Memories

"Hmm... seems we have a blood mage here... age 15, plenty of time to overcome possible difficulties"

"What are you talking about?"

"Do you remember the demon? See that mark on your hand? It is a calling card. I'm sure we can find a use for you"

Darkness.

***

"Where... am I?"

"Don't worry... you will have a use in this world"

***

I gasped as I was awakened, who were those people... what did they do? Do I truly want to know? An insufferable buzzing sounded in my head...

"AGHHHHH" it was the most painful thing I had ever experienced, it felt as if my head was exploding. "KILL ME" I shouted without thinking, for deaths sweet embrace would be better than this.

Darkness.

***

"hmm... he is not acting well to the stimulants... hit him again" I felt the wind get knocked out of me as I was punched in the stomach. I gasped for breath that would never come. I was bound to a chair in a dark room. Bleeding from every possible place, there where several holes in my skin, one in particular on my left hand. I felt it rather than saw it, for I could not move at all. Seems they didn't want me trying to escape or ending my miserable life.

"Subject has yet to overcome pain, he wont be accepted untill such a thing has been accomplished..."

***

"What is happening" I heard a concerned voice go through my mind.

"Must be a side effect of the medicine, quick, bind him, he is sure to hurt himself with his thrashing"

***

"Subject is stable, proceed" I felt a foreign chemical surging through my veins, I felt a unimaginable bloodlust overtake me.

"Release him" I felt my iron bonds come off, without even thinking I struck the nearest object. I heard a satisfying, childlike scream, I pounced upon the screaming object, I ripped its throat out with my teeth.

Satisfaction.

I spied a strange wall, different from the regular grey, I could see the outline of a  being on the other side. Fueled with rage I propelled myself towards the object. I heard a satisfying crack as the glass was damaged, before I could destroy the being a shock spread throughout myself.

Darkness.

***

"Heart rate is rapidly falling, he is going into shock, give him a shot of adrenaline" I felt a sharp object pierce my skin. I felt a rush of energy, but it didn't stop it...

Darkness.

***

"Subject has grown well, should be ready for task group soon."

"Give me a summary of Alan Starr"

"Of corse, subject is highly resistant to pain, when given drug Omega Saint Subject goes into suicidal rage, will do nicely as shock trooper, has limited magical ability, but grows stronger when wounds are inflicted upon it. Has lost most if not all higher thought, it has grown to fear being bound, often causing it to lash out without thinking."

"What of the demon?"

"A side effect of Omega Saint prevents the demon from accessing its puppet. Its powers are ours to play with"

"What are the possibility of the demon taking control?"

"Slim to none, you can tell how much control it has by the color of its eyes, the redder the more control it has. But we cannot completely remove the demon. Doing so will kill the subject."

"What of the Subjects claw?"

"A side effect of the demon being in his mind, it likely took Subjects hand and replaced it with its own so it will always be apart of it"

"Do you have experience with such things?"

"Yes, remember this is not the first one the Congress has instructed me to make. Just the first child. Due to this the Subject will be far stronger than previous Subjects."

"How can we control him?"

"You don't really, he is wearing a collar, filled with high voltages of electricity. You drop him at the destination you wish to be destroyed, when he is finished you set off the charge, then use the tracking device implanted in the collar to find him."

What if-" he was interrupted by a red light, followed by a blaring alarm.

"Subject is lose, we shall commune later"

***

"Paient stabilizing, heart rate returning to normal, stand by in case he goes into shock again"

"Should we fetch the Princesses to say that Paient is awake?"

"No, he needs his rest. Any attempt at talking could send him into shock again"

"Yes sir"

***

"Hello subject... I see you have found a way to remove the collar?"

"I am going to end your pitiful life, human, no one keeps me from my prize"

"Please... P-Please spare me"

"I am going to have fun with you..." His screams were heard by the few survivors of the facility, it stayed that way for hours on end. They hid, hoping they would be spared, They didn't know he had no need for mercy...

***

I awoke bound to a table, for once I didn't panic. I could hardly believe what I had gone through. So many questions left unanswered, yet so many I wish were not answered at all.

"Please unbind me" I yelled out, my voice carrying far across the busy hallways. With in seconds a nurse came around, looking quite sheepish, an earth pony blue eyes, brown fur, gray mane. I didn't have time to pay much more attention as my head began hurting, not quite as much as before, but enough to knock the air out of me. The nurse called something down the hall, but I didn't listen as I was in a lot of pain. I nearly blacked out from the throbbing inside my skull, but I resisted as I didn't want to relive such horrible memories. I saw the masked faces say things I couldn't hear. I would not be able to hold on much longer.

The pain slowly subsided, seems they injected something into me to stop it. I was forever grateful.

It felt like it was several minutes since I woke up, they had finally unshackled me, right before I started panicking too. I spied Celestia in the door way. I opened my mouth to explain but she responded with a "Twilight explained everything, no need to worry. We have medication for you that should prevent you from losing yourself. Talk to Dr. Whorse about it if you wish to know more" just like that she left. I didn't even have time to say hello. Damn, she must be real busy to not pay any attention to the crazy human with a demon hand that has the power to defeat a goddess and the six elements of harmony. Yup REAL busy.

I waited around for Dr. Whorse to show up, I didn't have to wait long as Dr. Whorse showed up within the minute. I nearly busted out laughing at Dr. Whorse. I couldn't tell if her name had something to do with her skimpy outfit, or her lollypop cutie mark you get from the Dr. when you were a kid. Either way, it was hilarious.

"Well" she said in a sultry voice, her blond hair complementing her equally blond fur "The medicine we give you will stop that voice in your head, while also preventing most uses of your magic, I hope that wont be a problem deary"

I'm sorry, I couldn't help myself, I just laughed and laughed and laughed. Dr. Whorse didn't know what I was laughing about but she joined in. Today is a good day.

I was prepped to leave the strange hospital soon, it seems this place hadn't been active in a few hundred years since a pony went suicidal. Man how happy go lucky is this place? There were deep scars in my wrists, now I look like even more of a badass. Well now I'm not likely to get many more due to Shelden being under control. The pills really do work wonders. I'd say it is worth nearly losing all my magic. I suppose it could be considered "resistance training" as I could feel unknown power surge through me. Not as powerful as before, but enough so that I can try out new things. I don't know the full extent of these new powers, but perhaps that is for the best.

I went around in a hospital gown untill Rarity got me new clothes. The previous pair was beyond repair, mud soaked, blood covered and torn. I asked for something less colorful, didn't want to come off as a walking rainbow, like Dash. She did what I requested, rather sourly at that. I didn't get something as colorful as last time. But just as mind boggling. I had black jeans, Black T-shirt, With a white vest, Inlaid with gold. It looked great, but I wasn't too happy about how much attention it would draw. Well, at least it wont draw AS MUCH attention as the last outfit. I told her I would find a way to pay her back, she said not to worry about it, but I will find a way to pay her back. I don't much like owing favors, even to my friends.

All my friends visited me, Twilight a little more than others. We didn't talk about what happened in my mind. Perhaps it was for the best. But I felt a strange longing that I wish her visits were not so short. She was only there for about an hour every other day. But there are more important things to think about like umm... I'll get to those things later then.

Pinkie said she wanted me to get better as soon as possible as she was throwing a "Welcome back from the hospital after nearly killing us again party". I didn't like the name much, but once Pinkie is set on something there is no changing her mind.

I hadn't realized how dependent on magic I was for substances. I had hardly eaten since I had newly arrived here, a carrot here, an apple there. But no, without my magic I was constantly eating. Celestia was nice enough to get me the meat I required. It was only fish,  that they usually only gave to the visiting griffins, but it was delicious to say the least. They have little to nothing that I can eat. It was difficult to get a good source of Carbs and fat. Seems Celestia needed to pull some strings to get me some potatoes. I specifically requested them due to their high amount of Carbs. I was like always, grateful to her. I was able to get every thing else I needed from the local vegetation and fruits.

Well, I was now leaving, I got started on my walk to ponyville, only to be stopped by the staff saying "I had to take the train" well, I would have liked a nice long walk but I suppose I can't argue with the people who had to put up with my shit the last few days.

It was an uneventful ride, I soon arrived at Ponyville to be embraced by my friends. I hadn't been this happy in a long time. They led me over to the library, guess there is no time to waste?