Later in time…

I can’t take it anymore. I can’t take being without my Rainbow. I know she hasn’t made it. I lied, I have no idea what happened to her, but I’m miserable without her. I’m...gonna take my life while the other 5 ponies are asleep, it’s better that they didn’t witness my suicide.

I will write a note for my love before I do this, of course...if you receive it:

Dashie

I know that our life as a couple was not only short-lived, but it was also the most amazing experience of my life...I have never felt joy like this before, and I want to thank you for putting my misery to rest. I love you...so much, and I will miss you.

As I sit here for a month and ten days, I am miserable, That is why I am going to take my life. I can’t take being without you for another day! I’ve had it with my pain… your pain, and suffering is my fault. If I do manage to continue with this action, and succeed, then I want you to go to Equestria, go inside, and shut down the portal behind you...forever. You will never see the earth again, and never have to hurt again. I love you so much, and I will always be wrapped in the love and joy you’ve given me.

I will sleep with eternal peace, and if I will be able to go straight to heaven, and stay there: I will always remember, and love you.

There is just one thing that I ask of you...don’t follow me to where I am going to go.. Don’t make my same careless mistakes. Please, learn from my carelessness, and never be like me. Please don’t be angry with me, I have nothing against you….in fact, I love you so much, and I wish you well. Keep moving forward, and never look back at me.. although, I ask that you still give me the general love I will want. Even though I will not be in existence anymore, I will always be with you. So, please don’t give up on your 5 friends, my family, Equestria, or me. I love you.

Your lover forever

Riley

Oh god, am...I going to do this? I thought to myself… Yes! And no one will stop me……

I remembered where a gun was in the drawers. I pulled it out, and felt a tear run down my cheek. I held it up to my head. I don’t want to do this, but my sorrow hurt much worse than what I’m about to do…

“NO!”

I heard a voice say… my family was visiting a friend, and Dash and I were supposed to take care of each other until they got back, so it wasn’t anyone there.

Instead, it was Fluttershy. God, I can’t believe she is so kind. But that is what she was made for. “Riley?...” she said, quietly, with wet eyes.

At this point, I had dropped the gun, and fell to my knees, and began to cry. The gun lay beside me, and I was kneeling down beside it. I was crying, then she walked over to me. She was not sobbing like I was, but she was crying, too.
“I’m sorry...I’m sorry, Fluttershy, it’s just so damn hard…” I said with the best strength I could gain. “Don’t be, I understand why you would want to do this, but….” She tried HARD to make out the last sentence, but failed, as her crying became sobbing. The sounds may have been quite a mess, because the next thing I knew, the other 4 ponies were sitting in the entrance, with surprised, and scared looks on their faces. And the expressions were being masked by tears running down their faces.

“You…” Pinkie whispered to me as she walked over. “You tried to…” I felt just as betrayed as she felt right at this moment. Me, for the pain god has given me, and she, for me trying to drop the rock into the lake. “You tried to...kill yourself?” The last two words made tears come to her eyes.

“...Yes, Pinkie. I….couldn’t take it.” I said crying again. “I was starting to lose faith in myself….and I couldn’t believe myself for causing so much pain to you, to the other 4 ponies, and….to……….” I couldn’t say her name, and began crying again.

We had emotional talk about how we loved her, and how we would want for nothing but for her to be safe.

“Riley, I know you tried to find her, but…..I just don’t want to find her, abused, broken, and bleeding. And I don’t want to hear that she died.” Said Twilight, crying. That was my trigger word. I began crying hard as soon as she said the word dead. Then the thought popped up.

“Twilight, Rarity, Applejack, Fluttershy, Pinkie Pie?”

“Yes?” asked all 5 ponies as I asked them

“If somehow, Rainbow Dash comes back, and she is fine...I want to pack up my things, go through the Equestrian portal, and destroy it behind us as we enter.”

They all looked shocked

“Riley, darling? You do realize this means you will never come back to earth, right?” Asked Rarity. “Yeah, I know Rarity, but I will make any sacrifice for my Rainbow. She is my life right now. You know that from just moments ago when I tried to...you know..” I said to her, reassuring myself. “Look, I know ya’ love her, but if I were you, I would just keep things the way they are.” Applejack protested to me. “I know, AJ. What I want is for her to be safe, and happy. I can’t stand it when stuff like this happens to her, and they’re all MY fault. I don’t care if I never SEE earth again. I don’t care if I never see my family again. I just want for my Rainbow Dash to be happy.”

“Riley…” Twilight began. “I have read up on this before...if you are taken from this dimension, and taken to Equestria: Not only will you, nor Dash will be able to ever change from human to pony, or pony to human ever again…” She said to me as a warning. She then spoke quietly. “...but anything involving you in any way will be removed from the planet. Everything as close to photos, to your birth certificate will all be converted to ponyville, and you will be altered completely. You will still be you, but you will stay the same pony you can change to right now.”

I changed, and took a good look at myself. Am I willing to stay this same pony...forever. Am I ready to take a different lifestyle as a ponyville resident? Am I willing to let 15 years of existence...be removed from the earth, all just...gone? Yes! I will

“Yes…” I said confidently.

“Okay, then…” Said Twilight quietly…
This is going to be my decision then...I will leave my life behind...and start a new life in ponyville. The thing that troubles me though...will Dashie ever come back?