Dear Diary,

So, I don’t know if I’ve ever told you this, but I absolutely dread the next day after a wild night. Somehow it’s always awkward, no matter how close to or into the pony I was with. But so far, today has gone far beyond my expectations.

So after we woke up, I noticed to my surprise and mild disgust that the evidence of last night’s wild ride was still leaking out of me. The two of us decided to go for a shower together (that may not have been the best idea… there was barely room for a breath between us once we were both inside). While we were in the shower, Big Mac confirmed my earlier suspicions; the reason he hadn’t mentioned my cutie mark before was that he simply hadn’t noticed. Before he could start asking painful questions though, I told him (well, begged really) not to. I was surprised when he relented and actually seemed angry on my behalf. I was even more surprised when I felt my heart swelling at that thought.

I couldn’t help myself; I needed to show how I felt in that moment. That kiss… it was indescribable. I’ve never felt anything so intense and yet so sensual and meaningful (okay, maybe I’ve felt more intense things, but not kisses). Time seemed to stop around me and that perfect moment just stretched into eternity… well, until the hot water running out reminded us where we were…

I think I may actually be falling for the big stallion. I’m not sure I’ve ever felt this way about anypony, like, ever… Which made it all the sadder when the realization hit me that I would have to head back to Cloudsdale today. But of course, there’s no way I could afford to stay and still have enough bits left over from this gig to cover this month’s rent…

So, after promising I’d visit Big Mac out at his farm before I left, I headed over to Vinyl’s, as she was supposed to be holding my equipment for me after the after-party last night (and I’ll admit, I was a little curious about how her night had gone, too). So, she told me about the after-party (it was pretty wild, I’ll have to go over it in more detail with you later), and I (reluctantly) dished about my night with Big Mac. She told me she had had a crush on him for some time (I suppose I shouldn’t be surprised) but that he had always shot down her advances. Pity; I would have liked to have seen what kind of shape his monstrous stallionhood would have left her in… Well, maybe not now, but…

So anyway, here’s where my day goes from good to amazing! I told Vinyl that I was going back to Cloudsdale today because I couldn’t afford to stay here or buy my way out of my lease on my apartment. And get this: she offered to let me stay at her place, rent free, while she’s on tour in Canterlot! Even better, I’m taking over her regular gig at that club from last night! This couldn’t be more perfect! Within a month or two, I should be able to afford to start looking for a place here. Isn’t that the most generous thing you’ve ever heard of? Especially after I stole the stallion she’s been crushing on for ages… Hmm… probably better I didn’t bring that up around her too much …

Well, I need to go tell Big Mac that I’ll be around Ponyville for the foreseeable future. I can’t wait to see the look on his face! Hmm… I wonder if I should be a little concerned about what Vinyl had said about Big Mac’s sister… Oh well, I’ll deal with that if it comes up. No country mare’s going to keep me from what could be the best thing that’s ever happened to me…!

~ Starshadow