Among The Pegasi
Chapter 16: Secrets Revealed
Previous Chapter Next Chapter"Yes..." Twilight finally confessed after she believed that there was simply no point in trying to hide it anymore, their secret was already out, and the only thing the Princess needed to do now was tell her friends the truth, as Rainbow Dash had already done to the town of Ponyville.
The others all looked to Twilight, all of them standing speechless, while they all had no idea how to react, was Twilight really serious about this? And if she was then why had she been lying to them all this time? These were just two of countless questions the others all wanted answers to.
"Now Twilight are ya actually being serious right now?" Applejack asked as she was the first to speak up, while all the others looked at one another, still unsure of what they should say in response to what the Princess had just told them all.
"Yes," Twilight nodded as she sighed deeply to the farm pony, "Rainbow Dash and I have been secretly dating for almost two weeks now," she confessed as she held her head a little low, seeing how maybe she shouldn't have kept her friends in the dark like this for as long as she had.
"Well what do you know, those so called 'crazy' rumors were actually true," Pinkie Pie stated with a smile, seeming to have gotten back her voice, and now just feeling happy that she and Fluttershy had actually been right in their thinking, while Fluttershy and Rarity still seemed to be too shocked to speak.
"Now hold on a second, when did this all start? Ah mean ya haven't known Rainbow for that long, so when did the two of ya start dating?" Applejack asked, still not really believing that Twilight had really told them that what Rainbow Dash had said was true.
"Well...it was back when Dash and I had only just started on this journey to get the two towns to forget the past and start over. I had just gotten Dash to make up with Fluttershy, and while I was on way my way to drop Dash back at her house...well I did something stupid," Twilight paused as she thought about that time she had gotten caught up in the moment, where that one kiss happened that had started it all.
"Wait...did you two start going out after that kiss happened between you two?" Spike asked, realizing that maybe Twilight wasn't being truthful when she told him what had happened after the kiss that her and Rainbow Dash had shared.
"No...at least not straight afterwards," Twilight answered nervously, hating the fact that she had also lied straight to Spike's face before now.
"What kiss?" Applejack asked, looking to Spike and then back to Twilight again, hoping that one of them would explain.
"On her way to dropping Dash off at her house, Twilight apparently ended up kissing Rainbow Dash, before leaving her with no explanation for why she did it," Spike explained, remembering that Twilight never did tell him what had really happened when Twilight had supposably, 'worked everything out' with Rainbow Dash.
"You kissed Rainbow Dash just after her and I had cleared things up?" Fluttershy asked, as her and Rarity looked like they too were coming back to their senses now, not being so speechless anymore, while Twilight was just becoming more and more anxious about how all this was quickly spiraling out of her control. Maybe she should have just waited a little longer and had Dash help her with telling her friends from Ponyville about their secret relationship, although that wouldn't have changed anything, but at least she wouldn't be alone in this tense situation she was now in.
"Yes...but-
"Wasn't that like a couple of days after you only just met us all?" Applejack cut Twilight off as she and the others were all questioning how Rainbow and Twilight had gotten together when they hadn't even know each for very long.
"It was actually about a week or so after actually," Twilight corrected, having the feeling that she would get this kind of question when she would tell them all about her and Rainbow.
"That still wasn't very long, you bearly knew her back than Twilight," Fluttershy pointed out, seeming that even she was thinking that Twilight and Rainbow had gotten together at definitely the wrong time.
"That's...true I guess..." Twilight nervously glanced away from Fluttershy, knowing that her and Dash did rush into things, but she really couldn't be more glad that they had done so back then, maybe now she was starting to think over her previous decision, after all she was the one that said that they should start dating, Dash would have been fine with just staying as friends...but then again Twilight was sure she wouldn't have felt the same way.
"Well...ah guess it isn't too much trouble as long as ya two haven't gotten too serious," Applejack stated with a slight smile, hoping that Twilight would simply nod and make this all seem a little bit better.
But all Twilight did in return was go silent, while she turned her head away, and bit her lip a little, blushing as she hid her expression from the farm pony. Applejack's eyes widened as she saw Twilight's reaction, being very different from the one that she expected from the alicorn, now shaking her head, before she sighed deeply.
"Don't tell me...the two of ya have slept together already?" Applejack really hoped she was wrong in her guessing, but judging by Twilight's continued silence, as she refused to answer, and was just basically starting to make things worse by doing so, the farm pony had a strong feeling that she couldn't have been more right.
"Ya have, haven't ya?" Applejack stood back for a moment as she raised a stern eyebrow to Twilight, wanting to hear the truth after all the lies that the Princess had been telling them all.
Twilight didn't reply, as she just kept hiding her expression behind her long mane, stepping back slowly, wishing that she could teleport herself out of this nerve wracking situation, but knowing that that would only cause things to get worse between her and her friends, she knew she would have to explain to them all, what had happened to start all this, and all that had happened to get to this point where they were at now, she just didn't know how to do that.
"Now, now Applejack maybe Dashie and Twilight just decided to get married instead of something like sex," Pinkie suggested, seeing that Twilight was just getting more and more anxious about all that was going on at the moment, and with all this stress she was under, she probably would be too scared to actually tell them the whole true story in the end.
"How is that any better Pinkie Pie?" Fluttershy asked, getting that Pinkie was trying to lighten the tension in the room and admired her for it, but it really wasn't the time for that right now.
"What? It's not like they're eloping or something," Pinkie smiled as she just caused Fluttershy and Applejack to sigh at her slightly, while Twilight was feeling that Pinkie had seemed to have lightened the mood a little, but she knew it wouldn't last for long.
"Girls!" Rarity finallly spoke up, as the others all turned to her, all of them kinda wondering what she had to say about all this, since she hadn't spoken a word yet, and had just stood back and watched for the most part.
"Maybe we should stop pressuring Twilight so much, and just let her actually explain to us everything that happened?" Rarity suggested, as the others all seemed to agree with her, with Fluttshy, Spike, Pinkie and Applejack all nodding in return, while Twilight internally thanked Rarity with a smile to her, only to get a stern stare as a reponse from the unicorn.
"And this time you won't leave a single thing out, right?" Rarity raised an eyebrow, knowing that none of them wanted to hear anymore of Twilight's lies about her secret marefriend.
"Right," Twilight just nodded in reply, as she sighed again, and swallowed loudly, her smile formed into a nervous frown again, while she knew there was no way she was leaving anything out of this story, she would tell the truth, and the whole truth, after all although Dash hadn't gone into much detail at all, she knew she would most ceratinly have to here.
Applejack and the others now all stood quitely, choosing to be silent now, regretting that they had all pretty much just put a lot more stress on to the Princess. She was already nervous and dreading telling them the truth, and they had all just been making it worse for her by asking her all of those questions that she obviously wasn't ready to answer just yet. Now this seemed to be the better approach, standing back and letting Twilight tell them the whole story was probably the only way they would all understand how it all happened, and why it had been kept from them.
Twilight took a deep breath, as she looked to each one of her friends, still feeling very anxious and uncomfortable, but was also starting to feel more confident in herself, knowing that now was the time that she would finally come clean and stop with all the hidding and secrecy. Nodding to herself, Twilight decided to take things nice and slow, and start from where it had all began with that one kiss, which had been the cause of all this, and played a big part in changing quite a few things.
"Well it all started on that day that I had taken Dash to make up with Fluttershy. The plan had gone so well, in fact much better than I had expected, and I couldn't be more glad that it had gone that well..." Twilight started to ramble a little and trail off, before she shook her head and got back on to the topic she was meant to be talking about.
"Anyway I was flying with Rainbow Dash back to her home, we were talking about how the 'making up' with Fluttershy had gone, and we were starting to discuss what was next, but at one point when flying I started to feel dizzy and a little faint, I guess I hadn't eaten enough that day or something. But whatever the reason was I ended up collapsing, blacking out a little, and the next thing I knew I was laying on a fluffy cloud, while Dash was looking to me, seeming confused and maybe a little worried about what was going on with me. My guess is that she had caught me before I fell, and flew me over to a nearby cloud to lay me down on," Twilight exlained the lead up to the kiss in detail.
So far the others all seemed like they were following the story, nodding to the alicorn every now and again in return, while they all stood quietly and waited for Twilight to carry on with her full explanation. And so Twilight continued on.
"And from there, as I was laying on that soft cloud, gazing up to Rainbow Dash, while she looked back down to me seeming concerned for me...I remember the shining sun catching her cyan fur coat, and causing her stunning bright rainbow mane to shimmer in those beams, her bewitching magenta eyes sparkled in that light, and I couldn't help but get completely lost in them. It all just felt so...so...inexplicably magical, she had cast a powerful spell on me that I know I would never be able to remove. I didn't know why back then, but on a strange impulse I leaned in and kissed her, it didn't last long and Dash did pull away, but that's where it all started to change for me," Twilight sighed as she thought back on that first kiss she had shared with Rainbow Dash, and now remembered exactly how she had felt at that point in time, blushing a little while she could still remember the taste of that pegasus's lips pressed against her own.
Fluttshy, Pinkie and even Applejack couldn't help but smile at Twilight's explanation of that first kiss, looking at the way the alicorn would smile and sigh contently while she talked about how she had felt in that one moment, that definitely sounded like the start of love to them. Rarity and Spike were hiding their smiles, but deep down they knew that Twilight was being nothing but completely truthful while she was saying all of this, she truly had fallen for Rainbow at that moment it would seem.
"I came back to my senses after the kiss ended, and I quickly got away from Dash, my mind lost in confusion, questioning why I had done such a thing to a pony I bearly knew, I didn't give her an explanation for why I kissed her, I just left her to go back to the library, after all I couldn't bear to face her after doing something like that to her so out of the blue," Twilight went on to explain what had happened after the kiss, starting to now get into telling the others about how things had got to where they were now.
"Spike already knows this, but I was pretty much freaking out over that kiss for a while, constantly worring about what Dash would think of me now, and wondering why I had done such a thing in the first place. I denied it at first, I didn't believe that I could ever be...in love with a pony like her, plus I didn't want anything to change between us, we were just starting to become close friends, and she was really starting to trust me I feel, and I had to go and do something like that, I seriously felt like I had ruined all that we had built between us," Twilight sighed when she thought about that time when she was so unsure of her feelings, she just had no idea how she really felt or how to act upon those strange feelings.
The others all knew that love can be hard and confusing, especially when you hadn't really felt it for somepony before, now they all started to see where Twilight was coming from with being scared to tell them about all this. Falling in love was never easy, but admiting those feelings and learning to embrace them was even harder.
"However I soon found out how Dash felt about all this. She came round knocking on my window, and asking if I could come on a fly with her. I didn't want to leave suddenly, and I did want to tell Spike that I was going, but that would have just caused him to ask me questions that I really didn't want to answer, so I locked my bedroom door and left with Dash," now Twilight was beginning to feel nervous again as she was going into the part of the story where Dash had told her what her feelings were about it all.
"Wait...so all those times I knocked on your bedroom door, instead of ignoring me, you weren't even there?" Spike asked, now realizing that when Twilight didn't respond to him, it wasn't because she was too upset to do so, it was because she wasn't even there to begin with.
Twilight just nodded slowly, knowing that the dragon might just be a little angry with how she kept sneaking out with Rainbow Dash, while not telling him about it until now.
"So have you snuck any other time without me knowing?" Spike raised an eyebrow.
"Well...I might have done it more than once or twice...sorry Spike," Twilight nervously apologized, knowing that it wasn't right of her to just go off like that without telling him where she was going, he always was going to worry about her, but she was making it worse by sneaking out with Dash all the time.
"It doesn't matter now, just carry on with the story," Spike smiled and shook his head, as he figured that something like that wasn't really all that important right now. What was important, was hearing the rest of Twilight's story, and so the Princess smiled with a slight nod, and continued on.
"While Dash and I had gone on this fly together we avoided the topic for a while, until I brought it up, and apologized for doing such a thing to her. But she didn't want to hear my apology it would seem, I thought she would be mad at me, but it turned out that I had just surprised her. She asked me why I had kissed her...and I couldn't really answer her at that time. I knew there was something there, I felt a rush when I had kissed her and it really did make my head spin, but I had no idea what those feelings meant, after all I had never felt them for any other pony before," Twilight still felt like she should have known what love was before she met Rainbow Dash, but she guessed that she wasn't really interested in that kind of stuff, and this was the only time she was willing to open up her heart to somepony else beside herself, which was something she had never pictured herself doing really.
"So how did Dashie feel? Did she tell you?" Pinkie spoke up as she was trying her best to stay silent, but now she couldn't help it, she wanted to hear how the two had gotten together, and what Dash's feeling towards the Princess were, after all when the rainbow maned pegasus was in front of the town, she sure sounded like she was being truthful.
The others all looked to Pinkie with slight glares, at her being a little rude and impatient, while Twilight just smiled and nodded to Pinkie, the earth pony smiling back to her nervously in reply, and apologizing for coming off as impolite there.
"Dash's feelings for me? I...I couldn't have been more surprised by what she told me. She said that she felt there had always been something more between us than 'just close friends' and she may have been have right when I look back on it. She said 'there was always something she liked about me' and that she now knew why she could relax around me so easily, without having to have her guard up all the time. Unlike me Dash knows what love is and has had curshes before, and that's probably why she could figure out her feelings much quicker than I could. But Dash told me that she had never felt the way she had felt after I had kissed her, and since then her love for me has kept on growing and blooming up until now it would seem," Twilight tried to remember everything that Rainbow Dash had told her when she said what her feelings were, and now she felt guilty for making Dash wait as long as she did for an answer from her back then.
"Awwww, did Dashie tell you all of that on your fly?" Pinkie asked as she smiled at hearing what Rainbow had told Twilight, while she sat down and rocked back and forth in a cheerful manner, as the others all looked to her with slight smiles on their faces, finding no way of denying that it was truly something to hear the cyan pegasus's feelings, when she would normally keep them hidden from other ponies, only saying that she loved Twilight when she told the whole town about the truth.
"Actually no, she told me all this the morning after I spent the night round at her's, she kissed me on our fly and well...sweet Celestia did it feel amazing," Twilight blushed while she smiled brightly and bit her lip when thinking back on that second kiss she had shared with Dash, while one or two of the others raised their eyebrows to her and smirked slightly.
"Wait you stayed round at Rainbow Dash's that night?" Spike asked, hoping that the two mares didn't rush into things after a simple kiss.
"Relax Spike, nothing happened between us...well we did kiss again, but that was all I swear," Twilight stated while Spike sighed in relief a little, glad that Twilight and Rainbow hadn't gotten too carried away when they were only just getting to know what their real feelings were for each other.
"So what happened after that, did you and Rainbow Dash get together?" Rairty asked, now wanting to know the rest of the story, and when the topic of Twilight and Rainbow dating would come into it, while Twilight looked to her and cleared her throat, picking up where she had left off.
"Back then I couldn't really figure out my own feelings like Dash could, so she left me to think about it, only that took more then a couple of weeks to work it all out it would seem," Twilight sighed as she remembered just how hard it was to try and find out how she truly felt about Dash, but everytime she tried to figure it out she would get lost in her own mind and imagination, overthinking things and never really focusing on what she really wanted. Letting her mind speak louder than her heart she was at a crossroads, not knowing which way to go until Dash came and showed it to her.
"So when ah came round to see ya, that's why ya were acting so depressed? It wasn't cause ya had a fight with Rainbow at all?" Applejack asked, now realizing why Twilight had seemed so conflicted when Spike had called her round thay day to maybe try to cheer the Princess up.
Twilight just nodded in reply to Applejack, thinking that maybe it would have been easier to tell the farm pony about what was really going on back then, maybe then this situation would be different. Although there was always the chance that not much would be different if she had come clean before now.
"After I left to my room that day, Dash came knocking on my window again, it would seem that I had left her waiting for too long, and she wanted an answer, she definitely deserved one after all. So I went over to her house again, we talked, we worked through it all together, and I soon realized that I did feel the same way as her, I had just be scared of hurting her, or possibly it hurting me instead. And once I got past that fact I decided for us to take things step by step, going at the same pace alongside each other, knowing to not cross any lines until we both felt ready for it, we started dating from there, and have been finding love in one another ever since,"
Twilight took a breath as she finished, smiling slightly, while deciding to leave out the bit about her getting carried away again and ended up actually hurting Dash, since she really wanted to forget that that ever happened, and definitely didn't want to relive the guilt and shame she felt back then. She said she wouldn't leave anything out, but this was the only exception.
"What a beautiful story," Pinkie stated as she sobbed with happy tears, and clapped her hooves toegther quickly, causing Twilight and the others all to chuckle a little at the energetic earth pony acting like she had just be told the greatest love story ever.
"So is that the whole story?" Rarity asked looking to Twilight with still quite the stern stare, making sure that the Princess hadn't left anything important out.
Twilight just nodded in reply, knowing that she had left out one minor part, but not wanting to ever go back to that memory, she sinply put that to the back of her mind where it belonged. Fluttershy smiled to Twilight as she was glad that the two were happy together, and although she did still think that they had maybe gone a little fast, she believed that they knew what they were getting themselves into at least.
"So why did you keep it all from us?" Spike asked, wanted to know why they all been lied to all this time.
"I did want to tell you all what was really going on, and I hated lying to you...but I had no idea how I would explain any of it to all of you, plus I was scared for how you would take it, after all back then I had only known Dash for maybe about three or four weeks," Twilight answered, knowing that she should have told them sooner, but was just too scared to do so, in fear of losing them as her friends.
"I guess we can understand where you're coming from there," Spike nodded as the others agreed with him, all knowing that they probably wouldn't have been all that approving of Twilight and Rainbow Dash's rash decision to go into a relationship when they had hadn't known each other for very long at all.
"Wait eariler when I asked if the two of ya had gotten serious yet, and ya went completely silent, what was that all about?" Applejack asked now really wondering if Twilight and Rainbow had slept together already, and if they had, they might be just going too fast for that kind if thing just yet, after all they had only been dating for about two weeks right?
"Umm...Dash and I have slept together yes...but just the once, and we both felt like it was so perfect,I know it may have been going a little too fast for us... but it just felt so right at that moment," Twilight confessed, now getting the feeling that this was going to go downhill again quickly.
"And when was that exactly?" Rarity asked, smiling while although she and the others did think the two had rushed into things, but it wasn't too much of a big deal if it had only happened once, and they had both felt ready for it.
"Last night..." Twilight nervously smiled as she spoke in a low tone, now scared of what the others might say.
The others all now seemed completely surprised, all of them wondering if they had heard the alicorn right or not. They all looked to each other for a moment, not knowing what to say in reply again.
"...and we weren't exactly...'inside' per say," Twilight turned away from the others now, knowing that this wasn't looking so good for her anymore.
"Well no wonder those rumors got so serious so suddenly, somepony must have seen the two of ya," Applejack sighed as she could easily guess why the two towns had suddenly started gossiping so much over simple rumors now.
"So that crazy rumor about you and Rainbow Dash...being intimate in open spaces was actually true?" Rarity asked, taking in a odd voice when she said the word 'intimate' outloud.
"In a way...yes," Twilight nodded slightly, as she glanced back to Rarity and bit her lip, when she saw the surprise and maybe a little disappoint on the unicorn's face.
"No way! So you and Dashie really had sex out in the open?" Pinkie spoke up, almost sounding like she was proud of Twilight for this.
"Pinkie!" Applejack glared to the pink earth pony, and spoke to her in a raised voice.
"What?" Pinkie frowned as she didn't see what she had said wrong.
"Twilight are you really-
"I know! I know it was wrong to do that kind of thing while still being out where ponies can see us...but I guess neither one of us were thinking about that at the time. We made a mistake, and now we're both paying for it, so plase don't make this any harder for me than it already is," Twilight pleaded as she cut off Fluttershy, not wanting to hear the long lecture she could tell she would have gotten if she had stayed quiet.
Fluttershy nodded as she and the others all just stood back, knowing that they wouldn't be making things any better if they got on Twilight's case about this, just like the two towns had, it was a private matter and it was meant to stay that way, it was nopony's business but Twilight and Rainbow Dash's.
Twilight sighed as she sat down on the bakery's wooden floor, and looked down to her hooves, guessing that her marefriend was probbaly up in Cloudsale telling them the city the truth as she had to Ponyville right about now, and only wishing that she was standing beside her instead.
"So what are you planning to do from here?" Spike asked the question that was probably on everypony's (but Twilight's) mind, all wondering where to go next with this, what would be the best option from here?
"I...I don't know," Twilight gritted her teeth, having no idea how she was going to even begin to try and work through all this, it just didn't seem possible at all to her.
"Well what do you want to do?" Pinkie Pie asked, being hopeful that there was still a way for things to work out for the better, even if things did seem bad from where they were at the moment.
Twilight looked to Pinkie as she thought for a moment, taking a minute to herself, before she sighed deeply and held her head low, "To be honest...I just want to go home right now,"
"Well if that's all then-
"No I don't mean my home here, I mean my old one back in Canterlot," Twilight cut Pinkie off as her slight smile formed into a saddened look now.
"But Twilight you can't go back to Canterlot, you're these two towns' Princess, this will only drive them further apart, they need you now more then ever," Spike stated, not wanting Twilight to just leave like this, and cause the two towns to possibly never work things out, which could easily mean their already tense relationship would get much worse fom here.
"Spike...it's the only place I would feel safe in right now," Twilight replied, while her eyes teared up a little, she didn't want to leave everything behind, but it seemed like the only thing that she could do to feel safe once again.
Spike sighed as he looked to the others, all of them staying quite, knowing that there was no way they could talk the Princess out of this. She had clearly already made her decision, she would go back to her home, whether she was ever going to come back or not was a mystery, but for now she was going home, ending everything with the place it had all started at.
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Sometimes when things get too hard, it drives you to go back to where you started and hit that reset button, even if the outcome turns out to be the same anyway.
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