My Love Is Your Salvation (Cliffhanger Ending)
Chapter 2: 2. Confession
Previous Chapter Next ChapterHello everypony, I give you a second chapter of the newest story.
Not much to say except I hope it pleases you, and that I will be giving you all a 2000 word chapter of Seasons of Darkness that revolves around Derrrick and Nightmare Moon with a little bonding time.
Enjoy this chapter, but remember that it is only going to get better, especially when Cadance comes in and wants him back.
But let's not forget the mares that tried to kill him, but who said they did it out of spite...maybe they did it because of jealousy...
Anyway, enjoy.
Sleep; something I have not experienced so peacefully since I ran away from Canterlot. I didn't know whether this was a dream or it was reality as my eyes peeked into the light that forced me from my slumber.
I felt refreshed with this peaceful sleep, my body being relaxed but heavy with the weight of Twilight on my chest. My mind was unclear of what was in front of me, purple eyes upon mine in a mixture of being awake and lustful, not to mention glazed with certainty.
It felt nice to wake up to a friendly face once in awhile, but this friendly face a purple beauty that was strangely entangling me into feelings that I have not felt in a very long time. She was soft and warm like the light of the sun that licks my skin on a daily basis, her mane was so smooth and silky that I found myself caressing it with my fingers while she was caressing mine.
We were cuddling now, holding one another close like the lifeline of our souls needing that one feeling that not many get to feel in the purest of joy. We felt love in the embrace of arms and hooves locked together as something wet trickled my cheek, trailing down until the mare did something I did not expect.
She licked me, but slowly with passion.
It was then I realized that this was no ordinary wakeup call for me, instead it was of me giving into my emotions that I have been suppressing since I met this alicorn. This was all so strange to me, to hold her like a lover and trade our feelings not in the touch of a deep hug, but with the touch of our lips that were being salivated by our tongues wrestling so aggressively.
I wanted this to continue, I wanted to feel my emotions burst through my body as she moaned in my mouth with a feral aggression that was pushing me into the pillow while her hood found itself going to another spot that has never been touched before.
My most private of area, the one spot no mare has had the honor of stripping its innocence.
Arching my back from the one stroke she gave, I snapped out of my passion and pushed her away with a frightening shock in my chest that was making it hard to breathe. I was uncomfortable with the rate of my breathing, so I calmed myself down as my mind processed that she tried to make love with me while I was still asleep.
Anger came into play, but so did happiness as my hand rested on my scarred chest and her eyes locked onto me in the form of hurt and rejection.
"I'm sorry, I thought you might like it" she said with haste, then made a small scoot to me as the equilibrium in my head leveled itself out.
Like it, I didn't like it, I loved it and I wanted to feel it more, I wanted to feel Twilight's passion on me some more because no mare has ever been so frontal with me about her feelings. My one relationship with the alicorn that betrayed me was nothing but a slow process that ended in us sleeping together for one night before her aunts tried to end my life.
An entire year of me devoting myself to her, and yet it was all for nothing in the end.
What was I to do in reaction of this moment, what was I supposed to say to the alicorn that was on verge of tears as I pondered every pro and con that would come with this. Twilight and I just met yesterday, and yet I felt something familiar with her that was pure and truthful, something that proved to be of true feelings for one another.
I felt happy with her, I felt happy when her lips were on mine, I felt happy when she...cuddled with me.
There were so many things in risk of a relationship with me, most of the reasons leading back to the fact of me having enemies that want my head on a mantle above their fireplace. However the good reasons were that I can protect her with ease because of my power, I can see any attack coming with my Sharingan and stop it with my Rinnegan, I can go super human and stand in front of whatever comes our way.
Most importantly I can summon my keyblades to cut down whoever wishes to harm me or her.
I found myself in deep ponder of this, so deep that I was activating my Sharingan and Rinnegan as the alicorn made her move by sitting in my lap and pressing her head into my neck. Twilight was obviously so afraid of rejection that she pushed away the idea that I needed space at the moment, but strangely I was not needing any space from this mare that was trying to make me hers.
Instead I was letting her snuggle my chest and speak what was on her mind.
"I'm sorry Arkham, I just really like you, so I thought about you this morning"
"What about me?" I asked in a monotone, acting like I did not care when in fact I was giving a big care about it.
Nobody has made me feel this was in a long time, not even the mares I slept with before, so why was one small encounter making me feel completely different with the purple alicorn?
It's not desperation, it's not loneliness, it's not that I need to have sex because I am still a virgin, so what is it that makes me feel human when around her?
"I thought about you leaving, and just that thought made me scared because I like you more than a friend. I know that sounds weird because I'm a pony and you're a...whatever...but for some reason I just can't seem to shake whatever I feel for you; it's almost like...I love you"
That had to have been the biggest impact in my life, especially for the fact that this was a big rush of confession weighing down on me. In all my years as an immortal I have never felt so nervous with a mare that I just met.
This was probably wrong on so many levels, but did it really matter since I have avoided such things in life, did it really matter if this was wrong or right when I am man that has deprived himself of the what it means to be a person...to be human?
Words could not help fathom what was going on between us so quickly, but the again words were not needed to explain the emotions rushing through my body as I did the strangest response.
Well it was the strangest to me because I never did it before. I lifted my arms and wrapped them around her in a loving embrace, then I acted on instinct to peck her head and rest my chin on it.
Twilight gasped at my response, I know because I heard it and felt her breath leave and touch my skin when she grasped the realization of me holding onto her. This was so odd to me and so very wrong, but the fact that she was making me act like a human-being made it all the better to allow my emotions to come out and be free from the restraints I've had on them for so many years.
"James"
"Huh?" she replied questioningly, unsure of what I said while my hand stroked the back of her neck.
Of course I made things clear with her.
"My name is James, and I'm a human...okay?"
"O-okay, well I'm Twilight Sparkle and I'm an alicorn" she chuckled, obviously trying to lighten the mood between us as her little friend stirred in his little basket bed.
He was still asleep, but now we were laughing as the sun rose slowly and the light began to shine through the window. Of course I wanted to sit up and make my way to the restroom to wash up, but the alicorn remained in my lap and used her magic to pull out a quill and paper for whatever reason.
That reason being clear when she started asking questions, most referring to my eyes that were still activated. Only problem though was that these eyes were not as secretive as I thought they for the last on thousand years.
"I've seen those eyes in a book before, but that would mean you're the Ghost of Justice, The Eyes of Death, The-"
"Sage of Imagination" I added for her, clarifying that for she going to refer my last title being The Sage of the Mind.
Twilight was confused now, but she was not alone for her little friend finally woke up and crawled onto the bed in awe of my Sharingan and Rinnegan. The two acquaintances were having a little moment mesmerizing over me, but there really isn't anything to mesmerize about when you're just a ghost of the past.
"Whoa, those are awesome. I want eyes like that" Spike admitted, which made me chuckle since these eyes were more special than what he thinks.
"Sorry buddy, but my Sharingan and Rinnegan is not for sale" I laughed musically, making him groan in annoyance that he was not getting his way as the purple alicorn wrote whatever on the parchment.
"Which one is the Sharingan and Rinnegan, and are they some form of magic?" she asked, resulting in me pointing at them as I answered willingly.
Well it is magic, but I can't tell her that since it would result in drama of me being able to create what I desire. If everyone knew that I could make some dreams a reality, then there would be ponies lining up to get superpowers.
If I had a kid, then maybe I would give them the same powers as their old man, but I don't plan on such a thing at all.
"This one is the Rinnegan, and no it's not magic, it's a bloodline ability that allows me to push and pull anything. Now this one is the Sharingan, and it is a bloodline ability that allows me to see my enemy's attack before they use it, but this is only the master state"
"So you can see what happens before it happens; that's amazing" Twilight complimented, which caused a smile to form while I remained hugging on her.
"Thanks, but in truth I can use another form called the Mangekyo Sharingan , which is another form of eye power that allows me to summon fire that is called Amaterasu, or use a mind breaking ability called the Tsukuyomi"
"What else?" Spike asked excitedly, obviously jittery in knowing the powers I have.
I pondered that question for a moment before remembering the last ability I acquired when I made it real. I enjoyed gaining such a power, but had to earn it by defeating the darkness that was created as a test to me. My god, I remember fighting the full power of that thing and honestly I wish I created the Jinchuuriki abilities to fight against such a monster.
I did not though because the reason of a dark version of me having all nine Bijuu powers being in him, thus creating an ultimate fighter that would surely kill me.
Anyway...
"Well there is one more, but it's different. Should I become desperate I summon my energy to create an aura-like golem of me that has a samurai sword and crossbow. This ability is called Susano"
And so I went on about my abilities I gained over the years, but Twilight and Spike never seemed to have caught on about my powers being a millennia of development. After a good hour of just talking, I clarified to the mare that what she did was incredible but wrong because I'm not the kind of guy she needs to be around, or have a relationship with.
I told her that she was opening feelings that have been locked away, and that I had my heart broken a long time ago. She did not take it well when I went to her balcony to ponder about what she did this morning, kissing and licking on me as I slept, forcing herself onto me a little when we met yesterday.
I know alicorns have a different way of relationships with males, but the way she was acting made it like she was trying to claim me as her own. That was not going to happen though for I am a man that has wandered this world in search of a reason to live, a reason to keep pushing forward through my immortality, a reason...to be human.
My time was lonely now, quiet and peaceful with nothing but the guilt in my heart bothering me. Well I was also having heartache over telling Twilight that she cannot be around a man like me, one that does not know how to have a relationship.
To make matters worse I was hearing her cry in the kitchen, wailing into whatever as I mentally kicked myself of the matter.
This was definitely the worst thing that I did to a mare, breaking her heart with rejection after I took her hospitality for granted. If god was merciful, then he would strike me down right now and make it so that I was nothing but a pile of ash.
"How do I get myself into these messes; I just rejected a gorgeous mare that kissed me. I am such an idiot" I scolded myself, then flicked my own nose for an emphasis of pain as I heard Spike come up to do whatever.
Probably to insult me for being so dumb.
"You know, you're really dumb for rejecting Twilight"
Yup, insult me.
"Why is that?" I asked, trying to act tough over the matter when in fact I was not tough at all.
I was really a big softie right now because of the alicorn that is crying her eyes out right now. In a situation like this I was blind by my own arrogance and selfish desire to be alone, I was such an idiot to such feelings that I made her cry and possibly believe that no male will ever want her.
Little did I know that Spike was about to give me a big wake up call with his words as he sat next to me on the balcony floor; talk about big things coming in small packages.
"Twilight likes you without a doubt, but she has trouble liking other males because of what her last coltfriend did to her. So to see her like you makes me happy, but it's obvious you don't like her"
Wow, talk about a kick in my balls with that one.
"I do like her, but I am afraid to be with another mare after the last time, but what happen to Twilight?" I replied, then asked for the darkest truth about the purple princess that went silent just now.
She most likely got herself calm, but I knew it was best to check up on her and do what I never expected to do.
Give her a chance with me.
Spike went quiet after I asked him, but it was not the kind of quiet that you expect from a brother that is protective of his sister. He told they have been together as family since he was an egg, but the silence I got from him was full of rage and hate over whoever hurt the gorgeous mare.
To my horror I found out, and to be honest I felt like a piece of shit for rejecting her just now.
"Her Ex-Coltfriend, Flash Sentry...raped her and got away with it. Now you know why she has a hard time trusting stallions, but as far as I can see...it is you she trusts and is falling for" the little dragon finished, bringing much of my realization to a lightened conclusion of self-hatred for rejecting the mare.
It all made sense now; why she cried when I freed her, why she was stuttering when talking to me. This all made sense and I was too stupid to not see that she was being brave by talking to me, Twilight was fighting her fear of males by confessing that she has feelings for me.
I am such a dumbass, but this is only worse because she took a big step against her fears by kissing me.
"I'm...I'm sorry Spike, I'm...I'm gonna go do what's right" I said with a heavy heart, hoping she would give me a chance now in having a relationship with her.
I stood up with a clear mind and determined soul over this matter, but now I had a new goal in my life that would never end because alicorns are immortals. My new goal is to make the mare, that I have feelings for already, happy and safe.
I'm retired from my job as a bringer of justice, but I have enough time and energy to devote the mare that I have feelings for. The only thing I can hope now is that she will forgive me and give that chance to me again.
"Go get her big guy" he chuckled, almost cheering as I stood up and dove for the ground.
Of course the little dragon yelled in fear of my stunt, but's that where Dragonball Z powers come in with giving me the ability to gracefully fall without having to manipulate my energy into my feet like a ninja normal does.
Once I landed, I dusted myself off for no reason and reentered Twilight's home to see that she was in the middle of the floor shedding tears still. Her sobs were low, but I could hear them and that only made me feel worse as I closed the door.
What I am about to do is probably wrong, but for some reason I was attracted to her. Infatuation would be the wrong word because it went deeper than that, especially when she kissed me so passionately.
Remembering the truth that I just heard from the little dragon reminded me why I was doing this. If she accepted me, then I would not just be having a relationship because I want to, I would also be devoting myself to protecting her and slowly opening myself up to the mare that has been more truthful to me than anyone has ever been.
"Twilight" I said calmly, catching the mare's attention to where she whipped her head around and revealed just how bad my answer to her feelings made her cry.
I doubt she could see clearly at the moment for her eyes were puffy and red from how much emotional release she had. Now my heart stone heart sank into guilt as she wiped the tears away and tried to stop herself from hiccupping.
My mind was still in some denial that someone would try to hurt her, but darkness can come in the most unexpected of places when you least expect it.
"James, I'm sorry for crying in front of-"
"No Twilight, I am sorry...for being so inconsiderate and selfish" I interrupted her.
With the silence between us now, I sat on my butt and scratched the back of neck in embarrassment, also nervousness that she would reject me now. Nevertheless I continued with my confession now as she listened with an open heart that was stunned of my words.
"Twilight, I'm sorry for rejecting you, I did it out of fear of you breaking my heart. To be honest I have avoided mares for a long time because the mare that hurt me left a big hole in my chest that probably can't be filled" I admitted, which is not normal since I tend to isolate myself from the world around me.
Twilight turned away, sad and aching on the inside as I continued my little speech. However the last part of it was the ticket that she wanted, it was the key that she desired in getting what she wanted with me.
A relationship.
"But maybe someone can fill that hole in my heart, maybe it is you. I'm not entirely sure, but I take back what I said about there being no way we could date"
That got her attention, like a spider drawn to the fly in it's web. Now I just had to say the right words to make her happy, or it would come back and bite me in the ass. She was wide eyed and getting excited, also putting her hoof on my hand as I stared into her bloodshot eyes.
"Are you saying you want to...try?" she asked, receiving a nod from me while I pulled her close.
She was happy now, jittery with excitement with the immediate closing of our gap being that she sat in my lap. Her back was against my chest, but my chin was on hers as the last part of my devotion came out.
"Yes I want to try, but I want to do more than just a relationship"
"Like what?" she asked, only to have the right words come out in the best way.
"Spike told me about your ex-coltfriend, and what he did to you" I whispered, forcing a gasp out of the mare as I turned her around and activated my eye abilities to emphasize my guarding of her life.
Once she stared into them, I returned her kiss from this morning with my own kiss as her hooves rested in my hands. She was bold for kissing me, but I was bolder with teasing the mare by nibbling her lips for a moment.
Next came the last part as we finished and stared into one another's eyes; my Sharingan and Rinnegan staring into her purple orbs as the warmth of our bodies heated up in combination.
"I swear with these eyes that I will protect you from monsters like him, I will make you happy and feel loved like he should have done in the first place. However I cannot unless you accept me as your coltfriend...do you accept?"
There was no mystery to Twilight's response, but it was still fun watching her react with a wide smile and joyous laughter as she nuzzled my neck.
"Yes, I accept" she replied.
I don't know what this feeling was in my chest, but for some reason it felt good when it swelled up and burst from me when the alicorn gave me another kiss. Our lips locked again as Spike walked out the door, acting like he was going to hurl from the moment we were having in the middle of the library.
It did not last though, not when the mare broke away from my lips and gripped my hand with her wing. Next thing I know we are running out the door to wherever it is she wishes to be at.
"Slow down sweetheart, where are you taking me?" I asked, still trying to gain my balance as she dragged me across the town.
"To see my friend, Rarity, because you need clothes" she replied.
"Clothes...oh boy" I sighed, knowing that this was going to be a long day with another mare seeing all of my scars.
"What did I get myself into?"
CHAPTER END.