My last letters

My names Hamish and There’s nothing left for me in my life and yet I cant bring myself to do anything about it. My life started spiraling to an end when my father died and my mother was dieing of breast cancer but my Two sisters and I where still trying to be happy but that all ended after our mother died. we lost power to the house a week ago and the bank keeps sending us letters about if we don't pay the morgue then they will take the house and then will have to live on the streets. by day I try to get work and my sisters beg for money on the streets but no one will hire a fourteen year old for work.

I used to watch the show My little pony friendship is magic but with out power that cant happen. most of the main six I enjoyed but none of them captivated me quite as much as Luna. She reminded me so much of myself with the fact that everything went wrong for her but she tyred to make things right with a little help of course. One night my sisters went to look for food and as I was sitting in the candle lit house I started thinking about ending it all I had nothing to live for and no one really cared about because even my sisters hated me because I did not do much to help our mother because I was always in my room crying and trying to forget. I tyred to shake those thoughts out of my mind but they just stuck so I decided to go outside for some fresh air and to clear my thoughts.

I walked outside and and sat down on the high uncut grass and tyred to think only about my breath. 1......breath in......2 breath out......1 breath in...... 2breath out. As I breath my mind starts to linger back to the thoughts of suicide and I give up and decide to just lie on my back and think. I Begin to think about what good killing my self would do and who it would hurt most then my mind does something I did not expect I start to think about Luna. I Think about what she does and how she must do it and then I think about who recognises her for what she does and would take the time to tell her how thankful they are for the night sky that she would bring about ever night without fail.

And after all this has gone through my mind I started to talk as if I know she’s there.”Luna I know that you probably cant her this as your not real but...I just wanted to say thank you for what you do because even though the world spins around an Axis I like to think that you are the one that raises the moon and the stars and that you are the one that creates this art for us ever night without fail so even though not many people of pony’s may say this but thanks because without you there would be nothing to keep me going”.

I walk inside and sleep for the night hopping that the deathly thoughts don't follow me into my dreams.