Days go by without changes. I share my food with Lyn and we talk about the castle and Equestria in general. We tried to talk about my world but the subject turned too much unpleasant to her, so we dropped it. Ponies don’t avoid me anymore but they don’t seek me either, just like in my world. I have so many interesting conversations with Luna about our worlds; the similarities and differences between our nights is a constant topic. It has been 30 days since I came here.

I think that maybe it’s wrong that I don’t feel anything because I’m not in my world anymore. It’s just my place of origin; I was never linked to it. I don’t think I’m more linked to Equestria either. It’s just that I live here now. If when I lived there I was thinking in other worlds more than the one I’m in, I would get fired and life could have been tough. Here is the same thing.

I wake up. The food basket is at my right. I eat something and walk through the castle with no things to do. The voice of the princess of the night stops my monotonous walk.

“This time it is our turn to invite thee to a conversation.” It’s weird but I learned to enjoy her presence. I thought that the fact that she’s a god would impede it; I think it’s good I was wrong with that.

“What’s the matter, Luna?” I’m calling a god for her informal name. That really fascinates me. Maybe the ponies are used to live near gods, but as a human this is a unique experience.

“We want to talk about a serious subject. We have to ask thee something. And since we consider thee as a friend, thou will be able to ask us anything and we will answer thee with all our honesty.”

Friendship… I can’t feel that but I think I can understand it. In order to live in my world I created some kind of guidance definition: Bond of confidence justified (or not) between two or more people. Once established the friendship relation, these people grant privileges to each other that they can’t grant to other people who don’t posses this link.

If I change the word “people” for “intelligent beings” the definition still works in this world.

“Very well, Luna. What do you want to know about me?”

“We want thee to tell us about thy own. Not about the humans but the people like thee. Plus our sister mentioned us something about thy rules and we want to know them and their reasons.”

Hiding things has no sense. I mean, she could just make me tell her the answers but she has respect for privacy. Namely, I’m definitely inferior at her. I don’t know if I would do the same in her place. That just proves how far of my compression is the superiority and goodness of this equine god. Plus we’re friends. I suppose that our compression of friendship is different too, but my definition of friendship is different from the definition of the people in earth and that never stopped me to relate with others. I must trust her.

“Very well.” I’ll try to be brief but not skip any important detail. “They think that people like me are part of the one per cent of the total people in my world, but it’s impossible to know it exactly. This is because we hide from the others who are not like us, because they would exclude us; and we hide from those who are like us, because we know how harmful we can be.

“As you know, we can’t feel anything for others nor empathy. This doesn’t mean that I can’t feel happiness, sadness, loneliness, etc. It just means that I can’t feel that for others. If someone feels something for me, I just see it as a situation, as an object, as a nature phenomenon; not in the way you see it. In fact, we can’t comprehend the way you see your world, to us everything is circumstances, objects and phenomena.” She stares at me.

“Due to this fact, we don’t have moral nor remorse, and we don’t differentiate the good and evil in the same way. Every single person like me generates their own train of thought that creates their own definition of good and evil and their own codes and rules.

“Many people like me create their rules to beneficiate themselves. The only rule they truly follow is that one which benefits them. They’re selfish, inconsiderate and harmful. I can’t tell them that that’s wrong because I understand them.” Luna’s face expresses the duality, the doubt if trust in my person or heed my words.

“Nevertheless, I created my own rules in order to seek something better.” Her face changed. I hope that means that she took the first option. “I think that the rules that most of them follow leave a forgettable and pathetic legacy. I want to be remembered by people.” Should I say ponies? “As someone profitable to the world. I can be that one. Yes, I admit that the harmful things, to do them, to live them please me. I like to hurt!” The expression in her face indicates me that I better explain it. “But I must and I can overcome that. As well as I can’t feel love or friendship, I can’t feel hate or rancor.

“Every social relation has been studied by me in order to act as the best friend and neighbor, as the best person.” Should I say pony?

“Maybe I’ll never understand how they see the world, but I want them to remember me as someone who made them see the world as something better.

“That’s why my rules are simple.” My voice is louder. “Make happy as much of them as you can.” Louder. “Take care of their problems!” Louder. “Take care of them when they need you! Don’t worry about yourself!” LOUDER. “Your needs are harmful! If they ever be satisfied it will be by someone who shares your rules! If not…” I shout. “SHUT THE FUCK UP!”

The scene itself was theatrical; I didn’t do it with intentions to manipulate. Well, maybe I wanted to impress, is it that bad? Anyway, everything I said is the honest truth. And the way I said it represents the strong of those ideas to me.

“…” Silence is her answer.

“My turn.” My voice is calm again. “How does it feel to give up at the darkness of your being?”

Obviously my question refers to the moments she was Nightmare Moon. Maybe I shouldn’t have asked something that deep, that sort of things can bother those who don’t share my condition. But she told me I can ask her anything and I certainly am intrigued in how it’d feel to ignore my rules and just follow what my nature tells me.

Luna looks down and then stares at my eyes. “It feels good, but it is not worth.” She answers with a sad tone.

“I’m glad you tell me that.”

I admit that the answer makes me generate some crossed ideas. [It feels good.] Those words are too much tempting. I’ve never did something I can tell that feels good. As much as I tried to fit in my world’s society, I never reached the point where the slightest of my achievements was worth the effort I put in them. Therefore, I don’t know how it is to feel good. And I’m VERY interested in know how it feels.

Luna smiles. “Let’s go to our sister’s chamber. Lyn and we have voted for thy behalf. She said she would vote the same way if we coincide. Thou will be free.”

Great, she trusts me and I’m getting closer to my dark side. It is this kind of relationships that ruin my world. I can’t let my nature to take the control, not now, not in another world. Different challenges, different achievements. Fitting in a world that is perfect per se is a bigger achievement that fitting in a chaotic world as mine. Here I’ll can find satisfaction in my actions. Heh, I wish I could believe in those thoughts. Anyway, I’ve been here for a month. A month I spent trying to gain an opportunity to fit in Equestria; the world a month ago if someone told me it exists I would laugh at the face of who told me that. This is a life opportunity as a human, as a psychopath, as a brony. I won’t waste it for a stupid doubt.

“Is anything wrong?” Asks Luna.

“I’ll tell you my thoughts later.” I answer.

She could have read my mind, distrust me and send me to whatever the place would be my destiny if I don’t get my freedom. The least I can do to return her that confidence is to tell her, but I don’t have the courage to say it right now. I fear the consequences.

Plus, watching the 6 main characters of the show have helped me to control my nature in my world. What I learn from them in this one may have the same effect. I’ll tell Luna about this when I dominate my problem. Well, I call it a problem just to psych myself that it is a problem. I don’t really know if my nature is a problem or not.

If my thoughts and knowledge are correct, Celestia will send me to Ponyville. It’s the most logic. The Elements of Harmony, the only magic that it’s more powerful than the princesses is there. Besides, Spike can report her about my behavior more effectively than anything else.

I MUST find a way to control my thoughts, maybe there I can. I hope I can.

We walk into a castle’s chamber, Lyn’s there. Celestia speaks. “Luna, have you decided your vote?”

“We have decided that Reason deserves to be free. We consider that he is not a threat to Equestria.” I wish I had so much confidence, I don’t really know if she really trusts me that much.

The princess of the sun speaks again. “Lyn, you have had more contact with him than any other pony in the castle. Should he be free?”

“Yes, my princess.”

“What is your fundament?”

“I shared time with him. He wasn't the danger he says he is. In fact, he was very kind with me.” What an interesting pony, we barely talked about deep subjects and she trusts in me. Is everypony else in Equestria like that? If I wanted I could have convinced her about anything else. I don’t have anything against her, but I’m more close to Luna. Don’t blame me; I move by logic and logically a divine being is more interesting and influential than someone who doesn’t highlight from the average.

I watch her cutie mark, two white circles. I don’t know what they mean, maybe I’ll ask her someday.

I smile to her and she smiles at me.

“As I promised, since there are two ponies disposed to free you, I will be the third.” Proclaim Celestia.

“Thank you very much, princess.”

“You will be sent to Ponyville to live with the bearers of the Elements of Harmony. I know you know them, so it will not be necessary to explain anything about them.”

I smile at the sight that I was right, come on, predict a god is something I can be proud of. But maybe she only did me the favor of agree with me only to bother me. I think she can do that.

“May I ask you something, princess?” I ask and she looks at me. “I want you for any reason you suggest, order or recommend to any pony or intelligent being to have any kind of treat to me. I want to ask it to your sister too.” I watch Luna for a moment and look at Celestia again. “I pretend to fit in this society to learn about harmony. Having any advantage from their rulers that affect their way to treat me would damage the information I could obtain and my insertion would be forced and unnatural. I want to come there as a common outsider and gain my place on my own.”

“I insist that the Elements of Harmony should know you.” She really tries to watch me.

“I don’t have objections. I will introduce myself to them when I get there. Just put me in front of them but I don’t want them to act in a determined way by order or advice of yours or Luna’s… My apologies, Princess Luna’s”

“Very well, and since you are that interested in study harmony…” I look at her expectant. “I want you to send me your progress, and since you don’t want me to ask Spike to help you, I’ll let you to gain his help or find your way on your own.” Another way to watch me. It’s ok, I can’t blame her to try to protect her world.

In a couple of hours I took my clothes, I packed them in a bag and went to say goodbye to Lyn.

“Good bye, Lyn. It’s time for me to leave and try to comprehend your world. I promise I’ll come back to see you and the next time I’ll invite you to have lunch.”

She smiles and speaks with her shyness. “That would be nice. I’ll miss you. Send me a letter when you can, please.” She seems to have a big link to me considering the short time we spent together. I respect that.

“I will, but it won’t be so often. I get lost in my mind frequently; in the real world it’s easier to me to get lost.”

We laugh. “Take care, Reason.”

“You too, Lyn.”

I can’t ignore how quickly I got used to my new name. I walk to the garden and talk with Luna, she’s there to teleport me to Ponyville.

“Art thou ready? The bearers of the Elements are gathered in thy destiny. Our sister told them to know thee and thy name, nothing else.”

“I’m ready. I’m thankful that she did me that favor.”

“We will visit thee some nights. We hope thou do not mind.”

“Of course not, you’re my friend.” I don’t lie, but that was an order, not a question… You know what? Do you remember when I said she trusted me? Now I know that she really doesn’t. I don’t appreciate her less for that, prudence is something valuable.

I’m being teleported. Now I’m in front of the mane six. I know, call them that way in this world would be stupid. They stare at me as if I was some kind of weirdo. Well, I have to admit it. Here I’m a weirdo.

It’s time to introduce myself.

Author's Notes:

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And finally what all have been waiting for! The mane six!