Doctor Love, my God-Father, but in a sense, much like my uncle then anything else in this world. The former second in command of the Black Light rebels forces of Higher Wing, was somehow…sticking to the window. I knew for a fact, looking outside before entering, that there was nothing under that window that could hold him up! and his magical aura wasn’t even on ether…so how was he even sticking like…ugh…the thoughts running through my mind… his hooves tapped at the window for a few moments, before he opened it and rolled right in, I was surprised of what happened next. “What are you doing here?!” Crystal yelled out in what I think shock was.

“What are you doing here,” he asked blinking slightly as he looked about. “And what is with all this…junk?” he asked blinking before grinning.

“What are you doing here?!” she yelled out once more before pointing a hoof at him. “This is my room! And beside why couldn’t you just use the door like a normal pony?!” I muzzled slapped myself…he was not normal in any sense of the word.

“Free country, bitcccccccccch!” he rolled the last word as Crystal flinched back.

“Doc…” I groaned looking at him. “What…are you doing here?”

“Well my little half…”

“Three-forth,”

“Changeling,” he still went on as if nothing was said. “I was walking down the street, when my gay-dar went off, I looked and I found you here with her!”

“I…I’m not gay, she’s my mare-friend you idiotic fool!”

“Oh…good cover, but we all know you wanna join my shop as a sexy stallion-whore!”

“Shut up!” me and crystal both yelled at once as he only laughed before jumping out the window, turned, bowed, and fell down.

Me and Crystal turned to look at one another, I was about to say how sorry I was, on Doctor Love’s way of…being, until we heard a shout from the street. “This music is giving me a boner!” again…it was Doctor Love…why all the randomness…really?

“That…was…” Crystal spoke as she walked me to the door. “Was…”

“Don’t worry,” I told her. “I’ll be sure to talk to him about that…the way he was acting, I don’t even think he knows about what happened to my family…or the Crystal Empire…” I sighed softly. “I’m bringing him with me and Lance…he may be a pain, but he has great skills that can help us.”

“I know…but what was he was talking about…you being a stallion-whore?” I sighed, remembering when I came of age, Doctor Love pulling me to the side and asking me to…

“You really wanna know?” I asked her as she slowly nodded her head. “On my last birthday, he came to me…see…he does sell, er…sexually clothing for ponies, gryphons…you name it, he has it. Anyway…he also has a sex club going on, legal and everything, if you can believe that. Anyway…he wanted me to join his shop, seeing how he said and I quote,” I then turned into Doctor Love as she blinked at how I was being him. “Having a changeling as a staff can be fucking great; you can fuck, and be fucked by ponies who want ether a gryphon, diamond dog, or dragon loving!” I then reverted back, but this time as my black coat unicorn body. “So…yeah…”

“Just…how do you put up with that?”

“Dad always said…” I paused remembering about my father for a moment. “It just…how he forgets where he came from I guess…” she looked to me as I went on. “You know my dad and Doctor Love came from Higher Wing back with that civil war right?” when she nodded I went on. “Those two seen so much…I’m surprised dad is what he is, he may look un-scar, but he is. Maybe with Doctor Love…he became this alter of his former self…I don’t know, I rather not think about him as such. But I grew up with him around so this is my ‘normal’ with him.”

“So the stallion-whore part…” she asked with a small smile. “Isn’t because of that one time you dated a stallion back home?”

“It was for three months and nothing happened!” I laughed slightly. “But you know I’m bi Crystal, but you are the only one for me anyway.” She smiled before giving me a soft nuzzle under the chin, and a kiss.

Even though she still looked like crap, her mane still a mess and her eyes still red…she looked a bit better now…all things considered.

As I left…I kept looking back over my shoulder, she was still there, watching. I wanted to rush back and tell her, really I did…but I just couldn’t…I just…ugh! I stopped in the middle of the road as I looked down toward my hooves, mostly to the hoof where the hoof-blade would be if I didn’t take it off…my mind flashed; I saw the hoof-blade then, covered in blood, his blood… I jerked my head back, seeing my hoof back to normal as I groaned. My head shaking left and right. I wanted to forget that…I wanted to so badly! But I just couldn’t, I know dad said that I should never forget that moment…but…it was just too painful! “Shadow Knight…?” I blinked hearing my name and looked up, standing before me, was Princess Celestia herself! On ether side, stood a guard, at the ready, faces blank like all guards seem to have. “Come,” she spoke waving her hoof toward an outside café. “Let us drink tea and speak?”

Let me tell you something…sitting with one of the princesses that can move the sun (and the moon while Luna was imprisoned on it) while others watch you…are so awkward… I watched as she lifted her cup with her magic, and sipped the hot drink from her cup. I could hear the whispers, was I somehow her new little student to be trained under her? Or was I something more. I learned long ago to simply block it all out, I always joked, showing I had no more shame left in this life time anyway, so why should I really start caring now? “What is it you wish to speak of Celestia,” I asked, not trying to sound rude…but it sure came out as such. The princess, taking one more sip, released a soft sigh, as she slowly lowered her cup.

“Once more…I am greatly sorry, for the lost…and the trails you had to go through, at such a young age…”

“I am considered an adult you know,”

“Even so,” she answered once more looking toward me, as she once more placed her glass down. “It is a sadden time, when anypony has to see what you saw.”

“So is that it?” I asked. “All you wanted to tell me was this, once more saying sorry?”

“No…” she went on. “I also wish to…reconsider your choice on going after Chrysalis and Cocoon.”

I was about to take another sip, when I stopped, the rim of the cup, just grazing along my lips. I looked to her, my eyes, locked along her own. She stared right back at me, though I didn’t like it, no, loathed what she just said. Her eyes held that of wisdom, many years, of wisdom. “You must understand…that this is…”

“I’m still going,” I placed the cup down at once; the clacking of it along the plate was heard as she looked to me, her expression unchanged. “They took my family, harmed my father! And you want me to what?” I asked raising my arms out to the side. “Stay here, or go back home, like nothing happened?!”

“You can always look after Lighting…”

“He is fine there,” I forced through my clutched teeth then. “This talk is over!”

“And when do you plan on telling young Crystal about her father…?”

I was shocked that she even went that far, so shock it in fact sent me leaning back a bit. She no doubt saw the error of her choice of words, for she looked away. “For…give me, I…it was not my place…”

“You’re right…it’s NOT your place to even say that!” I whispered harshly so only myself, and she could hear. “Do you not think it eats away at me? To know I am the reason her father is no longer alive, that I stabbed him, and watched his blood seep out!?!” I took a deep heavy breath before going on. “And secondly, don’t you dare try and guilt trip me into staying, because I know for a fact, if you were a few hundred years younger, and your sister, your family was taken from you, you would do everything in your power, go through any sort of trail; to get her back. Wouldn’t you, Princess Celestia?” she said nothing after that as I spoke once more. “I agreed to stay these next few days, because Lance is right, we do need our rests, we do need supplies, but everyday we waste, they get further and further away!” it hen stood up, before placing some bits I ha don the table, as payment and tip for my tea. “I thank you the room that you provided, but…it would be best if we don’t speak at all princess, or I shall say something that will no doubt cause me to be exiled from Canterlot, now; good day,” and with that, I turned and left.

What right did she have to bring that up? She held no right to that; I know Crystal has a right to know…that I killed…ugh! Stomping down the road toward the castle, Doctor Love could wait, I needed to calm down, and no doubt sleeping would be the best way to do it. Walking toward the large main doors of the castle, the guards, standing at the ready like they always did so, I pushed passed. I noticed a few whispers, felt the smallest bit of fear around me. Word must’ve passed as to what I was, quickly I might add. But, I didn’t pay attention to them, I just quickly climbed some stairs, went to my room, closed the door. My back pressed along the door as I sighed. “Took you long enough,” I opened my eyes, not knowing that they were closed, as I saw Crystal sitting on the bed, smiling softly to me.

She looked…good, her mane, fixed and just the way it had always been. It put a small smile along my muzzle, to see her like this. Sure, under her eyes were still dark from no doubt lack of sleep, and her eyes, still held that bloodshot look…but she looked better. I felt my body shudder as I reverted back to my normal form, allowing her to see me in all my Changeling glory. “Crystal…what are you doing here…?” she seemed to scuff a bit as she looked away.

“Well, somepony’s God-father broke my window,” she pointed out as I smiled sheepish like. “And when I came looking for you, Princess Luna, said that I could spend the few days you’re here…in this bedroom if you wanted. Grandma already said yes, as long as I come over at times to eat and such.”

“I…would like that very much,” I answered walking over. I felt a boost of energy as I came closer to her. The love she held for me…the taste was just so divine. She patted the bed, as I hopped up, sitting next to her, as she nuzzled along my side, her coat, feeling rather good, along the hard shell of my body. I slowly dropped an arm about her shoulder, hugging her softly along my side.

“I love you, Shadow,” she softly whispered. My arm tightened about her a bit.

“I love you too, Crystal.” She turned to look at me, her eyes, wide, not of shock, but I knew of her look. She inched closer to me, her eyes slowly closing, and like a moth, I drew in close as well. My eyes closing before I soon, felt her lips along my own.

The kiss was short, and sweet, not very long, but long enough that if we were out in public. When we broke away, my eyes were still closed at least, but I felt her come again, this time it was deeper; our lips moving as if on their own, breathing into each other’s maws. I felt her tongue, lap at the lips of my muzzle. I pulled away, breathing deeply, as I felt something now, coming from her, love, and lust. “Crystal…I…”

“Shh…” she whispered placing a hoof on my lips. “Please…just…just for now…make me forget, please…?”

I looked into her eyes, seeing the need of what she was asking me, the want and need…for it to just be the two of us, here…; alone. I wanted to tell her…oh right now I wanted to…but…I just couldn’t tell her, I wanted to, on Luna’s name I did…but those eyes…I couldn’t give her more sorrow…I just couldn’t.

The night started off slow for us, kissing, and rubbing along one’s body, feeling her body pressed to my own, and her love, over coming my very being. I would shudder and moan at times as I felt her love enter me, and she would respond, with a small giggle and laugh, before going back to making out with me.

How long did we go on for…hours…days? I know, it seems impossible, but with her, by Celestia’s name it felt possible. At one point I found her under me, moaning out my name as I gave her slow, gentle rocks of my hips, feeling my stallion-hood push deep within her folds. She told me before-hoof that she was not in heat, and it would not matter. But I was still a bit wanting to wear a sheath, but…well, she can be rather convincing.

Another point of the night, I found her on top now, my hooves rubbing along her flanks, as I would thrust up, and at times, she would roughly push my shoulders down; and gave me such a deep kiss it sent my head spinning. I came into her many times, and she, over my thrusting pole.

We stopped to catch out breath, me, spooning behind her as we stopped, from yet another round. Both, out of breath as I nuzzled into her neck softly, giving her small kisses as she sighed and rolled to look at me; rubbing her hoof slowly along my cheek. “I love you, Shadow Knight…”

“I love you too…Crystal Glimmer,” and once more, our lips found each other as we started off, for what was our last romp of the night.

The sun slowly started to seep in through the small cracks the blinds made into the rather large room, which would be mine for the next couple of days. Crystal, sighed in her sleep, her mane, a mess from what happened last night, a small smile on her muzzle as she nuzzled up along my side. One arm, held her loosely as she so slept. Though last night I did fall asleep a bit after she did…I’ve been up for hours now, thinking. I couldn’t hold it off anymore…she had the right to know what happened to her father. I knew she would hate me, but I rather know, rather her know; then lie to her for years to come. I’ve known first hoof, when dad withheld the information of the murderer of her Granny. The only thing different…was that it was ME who did the killing blow. I know…I know, I say this a lot to myself, but I have to, I cant forget, even if I wanted to…I just cant!

Crystal released a soft sigh as she rolled over in her sleep, leaving me free of her hug. This gave me the time I needed to get out of bed, and softly onto the ground. What to say…I would have to choose my words ever so carefully…oh I know!

I went toward the table, pulling out a ink quill and a scroll. Mom taught me long ago, that writing down what you want to say, it makes it easier when you have to say it outloud, because you know what you are going to say to said pony. So, flatting out the scroll, the quill, dunking into the ink a few times, looking at the golden brown scroll…before slowly writing.

‘Dear Crystal…

Where do I even start with this, I am hoping you don’t read this part, but somehow, this one part here, the start before what needs to be said, I just need to write it down. The last days had been rough…an understatement that’s for sure, with the Changeling attack, and…everything, just everything.

I just want you to know Crystal…I love you, with ever fiber of my being, I love you. you are my world, and when we ‘broke’ up…I was crushed, when I didn’t know the reason why, then when you told me it was your friends, and then in fact it was because of…Quake, I was both pleased to know, and enraged at knowing. But know…I am glad we are together…and this is why it hurts so much to write this…

I…was the one who killed your father…’

I started to write more after that part, telling her, or explaining, what had happen, it just went on and on…and soon I had three scroll filled…back to back! Writing all of that, it was…it felt like I was drained, like everything was just…lifted. I knew I had to re-say all of this again to her. My lifted spirits became dampened once more as I thought of this. “Hrm…Shadow?” I flinched and quickly, as if hiding a play-colt magazine from my mother, I stuff the scrolls into a oversized book. Looking back, I watched as Crystal slowly sat up in bed, the blankets, slowly draping down off her as she yawned out loudly. She looked to me, a smile crossing over her face. “Hrm…morning,”

“And a good morning to you,” I answered with a small smile right back to her. “Sleep well?”

“I don’t think, ether of us got any sleep whatsoever last night,” she gave a soft giggle with a blush as I looked away before she asked. “Here a question though…why don’t you ever…you know, shift?”

“Hrm?”

“Well you know, I do love YOU,” she pointed out before she blushed. “But uh…you know when you…”

“Found that book of ‘Sexual Fantasies’?” I gave her a wide grin as she meep and covered her body with the blankets.

“Stop it!” she whined. “That’s embarrassing!” I gave her a half hearty laugh before walking over as she peaked from the blankets.

‘Listen,” I spoke softly to her. “I don’t care what you want me to be, be it a Gryphon, a dragon…well not full size!” I saw her look of horror as she then smiled. “Anything,” I lifted her chin and looked her in her eyes. “As long as you love ME, as long as you love Shadow Knight, this,” I placed her hoof along my cheek. “I’ll be whatever you want,”

“So…if I said I wanted a wild Gryphon tonight?”

“Best soundproof the room then,”

We both laughed at our sex joke, her eyes closed as she tilted her head to the side before her gut rumbled with need. “Why not you take a shower, and I’ll gather some food, alright?” she rubbed her mane with her hoof, before nodding in agreement with my idea. I smiled and came over, giving her a soft nuzzle as she kissed my cheek. I’ll tell her…just…not yet.

After seeing her leave to the washroom, I made my way out of the bedroom, toward where the food would be at. The guards, along the way, still gave me looks of that of weary, as if they were ready to pounce on me at any moment. I couldn’t really blame them.

I found my way into the kitchen, guards and servants gather their morning meal, until I remembered; what did Crystal want to eat. Excusing myself, I raced back up the stairs toward the room, before pushing it open. “Hey Crystal,” I answered. “What to you…” but I stopped, my eyes grew wide, as she was looking at the book…not, not at it…in it, the scrolls that were there! Her eyes, both wide, I couldn’t tell what, but then, she looked to me, her eyes narrowing, as the scroll in her hold being released, as it floated in the air, sliding along the floor, close to where I was. As the words, jumped out, the very words I just wrote that morning. ‘I….was the one, who killed your father…’

Author's Notes:

See? Told you all. Not gunna be 8 months like last time lol