A/N: This chapter is for your amusement of seeing how I feel when I get stressed. I get very irrational and I sometimes say stupid things. Swearing will be present. Everything in this chapter will be relevant in later chapters. Sorry if you find it a little too mushy, but then again I really like Dash. Enjoy!

We eventually made it to the edge of the farm; I was still in shock of what I had to answer to AJ. If you could see me right now you would see the worst pokerface EVER! I am like freaking out right now, and I told her that she could tell Dashie! Shut up Kyle, stop thinking like this, I need to see if I can work. I can handle this…fuck.

“Ok Kyle, let’s see how ya fare bucking apples” Applejack said to me as we neared the apple orchard. I saw that she had gotten over the question a lot quicker than I did….lucky for her. *sheds man tear*

I nodded to her and looked at a tree in front of me. Damn it was big! Ok, I used to take martial arts, funny Coal from a fic I read did the same thing! Only he was a lot more badass for taking a harder class than me. I need to stop being a pessimist, FOCUS! I walk up to the tree and point at the center of it. I got down into a horse stance, I know! Ironic right! I sure thought so, back to me making a fool out of myself.

I took a deep breath and brought my back foot forward behind the front one. I have to say it, I just have to. “LEEERRRROOYYY JEEENNNKKIINNSS!” I yelled as I brought my foot high into the air and struck the tree with the force of a 155lb teenager. I looked up and saw the tree shake violently, every apple but 3 fell out and landed into the buckets that were scattered around the stump. I had a moment of win right there in my head, I did it! Yeah! Why do I have that one song playing in my head? You know the one where it says ‘you’re the best…around. Nothing is ever gonna keep ya down.’ I am so alone, so very alone in my twisted funny mind of mine. “How was that AJ?” I said as I stood up and cracked my back.

“That was mighty impressive. Ah think ya’ll do fine bucking apples on the farm” Applejack said to me smiling. Then she asked another question “Where did ya learn how ta do that?”

“I smiled at her. I can handle this question, soooo much less awkward than the last one. “When I was back home they had classes where you would learn self-defense; something you need to protect yourself if you get into fights or a situation that calls for it. I was a big baby and took the classes but I never had the will to use them. I hated being angry, I never wanted to defend myself because of how I would feel afterwards. I took the classes, but never used the techniques afterwards. What you just saw was a basic kick to force something away from you, such as a threat, but you could also use it to move heavy objects"

“Ah see. Well it sure is ah mighty strong kick ya got. Ya’ll can start working now iff’n ya want to” Applejack said to me in a ‘your hired’ tone. Hell yeah! First Job, my mommy would be so proud! I am not a bum anymore!

“Thanks Applejack, I will start now, I want to have some alone time to gather my thoughts, and what better way to do that than in an apple orchard!” I said as I smiled back at her. I want to delve into the thoughts about what I had told AJ, I will feel better if I do.

“Ok sugarcube, ah’m going ta go talk with Big Mac, he is going ta want ta know we got us a new worker. I will tell ya now; ya’ll can go home when the sun begins ta set, be here every morning at sunrise though. Ya’ll get yer pay at the end of the week. See ya around Kyle” Applejack said to me before she turned to leave.

I waved goodbye to her and then turned to all of the trees in front of me. Oh god dammit. I hope I don’t lose a leg from all of the kicking I am going to be doing now. ARGH!

I ran and jumped at another tree, trying another style of kick to see how it would fare. I extended my foot mid jump and hit the tree with my foot. That time only 4 apples were left. I landed on the ground and looked at the basketfuls of apples. I was getting a real sour feeling deep in the pit of my stomach.

Kyle, you need to stop worrying about this. Nothing bad has happened yet, and even if it did, I would still not stop caring for any of them, even if one hates me for what they will eventually hear about me. I need to start getting my mind out of depressing territory, BACK TO WORK!

Applejack was walking towards the outskirts of the apple orchard. She couldn’t stop thinking about what Kyle had just said. “Ah can’t lie ta Dash, ah just can’t. He even said ah could talk ta her about it!” She said before she shook her head. “If he says ah can talk ta her about it than ah’m gonna, Ah can’t have this feelin hangin over mah head” She said before she decided to go pay Dash a visit. It was going to be hard to tell her, but it had to be done.

Applejack picked up the pace as she raced towards the field where Rainbow Dash’s cloud home was located. Dash always hanged around there, either napping on a cloud or practicing for the Wonderbolts. When Applejack made it she looked up and saw a rainbow colored tail swishing back and forth on a cloud above her.

“Dash…Dash ah need ta talk to ya. Can ya come down here fer a minute?” AJ yelled up to the Rainbow colored tail.
Rainbow Dash poked her head over the side of the cloud. She smiled a little when she saw the familiar face, then she swooped off the cloud and landed next to Applejack on the ground. “Sure AJ, What’s up?”

Applejack kicked the ground with her hoof and looked up at Dash. “Ya have ta promise me ya won’t freak out or anything. Can ya promise me that?” Applejack gave Rainbow Dash a serious look.

“Yeah, I promise. Does it have something to do with Kyle?” Rainbow Dash asked. She was starting to get a little concerned as to what could make the strong cowpony sound like this.

“Yes, now this is gonna come onto ya a little weird, but don’t bring yerself ta any conclusions” Applejack said to the cyan Pegasus. Rainbow Dash nodded to the orange cowpony in agreement. “Well, here goes.” She took a deep breath “When ah was walking with Kyle ta the farm, ah think ah asked him ah very personal question that ah don’t think he was comfortable answerin, but he gave me the answer anyways!”

“What did you ask him that would make you feel like this?” Rainbow Dash asked, getting more and more concerned and worried for her and Kyle both.

“Ah asked him why he was so happy here. He said it was because he never wants ta go back even though his parents love em ta death, because he loves us all so much. We make him happier than he ever was back home” She stopped herself; the next one was going to hurt the most to say.

“What’s wrong AJ, I never seen you get so upset before, what is bothering you so much about him?” Dash asked. She was getting on the verge of thinking something bad happened to him.

“He has feelins fer one of us, deeper feelins. He loves one of us, ah mean ‘loves’ one of us. He told me who it was and he said ah could tell them that he does” Applejack said to Rainbow.

Rainbow Dash blushed a little, whoever it was is going to get an earful. “He has that deep of feelings for one of us?”
Here it goes “It’s you RD, you are the one that he loves” She felt the weight slowly being lifted off of her chest. “He really likes being around ya, he always smiles. He cares about ya so much Dash.”

Rainbow’s face turned a darker shade of red than an apple. “He…he really said that? He really said that he cares about me that much?”

“He does” Applejack said to the cyan pony. She felt a mixture of emotions right now. One of them being happy that she told the truth and didn’t have to keep it hidden if she didn’t want to. The other feeling was one of regret, she asked a very personal question to Kyle and now that RD knows about it, she may have different feelings for him now. It wasn’t a pleasant situation to be in.

“Where is he right now? Is he on the farm?” Rainbow Dash asked. Her face now only a light shade of pink.

“He is. Are ya going ta talk ta him about it?” AJ asked her friend. She was now worried about her.

“I think I am, I just need to go clear my head. It is just so much to take in” And with that she was off, leaving Applejack in the field looking at her as she flew off.

Rainbow Dash was flying through the air. She wanted to go talk to him about it, but she was afraid of what he would say to her if she did. “He loves me that much to not be mad at someone else telling me about it. Do I like him back though? Ugh, this is all so confusing!” She said aloud to herself as she flew.

She turned in the air and flew towards Sweet Apple Acres. She was going to see him, but she wasn’t going to let him see her…not yet. “Now where is he?” She said as she scanned the apple orchard. She found him a little ways in off the path and he was kicking trees.

Dash wanted to get close, but not too close as to give herself away that she was watching him without him knowing. She knew it was wrong, but she needed to see if he really did feel that way about her.

She landed into a tree behind him as silently as she could. Apparently he didn’t hear her because he just kept kicking the trees around him. Lucky for her, he already cleared this one of apples. She strained her ears to see if he was saying anything. She knew that he liked to talk to himself.

“I can’t believe what I had told her! I MUST BE THE BIGGEST FUCKING IDIOT OUT THERE! I mean yeah I really do love Dashie that way; I love her more than anything else! The others are like the sisters that I never had, but when I am around Dash…ARGH!!! WHY IS THIS SO FUCKING HARD TO UNDERSTAND!!!” Kyle said before punching a tree with his hand. He immediately pulled it away and started hopping around holding it “ARGH NOTE TO SELF: NEVER PUNCH A TREE WHEN YOU FEEL LIKE THIS!”

Dash was getting close to tears; all of what AJ said was true. She was so close to losing it, but she never liked to show weakness. She did however manage to get a chuckle at seeing Kyle hop around like a fool though. She listened in for more.

“I love her; I would do anything for her. I would do anything for any of them; they are all like family to me now. I just feel so good when I am around her though; she makes me feel like I can do anything when I am around her. *sigh*There should really be no point in me ranting, all I am doing is making myself feel bad….I AM SUCH A FUCKING BABY! I always was always will be, I really do feel forever alone right now.” Kyle sits down at the base of the tree that he had just punched and folded his arms over his head. “I just need to forget that this whole ordeal ever happened. One day RD will know about my feelings for her…and when that day comes I will suck in my sayian pride and try to work this out.”

Dash couldn’t stand it anymore. She flew through the air and smacked straight into Kyle sitting on the ground. He was so taken off guard by this that he hit the back of his head on the tree. Then to make matters worse, one of the apples he missed hit him on the head from the shock that his head did to the tree.

“Dashie…I…How are…What are you doing here?” Kyle managed to say. He looked down and saw that Rainbow was crying and nuzzling deep into his chest. “What’s wrong?” He could feel what it was about though.

“A-AJ told me everything! She told me how you loved me and how you loved being here so much. I didn’t believe her when you told her that you had those feelings for me, so I came here and I heard you getting mad at yourself…” Rainbow Dash said in between sobs.

I blew it. I FUCKING BLEW IT! She knows now and she is so upset she can’t even think straight! Why did I have to go and say that, I can’t keep my FUCKING mouth shut that’s why! I looked down at her; she looked so tiny when she was like this. I picked her up and set her in my lap and hugged her. She can friend zone me all she wants, but I am still going to be there to comfort her. Why do I always become funny when I am scared? I hate it!

She returned my hug and dug her face deeper into my shirt. I had started to cry to at that point, I hate myself for making her feel this way! I am not even shedding man tears anymore! “Do you really feel that way about me Kyle? Do you really love me that much?” She managed to say through my shirt.

“I do. I really love you that much. You make me happy, the others do too, but when I am with you, everything that I worry about melts away. I never should have said anything to Applejack, it is just killing me to see you like this.” Get a crash cart in here people; His heart is about to explode from serious D’AWWWW mixed with sadness.

Rainbow Dash pulled away a little bit, she had a small sincere smile on her face. “I wanted to hear it. I don’t know if I truly love you the same way yet, but you are the coolest friend anypony could ask for. I was never thought of before the way you think of me now. I find it really nice. I want to be close to you…it’s just that I’m scared.”

Get the defibrillator. He is going to have a HHHHNNGGG attack very soon. I grabbed her and pulled her back into my embrace. “I want to be closer too, and I will wait till the day I die if I have to so I can see that happen.” I started to rub her back and I could feel the stress of the moment finally start to lift.

I looked around me and saw just how much I had accomplished so far. I had managed to clear 17 trees of their apples. If they only had energy drinks here. I would turn into Buck Norris if they did. So much energy to buck trees, I would have 30 cleared in like a half hour, but my stupid wants and needs saide.

We sat there on the ground in the shade of the apple tree for a good 3 and a half hours, and then we parted ways. She said goodbye and gave me a quick peck on the cheek before she left. Hothothothothot! YAY TOBUSCUS REFERENCE! I looked at her as she left and couldn’t help but think…EVERYTHING WENT BETTER THAN EXPECTED!

A/N: Sorry if it was a little too mushy or serious. I hope that you think this will add drama to the story later on, and I know what you’re thinking…will there be polygamy. NO! there will not be anything like that in this story, not because I don’t like the idea, it’s just I don’t want it. I will be taking a break from writing this until I have finished My Second Life. It is bugging me and taking up all my free time, better finish it now. See you soon!

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