This might be a little crude. I am not used to typing on computers. Even with Zed’s help I can tell this was designed with fingers in mind.

I am writing this to help collect my thoughts. I have talked to Barn about this but he is more of a listener than a thinker. I do not feel comfortable talking to Doctor Stratos because of who he is and I do not want to worry Esper. So I had Zed hook me up with a computer. It is slow but at least I can go back and correct my mistakes.

Zed was the one who suggested I write to myself. He had some sort of explanation for this but it flew over my head. Hopefully I will understand as I learn more.

The other day I went with Esper on a trip to a town I have forgotten the name of. To get money, Doctor Stratos, Zed, and Esper track trading patterns of towns. They see at what point a town is in need of a resource that cannot be obtained or traded. They gather some of that resource, such as wood or food, and they go to the town and sell it at a large discount. There is some economic reason we are doing everything like this but I do not understand. I can rarely understand their reasons. That was not my main worry anyways.

During this trip we decided to sell this town some fertilizer and some sort of specially treated seeds. They were grateful. We got plenty of bits. We did not need that much money and it was inconvenient to carry it. So we spent some.

During our spending spree, I noticed that Esper is odd. She does not act like a pony. She would go into shops or guilds and immediately look at “inefficiencies.” She keeps looking for how to improve everything and excitedly studies any subject. I have yet to find something she is bad at. It reminds me of Doctor Stratos, Zed, and the legends I heard about Sir Colbert.

She acts like a human. She approaches the world with that mindset.

In some ways, that worries me because I now know a lot more about humans than I used to. They can be dangerous creatures that focus only on survival. Some of their history troubles me, but then again the only humans I know about and have met are the greatest individuals I know next to princess Celestia herself. With all of the great legends I have heard from Barn, I have a hard time believing humans could be willfully malevolent. If nothing else, there seems to be little a human cannot do. I will admit to myself that there is always a danger in that. I can only imagine what they will do if they feel threatened.

I am learning new things every day. Not just about my own craft, which I can still proudly say I am a master at, but also about almost anything. Doctor Stratos requires us to master almost everything we can. Thanks to Zed, I am becoming a better warrior every day. The base can always be improved, and we have no trouble gathering anything I need to do it. Any material can be provided by Esper and any magic can be provided by Barn. I have never been able to so freely practice my art.

I also like my new wings, they are quite beautiful. I even tired dying my feathers different colors. Doctor Stratos says he could permanently change the color of my hair or feathers if he wanted to. He can do almost anything.

It occurs to me that we have become aristocrats of the highest order. Just the other day I decided to test just how far this went. I asked Doctor Stratos if he could get me the legendary Helios armor. We had it within three days. This is a set of armor that I had been dreaming about my entire life and they handed it to me as if it was just another common tool. This has become absurd. Doctor Stratos even stated that the armor really was not as good as the ones he made. Whether that is his arrogance or his intelligence I cannot be sure. But instead of throwing away the armor he built a new set of my Flight Armor around the Helios armor. Now I have all the powers I had before and a set of legendary armor for additional protection. With Barn and Esper's help, he also improved the Helios armor in his spare time. It was not even “that big of a deal.”

I do not think Doctor Stratos realizes that he is privileged. He does not seem to understand that the lifestyle he has is unknown to almost anypony.

I am concerned with how powerful the Unknown Guardians are. I know I am a member but I still feel like an outsider. That will fade with time but for now it gives me a troubling view.

We have too much ability. We can go anywhere and use the Royal Seal to do anything we want. We have more bits than we could ever reasonably spend, we have unthinkable weapons and devices, we can cure any ailment, we can get a hold of anything we want, and our abilities place us well outside of what a normal pony is capable of. We are not normal.

If we wanted to we could reduce any place in Equestria to rubble. I have seen the machines in action. I do not believe even the princess could stop us if we decided to go against her. Maybe I am wrong about that.

Maybe that is a good thing. Whatever we are fighting is strong enough to worry the princess and a smart enough to avoid her sight. Surely we must be strong enough to stop it once we find it. We better be. If we cannot stop it, or them, then who could? Certainly nopony on Equestria.

Everypony here is nice. I do not remember another time I was around such good company. I have never been so confident in my friends.

That is one thing I have a good feeling about. We are capable of handling almost anything. Maybe we can handle this. I am glad I joined this group.

I am sure others will join us in the future. We will be one big family. I like that thought.

As much as I do not want to admit it, this is fun. I am really enjoying myself. I am worried, but this is the first time I have been away from home for a long period of time. I can do almost anything. Architecture has been my life and now it is put to great use. Stratos is right; we are very important. Even if nopony knows about us, at least the princess does. She trusts us. Equestria can count on us.

Zed was right. I just needed to write my thoughts down. I feel a lot better now. Alright, back to work.