dashies rainboom and my lightning ring, reaching the castle within ten minutes.

We landed and rushed inside, twilight still stuck where I had placed her, celestia keeping her company. The moment they saw me I got to reactions: 1. Where have you two been? 2.what in the fuck happened to you?

" suddenly I was just like this, I don't know what happened!" I say, feeling slightly worried. "Before I help you unfreeze twilight, she doesn't like being stuck in one place all day" celestia says, "oh, she doesn't like it does she?, I was stuck there for almost sixteen hours, and nearly killed by pinkamena" I say, waiving a hoof towards pinkamenas statued body. "Why were you stuck there for sixteen hours!?, why didn't someone help you?" Celestia asks, looking over at twilight, "in that case, twilight you can wait, this seems to be more important at the moment" celestia says, telling me to follow her.

She led me to yet another room I hadn't seen before, he largest library I had ever seen, pulling a book off the shelf.

Quickly she skimmed through it, looking for something, meanwhile I looked at the book titles, "the art of mental killing" "how to summon beings" "the elements in form". They had weird titles, giving a idea of what they contained, suddenly I hear celestia cry out " found it!" And called me over.

"The element of destruction is a dangerous element, with mental instability, extreme anger issues, incredible control over death, pure energy, and in his extended state magic of unknown origins" celestia reads to me from the book, reading on, "after a certain amount of time, this time unknown, he will loose control of his abilities, at this point he is extremely dangerous, more than normal, even small things capable of setting off his unstable state into chaos, reverting to his elemental form even without his element, when this happens keep watch on him because his mind will almost completely forget who he is and what he stands for, he will only know pain, anger, and killing, the only way to stop his descent into madness is he needs a lover that will keep his mind in check, the feeling of love retaining his sanity until he pulls out of it" celestia finishes, looking over at me, "well then your already set, lets go warn the others"

As we walked back, in no hurry, we talked. "So, I'm a walking time bomb, ready and primed, the slightest jolt setting off my sensitive explosive?" I ask, pondering what this meant, "more or less, you have rainbow dash, and that's all you need to retain your sanity, I've seen you two, the way you act together, that's true love right there, that's all you need" celestia replies, looking over at me, "so, if something got me mad, or just pissed off, I could lose it, completely loose control of myself?" I ask, making sure I understand what she said, "exactly, we'll warn cthe others about you, keep them from messing with you to bad, like what twilight did, leaving you like that, that was unacceptable behavior, and to make it worse you were almost killed. By pinkamena, I know, I watched it" celestia replies, her voice breaking for a second and going really high pitched for a second. "You saw that? How? You were at the main castle in canterlot," I say,surprised, "I made a orb just to make sure you all were OK and not fighting, sometimes I worry about rarity and applejack, ones got emotional issues and the other can't control her temper, your choice on which is which, I saw you turn pinkamena to stone, I didn't know you were stuck there"

I ponder this, wondering what I had looked like as I turned pinkamena to stone, "we all got issues, don't we?, I mean me and the other elements anyway," I ask, realizing just how screwed up we are. "Yep, rarity has a breakdown once a week or more, twilight is bipolar, applejack has rage fits, fluttershy has a problem with wanting to kill anything that stands in her way, besides her animals, pinkie had pinkamena, but you solved that, and your a walking mess, ready to destroy anything that tries to stop you, you literally beat the shit out of death, you were dead, now you defy nature and the cycle of life, oh, and rainbow dash has a emotional problem with needing someone to keep her up, she needs you, otherwise she would've fell apart long ago, not to mention that without you she would've died because no one else would've gave her a rib"

It had never thought that dashie needs me, it had never crossed my mind, I always thought I needed her to keep me up and in one piece, otherwise I wouldn't  be so protective of her in battle, staying within her area to help her if necessary.

We arrived back at the main room and celestia called a meeting, me unfreezing twilight first.

"As you might have already noticed Tesla has changed, he's now in a permanent state of being elemental, as much as I hate to say it he is now very dangerous, do not for whatever reason try to make him mad, you will regret it because when he gets mad he'll loose control, as much as he'll hate to hurt you he won't be able to stop himself, if you do manage to piss him off I suggest you run or fly as fast as you can, preferably where he can't follow you, such as a small cave or crowded room, as long as he can't get you there its a good place, any questions?"

"Yeah, what if I were to try to kill him, revenge?" Twilight asks celestia, glaring at me while she asks, "do you value your life or limbs?, that would be the stupidest thing I can think of, besides standing next to him when he goes nuclear, were you not paying attention?, he will kill you, even if he doesn't want to!" Celestia replies, scouting twilight out, but twilight didn't even answer, she was glaring at me like twin lasers, burning holes through my mind.

We went our separate ways, I decided to go into a tapestry and give myself some time to think. As I stare out the tapestry to the normal world, just thinking about everything, when I see celestia pull dashie to the side. I couldn't hear them through the tapestry, but I have a very good feeling that celestia was talking about me, probably that I needed dashie right now to preserve my sanity, and as celestia leaves I see dashie start to look for me, going into my room and coming out seconds later, looking around, checking around the room for me, walking down a couple halls before I decide to show myself.

She stops by one of the tapestries that line the walks, giving me the chance to show my self by pressing my muzzle and face into the area that I could see, letting dashie see where I was.

When she saw me, or whatever they saw when i pressed my face up to a area, she looked at me, although I don't think she could see me, I stick my hoof back into the real world, urging dashie to join me, she pulls herself through the painting with my help, joining me in the weird realm.

We went and layed down in a spot where we could watch the main room, my wing covering her body to keep her warm, nos that I knew it was extremely cold for them here, we layed there, thinking for a awhile, when I decide to ask a couple questions.

"If I seemed dangerous would you be scared?" I ask, being serious, "why would I be scared?, I love you, nothing you could do can scare me, surprise me maybe, but your not dangerous" she replies, snuggling in closer to me, "I'm just being hypothetical here, but if I asked for you to put me down would you do it?" I ask, wanting to know for sure, "Tesla, why would you ask me that?" She says, seeming calm, "dashie, you know as well as me I'm getting more dangerous, I'm losing it slowly, if someone were to set me off, to save their live I want you to end mine" I say, wanting a answer, "Tesla, I couldn't do that, I just couldn't, you mean to much to me!" She says, almost crying, "dashie, I rather you do it than twilight or applejack or fluttershy, you would put me down cleanly, they wouldn't be to good of a shot".

" what's a shot?" Dashie asks, looking nervous, "here, I'll show you" I reply, getting up and keeping her under my wing we walk to the painting that's in my room, reentering the normal world in my room.

I pull a box out from out under my bed, I had originally made its contents to demonstrate human technology, to show  humans weren't complete idiots, and as I open the box I new I had had the right idea.

In the box was a gun, a modified version of a 50 cal pistol, overkill for any game, I had made it when was making the exoskeletons, wanting to demonstrate a simple weapon, complete with special ammo.

It's ammo is what's so dangerous to me, its a thorium and plutonium alloy, almost 5ounces of it as the projectile, with a homemade gunpowder charge to fire it, the charge made with what I had available, and was incredibly powerful, it would fire the plutonium-thorium bullet at almost mach nine, capable of killing anything in its path.

"What is it"? Dashie asks, examining the gun, " its a pistol, a human invention, just modified so we could fire it, here's how to load it" I say, pulling back the bolt action, the only pistol ever with a bolt, inserting a cartridge and shutting it, "its now hot, be careful, its ready to fire, to fire it move your hoof until you hit the side of the brace, that little tab there, just not in here, it'll go bthrough the walls and continue across the valley, and over the mountain." I say, unloading the action and decocking it, putting the cartridge back with the four others for it I made, and putting the pistol in the box under my bed.

"Dashie please, if I loose control and am going to kill one of the other elements, please use it on me, right through the heart, through my reactor if possible, please, can you do that for me?" I ask, staring into her eyes, "ye-ye-yeah, if that's your wish, if I have to" dashie says, starting to cry, I pull her close and put a foreleg around her, trying to calm her down, "hush, hush, its alright, only if it comes down to it, hopefully it won't" I say, holding her close and wishing there was a alternate, but I knew that if I had pinkie or twilight or even applejack do it it would take two shots to finish me, and when I've lost control they wouldn't have time to reload, I'd already have eliminated them.

We left my room because being near the gun that I knew would eventually end me made me nervous, and I don't think dashie liked it either, by the way she kept glancing at my bed and what It hid underneath.

Every thing seemed good for the rest of the day, it was a warm peaceful with a light breeze, perfect for a good long flight, and a good flight was what I needed to clear my head.

I pondered about many things, like what would it be like when I lost control, what kind of power my out of control self would have,  and most importantly whether or not I'd come back from the dead again.

I land on the balcony and realize it was almost morning, I had flown the night away,  and to my surprise I nearly ran into Luna as I went to go get my computer.

"Sorry Luna, didn't see you there" I say, taking a step back, "its OK, doesnt bother me, oh Tesla, I heard about what's going on, would you like a peice of advice?" Luna asks, "sure" I say, wondering what she meant, "don't fight it, the more you fight it the worse it'll come on, just let it take you, take this from the equestrian that lived half her life as a evil being" Luna says, staring into my eyes, "OK, don't fight it, makes sense, thanks" I say, "your welcome" Luna replies, turning back to the map she was looking at, me walking to get my computer.

I walk up to my door, and to my surprise I had forgotten how to open it, "uh Luna, one more thing, how do I open my door?" I ask, trying to pry it open, "put your hoof on that circle in the middle" Luna calls to me from across the room, "thanks" I say, opening my door and walking inside, then realizing I had forgotten where I put my computer.

I spend about three hours looking for it, puzzling everyone about what I was looking for, until I realized I had forgotten what I was looking for. I was frustrated I couldn't remember what I was looking for, until I walked back into my room and saw it sitting on the bed right in front of me.

"Fuck!" I say, walking up to the bed and turning it on, watching the screen go from black to the blue start up screen, quickly running the boot up program, then to the main screen.

I had a little bit of trouble using hoofs to manipulate the touch screen but I managed, opening up a program I had created in a bet, one that would let me connect with earth.

The bet was that I could create a machine that would allow me to connect with my workshop's main computer, sixty four Pentium 2 processors working to solve whatever I through at it, anywhere any time, and though the connection was weak it still was there.

I shut down the connection, I had started it just to see if it would work, so I had won the bet with a friend on earth, and I started a recording.

"This is Tesla  coil, I have just entered the first stage of my downfall, if your listening to this it means I was killed, how I don't know, I can't see the future, but I'm recording this so you don't forget who I really was, the calm gentle Tesla who had a sense of humor, not the creature I'm becoming, I want you dashie to know I love you, and I'm at your side as you hear this, I'll always love you, I'll always protect you, and I'll always be with you. Rarity, me and you never fought, we didn't get to know eachother very well, but that's OK,we still knew eachother. Applejack, we didn't fight either, remember when you broke my jaw because you thought I had hurt rainbow dash with my blast?, I still look back at that and smile. Fluttershy, we got along well,  I'll always look back on fighting besides you in battle, your a excellent killer. Pinkie, we had our ups and downs, but we were still freinds, it was pinkamena that caused any problems between us, that time you locked me up and drugged me, that was fun, boy you were scared when I fell into a pile of bones, I was scared too, but no worries, it was fun either way, even if it wasn't then. Now twilight, we were pretty close to start, but after we got to this castle and my state started to deteriorate we started fighting, now we're at eachothers throats, but your the one who used the spell to make me speak equestrian, your the one who thought to go celestia to help me, you played a important part in my development, I'll never forget that. Celestia, you played another important part, you made me equestrian, you and Luna made me elemental, you set me forwards on the right path, although it seems I've left it for my own, it was your decision to make me equestrian, and I must thank you, you made me me, thank you. Luna, I met you first in a dream, you weren't even you, but you showed me that they cared for me, that they cried when I died, when I met you in person we were in a battle to the death, if I had only known you were like pinkie and pinkamena, we could've had a better start,  but it was you who came to celestia and showed me as part of the elements, you I have to thank for my powers, thank you. This is Tesla coil, over and out. "

I hit the save button and set it so that when I died it would start beeping, alerting them to my message, making me think about when I died before, what would happen this time, but I decided not to dwell on it, taking a nap to catch up on the sleep I missed.

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