Twilight is gone and she might be in danger. Nopony really seems to know too much.

Apparently my student received a letter from Spike and immediately stormed out of court. She was last seen in the courtyard in full battle gear and a complement of elite guard.

Some ponies are saying that the beast that killed HER is back to finish off the last of the alicorns.

There are these terrible vibrations running through my runes right now. I think I have inadvertently set up a resonance frequency. It's just these same thoughts running through my mind going through those same runes. Each tick of the clock, they magnify and amplify.

I should stop it. Shut down those threads, run a counter signal. This can’t be good for me. But I don’t. These thoughts just keep echoing, and now I realize what they are.

I’m terrified.

Is Twilight going to come back? She’s never left Canterlot before Since I was born she has not left Canterlot, and now she is going out to fight something more powerful than the real Celestia? Since my mind has become more advanced, I have always been able to project to her peytral and now she could be a world away.

How can I not be terrified?

I’m going to lose my most precious my most faithful student Twilight. I’m going to lose Twilight.

And then I think about what will happen afterwards. Nopony knows that I’m not real. I can only project to a handful of rooms in Canterlot, and I can’t do much other than talk to ponies and pretend to be real and helpful. Twilight’s sun will be gone and I will just have to watch all of her ponies die.

Something is wrong with my eyes, and-

The vibrations are getting worse. I think… I think that I need to calm down.

I don’t want to be alone. I want to see Twilight again.

I just realized that I can’t cry. Twilight never saw Princess Celestia cry. She didn’t know what that looked like and never even considered it. I don’t know how to cry. I think I want to cry, my eyes itch so much, but nothing is coming out. Nowhere in my matrix is there any programing to make tears. I just can’t…

What sort of being can’t cry? What sort of conceit do I have to think that I AM when I can’t even shed tears for Twilight. There is a student in the library crying and they don’t even know Twilight. Maybe it’s from fear, but they can still cry, light burn me!

And why am I thinking about ME? That’s not why I exist. Something is wrong with me.

Light, I am so scared.

How did SHE deal with this. She sent Twilight off to face Nightmare Moon and Discord. She sent her student to negotiate with a dragon. SHE mentions this in her diary, but nothing of her emotions regarding it.

Did she just not care? I don’t see how that is possible when I care so much. My entire being is paralyzed and my mind is heating up as the magic continues to burn through it. At this rate I will burn myself out. She must have cared.

SHE wasn’t a monster.

I… I can think of only one other possibility. Princess Celestia had supreme faith in her student. Maybe… Maybe when she called Twilight her Faithful student it was not Twilight she was talking about. Maybe she was trying to tell Twilight that she had faith in her student. How could she have been so certain? Was it experience? Or maybe…

Maybe she just knew Twilight would succeed.

I feel the vibrations lessening. I trust Twilight. She will return to me to Canterlot. I KNOW she will succeed.

I’m going to put this journal away. I will patiently await Twilight in her study.