Dear diary:

I've been trying to find how Twilight sees me. I started calling her "mom" and tried to be a little closer, but every time she gets surprised, I got panic and leave or correct myself. She doesn't really say anything about it, but she hasn't say she doesn't like it either. Sometimes I look for her and tried to talk, but she had been hanging out with Pinkie Pie a lot lately, so I haven't gotten the chance.

Today, the investigation team gathered at the "special headquarters" (I still haven't come with a better name, too many things going at the same time to think about it) and talked about what was going on. Applebloom shared what happened with her sister with the rest of the group and there were a mix between surprised and tear in the eyes. She thank me, although I did not do anything, and said that today things felt pretty good actually. By everypony in her house knowing the truth their attitudes changed on the good side and everybody was happy. She said that they felt like if a big weight was off their shoulders, and that they were free to finally do whatever they actually wanted to do. She saw Applejack and BigMac kiss... it's okay but it still feel gross, the idea of them not being related still hasn't sink in yet.

Sweetie Belle had the same idea of confronting her sister. She thought about it before, but she wanted more information before doing it so. The positivism of Applebloom's story gave her enough strength to tell her. Even though she was scared about what the truth might be and she knew this might change everything, she wanted to know. Suddenly I noticed how much have they grown, they got fire on their eyes and they didn't look like fillies anymore. And, as the other member did, she asked for my support. I take any chance there is to see Rarity but I wasn't going to meddle there.

I wouldn't... if it wasn't for Applebloom asking me to help Sweetie Belle. Those eyes again, I don't know what they got that every time she open them wide open I melt away.

While both of them decided to look for their origins and face their relatives, Scootaloo said she wasn't going to do the same.
Since the only pony close to her is Cheerilee, and that she wasn't her family, Scoo didn't feel like risking too much for what might be answered with "I don't know". We tried to convince her to ask the teacher about her, and we might made it worse. She covered her ears and screamed, then she ran through the door without direction. We were about to go after her, but Applebloom stopped us. She told us Scootaloo might need some time. we didn't want to leave her all alone, but Applebloom was right. The team separated there and went back home. Not before Sweetie Belle telling me that tomorrow we will talk with Rarity... this is going to be another tough talk, I'm afraid.

When I arrived I found Twilight and Pinkie having dinner, kind of weird because mostly Twilight and I eat together. I came near to see if there was a plate for me, sadly they told me they forgot and there were no food left for me (at least I had a few gems hidden down my bed). I hide my tear in the eye and went straight to bed. She didn't even remember me?... and Pinkie is just a friend. Twilight doesn't treat me as a son, neither as none of her friends. Perhaps she doesn't even see me as a family.

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Dear diary:

Remember what I said about the talk might going to be tough? I was right. Very early in the morning I left my house. After last night I didn't want to be there, I felt too sad and just wanted to be somewhere else. I went to the park to clear my head. I sat on a bench and closed my eyes while the wind blew, I like to do that because I feel like the wind may come and take everything away with it. Pinkie Pie was crossing by and saw me. She apologize for the last night and asked me if I there were anything wrong. Of course there was!... Although I would never say that, at least not now. I said no, she knew I was lying but thankfully asked no further questions. She left a cupcake and went to her way, I didn't feel for a cupcake but I ate anyway... and it did made me a little happier.

I walked around Ponyville and tried to distract myself for a while, the town was lively with everypony busy. I love passing by Octavia and Dj-Pon3 house, they are always arguing for the smallest thing and I laugh at them. The mailmare had a lot of ponies around her complaining about their letters being all mixed up, I think she does it on purpose so she gets the attention. Sweetie Belle then found me and told me it was time. I didn't feel for going with her now, but I promised to.

We went to the Carousel Boutique. Today was dresses planning day, so the shop was closed and nopony would interrupt us. Sweetie Belle gently called her sister to the main room, while I sat on a chair to stay as far from the conversation as I could. Rarity came down wearing her working glasses and a measuring tape around her neck. She came down the stairs and greeted us, she was surprised but didn't expect what her sister was about to tell her... and neither did we. On the contrary of her friend, Sweetie Belle took the birth certificate and gave it to her Rarity, she was curious but she almost jumped in surprised once she recognized the paper. Sweetie was pretty calm, although even tried to walk back, but she waited until Rarity got herself together again. Once the elder sister regain herself Sweetie Belle proceeded with her interrogation... although it was one question "What happened to our parents?" I couldn't understand that "Weren't their parents those ponies who travel a lot? She should know where are they by know" I was so confused. Sweetie stayed on her ground without moving an inch and staring into Rarity's eyes. All of the sudden Rarity started to cry and sob. She took off her glasses and tape and told us her story:

When Rarity was a teen, Sweetie Belle came into her life. She always loved her sister, and sometimes she took care of her for whole days. Their parents had a retail clothing store in Canterlot, it wasn't a fashion line as Rarity's but more like a casual style as she said. They usually traveled to Canterlot every week to check how the busyness were going, they didn't like the city lifestyle and decided to raised their daughters in Ponyville. One day, the whole family were going on a trip to the beach for vacations, but there were problems back in Canterlot. They wanted to go to Canterlot and then to the beach, but because Sweetie Belle was still a baby they thought it would be tiresome for the little one to travel so much, so they left Rarity in charge of the child back at home and promised they'll come back. On the way to the city, they went trough the mountains but there was a storm on the top. Some lightning hit the tip of the mountains making some boulders to fall, the train conductor made the machine go as fast as it could trying to evade the boulders, but one hit the side of the train making it to fell into the abyss and taking their parents lives. Two ponies from the royal guard went to Rarity's house and gave the bad news, as a young pony Rarity felt like her life went down into the darkness, the only thing left for her was her sister. The news went worse as the Department of Filly Protection came and wanted to take Sweetie Belle into an Orphanage, as a baby she had good chances of family wanting to adopted her. Rarity stepped in and decided she would take custody of her, she didn't have the majority of age yet, but she wouldn't let anypony take her away. Celestia interceded in the negotiation and accepted Rarity's request to take care of her sister under one condition, an inspector pony would come to her house every week to check if everything were in a proper environment for a filly to be raised. Ever since, Rarity has been taking care of her little sister. The ponies Sweetie knew as "parents" were actually actors Rarity hired to pretend they went into trips to around the world, in order for the little one didn't feel the pain of not having parents. It's because of that Rarity is too focused on her work, she wanted her sister to have everything she needed and everything she wanted. Even though it sometimes meant that she would not see her sister for days.

It took me all by surprised. I couldn't gasp the sadness they might be going through, but Sweetie didn't shade a tear. She told her that even though they acted as parents she never felt close or even relate to them. She knew there were something off but never could put her hoof exactly what it was. She understood and accepted everything her sister just told her. Rarity stumbled as she kept crying more and more, she started to say "I'm sorry". Sweetie Belle hugged her sister and told her "It's okay". She might share the pain of her sister? ... I don't know, she was never had a sad face. She smiled in relief as she comforted her sister. It was weird, if I didn't knew them I wouldn't tell who the big sister was. Once again I sneaked out of the place without them noticing me, they might need time as well. It was already night so I just went to home.

When I arrived Twilight was nowhere to be seen, I went to the kitchen and found a note "Spike: I'm going to have a sleepover at Pinkie's. There's a jewel cake all for you on the fridge. Twilight" At least she left me a note and cake. I took the cake and ate it all and went to bed.

It's the first time I sleep alone... or more like I feel alone while sleeping. I might write a letter to Princess Celestia, but too late at night for that. Maybe tomorrow.