Greetings. The Queen Baby here. I would first like to apologize for the stupid title. I was really hyped up when posting the chapter, but had yet to think of the name. This chapter starts with Fluttershy right after she left Rainbow. This chapter is a little darker for it deals with suicidal thoughts and a little self inflicted injuries. Again a little dark but nothing too brutal. Anyway Rainbow Dash hopes to redeem herself. Hope you enjoy the next chapter. Feel free to tell me what I need to work on. I also do not own my little pony.

Pain, fear, betrayal. All negative emotions were building up in Fluttershy as she ran home. As she ran away from Rainbow Dash.

"Oh my. H-How could this… How could this happen?" sobbed Fluttershy. She ran as fast as her little pegasus legs could carry her, flapping her yellow feathered wings weakly, though not gaining any altitude from it.

"I-it hurts, so, SO MUCH!" Shy yelled in a surprisingly loud voice for her, about the regular speaking voice of any other pony.

Fluttershy didn't even realize she made it home in no time at all. She burst into her cottage, startling a sleeping Angel Bunny. At first his face held anger, but was soon replaced with concern.

Fluttershy didn't even look at any of her animal friends, not even Angel. She ran right past them and threw herself on her cozy brown loveseat that sat in the middle of her living room.

She covered her face with her frazzled pink mane and then doubled up on her protective wall with her yellow hooves. She was sobbing and shaking uncontrollably.

Her tiny white rabbit was very scared. He had never seen her upset before. She was already crying more tears then when a rumor spread that she wore tail extensions. He made tiny quiet hops to his caretaker and adoptive mother.

He made his way up the sofa and got onto his "momma's" back. He started rubbing the back of her neck and petting her mane.

Despite his attempts to comfort her she continued on with her wails and tears. "Oh Angel, its horrible." cried Fluttershy. "The, the things she said to me, I can't believe it."

Fluttershy looked up at her beloved pet, and he saw her tear stained face, her eyes were all red. Those poor blue eyes that were normally filled with love and happiness for the little bunny and all her other animal friends were right now filled with such pain and sadness.

"What's worst Angel is that I think that she was telling the truth." Fluttershy whimpered. "I mean it makes a lot of sense." Fluttershy's cries subsided at that moment.

Her bunny hoped that the fact that her crying stopped meant that she felt better. But now he saw darkness in her eyes, something of lack of hope and looming realizations. He tried his best to cuddle with her, something his male ego wouldn't normally allow but this was an emergency.

Fluttershy gently nudged him away. "She, she is right. I am so weak. I am a coward. I am pathetic. I can't do anything right. I am a failure." She spoke softly to herself. Angel still heard pain and sadness in her voice, but was thrown off by the utter hopelessness of it. This is definitely the worst he has ever seen her. EVER.

He had to try and help her. Angel tried again to hug her and rub his bunny nose on her face to tickle her with whiskers, his usual ace up his sleeve that never failed. "No Angel, please. Momma needs to be alone. She needs to think." She gently picked him up in her mouth and set him on the floor.

"Please make sure the animals are ok for me Angel Bunny. Can you close the door please? It's cold in here". He went and did just that. "Not as cold as my heart feels right now." She thought. She was in complete darkness in her home, except for the stray rays of light that came into the window from Luna's moon.

"I am a terrible excuse of a pegasus. I guess all those fillies and colts were right." Shy thought. She tried to think of her accomplishments, even of the tornado of water she helped carry to Cloudsdale. But all she heard was Rainbow Dash's cruel cold voice telling her otherwise.

"Huh, Rainbow. I guess she really can't stand me." Shy whined as she felt a few tear drops fall. "She probably hates me. To think I ever thought I could be good enough for her. She deserves some pony who isn't such a sissy. At least a pegasus who can fly. Who won't hold her back."

"Who can I ever hope to have for a special some pony? Who would ever want me? A good for nothing, worthless coward." Shy silently cried so she wouldn't wake her animal friends. "Why am I even here? What do I have to hope for now." She whimpered.

Fluttershy had some dark serious thoughts then. She looked towards her kitchen. And thought about getting her big kitchen knife. "I can go outside, near the Everfree Forest, so the animals wont have to see it or hear it" She looked toward the front door seeing Angel finishing up and standing guard.

"He looks so sad and scared." She thought. "No, ending my life is not the answer. I still have my friends, well, maybe not Dash." The thought of not having her closest and oldest friend as a friend anymore stung her heart and brought a fresh new wave of tears to her eyes.

Fluttershy kept her eyes shut so as not to let them fall. "I still have a duty to my animal friends. Some pony needs to care for them. And I know they will never judge me, or hate me because I can't fly well." She tried her best to give a small smile, but just didn't feel it.

"No, I can't keep messing up. Ending it all would only be a coward's way out. If I want Rainbow Dash to be my friend again, if I want to respect myself again, I need to fix this. But how?" Fluttershy looked to her wings.

She never thought they were anything special. She knew they were supposed to be the special trademark of her tribe. They were to be a pegasus' pride and joy. A special gift given to them. But she was never a strong flyer. She was always happier on the ground.

In fact, she always felt like she could live without flying. It had its good sides. She really enjoyed when Dash would take it slow and take a casual flight under the stars and moon. It made cleaning those hard to reach places easier. But besides that, not much else was special.

It made things faster, but she didn't like speed. She didn't like showing off. She didn't like the tricks. She didn't like being a pegasus. She would be lying if she told some pony that she had never thought of life as a regular earth pony. But hearing another say that she would be better off as an earth pony really made her think. "Maybe that's how I can fix things. If I didn't have wings, there would be no way I could fly. Every pony including Dash would get off my back about it. I wouldn't be a failure. Flying just wouldn't apply to me anymore. Flying wouldn't be a problem if I could just get rid of these stupid damn wings!"

Fluttershy's eyes flashed with anger. She felt a burning in her chest. It hurt, but it was better then the pain of earlier. It was a plan. Some part of her was screaming no. That this was wrong. It was just a lesser version of suicide, still a coward's way. But right now Fluttershy was hurt, confused, angry and desperate.

She wasn't sure if this was the best way, but it would fix things, at least in her emotional mind. She looked at her wings once more. She had felt ashamed of them many times before for her weak flying, but for the first time she hated them. "I, I hate you!" She said loud enough to feel better but to not wake up her animal friends. Angel however noticed as his ears flinched and he looked up towards her. But he kept his distance like his mother said.

"It's now or never. Time to do something about being such a no pony." She thought. She quickly and unsteadily opened her wings to their full glory. She felt a small pain, and wasn't sure, for it was dark, but thought she saw a small bruise where Rainbow Dash had pulled her.

"I'm sorry wings. Nothing personal, but it just isn't working out. I wish I could give you away to a pony who wants to fly. B-but this is the way it has to be. This may hurt, but I don't want to live my life a failure anymore." Fluttershy was scared. Wings are very sensitive to both pleasure and pain. They could feel the smallest change in the wind, something that would help a pegasus fly. Fluttershy felt herself shake in anticipation and fear of what was next.

She lowered her left wing to head level. She took a moment to prepare herself for the pain to come. "If it means a chance of getting Rainbow Dash back again, any amount of pain is worth it." She bit down into the ends of her furthest flight feathers, and ripped them out as quick as she could. Some blood started spurting for a second as it slowed.

"Oh sweet Celestia! Buck it hurts. Ooo." She grunted quietly as she chomped down on her pulled feathers so as to make as little noise as possible. Silent tears ran down her face once more.

But she had a weird feeling. She felt good. She felt powerful. Like she was finally in control for once. This pain may have hurt like hell, but it was still better then the pain Rainbow put her through with her words. Her wings begged her to stop. They fluttered helplessly of their own free will. She thought about stopping. But she heard a voice. A cruel and angry voice.

"What kind of pegasus are you. You can barely fly." Fluttershy forced her wings back to head level and took even more feathers into her mouth. Strangely the pain from the feathers lessened the pain from her friend's unkind words. She pulled these feathers out even faster then the first time. It hurt more, she wasn't paying attention and kind of went upward and therefore didn't go with the grain so to speak. It was messier as she ripped a bit of skin in her hast, causing more blood to spill on the brown sofa and onto the hardwood floors of the cottage. The blood dripped from her wings onto the sides, staining the pretty cream colored fur.

Yes it hurt more this time, but it was easier as well. Dash's words pushed her forward. "You can barely fly. You might as well have been born an earth pony, at least then you wouldn't be such a failure." The words echoed in her mind.

"I'm not a failure anymore. I'm going to be an earth pony if it kills me!" She yanked out more, just as rough as the last time. As she looked on at her bloody wings through her tear filled red eyes she saw her work. Most of the feathers were gone Just a few stragglers here and there. What once was a beautiful set of yellow colored wings covered in soft feathers now looked like a monster from those scary movies she was always covering her eyes from. Fluttershy look on at her work with pride and pain. "One wing down, one to go." She gulped from the pain.

By the time Angel noticed what his mother was doing, she had already finished one wing. And was going to start on the other. He made a look of shock and disbelief before he sprinted as fast as his little bunny legs could carry him. He got on the top of her head in one massive leap. He grabbed her by the ears and pulled as hard as he could.

"Ow. Ow Angel! Angel stop!" Fluttershy spoke. She tried her best to remain calm and grabbed him in her hooves. Angel had tears streaming down his face, ears flopped down, and wiggling his little nose as he sniffled.

"Oh Angel dear, please don't cry my little baby. I-I have to do this. If momma can make it so she can't use her wings, sh-she won't have to fly anymore. Things will be easier for momma. I just need to get it done right this one time." Fluttershy shamefully begged her faithful companion.

Angel just cried all the more, shaking his head no frantically. He wiggled out of her grip and jumped to her face. He hugged her on her neck, nuzzling her muzzle. He cried all the more, even though no sound came out. His little bunny body trembled against her.

Fluttershy felt terrible for putting her little Angel Bunny through this. But she had to be strong. She had to do this. Fluttershy made a small grunt of annoyance before picking up her small furry friend in her hooves and looked him straight in the eyes.

"Now Angel Bunny, I don't want to use the stare on you. So please don't make me. Momma is going to be just fine. It's something I want to do. Something I have to do. I need to do this so I can finally be happy. It doesn't even hurt momma that much. Now I need you to be a big strong brave bunny for me and just wait by the door. Make sure no one comes in. It will be over soon and momma will be ok. Trust me Angel Bunny, momma will be fine." Fluttershy lied to her pet and herself. She flashed him a weak smile, kissed his little head and set him down. She gave his head an affectionate rub and shoved him forward.

Angel was really upset. He was still letting the tears fall. A big frown on his face he walked away defeated. He wanted desperately to stop her. He even seriously thought about grabbing a rock and knocking her out. But put out the thought from his head. She would only then be hurt by his paws, and she would probably be back at it when she awoke.

He thought that his crying and begging her no would stop her. But she was serious about her wings. Oh how he wished he could talk to her, to comfort her and prove to her that she makes a great pegasus and was a great flyer. She wouldn't look at his charades or listen to him though.

But he needed to do something. If only one of her precious friends were around, they would help her. But he had no idea how to get to any of their homes. He could only sit and hope that a hero would come for his momma.

Fluttershy started on her other wing. She grabbed more feathers in her mouth, fully aware of the pain to come from her wings to travel through her spine and throb in her head. "Why do you even have these things, you barely use them. And when you do, it's practically nothing, you fall, you fail." Rainbow's mean voice rang in her ears.

"Why do I have these stupid things. I should have been an earth pony. I am a failure. But not for long. Come on Fluttershy, be a big filly and get to work." She thought. She quickly pulled them out. Fluttershy felt dizzy from the pain, blissfully unaware of the blood she was losing from her wings.

She did it again and again, until there were barely any feathers left. Each time letting out small cries of pain as the tears fell.

Angel couldn't bear to look. But his long rabbit ears could make out the plucking sounds. The rips of her skin on her wings, with each pull. Each time he heard her painful cry it felt like he was being stabbed in the heart. He held his tiny paws to his eyes and sobbed. He only prayed a hero would come.

Fluttershy looked at her wings as she spread then open. The feel of the air moving against them as she forced them open hurt so bad. "Yes, there is no way I could ever fly again. Hopefully they will never grow back. I wish I had the courage to cut them off, but I would probably bleed out." She smiled to herself at the thought. It was anything but pretty, but now all could see the pain she held in her heart, hopefully forever keeping any pony from asking her to fly again.

Fluttershy's eyes stung from all the crying. She felt weak and dizzy, but proud. She winched as she tucked her wings to a close as her head throbbed on more. Her vision went black as she fell lifelessly on the sofa face first. She was overcome by pain and sleep.

Angel didn't know how long his caretaker was sleeping on the sofa for. It could have been an hour or two. At least she stopped hurting herself and stopped crying while she was out. When he saw her sleep he went up to check on her.

She was still breathing, maybe a little fast, but that was expected. He grabbed a towel from the bathroom to wrap nicely over her wings. He was no doctor, but hoped that would stop any bleeding. He was by her side, stroking her limp hoof, and just watching her.

He finally wasted all the tears in his little white frame, and quietly took best care of her as he could. He soon heard a knock on the door.

The little bunny sprang up back to life. Could it be his prayers were answered and some pony was here to save his momma from herself. He sprinted towards the door and made a big jump. He grabbed the knob and turned it, opening the door slightly enough for him to peer through.

He saw a sight for sore rabbit eyes. He saw the rainbow pony who was very close to his momma. She obviously didn't see him at first, but she looked just about as bad as he felt. He made himself known, and pondered if she was in a proper state to help them. But with nothing better he decided he would need all the help he could get.

"Whoa, were you crying to? Can I see Fluttershy, please?" He shook his head yes. Hoping that she would get the seriousness of the nature of his gestures. He opened the door and let her in. She walked in and he shut the door behind her, as they walked in silence and darkness.

Hey, hope you guys don't mind Fluttershy's inner turmoil and demons. I feel kind of bad making her do this. But soon there will be a bright side. I liked the new episode keep calm and flutter on, although I think Discord was swayed to easily. I hope to have the events of that episode much later in the story. Next chapter will have some bitter sweet moments, and even some fluff towards the end. Hope you all liked. Feel free to tell me what you think.